oh screw it

am exhausted. and i really really am on a short fuse.

open house today was just URGH. i dont get why mom refuses to use disposable cups and plates and utensils. we kept having to wash and wash and wash. and the kitchen sink just chose the most convenient to choke and die. GAR. which meant tt we were washing the dishes in the toilet. so unglam. mom wants to use proper glassware cos she says it feels more like home but whatthehell NOONE does tt anymore cos it's so freaking tiring and pointless and it's not like anyone gives a damn if they use disposable plates or not!! dammit.

and dad was being his usual chauvinistic self, refusing to help out in the kitchen and was being anal when i asked him to get an ice bucket, since he was in charge of getting the ice after all.. -.- oh but i guess credit goes to dad for trying to fix the sink.. keyword being trying of course.

the only friends who came over were 3 teammates. fuck who cares..

some ppl cant even reply my messages. awesome

ohyes and i am so pissed off with relatives who freeload. yes very very very very annoyed with them. i mean honestly, just because my parents are generous and they dont expect anything in return, it doesnt mean tt you should just expect us to give and give. damn friggin thickskinned sia. and the dumb anniversary project tt my parents are planning. everyone replied so super fast, yes yes we will go and drag along our whole extended freeloading family cos YAY it's free. AND I CANT EVEN GET MY BACK CHECKED OUT, EVENTHO THE PAIN REFUSES TO GO AWAY PERMANENTLY, COS IM WORRIED I MIGHT NEED PHYSIO=MONEYMONEY AND YET THEY'RE WILLING TO SPEND 5K plus ON OUR RELATIVES. im so sure.

some ppl still owe my parents the money they borrowed and they pretend it's perfectly alright not to return asap cos Oh you're very rich redi what. im so sure.

and i hate the expectations of my sisters and i. it's like they're waiting for us to screw up or something. babies out of wedlock, transverstites, gays, jailbirds, druggies, divorces, cohabitation etc. why cant i have a normal family?

screwed up day la

and yeah happy 31st woo