veni vedi vici

i sailed i saw i concurred- that gp ct was a joke. owells die die la i already did what i could so now i tawakkal.. =/ haha!

i had lunch at swensens with farin na and melz yup.. i lovelove the mega burger. i derive such great satisfaction from being able to stuff a complete chunk of the burger, ie. with all the layers, into my mouth. it just feels really good, though the bit where i have to chew and swallow a mouthFull of food is rather unglam.. =/

i dont know why im blogging such rubbish.

life hasnt been too good lately. i havent been able to follow my study plan. fungs' birthday prezze took a little more time than expected. i mugged abit too much and unnecessarily too since i didnt really apply much of what i crammed.

but aside from my unsuccessful intellectual pursuit, life's been all-around sucky i guess..

i dont know wth is going on. i dont know why you're acting this way. i dont know whether i should care. i can respect your decision if you'd just tell me why.

this is fckd up.

i went back to talk to melz and farin after telling the definitely-not-gay gayboys that i was gonna take the bus. talking to them made me feel quite alot better. altho i didnt actually address the issue that was bothering me, i still felt much better.. =) i took the bus home ard 45mins later..

i cant wait to row tmr. i seem to be able to forget all my troubles when i row. or when i gym. and perhaps when i run too. was quite disappointed when the gym was closed today. i feel like crap.

olivejuice//

so it seems

just did some photo editing for fungs' present. i finished vectors assignment before that. so yeah i didnt totally let my mug time go to waste.. =/

everyone's just damn messed up.

ugh. fck ths sht

olivejuice// yes it's finally our 35th =)

freefall

was thinking of an appropriate title for this entry but then matboy & badboy came along and they thought i sounded emo so haha changed the title

so anw march hols are coming up and CTs begin right when it ends. cant quite say that it's crunch time yet cos then that'll entail hardcore mugging, which really isnt something i can afford what with the great amount of time spent on hardcore training.. well i mug quite abit now.. but owells nvm soon. like when nats end and so does my canoeing career. and my time as a man.

have i mentioned that it can be a tad bit depressing when everyone thinks you're too man? but it's okay i guess. i need it for now anw.. for the love of my sport, sacrifices have to be made.. =/ sad life.

so yeah am sourcing for material for badboy's birthday now.. dont think he'd see this entry anytime before receiving the present itself..

back kinda hurts quite abit.. physio starts next week lol.. i really dont know how to answer the doctors when they ask me whether whichever part they're poking hurts or not cos i seriously cant rmb what it was like before i injured my back. it's just, well, there i guess? meh strange strange..

so yst i saw and heard of something quite disturbing. it's not reaally the action but it was just unexpected i guess. but it's cool. im cool. it's okay it's normal..

yeah.

olivejuice// Happy early 35th mth!

everything burns

it's finally monday. very strange hectic weekend..

saturday:
1. water trg: sub 12 again but slower by 1sec ugh. weights afterwards was fun..
2. showered in sch
3. got prata sausage at amk hub and just loner-ed ard for an hour or so.. alone time's really nice and calming sometimes..
4. flockey: i scored 2 goals. tyco hahaha! pong thinks i've got a canoe physique lol
5. mug/nap with farin: i bought corn at macs haha
6. met mom and sisters at yishun for dinner and to decorate cuz's room for her wedding next week. i was too shagged to help owells. oh one of my aunts share the same anniversary as nazzer as i. hoho must be a sign.. =)

Sunday:
physics tuition till 1.45. then parents left for a wedding so sisters and i rushed parents' anniversary scrapbook. and i gave sis math tuition and ironed my clothes, showered & prayed. and all this before i left home at 4.40 yup.. yeah and i got the cake otw to the mrt..

anws cake was to celebrate the term1 babies so yeah happy birthday all of you.. i was 17mins late while some were like 2hrs plus late.. then during dinner and waiting for some others to finish eating, a bunch of them disappeared without notice.. yeah so we didnt eat the cake before the show, which was pretty annoying.. owells wasnt planning to eat it anw cos i didnt think it was halal..

lol dim sum dollies was very retarded but still entertainingly funny.. the actors were very hot and had super sexy voices wooh! liyana was going orgasmic over hossan leong, who btw happened to pass by us outside afterwards but she didnt notice until i spun her around and then she gaped for some time.. strange strange..

i find class bonding very annoying. didnt really wanna have dinner together cos it turned out the way i expected it to be.. plus all the hypocritical bullshit about class bonding when everyone just does their whatever is -.-

i miss you
olivejuice//

good weather

no more emo heh. sorry for being pissy angsty and pmsy. horrible horrible emo oh dear..

i think i feel better partly also cos i've cleared both hist term assignments, gp essay and whatever else that i find particularly annoying.. oh and i understand vectors so life is just superbly awesome.. =)

and i've decided that eventho nazzer's the most busy and annoying being on this planet, i still love my boyfriend very very much.

tsk mush. time for maths!

olivejuice//

get a clue

Olivejuice// 2 years of signing off this way.. :)

love can be difficult.

argh depressed sad confused and fucking ihist.

SAY NO TO EMO! wise words indeed, myuk.

get a clue

so vday was very nice.. started off with the vday "exchange" with the guys team in the morning at the stadium. we gave them balloons on sticks and they sang 'It's all about you' with hongcheng and marcus-i-think playing the guitar, and they gave us a rose and a phonesock each =)

then the 5a guys bought roses from entre for each of the girls and they sang "when you say nothing at all(is that the title of the song?)" before maths lecture but na & i werent there cos we went to the florist near macritchie to get cheap flowers =/ yup then thruout the day there were gifts being passed ard and stuff and it was nice.

then had swensens with nazzer at bpp. sunset-watching at the pj roof didnt work out lol.. nice enough date yup..

take5 on friday was relatively entertaining. saikang-ed for canoe duathlon for most of take5. i was assigned the landing zone so i carried & alligned boats and i was the only girl working alongside 3 guys.. =/ i slept at 4am the night before so i was basically surviving on adrenaline and endorphins the whole day.. lol the titanic slide was fun. & the giant spiderweb haha! "canoe girls coming! -disperse" lol..

lunched with 5a then we crashed royce's place where we did the cny toss-thing, played games and i watched abit of Saw2 before going home with taufiq..

weekend's uneventful so far. i havent started on ihist essay due tmr haha!

i think why im happy most of the time is because i've lowered my standards such that the littlest things can bring me joy. does this mean im truly happy or am i only kidding myself? =/

recipe to avoid disappoinment: lower your expectations. never anticipate. never hope.

i really hate you sometimes. hahaha love-hate relationship.

wo ai ni jiaolian!

today is teh bomb yay! firstly firstly sch was very short cos i hadta leave for the doc appointment again. it was very strange cos it's really really a sports doc this time and did strange tests and stuff and came to the conclusion that my muscles are very overworked and i needta cut down trgs by 50%.. well monday trgs are very short redi cos of maths rem so i spose im only cutting down 1 trg..? more time to study now too i guess.. C average for CTs lol.. ohyeah and i declined the doctor's offer to be excused from napfa.. O.o

yup then went for brunch with dad then we went to the Honda showroom to look at cars cos dad's planning to either swap for a smaller mpv or buy a smaller car and rent out the current one sometimes.. honda stream's got a VERY ugly interior. dont buy. yup then bim called and reminded me bout take5 briefing so dad sent me back to sch.. there was a sexy red Lotus in front of us so we rolled down our windows to listen to the engine and the low growly throttle is teh sex i swear i might've orgasmed.. O.o but yeah very very very sexy..

yeah then trg. jiaolian gave py and i our vday presents! I ROWED K4!!! and py rowed k2 with cheryl. ahahahahahaha yayy! it was awesome and so fast and we were faster than like every other boat which is super rare with the fat t1 and it felt so niceee and i was just soaking in every second of the 8k.. every stroke, every kick, every tilt. i rmb how the water from the splashing paddles were blinding and deb's frequency was fast(if i rowed like that in t1 my arms would've dislocated by now) and deb saying "keep up the pace" and bim saying "watch left/right tilt" and prav saying "follow follow!" & "syimah your strokee!", when i actually had my left paddle face in the water when the others had their right side in.. and chanting to myself "be still my spasmic butt" cos i'd have sudden convulsions, hence causing the boat to tilt. strange strange..

yar then after 8k, jiaolian told prav and i to row k1 and =( t1 respectively. jiaolian patted my head when he told me to row t1 haha!

py and i rowed 6k on our t1. it was very depressing. fat t1 that moves 0h so little with every stroke. fat t1 that requires so much energy and lack of rudder tt can make directioning so super annoying.. it's not that i dont love my bloody mary. but yeah you just get sick of it, yeah?

so yup tt basically was my super awesome day =)

eh it's 12 redi.. HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY, WORLD! =D
hot date with superbusynazzerwhomanagestofitmeintohisscheduleandthusishouldbegratefulandcontent tmr/today..

wanted to make vday prezzes for the dudes but im now sleepy..

olivejuice//

productive

yes today was a productive day. =) finished seahist essay before 12. started on sunday aftn, found out tt my outline was wrong on monday, worked on it for abit last night, but officially started today.. lol i'd be glad to simply pass the essay at least for a day's work..

gonna start on ihist tmr/today yup! actually im sposed to be typing my essay now (yar i wrote out my essay cos i think better tt way) =/ but i cant bring myself to do it cos my brain's shagged..

doctor's appointment tmr/today.. dad's fetching me at 9.45 so i'll be missing quite alot of lessons today.. lol im just gonna pay for the doctor to tell me im okay, since he already told me i was fine and tmr's just a check-up to see if anything came up.. which i dont think anything did ah.. yay for improved strokes and greater tolerance for pain!

oh yar. yst was traumatising. die wenchun & nigel, die. an expanse of white. ouch

vday in two days and i havent gotten anyone anything.. i apologize on behalf of the hist essays. it's their fault uhuh

i should go type my essay now

olivejuice//

adventurous spirit

went hiking at bt hill with nazzer again.. haha it's been awhile.. we used the cylists' route like the previous time and it was just as fun yup! but he was being a grouch and complained quite abit esp about being in the sun. i swear he's more of a girl than i am.. O.o i love you still dont worry lol..

ooh and a snake approximately the length of my forearm slithered very near on the ground in front of me at the pretty green fields. and and we saw a moniter lizard too omg scary! hhhaaha. we went back thru the bt hill route somewhere along the stretch of green fields and reached the visitor centre ard 3.5 hrs after we started yup! super fun day yay i like hiking! =D

oh thursday was family outing at sentosa. place was bloody packed it was UGH and alot of ppl just change in public and it was so disturbing! and i hate it when little boys shower openly in the female toilets.. =(

anw outing was fun ah. soaked in the water for abit, played retarded games, ate nice food and watched Songs of the sea, which had super cool effects even tho the plot left much to be desired..

okay that's pretty much everything that's happened.. ooh exciting life! O.o havent started on hist essays boos..

kay sleepy..
olivejuice//

fallen and bruised

right so it's been three days into the week and it's not looking so good.. very exciting and very eventful, some of which i would gladly do without..

so monday, i got stood up by the class for our super exciting class bonding session. i should have known.. but i think it was the ordering food in bit that got me enthu bout getting the class together. maybe they knew i had an ulterior motive. hmm.. f**ked up still la owells..

in any case, thank you fiona&linda who came early and played badminton doubles with na and i at the amphi, making a complete fool of ourselves but it was fun lol..

mondaymonday.. oh limbay didnt come again. childcare leave or something again.. yup so while waiting for maths to start, wenchun was showing us super imba dragon pushups, which basically consists of pushing off the ground and clapping behind your back before you go back down. well he actually clapped in front first before the back and that really was Very impressive.. yar so anw, i tried to do one too. i honestly dont know what i was thinking. perhaps i wasnt at all cos the experience left me with a huge bump and bruise on my chin. the bruise spread and turned purple compared to the initial concentrated blood red but the bump still feels the same. im disfigured ack..

Tuesday. not much happened. decorated the back of the class, which didnt turn out too well cos the black sheets all just fell from the wall anw. got a haircut.. doesnt look too good ah.. but it could be cos of my bruise, which looks like a goatee, so i kinda look like a guy overall.. =/

Wednesday. no sch today so i crashed rg's cny celebrations with shuning and ge. i only caught a glimpse of the first lion dance performance by the part bs(now part ds) eventho i ran from the busstop when sn told me they were starting.. =/ but we managed to watch the full one for the lower sec session and they were not bad ah.. my partas were very pro with the cymbals yupp! =D

so anw it was like some huge reunion cos the j3s(batch '05), us (batch '06), the j1s (batch '07) came back too and it was quite exciting.. the part bs asked to take an '05 company photo so we did.. quite cool ah..

then sn and ge went off for reunion lunches so i went to the macs at lido to do physics before meeting the dudes at 11.. farin wasnt coming, melz eventually came at 11.45 and na was the best, 12.25 was it? and in tt span of time, i managed to lose my wallet/pouch thing which had 35bucks and my ezlink, while moving around, waiting. ($15 of which was money i owe melz, so now i need to cough up another $15 for past consumption). $19 ezlink replacement fee + $20 top-up. and my pouch was relatively new and costed me $8. so yeah i lost approx 80bucks today. i have about $10 for the month. hopefully getting more when i tuition sis but yeah bloody broke..

definitely definitely not my day.

family gathering at sentosa tmr. 2 hist essays due in about a week.

quite definitely not gonna be a good year either. sucks

i am the captain of my soul

a little something from meera,

Invictus

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

good day finally

SUB-12 PB FTW! yst was an awesome awesomeee day. quite some of us got new pbs too yup! muchly thanks to meera who did k1 and was freakingg fast eventho she didnt startburst due to lack of stability and proceeded to make me pace her. damn imba pls.. weights was fun. =)

then nw 'fetched' me at macs busstop and we went to amk hub for prata sausage and old chang kee whee.. then we went for flockey. flockey's really really funnn.. then it started raining so we sat ard hoping it'd stop raining.. and zaidi was flirting with my nazri and they were snuggling and took pictures and made me jealous humph. O.o

nw treated me to madjack. YAY! quality time ftw..

overall, superbly wonderfully awesome day.. =)

today wasnt very productive tho bother.. =(

olivejuice//