Monday, June 27, 2005

i want..

a bloo sportsbra
a nice,big,cozy pullover
a dark bloo nike squirtable bottle ( i lost minee)

that's all actually.. yeah. i reaaaally want the pullover. bahh... owell.

anw, ncc was shit. yup! horrible stuff.. nyeh.blind faith no more..blinded more like. its terrible how we have to admit to being wrong all the time. usually..

ohh. school was bear-able. cikgu diden come and mrs yap diden show. so like we had 2 free blocks. fun-ness..

aight. duno what else la.. i wanna go sleep now. so tired..

olivejuice loads.
`bangg.

holiday in my head

I'm just tryin' to realize
I'm just dyin' to open my eyes
I'm just lookin' for paradise in my living room
*****
I've got a holiday in my head

had suicidal thoughts in the bus
and cried on my way to school this morning
that's how much i hate school.
gah..

but it could also have been due to the fact that i realised, after reaching the first floor that i forgot my wallet. that was only like 2 mins. n when i got up, i had to ring the doorbell for 5 mins+ before someone actually answered the door. got 5 pple inside summore. wtfh.. got me fucking frustrated.

anw.. yea. in a reaaal strange mood. bahh.. forgot to do chem ws n forgot my chem file too. sheeshness.. i filed redi summore la. dad's sending it to school later tho.

had pe just now.volleyball.. i think im pretty good with the serve and dickpass. uhhuhs.. sho cool..
ohOhOH! u noe whatt.. i can knot a cherry stalk with my tonguee. coolios.. i need better practice.. hmmmmmmmmmms. heh

oh, and its malay now. but cikgu diden come. HAHA kelas besar! kelas kecik rules sia..

and im wearing na's pullover now. super oversizedd.. but its nice.uhhuhs.. pltnmates sed i look flat. nyeh! i got boobies hokaii.. maybe.

and this morning, before assembly, i ran into the canteen toilet to check myself out la. thennn.. sumone was inside.. on the seat! damn traumatized. esp since its my part b. scary stuff...

okay. im feeling lost without a phone. nazriii.. miss u like crazy. ahahahas.. so sad. anw, so cool hunhs? 3 months.. olivejuice forever yea? -hugs!

aight. shall go study chem now. sho guaiii...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

by the way..

my birthday is on the 6th of july.

just so you know. uhhuhs..

heh. gooodnight.
good luck with school everyone! -shudder..

`bangg.

here we go again..

yup.. and school reopens tommorrow. splendid..

spent the day at my dad's propnex sports cum family day at toa payoh stadium. was terrribly boring at first.. then i went to the stalls and played some games.. won myself a teddy and dunked the woman twice.. kinda fun i guess..then dad's event was about to begin la. 2.4km, ceo challenge. so like if they can beat the ceo dude, they'll win some cash. 500-1000. yea.. then there was this kid with the number tag, so i was curious so my mom asked my dad to ask whether there was an event i could join..

lalala.. then my dad came back with a number tag for me
dad: there.
me: what event?
dad: 2.4 km
me: -hyperventilates-

like.. seriously, i wasnt even dressed for it. i was wearing a tudung for goodness sake. gah.. but then.. its my dad's bdae and he was so excited i couldnt say no.sheesh.. anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

yea.. i ran the 'invitational women's CEO challenge 2.4km'. surprisingly, i won the huuuuuge champion trophy. yea.. strange. 12:59:60.. yea.. 13mins. gawd.. butttt.. i was in tudung and i guess i did pretty well for an impromptu run..uhhuhs..
n dad won one of the lucky draws! some high-fi thingey. and my lil sis won a medal for the kids telematch. dumb really..
mom: -cooes. she really likes sports dusent she?
-rolls eyes.
oh. i gave dad my trophy for his bdae. sis sed its a real cool prezze. yayy..

oh, then we celebrated dad's bdae at swensens. yup.. peeeged out. fat me..

school reopens tmr.. -jumps for joy-

oh. im seriously comtemplating dropping ndp. im really not a quitter.. but gah.. my grades need immmmmmediate attention. and yeah.. for a greater cause? sorry pltnmates.. i reaaaally need my saturdays and stuff.. dont even know whether i can drop it actually.. gosh.. s'not like ive got much choice sia..

oh. n i dont have my phone anymore. freak laa.. dad transferred the sim card to his old phone which is still reaaally nice btw. a nokia camera phone okayy.. budden mom decided that she'll keep the phone and only lend it to us when we need it. like, gahhhhh?

okay. i shall go dwell upon my wasted june hols and the dreaded future.
sobs.. i hate myself. nyeh.. tmr got ncc trg.. owe ncos the pumpings too..

fine. shall stop depressing myself.sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
gnites.`bang.

olivejuice alot alot alot. i miss you dude.
HAPPY 3 MONTH!
-hugs!

Monday, June 20, 2005

leaving on a jet planeee

okay. a coach actually. owell..

dad's sending me to school at 7.30 which is only like 10mins away..?
yea.. gosh.having the 'uhh-do-i-hafta-go?? -whines-' feelings again. gahness. im sure ill have fun la.. but nyeh. i just got home and im aching and ill miss some people.

haha.. kae. ill miss you dude..olivejuice! lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.
-hugs.

aighttt.. shall go prep myself or something.. dont miss me doods..
`bangg.

back

back from kl. had a blast..time seriously flew. and im back. here.
and leaving again tmr. aching all over..

spent most of my time wif the guys cos deyre more fun. haha.. and my armmm is dying cos one of em punched me. gah.. guys must never punch girls because theyre made to have more muscle mass or whatever. pain...

and ill blog more bout my family hols next time. gah, tired. reached home at 11.45pm..uhhuhs.. yawns..

must still pack for taman negara trip.yup!aight.. gnites

olivejuice so much dude.
miss u alot alot alot

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

nyeh

i cant use the comp much nemore on account that i did badly for my mids. hmms.. not that i care much nowadays. finally got time to read sia.. uhhuhs.. so far ive read 2 1/2 books since thurs. n theyre thick. yayyy! READING IS FUN! whahas..

hmms.. hols are boring. think im gonna go ard spore to all the libs to look for the books to the series im reading. that'll be nice.. sighh.

irritated alot lately.im suffering from sibling-itis..? rmb that pets ws in pri skl?? kae nvm. yea.. my younger sisters have been living at my aunt's hse for awhile now cos of my cuz's wedding n stuffs. den like even when theyre not home, mom n dad mentions the youngest sis every few secs. how smartt she is. how creative she is. how cutee she is. gawd. im smart, creative and cute too.

furthermore, they spoil her like shit. gah..she does something wrong, noone scolds her. she's pervertic,lazy and bullies her older sister, the 3rd kid, i meann.. she's a monster seriously. just a cute monster. fuck it. anddd to think that me n my older sis were kept on a tight leash while the other 2 are turning out like whatt sia. they dont get scolded for whatever shit they do. n i recall vividly when i was 8, i refused to go to one silat session cos i was tired. then i made a tantrum, crying n stuffs n i got locked in my room at night with no lights. at the time, my fav book was goosebumps and i had a veryy active imagination. that was a traumatic experience which caused my current fear of being alone in the dark. uhhuhs. child abuse i tell you..

owell. last week was kinda fun. no studying still..gosh.my dad's gonna kill me.oops..

monday: handed in instruments to thiock at sch. den went to fareast to meet pltnmates. den me,sn,yh,zr went to watch monster-in-law. hahs.. oh, he came along. uhhuhs.. then pltnmates had to go home and me n him took 190 from meridien and just went ardd..hahs. slept abit. nice

tuesday: read book

wednesday: went aunts house to help out with the wedding.i didnt help.read book play with cousins. nyeh.. im confused bout my sexual orientation. i must be a guy really..

thursday: cousin nikah-ed! the kadi came an hr+ late.. hoho! my cuz was totally stressed out. laffs.. so funny.. den in the end it was sweet.n i was soooo aaw-ed by the fact that one of the hantaran's which the bride's side gave us were a couple of cans of root beer. my cousin's fav. aaaaaaawwwwww....

friday: naz needed ncc notes.farin needed newsweek. i needed bball. so afta lending them the stuffs, we played bball at farin's courts. then 3 pri sch kids wanted to play 3-3 with us.. ahahahahs. we lost obviously. we couldnt really score much and i suspect the little boys are bball players so they know what theyre doing. and naz bullies the little kid! tsktsk.. how could you dude? heh. and i banged into naz when trying to catch the ball. ouch.. dude, youre hard. O.o.. anww, he ran alot la. me n farin just stood to catch the ball. yayy! refined ladies dont go running ard you see..
then we went to the fitness corner where me n farin used to go alot last time. swung ard on the parallel bars, monkey bars.. was fun la. n farin's a sloth

saturday: ndp rehearsal. stupid really.. cept that the dinner was superb! a hugee slize of pizza, 3 chicken drumsticks and 2 slices of garlic bread, each. uhhuhs.. yummm.. n i almost shrieked when one of the girls from anudder sch threw away 3 perfect drumsticks. i meann..think of the 3rd world countries! think of me! gah..
then went to cousin's marhaban. in no4. wahhahas. i had my badges on and rank looking so goooood. yeaaah. n when i came, the guys were like salute the sgt! n i grinned. ahahahahs..

sunday: wedding. zerui arr. came late.. then pltnmates all came late. so they missed the bus to the bride's side. bummer.. then afta they ate, we all ran off to 1sg nadiah's hse to give her bdae prezze. heh. got cake summore ar! ahaahs.. it was funny la..

couldnt find it at first. got the wrong street. den sn,zr n ge took taxi while me n yh took bus and walked alott. cos none of the taxis wanted to take 5 pple.humphs..

we put the stuffs then were scared children might take away the balloons or prezzes so we wrote a note. with the checklist of the delivery. then we rang the bell. noone answered. so we were like. oh?.. hahas.. then afta that we were like go down stairs while ge went up to pretend she's just a passerby talking on her phone. then she went up the first time, noone. so she went again. then she saw a pair of feet. then she screamed "pltnmates! pltnmates!"then we all ran down the stairs. n apparently i was the one who yelled "run". ah, its instict you see.. thennn, when we thought we were safe at the 1st floor..gasping for breath, 1sg decided to come down. so we rannn. in heels mind you. aching feet.. then 1sg called and told us to stop running. then when she appeared behind us with a simple "part cs", we jumped and hid behind pillars. gahhness..
she liked the surprise eventhough there were complications earlier on when we were on the way there. it was nice la.. den 1sg walked us to chinese garden mrt n while walking i took off my heels. kinda nice to walk barefooted..ahahs..

yea.. so that's my week. wahahs.. so long sia. owell.. i think ill do some studying today. yupp!
oh, n im going hols with my close relatives on fri-sunday. then mon nite will set off to taman negara with rgsncc. uhhuhs.. so funn. n be back by thurs. uhhhuhs.. dont miss me people! yayy

okay. shall go finish up another book before i study. aightt.

*olivejuice lots n lots.
you can do it!hahs..

Saturday, June 04, 2005

specialist course

its finally over. cant say that im proud of myself
disappointed really..

well, i got to be ic quite a few times.. right mark alot ar.. ran from place to place.. timer.. just listen to my voice dude. i tried so hard.. but all i got was a piece of rank. okay, 2nd sergeant isnt dat bad. but dat wasnt what i worked so hard for la..

ncos told me sir diden like me. but then again, he didnt seem the biased sort.. so perhaps i just wasnt good enough. but still! gosh.. the special pltn, those shortlisted for pltnbests and other awards, four were from thunder four. maisha-cedar, kelvin oh-evergreen(pltnbest), ?-whitley(company best) and kenneth-st gabriel. bloody hell.. the first three totally deserved it la.. dey were good, they put in alot of effort and well it paid off. but was the fucking hell did kenneth do to get chosen sia? 1sg said she asked sir why he chosen that smug faced grinning idiot and u noe wat that dude said?? "i couldnt find anyone else" effing shit man. are u blind?? call me ego or whatever mann.. i deserve that as much as all my pltnmates did. we put in every effort into spec course okay..

anw, congrats ge-pltnbest T1, shuning-pltnbest T3 and zerui-ifc best overall. ahhahs. lucky shitheads. esp zerui, who actually diden even complete her ifc..

gawd. i cried like shit la.. outside camp of course. spec course totally wasted. ah, should be grateful for my rank la.. but well.. rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.

oh. i love Thunder Four mann.. you guys rock okay. thanks for helping me out when i was stresssed and spazzing out. the dudes who didnt let me fail my mutuals by asking questions n stuffs. the dudes who gave me smiles and co-operated wimme when i needed them to do things. the dudes who cheered and showed enthusiasm when necessary. "ic, u never cheer, ic!" ahahs.. you guys really made my time worthwhile. And special mention to benjamin from st gabriels.ahahs. you did good dude.. so proud of you. oh, charlene, dont worry bout not getting any award. its the effort that counts. n u did put in effort, i saw. oh, the guys did improve in the end la. T4 at least got a few good bangs..

oh. n im shortest in T4 cos the only guy shorter den me from gan eng seng diden come for the parade and when we did 'yang tinggi' i was at the end. then the dude beside me was like "ic, u shorter den me" n grinned. bahhh. oh. hahs. n when dey all ask to fall in some time or another, they'd march n stop abt a foot from me and dey look down n say "permission to fall in ic". ahahs. owell.. nice memories..

aightt.. owell 2sg syimmy. think its time to let go of spec course. im gonna be the best specialist i can be. be a good role model and stuffs. lead by example.. rgsncc all the way..

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