do you remember?

it was the 26th of March, 2005. the girl woke up early that morning for a group meeting at Vivien's house. she got lost, as was customary whenever she finds herself in the residential area of Bukit timah, but finally made it there soon enough. for the next few hours, they practised OM spontaneous questions. it wasnt all that productive but fun nonetheless. they then had lunch where viv's mommy bought the girl mee soto cos the food at home wasnt halal. O.o

it was raining when she left and she made her way to Buona vista mrt. He was late, which she soon learned was customary too. he had been working for his dad all morning and sneaked her a little something. she chose the No drugs ink pen over the bunch of highlighters..

they took the train to Somerset and walked the short distance to Cineleisure to check movie timings. upon discovering that there were no shows with suitable timings, they crossed over to Heeren, trudging through the crowd of girls swooning over a bunch of males performing on stage for a Cleo competition, to where her friend was queueing for a free makeover.

the girl then dragged the boy, half-willingly up the escalator to take neoprints. it was his first and it was theirs too. she then waved goodbye to her friend who was being caked on with makeup and they made their way out into the streets. they stopped by Old chang kee where they bought squidheads..

as they walked along Orchard road, they got free helium balloons. they walked some more and soon came across an adult shop. a bunch of lecherous-looking men were sitting across the shop, leering at people as they walked past. the mischevious two still held the satay sticks from their earlier consumption and thought that it would be fun to pop the balloons with their sticks and give the men a scare. and indeed it was. they walked on..

passing by Tangs, the two accepted a free cup of mineral water each from a random woman. after walking through the crowd for abit further, the boy suddenly claimed that the girl had blocked his way when he was about to get another cup of water from another woman.. -.-

they finally made it to Lido where they proceeded to stand in a long queue for tickets to The Eye 10. they listened to songs on his mp3 player while they waited, both not saying much cos there wasn't much to be said. it was strangely nice..

he offered her his jacket in the theater, which is huge and comfy and smelled of him. during one of the scenes, the girl got freaked when something scary appeared on the movie screen and promptly hid under the jacket. at the same time, he too ducked. (he was scared though he claims that it was only so that she wouldnt be embarrassed) they both stared at each other in the dark for a brief moment.

when the show ended, they walked over to the busstop to head on home. they found out that they were waiting for the same bus. the bus that came was quite full but soon after, two seats were available. she sat and asked him if he'd like to sit too. he sat, but as far away from her as he could, with his legs hanging off the seat into the aisle, and took out his geog homework to do. amused, she simply let him be. at Phoenix, he got off to catch another bus and they parted ways.
it was a sunday morning and she usually slept in. it was after her morning prayers when they started sms-ing back and forth. it was then that he popped the question. she was in shock. she deliberated her answer for abit and waited for her best friend to reply her urgent message. exhausted from all the excitement, she fell back into a deep slumber.

approximately 2hours later, where in that time, the boy had been tortured quite enough, she awoke and her answer to his question was yes.. hillary duff no longer rocked his world.. =)

Happy belated 34th, nw! 2 more months, yes? haha!

on a side note, training today was horrible. yet another deproved 2k timing.. how demoralizing..

aight i think i've wasted enough time, time to call it a night yup!

i love you//

circumstances

trg today was good.. hit another pb and jiaolian was happy.. im still blacklisted cos of my terrible attendance, but still, he has faith in me so im good.. not too sure what's gonna happen to the rest of teammates and it's really ugh.. we gotta do this together manz. we row as one.

right so econs test was.. do-able. i wonder why hmmm

oh yes napfa trials on monday. sbj was good but ipulls was horrid! super unfair la wth.. and 2.4 was pretty bad.. 13.02.. it's been awhile since i ran slower than 12 plus so.. =/ sucks.

other than tt, sch's been pretty fun.. quite mugger ah this week.. goodgood..

okay that's all i guess.

olivejuice//

time of your life

you know, when time seems to pass way too fast for you to think about your actions or anything else. when your very actions seem to have been decided by someone else. my life is spinning out of my control and im too bloody tired to take charge. dammit as if i even had the power to do anything about it. okay more like willpower ah but nvm.

i train my ass off. i know what i want, i want the gold. but it's consuming my life so much, i dont seem to have time to do anything else. i hardly have time for my friends. or they dont have the time for me, come to that.

my studies? god my grades are just dying and i know im the one to be bloody blamed but wth am i doing now? blogging! -shakes head.

studies aside, what really bothers me is my messed up non-academic life. (not that my academics arent messed up la but ohwells)

sometimes you just think tt you've really messed up with the ppl around you. you've missed out on so much. then you think, it's okay you dont need them anyway. so you turn to that one person but you know you cant truly depend on just one person cos Man just isnt made like that. and after all, isnt it always 'bros before hos'?, to quote tt dude from Transformers, though perhaps it's not quite as suitable in this context. right anw, point is, friends are important, but what if you're just not important to them anymore? what if you feel left behind cos You've chosen to be left behind. and now perhaps it's just too late.

and as always, awesome timing to think about my emotional baggage what with looming As and all. time of my life? totally manz.

have i mentioned that i hate my writing skills? quite obviously i have reason to, no? haha wth. bloody school makes me feel so stupid. and everyone else in it too.

idealist

when your expectations of yourself and others reach the point of impracticality, you just have to learn not to care.

works well enough.

happy

yst was a very very nice day.. training in the morning was awesome. was kinda dreading trg since i hadnt gone for 3 trgs this week and was pretty much off form. but hoho i finally hit another pb since dec and it really was a superduper great feeling esp considering tt i capped before i could finish 2k timing last week. so YAY!

yup then walked back to sch with jr and bern, since the back gate is no longer climb-able due to the new shelter and fence.. -.- so yeah then i crashed Mcs orientation for a short while cos they had leftover food, then went for shower. then walked to faraway busstop to take bus to adam rd to meet nw. quality time ftw! =)

going out with mom no woo.. so much for mugging manz.

olivejuice//

placebo effect

i think my throat is getting better.. =/

very screwed up week thanks to my swollen throat.. fever on sunday and subsequent random attacks of headaches tt i may have taken advantage of and have since then done little studying. didnt go for the past three trgs this week too. took a blue slip yst and parents fetched me after civics on their way to the market. class comm reelections yst.. quite some changes but some of us stayed on.. fungs and i are still co-ct reps ooh.. so exciting. i should be doing ihist now..

browsed thru the startutor site tt lakshmi suggested and i might be getting an econs and/or physics tutor.. see how ah, gotta ask dad first..

water trg tmr, i should be able to go. i feel awfully guilty manz but im sick. yar.. =/

right ihist ftw.

wise words

i just read bim's blog and i just had to quote something that muddy said sometime back,

"In school we show them what a canoeist means. At macritchie we show them what a rafflesian means." =)

love you guys!

m18 ftw!

still aching from thursday's trg wtg.. so anw trg yst was quite fun.. concentrated more on my strokes cos it's allegedly the cause of my backaches. i think it's true ah so mehs. anws, yangyang came back to help out and watch our strokes and all tt.. very very helpful yay! oh and 2k timing was just horrible! i thought was making pretty good time despite the bloody wind and just as i passed the 500m mark back, and was tilting to fix my direction, Splosh! i was in the water. wth i capped! wtg! damn damn damn damn annoying! and i got saved by a cj k1 and rowed back with more than half my boat in the water. boos. but 200m bursts was good.. =)

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ROS FARINA BTE R. FAUZI! sorry i couldnt join you guys for dinner but whee surprise present tmr, yes? =D

okay done updating my player. no longer hafta forward songs hoho! meh i need a new player.. =/

aights back to maths!

dieded

gym trg today was gg. well gym was alright actually but the sets before gym was hell. my quads are so freaking dead gar.

sch was okay. productive enough i guess.. lessons are kicking into full gear and gosh gotta gotta gotta mug. one of my resolutions for 2008 was to mug at least 2hrs a day on top of damn tiring trg but it hasnt really worked out yet.. like yst, i mugged for about 10mins before i knocked out. -.- wtg! must must mug!

i got round to using the money jar system and i've finally managed to get enough change for every pouch. yay to financial planning!

so anw, the holiday to malaysia was fun enough.. 2 days in Malacca and 2 days in Cameron highlands.. i didnt know tt we were gonna stay in malacca until we got there.. =/ yay to surprises! and also, we intended only to stay in cameron highlands for a day but dad realized tt a day there after a 1.5 hrs drive wasnt worth it so yeah tt's why i got back in spore only at 9.30pm the night before sch started.. mehs.

anws, Happy 2008 everyone! cameron highlands super tak happening sia. no countdown no nothing.. ended up watching xmen marathon to sleep.. =/

new year resolutions!
1. lose weight/eat less (we took height&weight for pe today. i shrunk 1cm and my weight is.. yar)
2. mug at least 2hrs a day (as mentioned)
3. dont sleep in tutorials/lectures (i almost fell asleep while rowing yst tho. strange!)
4. put in my all for every training plus dont kill my back
5. do 6 pullups by feb! (btw muddy says tt if i can do a pullup, i should be able to do lat pull-downs of double my weight.. nyeh)
6. do not be distracted by um, outside commitments..

i cant rmb the rest! i wrote somewhere in my diary i think.. owells.

time to mug~!

you know what..

heart-stopping action ftw.. haha!

so i had brunch with nw at anatolia today, his treat. and i realized tt random occassional treats actually make you enjoy them more.. plus i'd hafta admit tt it was a wise move tt i pay for my own stuffs, esp considering my daily food intake and all.. lols.

yup then met sis at 3plus to catch National treasure at ps at 4.05.. exciting show yay! so basically today was a very nice day uhuh..

i'll be away from tmr and will be back by the 31st.. vacation to malaysia, cameron highlands etc.. hope dad decides to stop by kl so'd i can take advantage of the year-end sale there yup..

kay guess tt's all..

who'd have guessed we'd make it till now? happy 33rd, love.. =)

confuzzled

wonderful. i wrote a 2paragraph long entry bout my outing wth the dudes, ie FariNa and melz, but blogger, despite it's auto saving shitz, still lost it all. wth really.

so now i will write a short bit bout the outing so may the dudes/liyana forgive me.

rights so we went out on sat where i finally claimed my swensens treat from na. na was, for the first time, the earliest, but apparently farin came even earlier but went to pray at al-falah first.. O.o anws, i already had mom-made spaghetti at home so i only had a choco malt ice cream and shared fries with melz. happy food yay! yar then we wanted to watch Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium (which really is a lovely show) and since i watched it already, they offered to split the cost of my ticket. awww.. but the queue was long so we decided to.. *drumrolls* pool instead! at le meridien.. shady wahahs! melz was dressed rather skankily so she borrowed my windbreaker to make up for the lack of cloth.. signboard jacket ftw lol! pooled for an hour then na had to leave and we walked to ps where we spent a short while finding melz' dad a xmas prezze but spent a long long long time at a bimb accessories shop where melz spent a fortune.. yar.. =/

the past few days havent been tt eventful tho.. on sunday morning, i went to the park with dad and sisters and i ran approx 4k with dad. then we went to a wedding till late aftn. yst i didnt follow mom out, save for brunch with younger sis, and spent time at home ironing clothes, packing my bag for hols and played Sims castaway on sis' psp. -.- today, i did some weights training cos i realized tt i was flabbing up ultra fast. then i psp-ed. then did weights again. and watched tv.

for most of the eoy hols, i had trainings. caught up with friends. did a whole lot of random rubbish and basically was out most of the time. and yet when im at home, i still dont do any mugging. honestly, i dont know what's to become of me. damn As..

dancing xmas tree

christmas is all around me, and so the feeling grows~

lol at least tt's what i think the song's like.. =/ xmas party at bern's today was alright.. i left early at 6.30 before the party actually really started so poots la.. the gifts under the tree were really very pretty! i didnt do gift exchange but i gave my buddy, ie jr the gift tt i bought haha! she gave me a nike bottle yay! the girls exco gave us stockings stuffed full with sweets and chocs whee! and jerome actually bought xmas hats and personalized it with our names wahh so damn nice! =D

i only ate chocs there so i stuffed myself when i got home haha! we watched Love actually there yay! such a sweet sweet sweet show..

anws, was looking thru the big box of ncc prezzes and cards tt i collected over the four years.. they were dusty and made my eyes teary and i kept sneezing like some diseased cow.. in any case, gah the memories! i miss the company! and my babies ahh i miss my little partas.. boos. we might be crashing one trg next yr.. hope we manage to do tt.. mon and wed are both canoeing trgs so.. urgh hope we can free up at least one day.. i miss ncc so much ack.

ob outing on wed was cancelled.. was gonna go to meera's house for the baking thing but i got lazy cos her hse is all the way in kembangan.. =/ met up with nw instead for 1.5 hrs.. hari raya haji yst was basically spent at aunts place where we ate alot. yup and sisters and cousins and i went to gv at yishun to watch Alvin and the chipmunks lol! very very typical storyline but the animation's really really cute la owells.. theodore awww..

okay tt's all for today, im getting sleepy boos. going out with FariNa and melz tmr.. finally haha! =)

olivejuice//

eightasone always

pltn outing at priya's house was awesomee! hahaha i came first at ard 1.50pm and pltnmates slowly came one by one afterwards.. full pltn finally! jy just came back from uk only this morning poor thing.. we watched Hitched and the Simpsons, pigged out and ordered canadian pizza for dinner.. i had 5 slices yay! =D

then we crashed py's room for xmas exchange.. yz gave me a fluffy blue towel haha! i gave sn a Digipet lawl.. yupyup then we took pictures on the webcam on py's laptop haha! it was almost exactly like squeezing into a neoprint booth back in our cadet years cept tt it was a tad bit less frantic hoho! yup we took videos too! i took up half of the screen each time, which wasn't much of a surprise to pltnmates lol.. anw anw we did a music video of our pltn song.. "where the fields are green, i'll see you once again, my loveee", and we also sang the first ever pltn song parta ncos thought us, which was "Nothing's gonna stop us" and we also sang "Right here waiting" yup! but py just told me tt someone closed the programme without saving so meh we lost everything.. =/ owells another reason for us to get together again yay! haha!

LOVELOVE PLTNMATES! =)

anw, appointment at Alexandra hospital was Meh. i asked for a referral to a sports doc but i couldnt make it for the initial slot which was during canoe overseas trip, so i got postponed to today, but he wasnt a sports doctor and i duno it was just the same as the polyclinic cept tt it costed a whole lot more.. took an xray tho which was quite funny.. hospital gowns are so ugh and unglam and they make you take off your bra.. =// ack.

anw i hafta go back there in feb to make sure nothing's wrong.. cos it's apparently only muscle ache which should be normal for sports ppl.. like it's so trivial like tt.. kinda pissed me off i guess cos it really hurts like shit sometimes and i freaking know what normal muscle ache is la.. but whatever la.. i insisted to go to a sports clinic for feb.. either way, even if it's nothing, the doctor might actually tell me what i did wrong or like how i can make sure i can avoid having it happen to me again.. whatever la wasted time and money there only..

Hady's Asian idol.. =/ so strange. i thought jaclyn victor was most deserving cos her vocals really is awesome.. sis youtubed one of the performances tt channel 5 didnt show.. Abhijeet and Hady sang Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and it was super super adorable ahh.. ><

OKAY tired. ob outing to ecp park to cycle on wed.. so exciting! prolly gonna be only 4 of us again.. and i'd be the only girl around lol..

olivejuice//

poser ge~!

the weather after the rain's really pretty..


lols.. i love macritchie! =D

lol reunion

haha yeah met up with some of the ob dudes today.. today sposedly only 4 of could make it. jeriel maggi nichola and me. then nichola had stuff on and could only join us later. then maggi decided to bail out on us again. then it was just jeriel and me. then nichola decided to bail out on us too. then somehow sara and weiliang could make it. so there were 4 of us in the end. and we pooled. it was very fun.

haha! might have another outing on tues/wed but sara cant make it boos..

went out for brunch with family and aunt today. the guy at the drinks stall was hitting on me and it was scary. went boonlay awhile where mom bought me jeans and a dress thing. haha!

the weather today is anxious with a tinge of melancholy

lol

olivejuice//

how now brown cow?

row today was great.. arms are aching like mad, but i must say tt i feel good anws. meera and i really pushed ourselves for our 18k and eventho we were the only two t1s suffering in the stupid bathtubs, we did fairly well. meera is damn good to pace manz. the sky was magnificient. huge fluffy cumulonimbus(sp? haha!) clouds were just awesomely pretty..

back hurts. ohyeah and meera and i were getting quite hysterical during our last 4k,laughing and grunting in turn, cos we were really damn shagged. partly the reason on my part i guess..

i wish i'd just grow up. stop all this moodswinging. think before i talk.

i wish i'd just make up my mind about how i feel. sometimes i feel that i am right but i actually voice out my opinions, i realize that "oh dear" maybe my views really are flawed. funny how varying viewpoints tend to be oh so clear only when it's too late. and i figured tt i've been so consumed by my own needs/wants tt i dont see the sacrifices tt have been made for me. and of course, realizing this now, i'll soon forget and be all self-centred again. ugh. might be too late to realize this huh. you're so stupid, syimah.

i love you

blow

just saw some of the snrs' vids on youtube.. i hadnt realized just how much im gonna miss them.. esp the t1 j2 girls, ie yangyang joohui and jolene.. having been in the snr team has been a great honour, being able to row with very inspiring snrs who've taught me to give my all and row with heart.

missing them already manz. i hardly know how much more i need to give for every row..

gym today was relatively gg i guess.. but getting quite used to it cos im not really aching now.. back kinda hurts tho and my right tricep completely died on me during one of the sets for some strange reason or another..

lately trgs have been fuelled by thoughts of blowing the other boats out of the water.. reaching the last buoy with heart pumping and knowing tt i've left the other boats behind. but i have to admit tt sometimes the future scares me. as in here we are, during trgs, feeling gg after not-so-hellish sets, and we'll be competing against schools like nj who train like mad. how are we sposed to compete with that? very very scary.. but i guess fearing my competitors is alright just as long as this fear is able to empower me to train harder, row faster.

someday i might just taste victory.. =)

limits

you know sometimes, when you love someone, you just want to spend every moment with them. but sometimes perhaps, we should know when to stay away. sometimes i wonder if i'd drive nw away, being so clingy like that.

but then, looking back, i wonder if i didnt have him, i would've spent more time with my friends. i wouldnt have missed out on the many things tt i have. feeling quite disconnected sometimes. unwanted.

then it just sucks when you think of all the stuffs you've sacrificed. whether it's even worth it.

and also, every girl in a relationship would probably wonder if they can do better. get someone who'd appreciate them more. or is this really The one. till death do us part. cant help but wonder huh?

i know the problem is essentially me. all my idealistic thoughts about what a perfect relationship should be. Of course he has his own life to live. Of course he cant devote all his time to me. neither will any other guy really. so the sooner im able to live with that fact, the better.

grow up, syimah.

i should be sleeping now

bad day

firstly, i capped in my t1 near the pontoon soon after i set off for my first k. i duno wth happened but it was embarrassing and i felt woozy after tt.. py's getting faster and i got her to make sure she was never more than a buoy away. the only problem was tt i was damn stressed having to make sure i kept up my frequency.. oh wait. tt's actually a good thing, yes? owells..

2k timing. deproved by 13secs. jkahdbf87t3v qjksanjkgfq[ietkwel. =( something disgustingly UGH happened tho during 2k timing and it was veryvery distracting. but of course, no excuses. wed, sub 12? row row row!

it's almost becoming an obsession. awesome.. but bad days like today make me feel so awful and weak and loser-ish. bother..

and back's hurting again..

sometimes i wish i could use the same drive tt i have when canoeing, in my studies.. i cant afford to screw up next year manz..

something strange/amusing/disturbing happened today.. cheryl and i were in the toilet then suddenly some old man came out of the cubicle and he'd been smoking.. im not too sure if he knew tt he was in the wrong toilet.. =/

ohwells. tired..

some things to look forward to:
ob sabah kondiu reunion!: this friday
pltnmates gathering at py's!: monday
sports doc appt: monday

=/


olivejuice//

baby steps

trg yst.. improved 2k timing yes! 12.22

ria remix poots

anw J2 farewell yst was funn.. there wasnt much food tho but okay la i think just about everyone got fed.. at first it was like some gambling den cos the guys were playing card games.. the j2 guys came and played also.. the j1 girls not writing the notes were made to mingle so we played Snap and Heartattack. i finally wasnt the slowest! liangjie and ge tied for most blur hoho! then the rest of the girls went up to write the notes, then we ate, then we blowed bubbles with the bubble gum tt ge got from hongkong, then we played tug-o-war.. over the pool yayy!

the rope was quite painful.. =/ i was in group 4 and i was the only girl nyeh! noone really fell in during the game but afterwards everyone just kept dunking each other.. 6 j1 girls stayed dry including me haha! tho i should've jumped in cos it looked fun but i didnt bring extra clothes bah..

then we did the candle on floating boats thing.. it was really pretty.. haha then the names on the boats started catching fire and the chingx water buffalo waded ard.. very anti-climatic but still very entertaining la.. haha! then they gave out prezzes and i hadta go poots..

got home at 10.30 and i knocked out at 11 with a horrid headache..

went to the park this morning with dad and sisters to play basketball.. i've lost my touch.. =(

did some physics so i guess my day isnt totally wasted..

kay water trg tmr so i better rest up.. gotta cut down summore on my 2k timing.. every improvement counts and i'll finally reach my ultimate goal.. baby steps yup..

olivejuice//

portrait

gym today was gg.

and zomg im so bloody noob cos i didnt know half/or more of the sets tt we did. as meera would quote, (me to py) : priya, what's a fly? ugh.

so anw, i think i learned fast enough. set a few goals which i met and was quite pleased with my progress. gym-ing's fun.. and quite some amusing things happened.. like how we realized tt the poster of the diff muscles of the human body resembled muchly a portrait of liangjie's form.. hoho! im so gonna get half his muscles man. not all cos then i'd look freaky.. =/

water trg yst. hit my pb again i think. 2k timing 12.25 on my t1. okay la i guess.. esp since i degenned like crap already.. sub 12 by march, yes? hope so..

anw, the cip thing at Yong en centre was amusing.. reconsidering my activity centre.. upper pri sch kids can be quite scary.. the younger kids are reaaally cute tho. yupyup! oh and haha an 11 yr old boy asked for my no. and apparently tried to cover up by asking for fung's no. but since he didnt contact me, i can assume tt he did Not try to hit on me. yar.. haha!

owells tt's all for updates i guess.. raffles row ftw! =)

so happy together

wooh canoe gopeng, perak trip was awesome. most awesome 4 days this year yeah! from amazingly priced yummy malaysian food, to lol-ing games, to scandalous scandals, to angel-mortaling, to painful barefooted caving, to bumpy white water rafting, to (amazingly acurate) fortune telling, to cool rock climbing, to hot instructors, to crazy high elements, to fangirling, to emo-ing, to birthdays, to forging a common bond thru "sharing of experiences", to uberly sweet notes all around, to anti-climatic tummy pains for most.

having summarised the whole trip to a simple enough paragraph, i hope i've captured the essence of the entire trip, which truly was wonderful.

pictures here! (uh soon..)

i really got to know alot of ppl alott better and i must say tt i now have alot more reason to miss rjc next year. what an awesome bunch of ppl to have as teammates.. both guys' and girls' teams.

RAFFLES ROW FTW!

olivejuice// lol fortune telling..

awesome

today while rowing with py in our t1s, py was telling me of all the diff pains she's had recently on diff parts of her body, and i said "well at least you hurt at diff exciting places and it's like temporary", referring of course to the for-as-long-as-i-can-rmb pain in my upper back. with my awesome luck, i got an exciting new injured-area now.

i was rushing off for econs cos i was late. got the keys from jiaolian, only to find tt the bag shed wasnt locked. then i grabbed my bag off the shelf thing, not realizing tt a bunch of weights were underneath it, and so Plop! went two 1.25kg weights onto my right foot's middle toe. damn pain la. now it's like purplish black. woo sexy..

ohwells so trg was alright. my body most definitely has something against t1s cos the ache in my back came back. nyeh. after rowing 8k and taken our break, py and i asked jiaolian to let us row k2 and he said okay! albeit reluctantly.. haha! k2 is imba nice compared to t1! i took 50-60 strokes for 500m on k2 whilst i once took 125 strokes for 500m in t1. NYEH BATHTUB!

econs was okay. ended at 12nn and then cheryl and i waited for the canoe trip breifing at 1pm, joined by the rest of the girls ard 12.30 yup..

then i followed taufiq to chinatown to see the cip woman. taa went too. i shouldnt have gone seh. my toe turned purple only afterwards.. =(

okay i shall do something productive now..

yeah.

olivejuice// how's it there?

im missing you already

Cancer
Be with the people who make you happiest today. Even if that requires traveling.

rightt. -takes train to negeri sembilan.

ohwells. day was quite alright.. finally went for trg again.. i rowed k2 with jiaqi and it was pretty good.. rowed 10k before i hadta leave at 9.45 but we capped only once whee! and tt's only because the annoying strange motor boat thing was making hugee waves.. nyeh.

oh and i have a theory about jiaolian. py and i are confirmed t1s. but i get chucked into a k2 if they have an odd no. and py's expected to just train and train in her t1. yupp. gotta trust jiaolian la.. eventho he can be damn mean sometimes tsk.. he's nice enough to me so i shant complain. yar..

i went pasar malam again. bought kebab ayam and ayam percik. im growing fat fat fat. but i like food seh. damn nice. hoho..

and im doing a whole lot of random stuffs just to get my mind off you.

but no, i dont miss you. uhuhh..

olivejuice// i'll try not to wreck your blog

farin the fart consultant

aights cos she can tell you what kind of flooring fart is most audible against. haha!

so flockey cum basketball carnival with SpoS today was fun.. the kids are really really really very cute laaa. cept tt im not too sure just how old they are.. cos like there was this little boy who was sho cute and he's like 13. =/

so anww, farin and i were like the opponents at the defense station and farin the lazy bum refused to run and kept feeding them free pucks. -.- lol and seeing the old big ppl was interesting, like pong and ms haryani (rmbs 2005 and the crap the rg volunteers got). hrmph but ohwells.

so basically the flockey stations ended in about an hour at 10. and prize presentation was scheduled at 11.45.. lol so basketball stations were still ongoing but alott of ppl were just milling around looking quite bored.. oh i forgot to mention tt towner gardens was infested with rj ppl doing cip.. like ALOT. kinda strange but fun enough la. ame's special friend was assigned to be scorekeeper for our defense station yup..

so anw. we were all bored. we had our packet lunch(which was insufficient) and i went to bug the kids around.. hung around a few kids who wanted to play soccer and then somehow a soccer ball appeared and then the rj guys took over.. =/ so i wandered to the pullup bars with jeanting and then the monkey bars where a brown/black lizard appeared and jt screamed.. haha!

yup then i duno just wandered around and stuffs and ended up back at the pullup bars with farin where i encouraged a group of boys and girls to do pullups.. =D

then wandered to the basketball courts where we played with the kids summore.. oh there were also sports sch ppl and i recognized one of the girls as my pri sch jnr!! hahahaha she was like my best bud's buddy.. hoho! ohkay then blabla took another packet of food blabla then finally walked thru the rain to kembangan mrt.. farin and i are rain stoppers/starters. anti-gravity ftw! oh and i wanna be a mommy!

poots.

when i got to cck, i followed farin to buy waffles. then she went off then i went to buy waffles too. haha then i emo-ed at the lib for 2 whole hours. read, slept and read summore. i finished Haunted. went to look for chuck palahniuk's books and found.. Haunted. aper seh! i want more books bah.. right then i went down to buy oreo coffee! and finally nw was free at 5pm. so we went to the pasar malam and i bought alot of food.. and nw bought me water chestnuts cos he loves me yes! everyone should buy me food yupyup!

hmm. im not lovesick. i cant have been lovesick for like 2yrs and 8 months of my life seh. there's a difference between being lovesick and being in love. im in love. not lovesick. im not sick of love. i like love. it makes me.. uh happy. and sad. but mostly happy. and cos the person i love makes me happy. and sad. but mostly happy. but i guess tt's what love is about ryt? i guess. ohwells..

shall watch harry potter now woohoo!

olivejuice// and i'll miss you.. boos.

be merry

aights. too very idealistic = bad. i need to learn to be content with what i get. especially when ppl have put in so much effort to please me.

nw and i shared a Large meat something cheese lava crust pizza. huge appetites ftw! and 'jamming' was really quite entertaining. hot photo heh heh.

ohwells. i got the mcs raya vid thing. 878 photos. zomg camwhores.. haha! the compiled video thingey is awesomely retarded and funny. my sisters find taa amusingly lol. haha!

very moodswingy this week. cant seem to get myself to do anything productive. cept for short bouts of hist-ing and maths-ing and remedial-ing. and especially since i haven't been training, due to my back, this week is really damn wasted. ugh sucks.

moodswings. got abit paranoid bout the ppl around me. feeling underappreciated and redundant etc etc. ack well. am trying to be more independent and less sensitive and poots everyone else can screw off. hoho!

right and i've been especially clingy this week. i think im just sentimental and mushed. not really the time for tt i guess. when is it ever time for tt? hoho oh wells..

nw's going of for ctry9 next week.
gotta go for a silly course thingey tt dad signed us up for on fri-sun.
canoeing gopeng trip mon-thurs.

bring it on.

manz this sucks ass

olivejuice//

changes

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's Your Personality Type?

I've always been ENFP.. so strange..

in any case, i reallyyy need to see a proper doctor who will do something about my back. my back is killinggg me and am currently only on painkillers which is so totally not curing whatever crap tt's happening to my back! GAR! so yar visiting the polyclinic either tmr or wed and then getting a referral for the sports clinic at alexandra hospital yupyup..

i kinda hope it's nothing so'd i can get back to training.. but somehow im also hoping it's something just to show tt i haven't been paranoid all this while and tt i really did hurt my back. cos yeah it really does hurt like crazy..

today i went to look at the canoe board.. lol silly picture of me looking like a buffalo in my t1.. but anw, i got reminded of my personal goals..
t1 2k timing: sub 11:40 mins
and t1 gold

god how am i sposed to achieve tt if i cant even train properly? also, i cant represent the college unless i get a C average.. it's all so frustrating and feel awfully stupid and weak. stupid back. rj makes me feel quite stupid gar

aights let's like mug or something

olivejuice//

recuperate

just came back from the polyclinic with a 10day mc from heavyduty activities ie canoeing.
nyeh im sure as hell gonna flab up like crazy.. doc wrote tt i have muscle strain on my back.. but he said some stuffs bout muscle tearing and developing into more/stronger muscles.. =/ i duno he wasnt all tt clear.. but he said canoeing is hardcore and i have very hard muscles hahaha!

anws the past few days have been a whirlwind of activities and im teh shagged.

Batch jln raya 3-4/11/07
was really amazing. haha it really is the best jln raya we've had in years.. the guys really are a fun bunch and they seem way more bonded than us girls who have for the previous years, stuck to our own cliques.. well there are the girls who keep sidling up to the guys and there were the random bunch who just hung out together and i think i managed pretty well without nana the first day cos she couldnt come..

some memorable moments:
1. family shots. haha basically we took group shots of those who wore same coloured clothes. mine was pretty traumatising i must admit but hoho all in the name of fun i guess..
2. makcik canteen! and her amazing baked chicken omg yummy. and khairul leading the doa thing which happened to be the stuff he baca-ed "lepas sholat" =/
3. bus uncle who played along with us in the driving off escapade and his mischievious grin lol..
4. the scarily smart-mouthed little boys at adly's hse.
5. the kitten that got stuck at the gate of the house next to hab's. and taufiq stepped on cat poo.
6. LOL-ing jokes in the bus and the guys' retarded reactions.
7. camwhoring like mad
8. the dudes thumped down the stairs at mairah's house. madness woo!
9. karaoke at taa's. khairul and ain have awesome voices! =)
10. the guys jamming at ari's house. they were really honestly very good. and they were somewhat stripped waist up and hence the girls couldnt enter ari's smelly room, plus it was really smelly in there. in any case, it made me realize tt i wanted to be a boy! so i asked farish whether he'd like to switch bodies, and his reply was, "what's the difference?" ACK.

oh but then taufiq taught me how to drum the first bit of Starlight and it was really difficult but fun! adly and ari claimed tt taufiq took forever to learn anw so i shall take comfort in that haha!

aight forgive me if i forgot anything particularly interesting.

Class chalet! 5/11/07
was unbelievably fun.. i cant believe we actually pulled it off! with it being last minute and all.. THANK YOU longqing for booking the chalet! haha and i was really worried that the food wouldnt come since i only ordered the food on sunday.. got the confirmation call on monday morning itself during trg lol..

ohyes and i planned the chalet without realizing that i had trg monday morning too lol.. so anw after trg, i took a straight bus from bishan to pasir ris int tt took less than 1hr woo! so yar we had lunch at whitesands, only 9 of us then haha.. then we got bubble tea and proceeded to walk to downtown east, stopping for some time at the playground otw.. the huge puddle under the swings! the mad seesaw! the hot slide and the main attraction! *drumrolls.. THE STRANGE SPINNING THINGEY! which left nigel and fungs giddy and pukey haha! i must get yq to send me the vid lol.. yup then we walked to costa sands pasir ris..

checked in, loaned out the bbq pit thing and waited awhile for the cleaning ppl to wrap up before we could put our stuff in the chalet.. then zijian arrived so now we had a ball to play with! so we went to the park outside and the grass was real muddy so we took off our shoes and played soccer at capt ball in the mud hoho! it was really gross at first but we kinda got used to it tho we ended up with only 6 ppl in the end haha..

yupyup got back to the chalet, washed feet and the food then arrived.. then while the dudes attempted to start the fire, i went to shower since i hadnt showered after trg and was getting really stinky.. =/

yup then the bbq was awesomely exciting and we discovered hidden cooking talents in ppl like linda and fiona haha! and fiona has firebreath! and i have great talent in slashing chicken yeahh!=D the food was too much tho oops.. haha after eating, we just sat ard outside singing so many random songs, cheered raffles cheers while choking on the bbq smoke and eventually lost our voices haha! we were like madmen and extremely noisy compared to the bunch of ajc ppl in the chalet next to us haha! yar and royce/nick brought their ps2 and it was funn! me and zr suck at the car racing game haha! okay fine i was worse but tt's cos i wasnt familiar with the controls pfft!

took a nice long walk with na afterwards and then sent off fungs and nigel and jean who returned after showering at home.. =/ dad fetched me at 11 and dropped xinge off at khatib yup..
i love 08S05A.

CIP @ Pertapis children's home 6/11/07
was an eye-opener. it was actually na's cip thing where she's sposed to tutor the bunch of kids there.. smu sucks btw, for initiating the project but leaving it in the lurch by expecting the rj ppl to "expand" the project. tsk.. yup so the turnout for the kids were little and there were too many volunteers, so the station games were abandoned and so the guys played soccer with the boys and the half of the girls played dog-and-bone while the other half were playing polar bear amongst themselves.. after our turn, na and i approached the older girls there, who were training up for a street netball competition next sunday, and we played a friendly match.. the girls were realllyy good and they're pretty cool too.. -nods.. oh but at one time, i jumped and landed on my right foot strange and now i have a damn pain ankle poots..

yup then i took a break so we ventured to the soccer field to watch little iskandar play a penatly shootout with one of the rj guys.. sho cute.

then we moved on to the playground where two small girls were playing.. we played at the monkey bars awhile and then Crocodile when more kids started arriving.. catching.. spun some of the few kids around and around.. etc. those kids are really hyper manz and they were hardly tired whilst na and i on the other hand were dead shagged hoho..

hmm the experience was really fun.. i was scared of the kids at first cos they were all so noisy and rowdy.. they really are quite naughty and i spose the other volunteers weren't as disturbed as i was cos they didnt understand the multitude of malay vulgarities tt the little kids spewed.. i didnt quite understand some of the terms either cos it was mat lingo.. =/

and violent omg they can get so violentt! scolded some of em a few times for their language and actions..

in any case, i think i've done okay enough time with the Special olympics, and they have enough publicity to do well for themselves, so now, im gonna try to do something for the less priveledged kids in the malay society. i know i once said tt i wanted to be an MP, truth be told, i wanted it so tt i can help others And myself at the same time.. but i realize tt im politically-illiterate anw so i'd be quite useless.

ultimately, in the future, i wanna open a daycare or activity centre tt targets the kids of the primary school range, who are left at home while their parents work. i know quite a number of kids get sent off to the various daycares in spore, but these places are usually ex. the kids tt im targetting are those whose parents aren't very well off. left to their own devices, they often mix around with the wrong crowd, learn all the wrong things tt lead to their downfall and get sucked in further into the world which they've grown up i. the kind of life tt i seek to help them break free from. it's so painful to see all these children tt have the potential to live fuller lives, but are unable to see beyond the walls tt they are confined to.

i wish i had more time. more time to help others and do something more worthwhile. something else to worry about other than myself and my grades. but i also have to be aware that if i want to truly do something for these people, i must first get myself somewhere. be someone who has the power to do something more than just simple volunteerism. until then..

okay i shall now rest my back, which is starting to ache bad boos.

olivejuice//

OP no more!

YES YES YES IT'S OVER! :D

well 3 more groups are having their Op now hoho..
wasnt too bad la i guess.. my script's cut into 3 and i was reallyy nervous during the first part but okay la.. pris's grp thinks i sound like im flirting with the audience when i present.. well na says that she heard somewhere that you're sposed to 'make love' with your audience, or something..

ack my Q&A was nyeh-ish.. in any case, i honestly forgot what the qn is.. OH something about biggest challenge of pw or whatnots.. =/ some ppl kinda bombed pw tho.. ohwells..

was sposed to meet nw today but he's not feeling well. yar so i watched Twister with fiona and am now sposed to do I&R.. =/

quite alot of stuff coming up and i better draw up my study plan soon or else i wont be able to fit any study time and soon the hols will be over.. gack.

Class chalet & barbeque: 5-6 nov
pltnmates!: 6 nov + 15/17 dec..?
workshop thingey tt dad signed me up for: 24-25 nov
rafflesrow: 26-29 nov perak trip. + trainings 4 times/week
flockey carnival: 17 nov
ob dudes: no plan as of yet but a reunion is in order uhuh!
mcs: jln raya i guess..? =/
academia: revision classes and MUG MUG MUG!

not tt much stuffs planned but exciting nonetheless..

hmm well i heard tt quite a number of canoeists from other schools got retained.. luckily no rj canoeist got retained.. i think it's cos the school's kind.. duno what they intend to do with the huge drop in standard tho.. nyeh..

C average for CTs. or i wont be able to row for nats or women's open etc.. can? alright let's do this woooo..

okay back to I&R.. bah.

olivejuice//

oh screw it

am exhausted. and i really really am on a short fuse.

open house today was just URGH. i dont get why mom refuses to use disposable cups and plates and utensils. we kept having to wash and wash and wash. and the kitchen sink just chose the most convenient to choke and die. GAR. which meant tt we were washing the dishes in the toilet. so unglam. mom wants to use proper glassware cos she says it feels more like home but whatthehell NOONE does tt anymore cos it's so freaking tiring and pointless and it's not like anyone gives a damn if they use disposable plates or not!! dammit.

and dad was being his usual chauvinistic self, refusing to help out in the kitchen and was being anal when i asked him to get an ice bucket, since he was in charge of getting the ice after all.. -.- oh but i guess credit goes to dad for trying to fix the sink.. keyword being trying of course.

the only friends who came over were 3 teammates. fuck who cares..

some ppl cant even reply my messages. awesome

ohyes and i am so pissed off with relatives who freeload. yes very very very very annoyed with them. i mean honestly, just because my parents are generous and they dont expect anything in return, it doesnt mean tt you should just expect us to give and give. damn friggin thickskinned sia. and the dumb anniversary project tt my parents are planning. everyone replied so super fast, yes yes we will go and drag along our whole extended freeloading family cos YAY it's free. AND I CANT EVEN GET MY BACK CHECKED OUT, EVENTHO THE PAIN REFUSES TO GO AWAY PERMANENTLY, COS IM WORRIED I MIGHT NEED PHYSIO=MONEYMONEY AND YET THEY'RE WILLING TO SPEND 5K plus ON OUR RELATIVES. im so sure.

some ppl still owe my parents the money they borrowed and they pretend it's perfectly alright not to return asap cos Oh you're very rich redi what. im so sure.

and i hate the expectations of my sisters and i. it's like they're waiting for us to screw up or something. babies out of wedlock, transverstites, gays, jailbirds, druggies, divorces, cohabitation etc. why cant i have a normal family?

screwed up day la

and yeah happy 31st woo

why

am feeling awful. funny how everything was so perfect, despite my terrible promos grades.. my parents were really understanding. they didnt scold me but they discussed with me quite thoroughly what i plan to do given my options so.. nice la.. but then i just had to screw up an otherwise great last week so yar.. awesome..

sorry i screwed up.

yst's row was nice! did 10k as usual and it didnt hurt as much.. was gliding quite abit so it felt good.. i started earlier so finished my set earlier too and py convinced me to row another 2k.. =/ rescued quite some boats yst in my t1 tt apparently looks like an ambulance.. almost capped in my t1 cos i tilted too much cos the wind was strong.. tilted back by hugging the bottom of my t1 lol..

hmm. op's scheduled for thurs.. havent touched my script since op dry run.. screwed up la.. we did video-ing for our group presentation and it's quite good haha..

right. time to work on my script. pw ftw..

olivejuice// truly madly deeply.

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haha previous post has been deleted due to safety reasons..

nothing particularly interesting so far.. cept for maybe promos results yst. we got our papers at like 8, went for a break ard 10 and then lessons started at 1135.. =/

i've been on a short fuse lately.. getting damn pissed at the random-est things and people.. strange things and i've been expressing my discontent quite obviously too nyeh..

oh craps i knocked out awhile. kay la gotta print gpp then update more next time..

olivejuice// you know i love you alot no matter what..

shagged

yst left me quite very emotionally drained. reminiscing is extremely tiring and left me quite frankly bothered at times.. =/

trg was ookay. left early for jln raya-ing so i missed land sets. it was raining in the morning too so we hadta wait in the scf shed till it got lighter but it didnt completely stop so we rowed in the rain, which was really really nice.. =) did 10k amidst the capfests. so many ppl have Such faith in the rescuing ability of us t1-ers tsk..

anw, pltn-canoemates and i now form the rj t1 fleet. oh there're no longer t1s in the guys team mehh.. in any case, yar we were reminiscing ncc days and lol-ing over significant events. like the ssc crisis and the nco combi crisis etc. and apparently i had quitee a temper.. funny how i dont recall tt bit of info.. =/ so yar trg yst was pretty fun.. sad tho tt jiaolian wants to move ge to the k fleet. owells py and i will pwns the t1 scene woo!

quick lunch with nw whee..

so then jln raya-ed with the cckpians.. our party was so small. they came to my hse first, jann & leman. lol really. mom cooked alot tho i told her only so few were coming. they ended up flirting outside while i showered.. O.o hoho!

reminisced quite abit. as usual. and i got updated with the lives of most batchmates. disappointed by most and surprised by some. a to-be father with a 14yr old? the whole day left me quite disturbed. meh.. was quite glad to be home. i really do live a very sheltered life..

i guess tt's all tt happened yst.. right i shall entertain myself with.. whatever stuff now..

stoned boos.

oh yay going out for movie with nw now. yay! =D

olivejuice//

lol memories

melz's blog is a great source of amusement..
dated 9/11/05

1. [the rest of us walked all the way to far east to take neoprints (syim's boyfriend-whose-name-i-don't-know was the only one who refused to join in), which turned out quite lame 'cos the machine was so fast that half the time we were just caught in between poses.]

2. [so, we bought tickets to the cello because sky high is a lamo movie and it didn't have any early enough screenings anyway, and all the good fun holiday movies aren't out yet. before the movie we went down to yamaha to look at all the instruments. the cool electric guitars and basses and drums. syim's boyfriend-whose-name-i-don't-know (i think i'll just call him... tom for now) was practically drooling over the bass guitars larh. i want to learn! but then i can't even handle piano and classical guitar right now so i shouldn't overestimate my ability. sigh. and siti's jinxed. she knocked over a drum or something (we ran away from her), and then when she arrived where we were some guy dropped something too (i forgot what it was, but it was expensive too i think). whoops, heh.]

3.[went down to some sports shop because hasyim wanted to look for a new waterbottle (my feet were positively killing me by that time). we took the service lift up. syim and tom acted soooo malu-ed about it larh. kept going no larh, let's not do this until i told them they looked even more suspicious standing around at the doorway of the service lobby. but the inside of the lift and the passageway out is quite scary, because it's so dark and rundown and stuff. and when the door opens it suddenly seems so possible that something would be standing there like in some cliched horror movie.]

4.[syimah dropped her drink outside the cinema. and a little boy slipped on it, poor thing.]

5.[ehh syimah and tom went to take neoprints by themselves after the movie and farin and me went to see see look look around ps. i wanted to sit down but she didn't so i insisted on going into all the cutesy cartoony stores (woah they have alot there). some of the stuff was quite nice though. they had lots of creative household items, like a salt and pepper shaker that just looked like big plastic peanuts, and that bright pink bottle plug thing that's designed to fit any bottle, but which costed like thirty bucks (sorry, i'd rather just use the original cork).

haha, in the end we went back to look for syimah and tom. syimah was throwing popcorn in the air and tom was catching it in his mouth. then they finally went in and were making all sorts of suspicious slapping noises and grunts and stuff. heh. we sat down in the booth beside theirs to wait and farina tried the catching popcorn in mouth thing, but it didn't work too well. ]

i am entirely self-absorbed. quite obviously from the cuts. but ohwells i'll work on it.. ><

okay shall watch some new vid mom bought..

shoulder hurts.

i should quit canoeing and join recre badminton. O.o HAHA!

olivejuice//go go go!!

ouch

first regen trg. was awfully painful.. well not painful now.. but it was la. just now.. =/

i carried a k1 by myself for the first time. ooh exciting. lol no i wasnt showing off but i thought it was a good bargain, considering tt i asked bim and selene to carry my t1. kinda stupid anws la. i think i got even shorter from the weight. lopsided shoulder ftw!

10k row plus saved a few cappers. did only one 500m sprint thing with meera. okay not much of a burst la considering tt we were basically inching slowly forward. awful ugh.. nj fleet was camped out at 1k mark. scared? yes. motivated? totally manz. let's pwn them all!

land sets afterwards was quite painful. quite obviously degenned bother..

hmm i've been doing some physical activities lately i guess.. more so than the past month at least. tennis, badmnton.. i realize tt i dont suck all That much at badminton so it's a fun enough game.. then netball for pe. i think i was an okay GA..

oh yes and im getting/have always been very bimbo. this is awful..

and i flirt. all the time. subconsciously! i think. duno la. dont think im a flirt seh.. =/

getting tired and cranky but i shall finish entry yupp

BLAIRWITCH PROJECT scared me shitless. it's not so much whether it's real or not. but the idea of it is just teh freaky.. was extremely shaken poots..

i've been binging tonight. am fat

ugh okay whatever i cant think anymore. need sleep

olivejuice//LOVE you. =)

power

it's just not right for anyone to have this much control over how i feel

having the ability to make me so happy and the world just so perfect
and yet also able to ruin my day with just a simple statement

someone with the power to do the former, who practices also the latter,
is a big bad bully

and me allowing that someone to do so
makes me stupid

i dont know why i continue being so

brainfart

i think it's funny how it's deemed impossible for teens to find a compatible life partner at their age. simply because we're too young to know what's right for us. it's not like all adults make the right choices on who they marry or whatnots. rising number of failed marriages blahblah.

but what if you've already found the person you'd wanna spend the rest of your life with, right now at this young age? i firmly believe that love is when you can accept someone despite being aware of their flaws, not being blinded by what you want to see in them or what you initially saw. haha just the way i dont think nw's perfect but i love him anw. and he very well knows my many imperfections(and i like to think tt he loves me too) =/

but of course everyone would doubt the possibility of us ever ending up together in the faraway future. despite them saying, "invite us to your wedding, okay?"

nyeh.

sometimes we might convince ourselves tt it's fate tt we met. or tt even if we went our separate ways, if we're fated to be together, we'll meet again. poots. i wouldn't dare risk tt chance. knowing my luck, i might never again find someone half as wonderful or annoying or .. =/

but what if Allah brought him to me(or me to him), and which i am extremely thankful for, and yet.. okay i shant pursue this point.

but still. it's probably not about the maturity of teens or our ability to make the right choices. more like circumstance i guess. god-knows jc isnt the best time to be having a love interest. what with hectic schedules and the looming As.. ugh.

well there's also the possibily tt parents would be sceptical bout us ending up with tt boy-of-choice tt they may be critical of the relationship, leading to awkward awful painful experiences.. hmm..

so teenage love is blind, silly and risky.

and despite all rational thought, i really cant fathom what makes me so determined that i really do love him and willing to spend the rest of my life with him..

life is just so strange

and im just extremely incoherent. bother

olivejuice//

row

i just realized, tt i havent rowed in more than a month. teammates have started trg but i havent. i think im getting lazy. sucks. i look at my arms and they're flabby like shit. regenning's gonna be damn painful. post-raya, i will run everyday before school. yes i will. 8 rounds min. yesyes. syimah you need to buck up. and since teammates have started rowing again and jiaolian seems to have great plans for everyone, im afraid he'd forget about me. esp since i got on his bad side for not rowing for nats. sucks.

and yet my back still seems to have some sort of problem. sucks.

i still want my gold for t1. 500, 1000. i dont care, i'd row for the gold anw. there're some pretty good j1 t1-ers. i wanna be as good as them. i wanna be better. i want them to eat my wash. i want to win gold.

i will win the gold.

almost there

wooh just 4 more days to raya! foodfoodfoodmoneymoney and yes of course meeting relatives etc. but MEH i cant drink carbonated drinks= i will have nothing to drink. well not exactly but meh mehhh. gosh i really havent drank anything gassy since tt time when the j2s told us tt we cant drink it anymore cos it kills our stamina. ouch.

in any case, raya's gonna be awesome. yesyes. ooh i like making ketupats! and i havent been helping mom with making kueh.. =/ owells today i shall.

OHYES op dry run yst. i woke up with some mother bad headache ah. knocked back out annen woke up reaally late. and found out tt i had to go for op dryn run anw. so dad sent me to sch. our group got high ME.. yar sucked. 5mins is freaking long i started getting nervous halfway nyeh!
haichoo said that i was -unprepared, need to articulate my words better, my Q&A sucked cos i didnt elaborate well. but -i have a nice voice(haha!), i have a warm and engaging manner, i was confident eventho i was unprepared =/ and i have potential to get high marks. hmm.. op ftw!

okay i think i shall play sims now. i've been postponing it for so long.. =//

olivejuice//

tmr

OP dry run tmr. i am soooo sure. and when'd we find out? wednesday. and it's not like we had nothing at all to do and had all the time in the world to do op. we had open house nyeh. well okay maybe i didnt do much except befriend ppl but still. what about all the other poor hardworking open house ppl? if not me, then poor them!

im rambling.

in any case, open house was embarassing. okay no, open house was pretty good. everything turned out alright, including the turn out yes. yup if i forgot the fact that the only person who agreed to my sch tour was a donovan from "dunman sec" and tt farin dumped me during the tour to go somewhere and so i took him on a full freaking tour under the hot sun(said some embarrassing things like asking him to try out canoeing etc). okay eventho tt's exactly what i was sposed to do, i didnt exactly want to waste my time on a j1 rockclimber from vj. i mean honestlyy! and also because i said some other embarrassing things like mentioning how i had a classmate who takes french as a h2 subject. the same guy who was apparently vj-boi's french classmate and was told the day before tt he was gonna crash. and tt fungshing and friends knew too tt i was being scammed, even before/during the sch tour. so loser. gar..

oh and also having embarassed myself yet another time doing someth so utterly stupid. i shant elaborate.

oh but i guess i did enjoy open house overall. befrienders dance with farin was just seriously lol cos we sucked and there werent tt many befrienders dancing so wth haha! taa thought me how to play the kompang! haha eventho i kinda sucked but he made me play the 'And's in 1And2And3And4. which was really quite hard so =//

oh i went bugis for buka on wed and shopped at geylang afterwards yay! and buka-ed with nazri
on friday after openhouse and i bought a handbag. O.o

ohyes and pw meeting yst was quite frankly a waste of time. but wooh finally a proper group meeting. go team! oh cept sharyn was sick so.. okay la go team anw! O.o oh but some ppl are really so GAR. okay i dont like to bitch(esp since it's the holy month and all) but i mean honestly even if the teachers didnt constantly refer to our wr during the op assessment itself, im sure someone would've noticed tt YOU LIFTED AN ENTIRE 12 PARAGRAPHS OR MORE FROM THE WR FOR YOUR SCRIPT! AND YOU COMPLAIN THAT WE DONT APPRECIATE YOU AS A GROUP LEADER?? puh-lease.

okay buka time.

olivejuice//

tagged again

The person who tagged you is:
nana

Your relationship with her is:
bestie

Your 5 impressions of her:
socks. strange. amusing. fun. starbucks

The most memorable thing she had done for you:
she made cupcakes for my 15th birthday (or was it 16th?)

The most memorable words she had said to you:
"cant you think/talk about anyth else other than food?"

If she becomes your lover, you will:
have to figure out what to do with nazri

If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be:
get new shoes tt dont have holes in em. haha!

If she becomes your enemy, you will:
flush the doctor down the toilet

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
she didnt share her food!

The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
make her not want the things tt are bad for her. hmmmm!

Your overall impression of her is:
smart

How do you think people around you will feel about you?:
i already did this in previous entry!
um.. self-centred?

The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is /are:
my stomach capacity

On the contrary, the characteristic(s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
being short and thus stocky

The most ideal person you want to be is:
brains + looks + EQ + long legs. =))

For people that care for and like you, say something to them:
TAG you're it!

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
refer to previous entry. but yeah do if you want la

okie done.

oh and

July:
Fun to be with.(YESYES!) Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.(i forget but never forgive..? =/) Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations.(not tt they're always accurate nyeh..) Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends(sometimes?). Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. =) Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

okie doneee!
-snores

tagged

The person who tagged you is:
farin

Your relationship with her is:
awesome friend!

Your 5 impressions of her:
emo angst spaz actCool!(hahaha!) frank

The most memorable thing she had done for you:
there are loads..? (or maybe none at all hmmm!)

The most memorable words she had said to you:
"someth someth.. treat you madjack.." =D
among other things..

If she becomes your lover, you will:
make sure she doesnt fall out of love with me like the next second(which is quite likely, knowing her. lol)

If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be:
nothing. i think she's perfect. (my pants feel kinda hot.. O.o)

If she becomes your enemy, you will:
mess up her hair

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
she doesnt like me. =(

The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
her. O.o

Your overall impression of her is:
awesome

How do you think people around you will feel about you
annoying

The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is:
i can do 5 pullups. =D (i think)

On the contrary, the characteristic(s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
being constantly self-aware

The most ideal person you want to be is:
nah i like myself fine. (cept maybe with the combined brains of the 5A geniuses. and longer legs.)

For people that care for and like you, say something to them:
good for you!


Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
i have no idea who reads my blog (cos nobody tags. -looks pointedly)
but in any case,
1. farin(back atcha!)
2. nana
3. nazri
4. i really duno anyone else who might read this. =// so if youre doing it then just inform me at my tagboard la. haha!

wth random.
woo sleepy!

relief

liberated. woooo!

for a moment, i thought tt perhaps i do stand a chance of not retaining.
but then mom asked me what i wanted to do. if i do have to retain
i thought awhile
then realized,
i honestly dont know

GAH. no Os so im pretty much screwed. boos..

post promos is awesome nonetheless. went out with some of the 5Aints yst..
JeanPrisNanaRoyceZijianMervynYongqianWenchun.
we were planning to go for seoul garden since jeanzrna&i went there after cts so it'd be like a tradition but apparently it's $28.80 per person on a friday evening. -.-

Swensens ftw! mega burger + choco malt icecream is still my favourite. =D

then we walked to esplanade, thru the park and to raffles place mrt. camwhored awhile at the bridge near fullerton.. i got reminded of my dboat race with dragonfly lol..

which reminds me,
i need to work out.
py says tt there're some ppl who gain muscles real fast. and lose em equally quick. nyeh and im one of em! tis sad.

michael buble's Everything is awesome. almost 2yrs since meandsis watched him at the indoor stadium.. surreal hoho!

oh. i made lasagna today. and it tasted awful.. hahahahaha! partly because i only realized, when i finally put the entire thing together, tt i needed to bake it. and the oven's spoiled.. -.- haha! so i put it in the toaster oven. but alas it didnt exactly work. but the meat sauce was nice anw.. -beams! and hl milk spoils the bechamel sauce thing. yuck

then i felt a need to express my creative self.. so i tried to find a way to recycle the paste sauce bottles. ended up playing with water and floating sheep. then zirah joined me and we made puddles on the table.. =/

oh dad's in kl for some course.. kinda miss him.. couldnt send him off on thursday cos i was spamming hist. and mom didnt send him off either cos she figured she'd get lost if she drove. nyeh. dad's coming back early tues. trying to convince mom to pick him up hmm.. dad hasnt been away in awhile.. cept for hajj with mom in 2001 and the occasional anniversary getaway.. apparently when sis and i were 5 and 4 respectively, and dad was working in japan, mom would wrap us in his 'kain' when we slept at night.. =//

anw raya's coming soon.. mom's sewing like mad. some pretty nice clothes.. cant wait to make ketupats. i think it's a very addictive task lol..

should sleep soon.. planning to pick up mugging again soon. dont wanna kill myself next year bother..

assuming i make it to As

bah.

08S05A ftw! (no not 09S05A. -looks at fs and taugay pointedly)

olivejuice// happy 30th! we're due for a date soon.. =)

PWhoarr!

okay la efron's not tt hot. i think it was the suit and the hair in hairspray.. so lol to next yr's grad night.. =)

pw's been a pain. time-consuming and extremely annoying. group's awful. hope we can make it thru Op then heck i dont care what happens..

and rj's full of mean ppl. i never actually hated anyone until i came here. liyana says tall ppl are generally smarter but i guess they needed anomalies. dont like him. =D (exception that proves the rule, lah-says liyana)

should be mugging. first day of the Ramadhan today. i dont feel hungry but im awfully conscious of my excess saliva. strange.

i shall do someth productive now. -nods

olivejuice//

sorry little darlin', hope i didnt dent your do

ZAC EFRON.

i melts..
hahahahahahahaha.
=D

oh and 16 gone on 17. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LIYANA MAHIRAH BTE MOHD. RAMTHAN! (hope i spelled tt right.. =/)

olivejuice// and of course you're hotter, love.. =)

a thousand words

visited cousin's first newborn today..

Nur Ailina Qaisara. Isnt she just so awesomely cuuute? only 5days old and she has a dimple! ah sho cuuuute cant stand it ahhhhhh! -faints

Nazri come here i want baby noww!

O.o

teachers day celebrations were alright.. Elvis and the gogos were superb as expected. GENEVE ONG ERN HUI still rocks my socks. now she rocks a few other socks too am jealous. i want my own fanclub tooo! -pouts and stamps foot!

tday card making enthusiasts!

minahs slacking at starbucks..

i should sleep now.

and so i will end off with a final picture,

4 generations diff manz! oh and zirah's a 3rd generation kid hmm..

in any case, This is the final photo

LOOK AT HER TINY HAND!!

okay FINAL PHOTO

I LOVE BABIES! =D

olivejuice//

pooey

horrigiweird day..

dad sent us to sch today.. was walking thru the parade square to our class area and ta'a was trying to take my picture again mehs.. then after morning assembly,went up to class. a few ppl were there already and somehow they found out that i was taking attendance this week. i hate being told what to do and esp when it's wrong. dont fuck with me pls seriously. mrs lim wasnt around again and woonie gave his treasurer's report. class funds near deficit so i paid up 10bucks.. maths- i tripped in the lt and fell on the chair and my butt hurt and the girls said i looked obscene.. oh and longqing droppped her pen and was frantically looking for it and only an hour ago, it fell out of my bag! i feel awful urgh.. break- rushed to buy materials for tday cards.. some ppl are completely totally utter idiots sheesh.. did cards during physics.. really really tried paying attention in econs lecture but my mind kept wandering.. break- went to lockers to keep lakshmi's ksbull book. super heavy rain and damn strong winds. haha i was drenched only on one side! didnt realize till afterwards that there was a class staring down at me in awe lawl..

rain is rejuvenating! haha so then me and zr bought chocs from the chocolate tree or something booth yum! then pw! (mdm lim's anal) then pe! haha we played soccer in the hall! awesome game but i was too shagged to really enjoy myself boos.. then after pe i went around taking pictures for pw.. uploading now..

so yupp basically my day was very nyeh..

tday tmr.. i want anatolia.. i better eat it cos puasa's coming soon.. nanti kempunan.. =/

ohyes. im sure pris and jean would want me to tell the world bout their super awesome trick.. i left my bag outside the dance room place for latin dance on tues. when i came out na was outside, and in place of my bag was a note that said "guess who stole the red pen?".. i suspected the girls and asked na to call. she said something incoherent i spose but i wasnt really paying much attention i guess. then after getting food and all that, i went to look again. so finally yeah went to lt5 for econs and indeed the girls took it. (pris is bad at lying. good pris) lawl lawl very funny ah.. -.- haha!

btw. latin dance was actually quite fun.. many ppl ponned so the class was small and really quite fun.. 4 girls 4 guys so we basically started anew.. then one time we were dancing two couples at a time and halfway thru the song, we realized that ppl were looking at us from the 2nd floor glass panels.. they were coming out of lt5 for lecture so.. yeah lotsa ppl meh..

OHkay shall do pw..

olivejuice//

now it comes

productive enough weekend i guess.. i kinda like the hist term assignments cos it forces me to update myself with all the new info and i can also pretty much reinforce what i already know.. finished ihist essay by 2pm today which really was shocking.. =/ but i spent quite some time typing it out.. i really should just work on the essay straight on the com but i really am much more productive when i stare at a hardcopy of my work.. i think.. =/

ohwells. and eom due wed. thankfully i finished it on thurs redi so i dont have to worry bout tt.. was kinda distracted by Ocean's 12 awhile tho..
§yimstar eightasone RAFFLES ROW! *[[ i am a 5Aint! says:
george clooney is so bloody hot i cant stand him
§yimstar eightasone RAFFLES ROW! *[[ i am a 5Aint! says:
-faints
liy☠na. facestripped / my voodoo child says:
HAHAHAHAHA
liy☠na. facestripped / my voodoo child says:
you go for oldschool charming older guys huh
§yimstar eightasone RAFFLES ROW! *[[ i am a 5Aint! says:
><

haha charming older guys indeed..

yup so anw i did get some pw done afterwards so owells.. =)

plenty of stuffs to do before promos and so so so litte time.. -scared!

gp
mug! (yes some ppl do need to mug boos..). um practice compre?

econs
revise topics. memorize key terms and understand concepts-be sure to know how to apply

maths
thank goodness for maths rem. so basically now i need to practice more and make sure i dont forget the stuffs. and update myself with chapter 6 7 8. and zomg have we started on 9??

hist
sea: i completely forget everyth we learnt in the first half of the year damns! (REVISE)
ihist: read thru notes and be aware of the main issues and arguments

physics
screwed. study all topics and Practice. ugh screwed..

when'll i ever get my A?

anwws, ohyes i reallyyy dont like latin dance! i cant dance for nuts wth! i mean if it's some kinda jump-around dance or anyth less serious can la cos i'd be able to have fun. but latin dance meh meh? and i realized tt it was my 7th choice! my first was dragonboating which got cancelled prolly due to bad response but still! i thought ppl who got gold for napfa get to choose. and yet i hafta suffer seh! ohwells this tues is our last lesson i think.. phew.

OHYEAH! haha i've been tutoring my sis math and english for the past year and she got an A for her latest math paper woohs! improve by 20marks haha! well the improvement is amazing basically cos she did so lousily for her previous paper.. tt's quite a sad thought. in any case, the improvement was mainly cos she had more practice so yup that means i can get A for math too if i practice more! haha! got 10bucks bonus for sis' A heh..

oohh and the canoe team's prolly going for overseas trip to mt. kinabalu end of this yr.. 600bucks for 5D4N.. quite ex leyh.. OB sabah was 100bucks for 12 days.. nyeh but ncc hq subsidised the bunch of us so.. =/ bah i miss ncc..


okay i should sleep now.. tired..

HAPPY 2yrs and 5mths, love! =D

olivejuice// dont drink vanilla milk tea! you'd end up diabetic boos..

my everything

currently, life is as perfect as it can get i spose.

somewhat catching up with maths. picking myself up for econs. somewhat liking sea hist. physics is um.. to be dealt with soon.

pw's still annoying me quite abit and i keep putting it off so.. my fault ah -shrugs..

oh wait. mehh life's not perfect cos i've got an awful haircut!! boos. but ohwells i guess what i like best bout my hair is how i dont quite care how i look now.. as in. my hair's like That. cant get any worse or anyth and i feel quite comfortable.. haha!

saving up money for my sexy red reebok shoes.. 53 bucks so far lol..

ohh and i've decided to do pushups in between lessons! cos my arms are flabbing up gar. my arms shift amazingly fast from fats to muscles to fats.. scary! anw haha na took a video of the guys doing pushups with me cos they didnt wanna lose face wahahs!

hmm. pms pretty much over and i can now look at things with greater perspective.. no more emo cos i've got no time! gotta mug hard and smart. dont wanna retain. i mug for 5A. i mug to row. and i mug for myself. yup yup yup!

hmm awesomely too, im able to think rationally bout some of the more impt things in life like nw. i hate being emo. like farin said, it's not that you cant see the bright side, but its cos you just dont want to. silly really.. so anw, yeah. 2 yrs and almost 5 mths. haha awesome! let's celebrate 27 march'08 somewhere romantic! ooooh~! hahahaha!

love is an awesome thing.

olivejuice// i dont care.

when is enough, enough?

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.


i've got questions and i need answers. okay well maybe i've got the answer but it's not the one im looking for. hmm..


this is prolly just hormones.. hoorah to bloody periods! finally. =/

i feel really really sad.

wandering

so.. im not too sure what happened to my week actually.. i've kinda been in like a daze.. lesson after lesson.. mug abit here and there(and yet nothing substantial).. bitching a hell lot(i shall blame lakshmi for this lol..) and yeah pretty much pmsing still.

my period is late and its making me teh pissedd. gar

i've been finding lotsa ppl damn annoying lately. i cant tell if they're just suddenly way worse or tt my senses have been heightened from hormone influx or from all the bitching.. =/ ack tsk.

oh i love thursdays btw. i think i like lectures.. oh okay well more of econs(mrneo ftw! ooh and themed ppts are Love!) and ihist.. the rest are either boring or pointless(kingkung indeed).

what's with all the brackets.. (meh)

in any case, i love thursdays esp for pe. haha the girls are an amazing bunch.. eventho i dont
spend much time with them.. well basically they're awesome lah. we played pepsi cola at the track and it was Sho cute. haha! fiona was being damn on with her two-steps. jean&pris were allies. xinge was just haha. longqing was confused. sharyn was changing. lindalakshmina and i were moving round the circumference basically.. lol. floorball was O.o and sharyn got her hand "bitten by a spider". tmr we will see her crawl up the walls. wooh.

anw urgh. damn sianed. what i've learnt over the week. effort =/= results. well not for me at least. it's just Urgh. i think im a pretty motivated person. but when stuffs like this happen. it's just really demoralizing. and damn my writing skills. or lackofit. some ppl are gifted with great literary skills which justsohappens to be super useful in the sorta stuff we do. and yet they cant be satisfied whyy..

i'd like to do real well for promos just to prove that im worthy of my place here. but the thing is, i dont. and i wont.


damn fucked up la.

thirteen

i am sleeeeey. am currently sposed to be at sea hist lecture. uh well i read my philippines notes redi and kung reads off the noes anw so..
"youre clearing your conscience issit?" -liyana.

anw. Thirteen! am currently obsessed with numerology like Ne Win in Burma who demonetised burman money someth someth. silly military men.. okay so anw anw, me and cheryl's relay duathlon no. was 13. my hist essay was 2313 words long. i finished it approx 3.13am yst/today. and guess what? it's 13th august today. and just as i was mentioning it again to na today, the class clock showed 8.13 am. woos haha!

anw. relay duathlon wasn't too bad la.. 16 pairs in total i think. me and cheryl came in either 8th or 9th. the logs was pretty screwy. getting our t2 was kinda meh cos everyone was just grabbing and stuffs and i saw cheryl nearing with py and i was like ahhh. anw, 4k row not too bad la. directioning was maddening but i think we rowed well.. haha so when we got to the pontoon, it was my turn to run 4k. omg crazy. crazy crazy. and it was under the noon sun. but the amazing thing was, I finished my race. i did 4k woohoos! okay not that much but mehh my left leg hurts. as in the chord connecting my calf to my thigh feels taut. =/ okay im not a bio student but yeah. painn.. =( yup and our total timing's - 1:38:18. lol i thought it'd be 3 hours..

anw. haha i feel good. i've been pretty pissy and temperamentalfor sometime now. but after we talked on sat.. im in love again.. haha!

ohyeah and moodswings. damn pms la! urghs.

water trg on wed! i miss macritchie! i miss my t1! ahhh gonna be finally reunited soon. cant wait. =D

olivejuice//

thnks fr th mmrs

ugh.

how'd we come to this?

dammit.

try not to think about it

sch today was awesome. yup went back to rg and crashed natl day parade.. ahhh events like this make me miss rg so damn bad bahh.. the performances were as always in superbly unique rg style.. so retarded i like! =) the girls were embarassing themselves like anyth and didnt give a care in the world! you'd hardly find tt in rj urgh.. [boys suck]

anw. yupp i Love my partas! ahh they're growing up so fastt.. part cs next yr meh mehs! but bah yeah from 20 to 15.. sad but.. -shrugs.. in any case, to me, i'll always have 20 partas to love.. whee!

haha and i Love my pltnmates~! altho the buggering buggers didnt turn up, kay py was sick, and ge was on the way since 8.30 but turned up only at like 3.30? yz's overseas and yh was late. but essentially spent time in rg with jy sn and zr yay! jy's got long hair and her pretty-ness shines! =D

shall upload pictures soon..

HAHA The simpsons = awesomely retarded non-family fun! i saw bart's penis!! (does that count as a spoiler? O.o)

okay anw. im depressed. or it's pms la.. but still good god im so depressed i hate it i hate it. i feel so stupidd and i duno if i'd even promote this yr. im turning too man and im too ugly to even compensate for my lack of femininity. pfft. i feel damn loner sometimes cos i feel forced to talk or make my presence felt.

but none of these depressing truths beat the all time depressing issue. sigh nvm. remedy: just try not to think about it.

sometimes i wonder why i bother

horneh

woo i wanted to tell nana some stuffs cos she was high and was in the kind of mood where you cant really freak her out too much but pw made her high diminish...

liy☠na. facestripped (when's it my turn, wouldn't i love, love to explore that shore up above) says:
even if i were high
liy☠na. facestripped (when's it my turn, wouldn't i love, love to explore that shore up above) says:
i dont wanna know about your horniness -nods

-shrugs.

firstly, i think wolverine-ish hands are damn hot. as in, the hair at the lower part of the back of your fingers. so beastly and man whee! taufiq has em but his arent hot cos he's too pale. =/ ahh no offense brudder im sure some poor deranged woman would think youre hot -nods nods!

secondly, official names! ahhh. okay this was spawned by pw but haha Mr. Nazri Eddy Razali is damn sexy. hahahahaha..

thirdly, um. okay i havent given this much thought yet. hmm. gee what else do i think is hot ah?

okay i'll get back to this soon enough.

in any case, hahaha fungshing and every other guy who's intimidated by my arms are wuss(es?)! chauvinistic males tsk. everyone ought to be ready for the rise of the New Urban Females whee! nuf' said haha! (zomg i think im so smart lawl!) =D

ohmygoodness i get high from pw!! hahaha! my pw group is damn amusing lol.. eventho it's damn messed up, at least we can look at our predicament and laugh. (see haha dont need to wait a few yrs to think back fondly and laugh!) wheee screwed! =)

ohh 7weeks to promos whahahs! die die dieee!

back hurts again boos.
kay i shall sleep. whee!

olivejuice//

random past

lol found an old blog entry of melz which really cracks me up.
setting: orchard mrt underpass area. - we were approached to donate to some cause..

guy 1: _gs? the people from your school have helped us alot today!!
me: nonono, we're from scgs!!!
guy 2: ooh is it the st. andrews...-trails off-
me: yea, that's it =D
guy 1: okay anyway we're not selling you anything...
syimah: yes you are!
guy 1: ...these prostitutes blahblahblah, surely beautiful people like ya'll wouldn't mind helping them?
syimah: somethingsomething... indonesia!!!!
guy 1: -points to liyana- ooh, she's from indonesia?
syimah and i: -look at each other strangely and start nodding slowly- yea, exactly!!
guy 1: -says something in indonesian-
liyana: -thinks for a long long time then replies-
guy 1: woah must think so long one. -takes out chinese article on prostitutes and asks syimah- who can read chinese here, are you chinese???? -then turns to me-
me: -goes blind from the slew of chinese characters- i'm not chinese!!! i'm from -tries frantically to think of a country that has lots of non chinese-speaking but chinese-looking people, but can't remember how to say thailand or vietnam-, err, the philippines!!
guy 1: umm okay. so where is she from? -points at syimah
syimah: thailand!
liyana: no, you're from malaysia, remember?
syimah: ohyea, i'm from malaysia
guy 1: so... jakarta -points to liyana-, malaysia -points to syim-, and... manila? -points to me
me: -blank look-. nooooooo i told you i'm from the philippines, NOT manila!
guy 1: err. manila is in the philippines.
me: oh. right, i knew that. i'm from manila!!!
guy 1: so could you all donate to help these poor girls go home? you look like a rich girl -points to me-. you have "rich" written all over your face. (and he was wearing a diamond stud -.-)
me: -self consciously rubs face-(we end up buying a five buck sticker)
guy 1: should i give it to jakarta, manila, or malaysia?
syim: malaysia!
guy 2: -comes back from somewhere else- you mean they're all from different countries?!?!
us: -nod vigorously-

LAWL! okay maybe it would've been funny if you were there. memories memories haha.. =)

i love you//

burst till the end

wooh. did ihc 1.5k today.. CANOE RAMPAGE! =// lol prav cheryl ge and i ran in the same event.. in any case, ge and i paced most of the way.. cheryl too at first.. i feel bad for not keeping pace with her thruout.. considering tt she rushed over for ihc from maths rem(which i went late for meh).. yar so there were about 15 of us with 3 from each house.. right so hh and bb owned.. shared top four-2 hh 2 bb.. ge and i made sure we kept pace and didnt rush.. so yeah slowly overtook a bunch of ppl.. and then finally sprinted the last 100m.. i duno whether i finished 5,6 or 7.. haha i overtook shuninnyy but she ge and i came in like consecutively.. pltnmates ftw! i like sprinting yupp.. anww, pravv! dont worry kay! we're all like degening but i think you did great anw! you finished the race like a true canoeist.. Love you! =)

ohh and i just saw the dragonboat photos.. and a picture with my arms not exactly flexed but still really scary. daymn when and how'd it get so bigg? im a freak. -sighs.

okay sleepy.

olivejuice//

pathetic

saw mr go bout my grades today.. i wouldnt say that it was a wakeup call, considering that the cts was a flashingg reminder that Hey you better buck up really really soon.. but anws, yeah he said that if i screw up promos, i might get kicked off the team..

it's just that, you know, the whole team's been working their asses off every trg, every drop of our sweat goes into the dream of acheiving team gold.. it seems damn faraway now and super unlikely with nj around but yeah dreaming never hurt anyone so why stop?

but my point is, if i can no longer be part of this team that i love, then well =(

currently i've got DEUUU(gphistphysmathecons)(apparently my econs got pushed to an S somehow but still..) and my goal for promos is CCEDD. it's pathetic, i know. but practical? yes. i know we're sposed to aim high, but ugh i gotta be realistic so yeah.. here goes nothing.

on a lighter note, i finally did 4 pullups again yay! almost 5 actually so woohs!
olivejuice//

bring it on

wooh i ponned sch yst. cos my back hurt damn bad again boos! well actually it wasnt thattt bad. but it hurt when i moved la. so yeah. and like the last time i got it checked out (which was the day before nats. -sad), the doctor gave me two days mc. so by my decree, i gave myself one day's mc. -nods..

ooh right so i just rmbed something that happened on sunday. well actually nothing much, but basically i was going around whacking ppl with their balloons annen priya locked her arm round my neck (i think there should be a name for that ryt? O.o) and yeah i was struggling struggling and kicking her butt and carried her and stuffs and WOOH it was damn fun!

i've always wanted a good tussle/fight/brawl/scuffle? haha! okay i used to do it with my guy cousins (until they decided that i was turning into a woman and they started to ostracize me). guys in general just wont hit you back. i wouldnt want them to hit me either ah cos they're just made stronger(and i spose even taufiq can hurt me). my sisters are too small to give me a good fight. and not many girls wanna fight me either. so basically, HAHA i've found my equal. priyaaa! bring it on woo!
"that's so fightclub..."-liyana.

wokay nana wants food. whee! econs remedial and econs make-up later. bwee.. ugh.

olivejuice// =)