It's Saturday and im at home.

When was the last time i was home on a Saturday afternoon? =/

anw this week has been pretty interesting.
Monday: Facilitation at Gan Eng Seng pri, which was not bad. the kids weren't too noisy and they were pretty cooperative yup. Went home to rest up then met pri sch babes for dinner at Al-Azhar. btw the mixed grill there is pretty awesome. quite a huge serving for $10.90 and it was yummeh. Karaoke afterwards was lol stuff. I let lose more than i did with nazzer, which made me wonder just how much of myself that he still doesnt know about even after 5yrs and what that all meant. But i suppose everyone just acts differently with different groups, and just because I dont feel super comfortable singing in front of nazzer, that doesnt mean im not comfortable being around him. Cos that's not at all true, hmm. Anw cabbed over to diana's house afterwards with Macs cinnamon melts to wish her an early happy 20th (:

Tues: Mega bummmm. was supposed to go the gym with parents in the morning but we all overslept =/

Wed: Gym with mom and older sis. I drove to the gym without my license woops. anw gym was pretty productive. forced myself to run 2.4k on the threadmill but my timing was 5mins slower than my usual when i was in sch. Dad and younger sis took the mrt and joined us for breakfast lol. Then went home to shower and went for job briefing at 2. headed for cityhall afterwards for Breeks with na, taufiq and ari. havent met them in awhilee..

Thurs: Was late for my first trainer gig at vs and had to cab from Eunos mrt nyeh. reached at 8.45 when the lesson was starting at 8.50 O.o anw the sec1 bois are v well-behaved so it went well ((: got some juice from the canteen, which tasted horrible, then we went in Jeff's car for Mayflower sec. the other girl who was in the car with me was telling me that she heard that the kids were tough, but it was really alright in the end cos the kids were pretty nice (: although some of my class kids dozed off at one point, they mostly paid attention when i woke them up. LOL, fun la at least. and making money's really fun too :D

met sis afterwards at Yishun for lunch and to get some stuff for granny cos we were gonna go visit her. we hadnt seen her in superrr long and it didnt feel right so yeah. granny loves telling stories and some of them are so amusing hahaha.

Fri: i set my alarm for 7 but i never actually wake up to my phone alarm cos the button tt shuts it off is too damn convenient urgh. so anw younger sis came into my room at 8.45 to wake me up so we rushed and managed to leave the house by 9.10 (they take foreverrr to get ready). took dad's car to teck whye market to get chicken and some herbs cos i wanted to try cuz's damn nice chicken cutlet recipe. we were rushing quite abit cos dad needed the car by 10.

after we got our macs breakfast, i made my youngers sisters wait downstairs while i went up the multi-storey carpark to get the car. my parking lot was srsly tight, and i guess i overestimated the allowance and turned out of the lot too early and didnt drive out far enough. bloody car got whammed against this low concrete barrier thing and there's a dent at the side door bumper thing. anw dad was pissed and now i hafta pay half the amount of damages.

It's not like im a bad driver seh, cos i think i can drive quite welll..? but srsly im so fucking annoyed by how i keep getting into messed up situations when i try so damn hard to make sure they dont happen again. it's not fair when i keep picking myself up after shit happens and then more shit just freaking happens. in this case, after the suzuki swift fiasco of 1st oct where i hadta pay $350 for damages in a bloody freak accident (in an otherwise smooth driving experience for the entire weekend). I didnt cry, and i picked myself up and went on to look for jobs to get my money back. I thought "at least i've learnt something from this". and just when i've almost recovered the amount of money i've lost, it happens again wtf.

also, i actually went to the market by car cos i didnt wanna spend my own money on bus transport. -.- plus how is it fair that i hafta pay such a hefty price when the only reason i went to the market was to buy stuff to cook for the family?? UNFAIRNESS IN LIFE.

the worst part is how dad makes it seem like i never learn from my mistakes. like i Choose to drive recklessly. Yes i know im rough most of the time, (which btw is really just how i am) but why cant he see that im trying so hard to change? sobbed quitee uncontrollably for awhile in my room but i got over it, owells. sis got me famous amos to cheer me up ((:

anw left home after awhile to accompany nazzer to renew his passport (what would you do without me eh?) then we visited army market awhile and had some food yup.

Manhattan fish market lunch with jcu dudes and Buried afterwards. i thought Buried was really nice! not bad for a one-man show cos his acting is superb and i was srsly gripped most of the time, which is amazing considering how he was in a freaking box the entire time and he was probably in a studio or something lol.

Met canoe mates at dhoby ghaut afterwards for dinner at Sarpinos. it's so awesome to see everyone again, it's been awhile (: we got some strange bubble tea-ish drinks afterwards (no, not koi), which i thought was rather overpriced though i prolly would've enjoyed my drink more if i had chosen 80% sugar hmm. brought our drinks over to PS ljs cos selene wanted to get some food. teammates are <3 ((: Sat: ie today. woke up early to marinade my chicken. then spent the rest of my morning watching Community, which is awesomee (say it in Barney stinson's high pitched tone woots!) anw i was sleepy but i was too uh lazy to take a nap but i eventually knocked out. and i didnt get to cook my chicken in the end cos mom decided to cook cos i took too long. owells tmr then

anw i think i know how i wanna end all my entries from now on. (:

*Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day. ~Author Unknown

Revival post One.

Wow, it's been more than a year since my last post. Hmm so i've been saving my old blog entries in jpeg format, ie. PrtSc-ing them into Paint, and reading all my old entries (dating back to mid sec 2) made me feel 1.nostalgic, cos i srsly recorded like Everything, and 2.extremely regretful that i hadnt blogged for a year, esp how alott had happened this year ):

I wasnt too keen on continuing this blog cos 1.my blog entries were embarrassingly retarded, childish and self-absorbed and 2.i talk a hell lot bout nazzer, didnt i? DDD: but alas it was he who convinced me that it'll be a waste to stop blogging entirely.

anw entries from now on shall take place at least once a week, And i will talk little about nazzer or none at all (though i think it's super cool that i've had this blog way before we got together, until now hee. but enough of that), And this blog will still be all about me, simply cos the focus is to record every detail of my life for memories sake so lol.

But firstly, i just wanted to talk about something i've been thinking about lately. Y'know how we hear stories of infidelities, in both marriages and in less formal forms of relationships. When we were younger, we didnt think it was all that common, but im starting to think that perhaps it's just part and parcel of relationships? I mean, if it could happen to long and uh fruitful marriages, it's bound to happen in teenage romances as well. I've seen people whose relationships make it past these infidelities, and i've also seen people break these ties. I suppose it boils down to whether the relationship is worth saving in the first place. Im not saying that i take infidelity lightly, or that i would deal with it in a completely rational manner (dont you dare, nw) but im just saying that this shit happens and it sucks. When/if it happens to us, we should simply trudge on and not feel so alone cos well, it happens? But one thing we should always remember is that friends and family will always be around to give you the support and strength you need if you choose to salvage the relationship, or to help you move on (:

isnt it disappointing to grow up only to find out that the world is an awful place to live in? ):

Anw, wanted to share some super(not reallyy) exciting news. So i've been doing this facilitation job for 2 companies part-time, cos im having my school holidays now and i was super bored, and my supervisor dude called me today to ask if i could be a trainer for this other program cos he thought i was confident enough to do it, hahahaha! so now instead of $7/hr, im getting paid $20/hr. COOL SHIT RIGHTTTT :D hee and for my first facilitation, he made me do a school that was running a sort-of pilot project where the facilitators conducted a lesson in class for the last hour, compared to the usual facilitation in the hall with the entire cohort, cos he thought i was confident from his first impression. Way to boost my ego woots! k enough of that.

Now that wasnt exactly the comeback entry i was hoping to write, but a summary of my exciting year would take much too long though that entry is definitely coming in the near future yup.

K need to think of a new way to end my entries hmm.