yayy. am cured. for today.. smilesmilesmile. teddy's happy. right teddy? -teddy nods.
sigh..
boring stuffs. ndp at school was.. interesting
i still think our batch has good performers. yes. anww. 309 won 2nd for dance comp!!! weeeee. hahahs. BLOWWWWW. yeaaaah! 1st place was 303 and 3rd place was 307. yup! the sec4 contest was amusingg. the winning class rocks. hahahs. obscene siaaa. -close eyes
anw, then the singing part was fun. -jumps ard. yea.. I LOVE GEEEEE! ge rocks. uhhuhs
speech day goh rehearsal. dumbness. kawalan kehormatan hormat panglima hormat. my voice was breaking. oops. screamed too much in the morn. hahs.
rafflesians unite, we'll show our might (screams)
we'll show them how rafflesians fight (screams)
we'll walk to the fight in green black white
cos aint nobody's gonna break our stride
cos we're for we're for
raffles -ooh
raffles -ahh( x2)
we'll fight in the sun we'll fight in the rain (screams)
we'll fight to give our school a name (screams)
we'll from from the game with pride and fame
cos we feel no fear and we feel no pain
cos welre for we're for
raffles -ooh
raffes- ahh
we're for we're for
raffles yeaaaah!
filiae melioris aevi
rgsncc rocks my socks
Monday, August 08, 2005
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
last trg
ahwell.. pretty bumming day.hohum
i dont know. i give up la. it really doesnt matter if our pltn is like the most hated part cos we're just problematic and all but.. yea.. nvm
me lovelovelove ncos. gosh.. was crying like, quotes priya: water tap. something's wrong with my plumbing. hoho! anw, cant think about it. how'd it end like this.. it's kinda sad i guess. but during the last half hour or so, when we had company singing and the shortshortshort time we had with our ncos was painful. we've gone through ord 3 times. saying goodbye to people you love is really hard. what's worse is that this time, we no longer worry about which nco combi we're getting next year, or adapting to new temp ncos and all that. its scary. hahahs. scary..
started off trg at ava room. i was having special olympics meeting so i came down to pltn table to find none of them there, but pltnmates sposed to have some chn thg so i was like okayy..
they're opening up ncc air. rite.riiite. watthehell. whyyy are they doing this? crapcrapcrap. oh And a possibility of another ug. riteee. damn. npcc.. effing effing. i never knew what really happened in the past, but ncc beat npcc. if it returns, we're so screwed. all the girls will duh choose np la. -grumbles. nvm. its okayy. have faith. rgsncc is a legacy that will burn forever in rgs history. no matter what maam says. "If you have partas next year..." sniff. my heart like just stopped beating when they told us la. gosh.. i believe partas and partbs will stay on. yup! esp after the wonderfully emo trg today. i love the company bond.. -grins.
achievement day. not much of an achievement i spose.. i was pt ic. gah.. started off with complicated jumping jacks. did 365 1/4. for a bittersweet part c year. zerui's knee had problems so i was afraid we wouldnt be able to finish it togetehr. we did it in the end. Then we did 19 bodymax. 19 to represent 12 sec 4s and 7 partcs. yup! fun.. then we did 16 suicides. was sloww. but yeah, did it as a pltn. 4 squared was it? then we did water sprinklers. 41 each!( for company strength) and we made sure we timed slower. And we sang right here waiting at the end. only the first verse and chorus tho. 1sg nadiah said we should sing a shorter song or something cos we wont make it. but we didd. yeahh. we sang nicenice lorhh. it was truly a wonderful feeling. lovelovelove ncos..
then we went to the fitness corner(?). yup! did suicidal frame. i did it wrong i think. hurt my hip when i slung over. ouch. then we did the wall. uhhuhs. we got up pretty fast..? i guess. i was last up. i can climb the wall myself ar. i rock i rock i rock. wanted ncos to come up with us but they said they couldnt. ahwell.. lovelovelove ncos..
then we finally did our bangs. rite. i thought it was embarassing. some thought it was good. owell.. 33 was it? but we did more than that.. uhhuhs.. ncos made us do c&c style. so like each of us got the pltn to do about 5..? yeah. lovelovelovencos..
then we went void deck. ncos drill-ed us. gosh. our bangs were inconsistent dammit. but when we're good, we're good. uhhuhs. gosh.. who's to drill us next year? who's to look after us? who's going to care for us? we are no longer cadets. although that's what sirs said when we left specs course, but this time. really.. gosh. its just too scary..
then we had company bonding time. part cs sposed to plan and coordinate and stuffs. me n py intro-ed the thgy. sec4s were pretty sarcastic at the start i think. about the welcome thg and enjoy yourselves and the uncharacteristic cheering. so yeah, was pretty stung.
first we had company games. h20 was short.. yea. then blow wind bloww. "blow wind blow. blow all those who arent my pltnmates" hahs. oh. all the parts cept sec4s hadta do forfeit for h20 and partcs did the natl day dance. dumbness. they wanted the 2 singer people and like i was taufik but i didnt sing cos i duno the song. rite..hahs
company cheers. We...nice ending bang. -echoes.. turn on the radio and the rest.. partas and bs dun really know the cheers..? sad i guess. but i still lovelovelove company and ncos!
then company songs. emo stuff la.. am happy we taught partas the cheers and songs. i didnt really cry at first.. but i duno. was so sad.. reallyreally dont want sec4s to go. am so scared for the coming year and all that.. dont want to be in charge. commanding all trg is bleeding boring. some more pltnmates think im sadist la. i ammm.. watthehell. i fear for my jnrs. gar! shall be more level-headed. yea..
wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you..
If a picture paints a thousand words,Then why can´t I paint you?'Cause the words could never show,The you I´ve come to know.
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you..
And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
we cant change anything now. but to cherish the past, the memories that we will hold to so dearly. sec4s will leave us. like all the previous batches. but we'll still love them. no matter what.
the last few moments of last trg. we sat talking to ncos. i was a leaky tap. nyeh. they gave us glow in the dark stuffs. no matter what happens, there's still a star in all of us. or something. yeah. glow in the dark dust in tube with star inside. lovelovelove ncos..
gave them brownies. yummmyyness..
-its not perfect. because we arent
-the bittersweet taste represents the bittersweet journey with ncos
- but no matter what it still tastes good.
and konyaku jelly? yea.. ngam.
- its wobbly but doesnt really mooove cos its got a strong base (or has it got to do with friction? hmms..)
then we had our last words. went down the row with everyone saying one word.
reallyreally love ncos.. no matter what transpired between us and ncos, we still love them alot. and it hurts cos we've almost reached the end of the journey. the road we travelled was reaal bumpy but i hope we come out of it stronger.. as a pltn and as a person. learnt alot with ncos.. learnt to understand, learnt to love.. im pretty sorry about how it turned out towards the end. but we never expected the journey to be easy so i guess, with the problems and circumstances, we did pretty okay.. and i lovelovelove ncos. sosososososo much. dont leave please? sniff..
rgsncc part cs `05 lovelovelove 1sg nadiah,1sg jessica, staff vanessa and 1sg carmen. you've made a difference in our lives. thank you.
oh. there was some unhappiness with pltnmates just now after trg. walked to busstop with some pltnmates and was like walking behind and mumbling to myself that it wasnt even ord yet cos py told me to shuttup cos there's a great possibility that i'll say something stupid. i agree. hugged teddy all the way home. on both the crowded buses. was sad. needed a hug.. hahs. aightt.
raffles company all the way to victory
raffles company reigns supreme
symbol of integrity
that's what we are
no kidding
come with us and you will see
that we are the best
hoi.
i dont know. i give up la. it really doesnt matter if our pltn is like the most hated part cos we're just problematic and all but.. yea.. nvm
me lovelovelove ncos. gosh.. was crying like, quotes priya: water tap. something's wrong with my plumbing. hoho! anw, cant think about it. how'd it end like this.. it's kinda sad i guess. but during the last half hour or so, when we had company singing and the shortshortshort time we had with our ncos was painful. we've gone through ord 3 times. saying goodbye to people you love is really hard. what's worse is that this time, we no longer worry about which nco combi we're getting next year, or adapting to new temp ncos and all that. its scary. hahahs. scary..
started off trg at ava room. i was having special olympics meeting so i came down to pltn table to find none of them there, but pltnmates sposed to have some chn thg so i was like okayy..
they're opening up ncc air. rite.riiite. watthehell. whyyy are they doing this? crapcrapcrap. oh And a possibility of another ug. riteee. damn. npcc.. effing effing. i never knew what really happened in the past, but ncc beat npcc. if it returns, we're so screwed. all the girls will duh choose np la. -grumbles. nvm. its okayy. have faith. rgsncc is a legacy that will burn forever in rgs history. no matter what maam says. "If you have partas next year..." sniff. my heart like just stopped beating when they told us la. gosh.. i believe partas and partbs will stay on. yup! esp after the wonderfully emo trg today. i love the company bond.. -grins.
achievement day. not much of an achievement i spose.. i was pt ic. gah.. started off with complicated jumping jacks. did 365 1/4. for a bittersweet part c year. zerui's knee had problems so i was afraid we wouldnt be able to finish it togetehr. we did it in the end. Then we did 19 bodymax. 19 to represent 12 sec 4s and 7 partcs. yup! fun.. then we did 16 suicides. was sloww. but yeah, did it as a pltn. 4 squared was it? then we did water sprinklers. 41 each!( for company strength) and we made sure we timed slower. And we sang right here waiting at the end. only the first verse and chorus tho. 1sg nadiah said we should sing a shorter song or something cos we wont make it. but we didd. yeahh. we sang nicenice lorhh. it was truly a wonderful feeling. lovelovelove ncos..
then we went to the fitness corner(?). yup! did suicidal frame. i did it wrong i think. hurt my hip when i slung over. ouch. then we did the wall. uhhuhs. we got up pretty fast..? i guess. i was last up. i can climb the wall myself ar. i rock i rock i rock. wanted ncos to come up with us but they said they couldnt. ahwell.. lovelovelove ncos..
then we finally did our bangs. rite. i thought it was embarassing. some thought it was good. owell.. 33 was it? but we did more than that.. uhhuhs.. ncos made us do c&c style. so like each of us got the pltn to do about 5..? yeah. lovelovelovencos..
then we went void deck. ncos drill-ed us. gosh. our bangs were inconsistent dammit. but when we're good, we're good. uhhuhs. gosh.. who's to drill us next year? who's to look after us? who's going to care for us? we are no longer cadets. although that's what sirs said when we left specs course, but this time. really.. gosh. its just too scary..
then we had company bonding time. part cs sposed to plan and coordinate and stuffs. me n py intro-ed the thgy. sec4s were pretty sarcastic at the start i think. about the welcome thg and enjoy yourselves and the uncharacteristic cheering. so yeah, was pretty stung.
first we had company games. h20 was short.. yea. then blow wind bloww. "blow wind blow. blow all those who arent my pltnmates" hahs. oh. all the parts cept sec4s hadta do forfeit for h20 and partcs did the natl day dance. dumbness. they wanted the 2 singer people and like i was taufik but i didnt sing cos i duno the song. rite..hahs
company cheers. We...nice ending bang. -echoes.. turn on the radio and the rest.. partas and bs dun really know the cheers..? sad i guess. but i still lovelovelove company and ncos!
then company songs. emo stuff la.. am happy we taught partas the cheers and songs. i didnt really cry at first.. but i duno. was so sad.. reallyreally dont want sec4s to go. am so scared for the coming year and all that.. dont want to be in charge. commanding all trg is bleeding boring. some more pltnmates think im sadist la. i ammm.. watthehell. i fear for my jnrs. gar! shall be more level-headed. yea..
wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you..
If a picture paints a thousand words,Then why can´t I paint you?'Cause the words could never show,The you I´ve come to know.
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you..
And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
we cant change anything now. but to cherish the past, the memories that we will hold to so dearly. sec4s will leave us. like all the previous batches. but we'll still love them. no matter what.
the last few moments of last trg. we sat talking to ncos. i was a leaky tap. nyeh. they gave us glow in the dark stuffs. no matter what happens, there's still a star in all of us. or something. yeah. glow in the dark dust in tube with star inside. lovelovelove ncos..
gave them brownies. yummmyyness..
-its not perfect. because we arent
-the bittersweet taste represents the bittersweet journey with ncos
- but no matter what it still tastes good.
and konyaku jelly? yea.. ngam.
- its wobbly but doesnt really mooove cos its got a strong base (or has it got to do with friction? hmms..)
then we had our last words. went down the row with everyone saying one word.
reallyreally love ncos.. no matter what transpired between us and ncos, we still love them alot. and it hurts cos we've almost reached the end of the journey. the road we travelled was reaal bumpy but i hope we come out of it stronger.. as a pltn and as a person. learnt alot with ncos.. learnt to understand, learnt to love.. im pretty sorry about how it turned out towards the end. but we never expected the journey to be easy so i guess, with the problems and circumstances, we did pretty okay.. and i lovelovelove ncos. sosososososo much. dont leave please? sniff..
rgsncc part cs `05 lovelovelove 1sg nadiah,1sg jessica, staff vanessa and 1sg carmen. you've made a difference in our lives. thank you.
oh. there was some unhappiness with pltnmates just now after trg. walked to busstop with some pltnmates and was like walking behind and mumbling to myself that it wasnt even ord yet cos py told me to shuttup cos there's a great possibility that i'll say something stupid. i agree. hugged teddy all the way home. on both the crowded buses. was sad. needed a hug.. hahs. aightt.
raffles company all the way to victory
raffles company reigns supreme
symbol of integrity
that's what we are
no kidding
come with us and you will see
that we are the best
hoi.
Monday, August 01, 2005
yawn
hahs. spent the whole of yst night doing hist pt. som last minute la. dumbness..
ohh. after ndp on sat ryyt, went with family to the musical TunnelThroughTime for this angmoh dude who got stroke, with a singaporean wife and whatnots. Sposed to be a musical abt strength and love and stuffs.. kinda sweet i guess? yup.. then at the end they showed a video of the dude and like he communicated with slight nodding and eye movement. He said: Live life like today's your last. or somethingg like that. was pretty sad.. made me cry.. nyeh. then he came out at the end with his wheelchair. got quite some people who gave standing ovation. i was tempeted. but i was in no4 laa. o.O anw, funny stuffs. my family was at the front row, which is like 50bucks per seat but my dad actually paid 30bucks for 6 tickets cos the wife came to my dad's office and appealed to fill up the theatre. pretty cool la..
then we went for dinner at bedok someplace and somethg funny happened. haha! cos dad bought satay la the pay redi. then like abt 20 mins later dad realized that the dude didnt give him the change of 4 bucks. so okay, he asked the waiter to help ask the guy. then he came, ask what what, then he went back to his place. a moment later, he returned with a thick wad of notes and was like.. "how much?" and proceeded to remove the amount. woah.. sindir tajam seh.. whaahhas
ord trg janau.. i love partas and partbs. so zaii! bangs so gooood. lovelovelovelove rgsncc.
ooh. we thought partas new drill! "tun hormat ke kenan, hormat! -check one two three four five down.." partas so smartt. they learn very fastt. lovelovelove partas.. then the last half hour, we thought partas company songs and cheers! weeee. omigosh, partas dunno company cheers laa. they said they only did it 1st or 2nd trg. nvmnvm. they learn fast. uhhuhs.. was feeling melancholic? yea.. miss exexsec4s and sexsec4s. told the partas how ord felt. told them to cherish their ncos and like to put in their all for ord and achievement day.
"company do you all love your sec4s?" "yes sgt!" -echoes. coolness..
we've decided that we dont hate sec4s and even if they do hate us, we still love them. it is possible to love them anw.. yup! andd we wouldnt be so affected if we didnt love them..uhhuhs. we'll make them proud of us. yesyes.. ord in 12 days.. gonna be soo busy..
and guess whattt! partb temp ncos asked the partbs to rank the partcs in order of fierce-ness. IM NUMBER ONE! omigoshh. was so shocked. -stares at teddy. he came with me to ord trg and he was shocked too. -blinks. owell. evil me. be scareddd. gar!
yayy.. shall be even stricter with company. yesyes.. must not let it go slack. lovelovelove rgsncc. when we cheered raffles company and We, i was like.. happyy. company is veryveryvery good.. i hope we'd be able to do a good job. currently partas and partbs standard are good. they managed 16 perfect company bangs. nice..
And next year's acsm and csm areeee.. GE AND YUHUI respectively. was kinda surprised. but yup! good i guess. i love pltnmates! -hughugg.
OKAY. im still kinda sad about what happened on thurs. but its okay. uhhuhs.. we'll get through this. olivejuice..
gonna try see school counsellor cos Someone wants me too. im not suicidal laa. humphs.. but i guess it'll be interesting. and i do have some things to talk about.. right. me have issues.
right. me lovelovelove rgsncc and yoo!
ohh. after ndp on sat ryyt, went with family to the musical TunnelThroughTime for this angmoh dude who got stroke, with a singaporean wife and whatnots. Sposed to be a musical abt strength and love and stuffs.. kinda sweet i guess? yup.. then at the end they showed a video of the dude and like he communicated with slight nodding and eye movement. He said: Live life like today's your last. or somethingg like that. was pretty sad.. made me cry.. nyeh. then he came out at the end with his wheelchair. got quite some people who gave standing ovation. i was tempeted. but i was in no4 laa. o.O anw, funny stuffs. my family was at the front row, which is like 50bucks per seat but my dad actually paid 30bucks for 6 tickets cos the wife came to my dad's office and appealed to fill up the theatre. pretty cool la..
then we went for dinner at bedok someplace and somethg funny happened. haha! cos dad bought satay la the pay redi. then like abt 20 mins later dad realized that the dude didnt give him the change of 4 bucks. so okay, he asked the waiter to help ask the guy. then he came, ask what what, then he went back to his place. a moment later, he returned with a thick wad of notes and was like.. "how much?" and proceeded to remove the amount. woah.. sindir tajam seh.. whaahhas
ord trg janau.. i love partas and partbs. so zaii! bangs so gooood. lovelovelovelove rgsncc.
ooh. we thought partas new drill! "tun hormat ke kenan, hormat! -check one two three four five down.." partas so smartt. they learn very fastt. lovelovelove partas.. then the last half hour, we thought partas company songs and cheers! weeee. omigosh, partas dunno company cheers laa. they said they only did it 1st or 2nd trg. nvmnvm. they learn fast. uhhuhs.. was feeling melancholic? yea.. miss exexsec4s and sexsec4s. told the partas how ord felt. told them to cherish their ncos and like to put in their all for ord and achievement day.
"company do you all love your sec4s?" "yes sgt!" -echoes. coolness..
we've decided that we dont hate sec4s and even if they do hate us, we still love them. it is possible to love them anw.. yup! andd we wouldnt be so affected if we didnt love them..uhhuhs. we'll make them proud of us. yesyes.. ord in 12 days.. gonna be soo busy..
and guess whattt! partb temp ncos asked the partbs to rank the partcs in order of fierce-ness. IM NUMBER ONE! omigoshh. was so shocked. -stares at teddy. he came with me to ord trg and he was shocked too. -blinks. owell. evil me. be scareddd. gar!
yayy.. shall be even stricter with company. yesyes.. must not let it go slack. lovelovelove rgsncc. when we cheered raffles company and We, i was like.. happyy. company is veryveryvery good.. i hope we'd be able to do a good job. currently partas and partbs standard are good. they managed 16 perfect company bangs. nice..
And next year's acsm and csm areeee.. GE AND YUHUI respectively. was kinda surprised. but yup! good i guess. i love pltnmates! -hughugg.
OKAY. im still kinda sad about what happened on thurs. but its okay. uhhuhs.. we'll get through this. olivejuice..
gonna try see school counsellor cos Someone wants me too. im not suicidal laa. humphs.. but i guess it'll be interesting. and i do have some things to talk about.. right. me have issues.
right. me lovelovelove rgsncc and yoo!
Friday, July 29, 2005
nyeh
somthing bad happened yst. dumbdumbdumb. someone must really hate me..
amaths was a killer. for the first time, i was totally prepared for the testla. then i saw the paper and died. nyehh
anw, after sch, went out.. hahahahs. busteddd
so yea. phone got taken.
was in pissed mode when dad talked to me. well, it better than being scared. when im scared, i just shut down. bahh.. so i go into pissed mode. it keeps me going? i duno. like trgs.. etc etc. its what allows me to pump continuously eventho im shit tired or endure scoldings even if i find it dumb. yae..the sort..
so anw. funny.. i thought i eat when im stressed. hmms.. recess now. goshh.. you know how they say people who are in lovee? can eat, can sleep.. so funny. hohum..
am feeling so dazed. puffy eyes.. hoho!
dad said i can never see him again. And i can neverr contact him. dad asked me to promise. i diden answer. so he said that he knows i'd just break my promise.. so he's telling me not to. yup! dilemma. on one hand, i dont wanna go against my dad and blatantly ignore his request. i mean.. after all he does care.. right. had a talk with my older sis in the dark before we went to bed. she said someone called up my mom. yea.. to the extent of describing him. scary stuff..
anww.. on the Other hand. yeah.. howw can i do what my dad wants me to do? depressing.. nyeh. so like when my dad brought the topic of him up, i was already fiddling with my hands, not looking at him and stuffs. gosh.. then dad said. is there a problem? i said no. hohumm..
well. fuck la. i was damn pissed.. dad was talking in his oh-so-superior voice againn.damn. gee.. im so unfilial. gosh.. anw, then like i didnt cry cos someone said i shouldnt.. then when i went into my room and closed the door, i cried. hohooo. yup! stupid really..
seriously considered getting run over by the cars on the way to school. that's how stupid ive become. oh, know the kid who got run over by a truck in cck? that's my little sister's mly class classmate. hohum. everyone dies eventually anw..
meh. i cant do what dad says leh. slight problem. emotional attachment. how dumb.. i cant imagine just losing contact with someone who's what i always wanted. He makes me happy. hahs. and now im sad. uhhuhs. aaaaaaw. mly starting soon. aightt.. `bangg.
olivejuicce alot alot alot. Happy 4 month! perfect timing hunhs.. sigh.
amaths was a killer. for the first time, i was totally prepared for the testla. then i saw the paper and died. nyehh
anw, after sch, went out.. hahahahs. busteddd
so yea. phone got taken.
was in pissed mode when dad talked to me. well, it better than being scared. when im scared, i just shut down. bahh.. so i go into pissed mode. it keeps me going? i duno. like trgs.. etc etc. its what allows me to pump continuously eventho im shit tired or endure scoldings even if i find it dumb. yae..the sort..
so anw. funny.. i thought i eat when im stressed. hmms.. recess now. goshh.. you know how they say people who are in lovee? can eat, can sleep.. so funny. hohum..
am feeling so dazed. puffy eyes.. hoho!
dad said i can never see him again. And i can neverr contact him. dad asked me to promise. i diden answer. so he said that he knows i'd just break my promise.. so he's telling me not to. yup! dilemma. on one hand, i dont wanna go against my dad and blatantly ignore his request. i mean.. after all he does care.. right. had a talk with my older sis in the dark before we went to bed. she said someone called up my mom. yea.. to the extent of describing him. scary stuff..
anww.. on the Other hand. yeah.. howw can i do what my dad wants me to do? depressing.. nyeh. so like when my dad brought the topic of him up, i was already fiddling with my hands, not looking at him and stuffs. gosh.. then dad said. is there a problem? i said no. hohumm..
well. fuck la. i was damn pissed.. dad was talking in his oh-so-superior voice againn.damn. gee.. im so unfilial. gosh.. anw, then like i didnt cry cos someone said i shouldnt.. then when i went into my room and closed the door, i cried. hohooo. yup! stupid really..
seriously considered getting run over by the cars on the way to school. that's how stupid ive become. oh, know the kid who got run over by a truck in cck? that's my little sister's mly class classmate. hohum. everyone dies eventually anw..
meh. i cant do what dad says leh. slight problem. emotional attachment. how dumb.. i cant imagine just losing contact with someone who's what i always wanted. He makes me happy. hahs. and now im sad. uhhuhs. aaaaaaw. mly starting soon. aightt.. `bangg.
olivejuicce alot alot alot. Happy 4 month! perfect timing hunhs.. sigh.
Monday, July 25, 2005
why bother?
gosh. am just completely drained.. endurance has its limits. and we have endured for sososososososososososososo long. and yet.
nvm. gosh. okay. embarassing to say that i broke down during training today. gah. whyy? ridiculous la.... nyeh
okay. we were all spazzing bout trg all day. like reaaaally spazzing. and when school finally ended, we're like, -shudder. and i was seriously hysterical. goshh. esp since Something baaad happened and praya hadta go home. yup.. scary stuff..
then we fall in to report. then saw 1sg coming down amphi steps and i was like -cries. gosh. cant believe myself la. strange me.. okay. that's One.
then normal stuffs.. go netball courts.. pt.. i was kinda annoyed i guess. They were like.. dont care at all and well.. stuffs.. sigh. anw, then i got real pissed i spose cos then i did that thing that i do when i get pissed. like, i was timing louder (albeit high pitched..?) and was going wayy fast. then also i felt.. numb. there wasnt any pain at all and i was hardly even sweating.. hmms.
yeah, well, then after that we did suicides. 18 rounds. nyeh. my ankle hurt sia. but we were stopped at 17 cos it started to rain. dang.. so we went to the covered walkway.. did 240 jumping jacks. sposedly 100 but somehow they increased it..? so, heck la. we can do it.. easyy. anw, then i dunooo. i got pissed Again. i was staring at the rain coming down. and like it was super heavy.. torrential rain? hahs.. the water was just like lashing at the ground. "heavens are crying for us" crap. was somewhat entranced and just kept going. fasterfaster. louderlouder. then suddenly 1sg nadiah yelled "Part Cs cut!" then silence. then i turned. sn was crying badd. and zr started too. then i bit my lip. i was crying. like damnnn. we were sposed to be strongg. they cant break us..gah! i duno. i cried cos i felt.. selfish? stupid really.. ryt? sigh.
this is what They have broken us down to? breaking down in the middle of pt?? Hugging?! for goodness sake.. dont You know how badly You are affecting us just because of Your selfishness. it may be in Your hands but You're just crushing it. not us. im damn well sick of everything. everythingg.
then we had psycho session. despicable. dont even bother hiding the Fact that it was that, a Psycho session. what's worse? i was taken in by what they said. a bit. just a bit. and it made me feel so damn bad. i cried. Again. gahh. i changed my nominations again. but it wasnt what they wanted. i dont think it was. i dont know why it matters really. it all comes back to the pltn. One for All. All for One. we intend to keep it that way.
ncos wrote us a letter in the end.. i duno. maybe they meant it? maybe they didnt. well, i'll try to keep the animosity aside. but seriously we really did respect you. all of you. you were all this really zai part. and we know we can never match up to your standard. but we try okay. we really do. Not that you realize, im sure.. But what's the pointt?
seriously. the psycho session was effing bullshit. it was sooooo contradictive. my mouth atually fell open. like -blinks. haha.. sadsadd.. Do You practise what you preach? haha. and they've got a different interpretation of traditions.. making a part like you may Not be your Job. but keeping the company alive. the company spirit burning. the bond that goes beyond what any outsider can possibly imagine. That is what makes us special. not just our standard.. whatever happened to all that?
i do love the company. i love my juniors. i love pltnmates. i dont hate you, if that's what you really want. i just dont like you very much. nopee..
start over. on a brand new slate. okay. ill be positive about it. and i bet if you read this. which you probably do. i guess you might decide that you dont want that at all. in fact, you probably hate us even more. well. i dont know. if you can be so open about it. so can i, right? or maybe. i just dont care what you think anymore. cos maybe. you just dont matter. to me at least. you cant break meee. okay. you have. but not anymore. -cringe. owell. doesnt fucking matter. not long now..
`bangg.
nvm. gosh. okay. embarassing to say that i broke down during training today. gah. whyy? ridiculous la.... nyeh
okay. we were all spazzing bout trg all day. like reaaaally spazzing. and when school finally ended, we're like, -shudder. and i was seriously hysterical. goshh. esp since Something baaad happened and praya hadta go home. yup.. scary stuff..
then we fall in to report. then saw 1sg coming down amphi steps and i was like -cries. gosh. cant believe myself la. strange me.. okay. that's One.
then normal stuffs.. go netball courts.. pt.. i was kinda annoyed i guess. They were like.. dont care at all and well.. stuffs.. sigh. anw, then i got real pissed i spose cos then i did that thing that i do when i get pissed. like, i was timing louder (albeit high pitched..?) and was going wayy fast. then also i felt.. numb. there wasnt any pain at all and i was hardly even sweating.. hmms.
yeah, well, then after that we did suicides. 18 rounds. nyeh. my ankle hurt sia. but we were stopped at 17 cos it started to rain. dang.. so we went to the covered walkway.. did 240 jumping jacks. sposedly 100 but somehow they increased it..? so, heck la. we can do it.. easyy. anw, then i dunooo. i got pissed Again. i was staring at the rain coming down. and like it was super heavy.. torrential rain? hahs.. the water was just like lashing at the ground. "heavens are crying for us" crap. was somewhat entranced and just kept going. fasterfaster. louderlouder. then suddenly 1sg nadiah yelled "Part Cs cut!" then silence. then i turned. sn was crying badd. and zr started too. then i bit my lip. i was crying. like damnnn. we were sposed to be strongg. they cant break us..gah! i duno. i cried cos i felt.. selfish? stupid really.. ryt? sigh.
this is what They have broken us down to? breaking down in the middle of pt?? Hugging?! for goodness sake.. dont You know how badly You are affecting us just because of Your selfishness. it may be in Your hands but You're just crushing it. not us. im damn well sick of everything. everythingg.
then we had psycho session. despicable. dont even bother hiding the Fact that it was that, a Psycho session. what's worse? i was taken in by what they said. a bit. just a bit. and it made me feel so damn bad. i cried. Again. gahh. i changed my nominations again. but it wasnt what they wanted. i dont think it was. i dont know why it matters really. it all comes back to the pltn. One for All. All for One. we intend to keep it that way.
ncos wrote us a letter in the end.. i duno. maybe they meant it? maybe they didnt. well, i'll try to keep the animosity aside. but seriously we really did respect you. all of you. you were all this really zai part. and we know we can never match up to your standard. but we try okay. we really do. Not that you realize, im sure.. But what's the pointt?
seriously. the psycho session was effing bullshit. it was sooooo contradictive. my mouth atually fell open. like -blinks. haha.. sadsadd.. Do You practise what you preach? haha. and they've got a different interpretation of traditions.. making a part like you may Not be your Job. but keeping the company alive. the company spirit burning. the bond that goes beyond what any outsider can possibly imagine. That is what makes us special. not just our standard.. whatever happened to all that?
i do love the company. i love my juniors. i love pltnmates. i dont hate you, if that's what you really want. i just dont like you very much. nopee..
start over. on a brand new slate. okay. ill be positive about it. and i bet if you read this. which you probably do. i guess you might decide that you dont want that at all. in fact, you probably hate us even more. well. i dont know. if you can be so open about it. so can i, right? or maybe. i just dont care what you think anymore. cos maybe. you just dont matter. to me at least. you cant break meee. okay. you have. but not anymore. -cringe. owell. doesnt fucking matter. not long now..
`bangg.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
depressed
sometimes, you just get sick and tired of the things you love.
And it just doesnt matter anymore.
sigh. not much of a choice.. i really do love it alot. i live breathe ___. but there's a limit and whatnots. and the amount of stress i can take. its just.. depressing?
i love ex sec 4s. i love exex sec 4s. -sniff. pltnmates miss them too. alotalotalot. weeeeee!
school's getting scary. not just ___. its the whole freaking school. gah. you never know what to expect. one moment you could be studying in class, and the next, you could be be physically tortured. okay. that doesnt make much sense.. but yeah. you never know.. scary stuff
foot still hurts. haha me. doctor says get plentyy of rest. yupyup! i soooo listened to her la. pump pump pump. run run run. hohum. and tmr got ndp. rite. squeeze my foot into a boot. hoho
yea. okay. fine. shall go sleep. got around to doing the udi essay. dumb really
And it just doesnt matter anymore.
sigh. not much of a choice.. i really do love it alot. i live breathe ___. but there's a limit and whatnots. and the amount of stress i can take. its just.. depressing?
i love ex sec 4s. i love exex sec 4s. -sniff. pltnmates miss them too. alotalotalot. weeeeee!
school's getting scary. not just ___. its the whole freaking school. gah. you never know what to expect. one moment you could be studying in class, and the next, you could be be physically tortured. okay. that doesnt make much sense.. but yeah. you never know.. scary stuff
foot still hurts. haha me. doctor says get plentyy of rest. yupyup! i soooo listened to her la. pump pump pump. run run run. hohum. and tmr got ndp. rite. squeeze my foot into a boot. hoho
yea. okay. fine. shall go sleep. got around to doing the udi essay. dumb really
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
typing nominations for udi. sigh. wahahs. shall i nominate myself? hoho! ego me.. sigh
why does it matter so much anyway? owell, it does to me i guess.. and i bet it matters to pltnmates too. i mean seriously, after all the shit we went through, why wouldnt it matter? nyeh. i dont make sense. feeling super horrid now. i dont knoww what to write. and what's worse is what pltnmates told me that happened on monday.. sighh
and furthermoree, i missed 2 trgs so far. crucial trgs and im not there. i guess snrs probably dont even believe i hurt my foot. typical. but it hurts la. at night especially. like now. ouch. i cant stand the fact that well, i dont knoww. some people have their efforts recognized more than others. and i dont know. its depressing.
still stuck on the dumb udi essay. i dont know. is it even put into consideration? or is it only for the sake of them knowing what we think and all. heard they found out who snrs are choosing already.. again, typical. sigh
owell. been kinda stressed lately. yesterday was amusing. interesting. funny. i dont know la. kinda lame meeting i spose.. owell. i feel abit bad. was obvious i was gonna burst out laughing. sorrryy. no offence. just stressed. and i had koishidam sticking out of my jacket and i just sorta rested my head on its head and stroked. comforting? ahhas. dumbness..
tommorow's our first ord trg. me taking partas first. i have no idea why. i actually wanted part bs. gonna be amusing.. weee.. ehh. some of them taller than me laa. gahh
sigh. still stuck. oh logs is kinda confusing. but im managing i spose. my physics still stagnant but im trying reaaaal hard to improve my other subs. doubt much will come out of it tho. i think im slow. yup! weeee.. sigh syimah sighhh. i can stand it la. im super stressed and i frown more often now. usually i can smile wherever i go. or at least fake it i guess. but i dont know. horrid times..
stupid foot. oh.. i did 380 sit ups overall today. couldnt do pushups cos my foot hurt too bad la. situps is worse when doing alot. there';s neck pain when youre trying to lift your head that's like lolling back. and of course your tummy with the folding fats. and then that's when your arms come in cos u hafta pull yourself up after you feel like puking already and cant rely on your stomach muscles anymore. and yes. duymb backbone. its like bruised i spose. cant see. hahs. ouch..
hohum. maths retest on thursday. studied pretty much. shant stress bout it la. cant take much more of that anw. uhhuhs..
yea.. na's doing her mly pt. funny stuff.. hoho dude. im still not working on the essay.. wanted to sleep at 10. so funny..
practised spontaneous with the om-ers. so fun.. i guess it wont be that bad if i dont get thru the auditions. ill still be doing om.. just not the official team..? eh. i think. scary stuff.. i love om! weee
i love myself. i guess. was studying kiamat during madrasah janau. i kept shuddering alot i think. i felt so hollow. duno why. i dont wanna die now. im not ready, like sometimes, people think, its okay, i'd rather die than go through with whatever. but, you woud rather go through alam barzakh? the tortures which you most probably will endure cos let's face it.. ahahs. nvm. im just not ready for death. tanda tanda hari kiamat: semua manusia akan kembali menjadi kafir semula. gosh..
oh. i tried what cikgu said yst. berdoa pada Allah. sembahyang lalu berdoa dan luahkan segala masalah yang terpendam. apa gunanya menangis? kesal dengan apa yang telah dilakukan? bertaubat sahaja dan berdoa kepada Allah swt, yang maha pengampun dan maha penyayang. oooh. i ngaji-ed also. weee. so calming. having religious background helps? meh. i feel kinda hypocritical. berilah saya kekuatan.. yupyup! im gonna do things right.
aight. starting with the udi essay. `bangg.
why does it matter so much anyway? owell, it does to me i guess.. and i bet it matters to pltnmates too. i mean seriously, after all the shit we went through, why wouldnt it matter? nyeh. i dont make sense. feeling super horrid now. i dont knoww what to write. and what's worse is what pltnmates told me that happened on monday.. sighh
and furthermoree, i missed 2 trgs so far. crucial trgs and im not there. i guess snrs probably dont even believe i hurt my foot. typical. but it hurts la. at night especially. like now. ouch. i cant stand the fact that well, i dont knoww. some people have their efforts recognized more than others. and i dont know. its depressing.
still stuck on the dumb udi essay. i dont know. is it even put into consideration? or is it only for the sake of them knowing what we think and all. heard they found out who snrs are choosing already.. again, typical. sigh
owell. been kinda stressed lately. yesterday was amusing. interesting. funny. i dont know la. kinda lame meeting i spose.. owell. i feel abit bad. was obvious i was gonna burst out laughing. sorrryy. no offence. just stressed. and i had koishidam sticking out of my jacket and i just sorta rested my head on its head and stroked. comforting? ahhas. dumbness..
tommorow's our first ord trg. me taking partas first. i have no idea why. i actually wanted part bs. gonna be amusing.. weee.. ehh. some of them taller than me laa. gahh
sigh. still stuck. oh logs is kinda confusing. but im managing i spose. my physics still stagnant but im trying reaaaal hard to improve my other subs. doubt much will come out of it tho. i think im slow. yup! weeee.. sigh syimah sighhh. i can stand it la. im super stressed and i frown more often now. usually i can smile wherever i go. or at least fake it i guess. but i dont know. horrid times..
stupid foot. oh.. i did 380 sit ups overall today. couldnt do pushups cos my foot hurt too bad la. situps is worse when doing alot. there';s neck pain when youre trying to lift your head that's like lolling back. and of course your tummy with the folding fats. and then that's when your arms come in cos u hafta pull yourself up after you feel like puking already and cant rely on your stomach muscles anymore. and yes. duymb backbone. its like bruised i spose. cant see. hahs. ouch..
hohum. maths retest on thursday. studied pretty much. shant stress bout it la. cant take much more of that anw. uhhuhs..
yea.. na's doing her mly pt. funny stuff.. hoho dude. im still not working on the essay.. wanted to sleep at 10. so funny..
practised spontaneous with the om-ers. so fun.. i guess it wont be that bad if i dont get thru the auditions. ill still be doing om.. just not the official team..? eh. i think. scary stuff.. i love om! weee
i love myself. i guess. was studying kiamat during madrasah janau. i kept shuddering alot i think. i felt so hollow. duno why. i dont wanna die now. im not ready, like sometimes, people think, its okay, i'd rather die than go through with whatever. but, you woud rather go through alam barzakh? the tortures which you most probably will endure cos let's face it.. ahahs. nvm. im just not ready for death. tanda tanda hari kiamat: semua manusia akan kembali menjadi kafir semula. gosh..
oh. i tried what cikgu said yst. berdoa pada Allah. sembahyang lalu berdoa dan luahkan segala masalah yang terpendam. apa gunanya menangis? kesal dengan apa yang telah dilakukan? bertaubat sahaja dan berdoa kepada Allah swt, yang maha pengampun dan maha penyayang. oooh. i ngaji-ed also. weee. so calming. having religious background helps? meh. i feel kinda hypocritical. berilah saya kekuatan.. yupyup! im gonna do things right.
aight. starting with the udi essay. `bangg.
Friday, July 15, 2005
different?
nyeh. feeling kinda low lately. so dumb..am i any less talky? seems like i ran out of stuffs to talk about. which is strange. and i guess im pretty pre-occupied with ncc and whatnots.
so tired of everything. just studystudy.. trying hard to improve in my studies. its horrid la.. i realize that i'm like so sloww la. feel so stupid.
anw. i kinda volunteered for the flockey committee and msyani said im in it. i think. duno.. i love flockey. i like sports. i like helping out the dudes. i like the dudes. so i guess im doing something im passionate about..?
liyana says i need a passion. i duno. my passion is ncc i spose. im like living, breathing ncc. now, the closest dudes i have are pltnmates. i cant even be bothered to talk much in class. just study.. lessons over. go out. see pltnmates. pump or something. i duno. pretty dull i guess..
and the current messed up topic is udi. i duno. i guess i agree with zr. everyone probably wants to be udi. hell, i want it real bad. but i doubt i'll get it la. snrs cutting it to 3. encik, master and staff. sad.. 3 years.. sigh syimahh. no differencee. 1sg, ssg.. nyeh. dont care la.
om? i duno. we all hafta re-audition. kinda worried i wont get in. i loove om la. altho bridge building is currently ertss.. cos i cant really do much building cos im not pro enough and im just this extra la. anw, om is just tooo cool. i love the whole spirit of it. damn, if i dont get in.. sadd..
oh yea. napfa. i guess im kinda warped. im possibly the dumbest in the whole class. yet i take pride in my napfa results. im so.. unprioritised? i duno. i guess the only thing i can take pride in is my capability in sports? gosh. i sound so ego. yechness..
anw. time for some ego boosting. I AM CREATIVE! sigh. that dusent help much..
oh yea. cut my hair on monday. i look like a freaking butch. bahh..
and i commanded for morning assembly today. kinda dumb la. first of all, we pumped before that. i was late for pumping so i did 200 la.. then anw,stood there for like 30-40 mins, i think, in senang diri. my arms were positively dyingg. cramped up.. and summore hadta command like so many times. they sang the national anthem a total of 3 times cos of of some video they were making. like walao-ehhh. i think i was partly zoning out. helps.. pltnmates sed i was loud. yayy! i think i was kinda high-pitched tho. tsk me..
IM BORED. i cant stand it. my life isnt exactly routine.. but there's just no.. spark? its sooo everyday. tsk. dumb dumb dumb dumbb. i need a twist. like the malay perf task. when we all hadta twist the ending? yeaaah. i wanna add/remove/edit something in my life. Anythingg. gahness..
fine. gonna change my template now.. nyeh. aightttt. `bangg.
so tired of everything. just studystudy.. trying hard to improve in my studies. its horrid la.. i realize that i'm like so sloww la. feel so stupid.
anw. i kinda volunteered for the flockey committee and msyani said im in it. i think. duno.. i love flockey. i like sports. i like helping out the dudes. i like the dudes. so i guess im doing something im passionate about..?
liyana says i need a passion. i duno. my passion is ncc i spose. im like living, breathing ncc. now, the closest dudes i have are pltnmates. i cant even be bothered to talk much in class. just study.. lessons over. go out. see pltnmates. pump or something. i duno. pretty dull i guess..
and the current messed up topic is udi. i duno. i guess i agree with zr. everyone probably wants to be udi. hell, i want it real bad. but i doubt i'll get it la. snrs cutting it to 3. encik, master and staff. sad.. 3 years.. sigh syimahh. no differencee. 1sg, ssg.. nyeh. dont care la.
om? i duno. we all hafta re-audition. kinda worried i wont get in. i loove om la. altho bridge building is currently ertss.. cos i cant really do much building cos im not pro enough and im just this extra la. anw, om is just tooo cool. i love the whole spirit of it. damn, if i dont get in.. sadd..
oh yea. napfa. i guess im kinda warped. im possibly the dumbest in the whole class. yet i take pride in my napfa results. im so.. unprioritised? i duno. i guess the only thing i can take pride in is my capability in sports? gosh. i sound so ego. yechness..
anw. time for some ego boosting. I AM CREATIVE! sigh. that dusent help much..
oh yea. cut my hair on monday. i look like a freaking butch. bahh..
and i commanded for morning assembly today. kinda dumb la. first of all, we pumped before that. i was late for pumping so i did 200 la.. then anw,stood there for like 30-40 mins, i think, in senang diri. my arms were positively dyingg. cramped up.. and summore hadta command like so many times. they sang the national anthem a total of 3 times cos of of some video they were making. like walao-ehhh. i think i was partly zoning out. helps.. pltnmates sed i was loud. yayy! i think i was kinda high-pitched tho. tsk me..
IM BORED. i cant stand it. my life isnt exactly routine.. but there's just no.. spark? its sooo everyday. tsk. dumb dumb dumb dumbb. i need a twist. like the malay perf task. when we all hadta twist the ending? yeaaah. i wanna add/remove/edit something in my life. Anythingg. gahness..
fine. gonna change my template now.. nyeh. aightttt. `bangg.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
sigh. doing malay pt now. there's still physics, hist and geog pt. nyeh
kinda twisted my foot on wednesday. hahs. stupid really.. then even went for trg after school. got worse then. went to school on thurs. diden go to school on friday. went polyclinic. something ligament something. got mc. and excuse from physical activities for 2 weeks. gah..
eh, i just realized why im feeling so boredd. haven been out of home since friday. oh. n dad diden let me go for ndp on sat either. and the flockey party too. hmmms.. im bored. nyeheh.
hohum. foot still hurting. sis said its dumb considering that i engage in much physical activites, yet i sprain my foot cos i missed the last step on the stairs. pathetic i guess.
sheesh. i havent got anything else to writee. so sad..
ohh!! wahhahahahs. i got an mp3 player from my dad for my birthdayy! weeeee! it's not a particularly popular branded or anyth. but the functions are pretty cool i guess. yayy!
but got little prezzes from dudes at school. jy gave me chocs and stickers! zerui gave me a letter cos she's broke. gen pang baked me coookies. farin, melz n na bought me chocs. hohum. mostly food ehs? oh n i got a teddy too. teddy2. o.O hahs. -hugs teddy- so cute..
okay. now what.. hmms.. oh yea. im sposed to do malay pt.bahhness..
aightt. guai-kia back at work. `bangg.
kinda twisted my foot on wednesday. hahs. stupid really.. then even went for trg after school. got worse then. went to school on thurs. diden go to school on friday. went polyclinic. something ligament something. got mc. and excuse from physical activities for 2 weeks. gah..
eh, i just realized why im feeling so boredd. haven been out of home since friday. oh. n dad diden let me go for ndp on sat either. and the flockey party too. hmmms.. im bored. nyeheh.
hohum. foot still hurting. sis said its dumb considering that i engage in much physical activites, yet i sprain my foot cos i missed the last step on the stairs. pathetic i guess.
sheesh. i havent got anything else to writee. so sad..
ohh!! wahhahahahs. i got an mp3 player from my dad for my birthdayy! weeeee! it's not a particularly popular branded or anyth. but the functions are pretty cool i guess. yayy!
but got little prezzes from dudes at school. jy gave me chocs and stickers! zerui gave me a letter cos she's broke. gen pang baked me coookies. farin, melz n na bought me chocs. hohum. mostly food ehs? oh n i got a teddy too. teddy2. o.O hahs. -hugs teddy- so cute..
okay. now what.. hmms.. oh yea. im sposed to do malay pt.bahhness..
aightt. guai-kia back at work. `bangg.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
gah
first day of school and frustration sinks in already.
garr. bala is seriously getting on my nerves. im on a fresh start. im trying damn hard. and im doing pretty okay, albeit a little slow, but there's progress. you do not have to stare down at my paper every few minutes. comment on my progress and insult everything i do. dammit. and when i answered a question, u just haad to humiliate me. yes. irritating. and then, u still dare tell the class "if u have any question, ask me!" dots. seriously, if i need answers, i'll know where to find them. and if i need more humiliation and insults, i'll give you a call. okay?
gosh.. okay. nvm. learning process..
yup! am at shaw lab now. recess. liyana's looking for me. hahs. so dude, now u noe. im here!
had malay. funny stuffs..
karangan ucapan
me: cikgu cikgu yang speech I have a Dream tu kan
cikgu: ya..
me: ia amat unh.. inspire.. ah.. menggoda saya cikgu
cikgu: nelson mandela menggoda awak hasyimah?
me: oh.. yea cikgu. dia amat hot
me: cikgu. bahasa saya semakin meningkat cikgu
siti: yea la.. menggoda
cikgu: unsangka-reble!
lameness. owell. shall go look for na now. im hungry. ngam
oh dad wants to meet me 3 lowest subs teachers. bala being one of them quite obviously. anw,i shall complain to my dad. hah! see what she does. humphs.. nyeh.
aightt. till next time. `bangg
olivejuice loads and loads.
more to come? hmms..
garr. bala is seriously getting on my nerves. im on a fresh start. im trying damn hard. and im doing pretty okay, albeit a little slow, but there's progress. you do not have to stare down at my paper every few minutes. comment on my progress and insult everything i do. dammit. and when i answered a question, u just haad to humiliate me. yes. irritating. and then, u still dare tell the class "if u have any question, ask me!" dots. seriously, if i need answers, i'll know where to find them. and if i need more humiliation and insults, i'll give you a call. okay?
gosh.. okay. nvm. learning process..
yup! am at shaw lab now. recess. liyana's looking for me. hahs. so dude, now u noe. im here!
had malay. funny stuffs..
karangan ucapan
me: cikgu cikgu yang speech I have a Dream tu kan
cikgu: ya..
me: ia amat unh.. inspire.. ah.. menggoda saya cikgu
cikgu: nelson mandela menggoda awak hasyimah?
me: oh.. yea cikgu. dia amat hot
me: cikgu. bahasa saya semakin meningkat cikgu
siti: yea la.. menggoda
cikgu: unsangka-reble!
lameness. owell. shall go look for na now. im hungry. ngam
oh dad wants to meet me 3 lowest subs teachers. bala being one of them quite obviously. anw,i shall complain to my dad. hah! see what she does. humphs.. nyeh.
aightt. till next time. `bangg
olivejuice loads and loads.
more to come? hmms..
Sunday, July 03, 2005
first week
been pretty fast.. okay i guess..
mon: nth much.. snrs scolding. got the whole pltn in a pretty dazed mood.. gosh.like everyone when u see em in the corridors, theyre like.. "sigh. i keep thinking bout wat snrs said.." with a depressed look. hmms
tues: long day.. felt short tho. cant rmb wat happened.. ohh! i got booked for low socks for the first time. scary stuff..
wed: school was kinda fast i guess.. kinda stressed out bout amaths test the next day.went je lib to study with farin..
thurs: short dayy! wahahs. diden have philo and afta lunch was bio. soooo.. yup! went out with zerui for awhile before na's class was let out. den we went out.. Oh yes. screwed up amaths. seriously. cramming is bad for me i guess. i keep getting mental block. gah
fri: ncc day. was damn-assed screwed. i mean..there i am. happy that i wasnt late. considering that i overslept abit n stuffs. and then i see pltnmates with cpl rank when i already bloody sew my sgt rank. i mean gahhhhh? i was like hysterical. partly sobbing and pulling my hair n stuffs. i knew we'd get shit.. thennn. we reported late. i mean whyyy? and then. we diden have gloves. i dont remember bringing gloves the last time!! okay. yes. common sense, parade= parade gloves. gosh..
and thenn. when going up to class, i did another stupid thing. i mean seriously, how stooopid can i get?
anw, yea.. hadta report afta school and stuffs. pltnmates and all were totally bahh-ed out. and when sch ended, we all were like -shuddershudder. fearing the inevitable..
but then. i hadta leave for the kukup trip. i felt really bad la..really my fault i think.
but i enjoyed the trip nonetheless, after i managed to calm myself and put the guilt aside for awhile. i think im seasick. hmms.. had a horrid headache over at the fish farm. -groans.
ohohohhhh. the seafood was niiiice. i really had my money's worth laa. quotes athena: see that is what red cross and ncc does to you.
cos me n gohtian ate alot. humphs..
chiaying: ehh,does anyone want to eat that last crab head? -grabs and starts eating.
athena:ehh. crab head got cholestrol etc etc and youre sucking it. (something along those lines)
aileen: i suck! i suck!
amusing really. slept on the bus home and downed panadol with coke. yummy.. reached home at 10.45
sat: ndp prac. we were earlyyy! yayyness. but, since we are indeed the unluckiest part ever. shuning happened to have left her army ncc badge at home. like, howww? then part b jinning hadta come by taxi to give her sis the thg la. kinda funny..
staff: why they got so many problems one ar..? -in irritated tone.
was kinda.. -erts. by that statement.
i mean seriously. no matter how hard we try. or how much effort we put in. we just somehow manage to screw things up. -screams and bangs head-
ahwell. i love pltnmates anw. hand in hand, we can climb mountains.
anw. saturday evening was kinda funny..
at clementi mrt and pltnmates mostly left. only me,zr n ge at the fare gate. then zerui and ge needed to top up their ezlinks..
control stn man: what school you all from?
zr: hunhs? oh, *names a certain school* -straight face-
and i started laughing hysterically. why?
okay. me on left, zr middle, ge right. me n zr facing the guy, ge was leaning to her side. Note. we have shoulder tags stating Quite obviously which school we are from.yes..
ctrl stn man: oh? -raises eyebrows- nvm.. i like your uniform.
after we finally managed to contain ourselves we went up to the platform ryt?
random cuban(?) dude: are you in the atillery?
zr: unh? no..erm, secondary school..
dude: oh. army school!
ge: nono..unh..-mumbles-
dude: -confused yet amused look-
me: erm, its extra-curricular..
dude: oh! extra-curricular! -points at me- yesyes..she's the Great One.. smilesmile and walks away.
and gahahs. must have been strange to see 3 fine ladies suddenly burst laughing in public.funny stuffs la..
nyeh. anw, went je lib with my older and younger sissies. i cannot take it laa. theyre soso slenger-fied.. tsktsk. ahahhahas..finefine. me too la. hoho!
okay. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH! ahahs. my cuz.. funny how she's 3 days older then me. *hinthint..
hahahs.. okay. i want to study. aightt.. `bangg.
oh.crap. just been screwed.. shitass..
mon: nth much.. snrs scolding. got the whole pltn in a pretty dazed mood.. gosh.like everyone when u see em in the corridors, theyre like.. "sigh. i keep thinking bout wat snrs said.." with a depressed look. hmms
tues: long day.. felt short tho. cant rmb wat happened.. ohh! i got booked for low socks for the first time. scary stuff..
wed: school was kinda fast i guess.. kinda stressed out bout amaths test the next day.went je lib to study with farin..
thurs: short dayy! wahahs. diden have philo and afta lunch was bio. soooo.. yup! went out with zerui for awhile before na's class was let out. den we went out.. Oh yes. screwed up amaths. seriously. cramming is bad for me i guess. i keep getting mental block. gah
fri: ncc day. was damn-assed screwed. i mean..there i am. happy that i wasnt late. considering that i overslept abit n stuffs. and then i see pltnmates with cpl rank when i already bloody sew my sgt rank. i mean gahhhhh? i was like hysterical. partly sobbing and pulling my hair n stuffs. i knew we'd get shit.. thennn. we reported late. i mean whyyy? and then. we diden have gloves. i dont remember bringing gloves the last time!! okay. yes. common sense, parade= parade gloves. gosh..
and thenn. when going up to class, i did another stupid thing. i mean seriously, how stooopid can i get?
anw, yea.. hadta report afta school and stuffs. pltnmates and all were totally bahh-ed out. and when sch ended, we all were like -shuddershudder. fearing the inevitable..
but then. i hadta leave for the kukup trip. i felt really bad la..really my fault i think.
but i enjoyed the trip nonetheless, after i managed to calm myself and put the guilt aside for awhile. i think im seasick. hmms.. had a horrid headache over at the fish farm. -groans.
ohohohhhh. the seafood was niiiice. i really had my money's worth laa. quotes athena: see that is what red cross and ncc does to you.
cos me n gohtian ate alot. humphs..
chiaying: ehh,does anyone want to eat that last crab head? -grabs and starts eating.
athena:ehh. crab head got cholestrol etc etc and youre sucking it. (something along those lines)
aileen: i suck! i suck!
amusing really. slept on the bus home and downed panadol with coke. yummy.. reached home at 10.45
sat: ndp prac. we were earlyyy! yayyness. but, since we are indeed the unluckiest part ever. shuning happened to have left her army ncc badge at home. like, howww? then part b jinning hadta come by taxi to give her sis the thg la. kinda funny..
staff: why they got so many problems one ar..? -in irritated tone.
was kinda.. -erts. by that statement.
i mean seriously. no matter how hard we try. or how much effort we put in. we just somehow manage to screw things up. -screams and bangs head-
ahwell. i love pltnmates anw. hand in hand, we can climb mountains.
anw. saturday evening was kinda funny..
at clementi mrt and pltnmates mostly left. only me,zr n ge at the fare gate. then zerui and ge needed to top up their ezlinks..
control stn man: what school you all from?
zr: hunhs? oh, *names a certain school* -straight face-
and i started laughing hysterically. why?
okay. me on left, zr middle, ge right. me n zr facing the guy, ge was leaning to her side. Note. we have shoulder tags stating Quite obviously which school we are from.yes..
ctrl stn man: oh? -raises eyebrows- nvm.. i like your uniform.
after we finally managed to contain ourselves we went up to the platform ryt?
random cuban(?) dude: are you in the atillery?
zr: unh? no..erm, secondary school..
dude: oh. army school!
ge: nono..unh..-mumbles-
dude: -confused yet amused look-
me: erm, its extra-curricular..
dude: oh! extra-curricular! -points at me- yesyes..she's the Great One.. smilesmile and walks away.
and gahahs. must have been strange to see 3 fine ladies suddenly burst laughing in public.funny stuffs la..
nyeh. anw, went je lib with my older and younger sissies. i cannot take it laa. theyre soso slenger-fied.. tsktsk. ahahhahas..finefine. me too la. hoho!
okay. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH! ahahs. my cuz.. funny how she's 3 days older then me. *hinthint..
hahahs.. okay. i want to study. aightt.. `bangg.
oh.crap. just been screwed.. shitass..
Monday, June 27, 2005
i want..
a bloo sportsbra
a nice,big,cozy pullover
a dark bloo nike squirtable bottle ( i lost minee)
that's all actually.. yeah. i reaaaally want the pullover. bahh... owell.
anw, ncc was shit. yup! horrible stuff.. nyeh.blind faith no more..blinded more like. its terrible how we have to admit to being wrong all the time. usually..
ohh. school was bear-able. cikgu diden come and mrs yap diden show. so like we had 2 free blocks. fun-ness..
aight. duno what else la.. i wanna go sleep now. so tired..
olivejuice loads.
`bangg.
holiday in my head
I'm just tryin' to realize
I'm just dyin' to open my eyes
I'm just lookin' for paradise in my living room
*****
I've got a holiday in my head
had suicidal thoughts in the bus
and cried on my way to school this morning
that's how much i hate school.
gah..
but it could also have been due to the fact that i realised, after reaching the first floor that i forgot my wallet. that was only like 2 mins. n when i got up, i had to ring the doorbell for 5 mins+ before someone actually answered the door. got 5 pple inside summore. wtfh.. got me fucking frustrated.
anw.. yea. in a reaaal strange mood. bahh.. forgot to do chem ws n forgot my chem file too. sheeshness.. i filed redi summore la. dad's sending it to school later tho.
had pe just now.volleyball.. i think im pretty good with the serve and dickpass. uhhuhs.. sho cool..
ohOhOH! u noe whatt.. i can knot a cherry stalk with my tonguee. coolios.. i need better practice.. hmmmmmmmmmms. heh
oh, and its malay now. but cikgu diden come. HAHA kelas besar! kelas kecik rules sia..
and im wearing na's pullover now. super oversizedd.. but its nice.uhhuhs.. pltnmates sed i look flat. nyeh! i got boobies hokaii.. maybe.
and this morning, before assembly, i ran into the canteen toilet to check myself out la. thennn.. sumone was inside.. on the seat! damn traumatized. esp since its my part b. scary stuff...
okay. im feeling lost without a phone. nazriii.. miss u like crazy. ahahahas.. so sad. anw, so cool hunhs? 3 months.. olivejuice forever yea? -hugs!
aight. shall go study chem now. sho guaiii...
Sunday, June 26, 2005
by the way..
my birthday is on the 6th of july.
just so you know. uhhuhs..
heh. gooodnight.
good luck with school everyone! -shudder..
`bangg.
just so you know. uhhuhs..
heh. gooodnight.
good luck with school everyone! -shudder..
`bangg.
here we go again..
yup.. and school reopens tommorrow. splendid..
spent the day at my dad's propnex sports cum family day at toa payoh stadium. was terrribly boring at first.. then i went to the stalls and played some games.. won myself a teddy and dunked the woman twice.. kinda fun i guess..then dad's event was about to begin la. 2.4km, ceo challenge. so like if they can beat the ceo dude, they'll win some cash. 500-1000. yea.. then there was this kid with the number tag, so i was curious so my mom asked my dad to ask whether there was an event i could join..
lalala.. then my dad came back with a number tag for me
dad: there.
me: what event?
dad: 2.4 km
me: -hyperventilates-
like.. seriously, i wasnt even dressed for it. i was wearing a tudung for goodness sake. gah.. but then.. its my dad's bdae and he was so excited i couldnt say no.sheesh.. anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
yea.. i ran the 'invitational women's CEO challenge 2.4km'. surprisingly, i won the huuuuuge champion trophy. yea.. strange. 12:59:60.. yea.. 13mins. gawd.. butttt.. i was in tudung and i guess i did pretty well for an impromptu run..uhhuhs..
n dad won one of the lucky draws! some high-fi thingey. and my lil sis won a medal for the kids telematch. dumb really..
mom: -cooes. she really likes sports dusent she?
-rolls eyes.
oh. i gave dad my trophy for his bdae. sis sed its a real cool prezze. yayy..
oh, then we celebrated dad's bdae at swensens. yup.. peeeged out. fat me..
school reopens tmr.. -jumps for joy-
oh. im seriously comtemplating dropping ndp. im really not a quitter.. but gah.. my grades need immmmmmediate attention. and yeah.. for a greater cause? sorry pltnmates.. i reaaaally need my saturdays and stuff.. dont even know whether i can drop it actually.. gosh.. s'not like ive got much choice sia..
oh. n i dont have my phone anymore. freak laa.. dad transferred the sim card to his old phone which is still reaaally nice btw. a nokia camera phone okayy.. budden mom decided that she'll keep the phone and only lend it to us when we need it. like, gahhhhh?
okay. i shall go dwell upon my wasted june hols and the dreaded future.
sobs.. i hate myself. nyeh.. tmr got ncc trg.. owe ncos the pumpings too..
fine. shall stop depressing myself.sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
gnites.`bang.
olivejuice alot alot alot. i miss you dude.
HAPPY 3 MONTH!
-hugs!
spent the day at my dad's propnex sports cum family day at toa payoh stadium. was terrribly boring at first.. then i went to the stalls and played some games.. won myself a teddy and dunked the woman twice.. kinda fun i guess..then dad's event was about to begin la. 2.4km, ceo challenge. so like if they can beat the ceo dude, they'll win some cash. 500-1000. yea.. then there was this kid with the number tag, so i was curious so my mom asked my dad to ask whether there was an event i could join..
lalala.. then my dad came back with a number tag for me
dad: there.
me: what event?
dad: 2.4 km
me: -hyperventilates-
like.. seriously, i wasnt even dressed for it. i was wearing a tudung for goodness sake. gah.. but then.. its my dad's bdae and he was so excited i couldnt say no.sheesh.. anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
yea.. i ran the 'invitational women's CEO challenge 2.4km'. surprisingly, i won the huuuuuge champion trophy. yea.. strange. 12:59:60.. yea.. 13mins. gawd.. butttt.. i was in tudung and i guess i did pretty well for an impromptu run..uhhuhs..
n dad won one of the lucky draws! some high-fi thingey. and my lil sis won a medal for the kids telematch. dumb really..
mom: -cooes. she really likes sports dusent she?
-rolls eyes.
oh. i gave dad my trophy for his bdae. sis sed its a real cool prezze. yayy..
oh, then we celebrated dad's bdae at swensens. yup.. peeeged out. fat me..
school reopens tmr.. -jumps for joy-
oh. im seriously comtemplating dropping ndp. im really not a quitter.. but gah.. my grades need immmmmmediate attention. and yeah.. for a greater cause? sorry pltnmates.. i reaaaally need my saturdays and stuff.. dont even know whether i can drop it actually.. gosh.. s'not like ive got much choice sia..
oh. n i dont have my phone anymore. freak laa.. dad transferred the sim card to his old phone which is still reaaally nice btw. a nokia camera phone okayy.. budden mom decided that she'll keep the phone and only lend it to us when we need it. like, gahhhhh?
okay. i shall go dwell upon my wasted june hols and the dreaded future.
sobs.. i hate myself. nyeh.. tmr got ncc trg.. owe ncos the pumpings too..
fine. shall stop depressing myself.sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
gnites.`bang.
olivejuice alot alot alot. i miss you dude.
HAPPY 3 MONTH!
-hugs!
Monday, June 20, 2005
leaving on a jet planeee
okay. a coach actually. owell..
dad's sending me to school at 7.30 which is only like 10mins away..?
yea.. gosh.having the 'uhh-do-i-hafta-go?? -whines-' feelings again. gahness. im sure ill have fun la.. but nyeh. i just got home and im aching and ill miss some people.
haha.. kae. ill miss you dude..olivejuice! lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.
-hugs.
aighttt.. shall go prep myself or something.. dont miss me doods..
`bangg.
dad's sending me to school at 7.30 which is only like 10mins away..?
yea.. gosh.having the 'uhh-do-i-hafta-go?? -whines-' feelings again. gahness. im sure ill have fun la.. but nyeh. i just got home and im aching and ill miss some people.
haha.. kae. ill miss you dude..olivejuice! lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.
-hugs.
aighttt.. shall go prep myself or something.. dont miss me doods..
`bangg.
back
back from kl. had a blast..time seriously flew. and im back. here.
and leaving again tmr. aching all over..
spent most of my time wif the guys cos deyre more fun. haha.. and my armmm is dying cos one of em punched me. gah.. guys must never punch girls because theyre made to have more muscle mass or whatever. pain...
and ill blog more bout my family hols next time. gah, tired. reached home at 11.45pm..uhhuhs.. yawns..
must still pack for taman negara trip.yup!aight.. gnites
olivejuice so much dude.
miss u alot alot alot
and leaving again tmr. aching all over..
spent most of my time wif the guys cos deyre more fun. haha.. and my armmm is dying cos one of em punched me. gah.. guys must never punch girls because theyre made to have more muscle mass or whatever. pain...
and ill blog more bout my family hols next time. gah, tired. reached home at 11.45pm..uhhuhs.. yawns..
must still pack for taman negara trip.yup!aight.. gnites
olivejuice so much dude.
miss u alot alot alot
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
nyeh
i cant use the comp much nemore on account that i did badly for my mids. hmms.. not that i care much nowadays. finally got time to read sia.. uhhuhs.. so far ive read 2 1/2 books since thurs. n theyre thick. yayyy! READING IS FUN! whahas..
hmms.. hols are boring. think im gonna go ard spore to all the libs to look for the books to the series im reading. that'll be nice.. sighh.
irritated alot lately.im suffering from sibling-itis..? rmb that pets ws in pri skl?? kae nvm. yea.. my younger sisters have been living at my aunt's hse for awhile now cos of my cuz's wedding n stuffs. den like even when theyre not home, mom n dad mentions the youngest sis every few secs. how smartt she is. how creative she is. how cutee she is. gawd. im smart, creative and cute too.
furthermore, they spoil her like shit. gah..she does something wrong, noone scolds her. she's pervertic,lazy and bullies her older sister, the 3rd kid, i meann.. she's a monster seriously. just a cute monster. fuck it. anddd to think that me n my older sis were kept on a tight leash while the other 2 are turning out like whatt sia. they dont get scolded for whatever shit they do. n i recall vividly when i was 8, i refused to go to one silat session cos i was tired. then i made a tantrum, crying n stuffs n i got locked in my room at night with no lights. at the time, my fav book was goosebumps and i had a veryy active imagination. that was a traumatic experience which caused my current fear of being alone in the dark. uhhuhs. child abuse i tell you..
owell. last week was kinda fun. no studying still..gosh.my dad's gonna kill me.oops..
monday: handed in instruments to thiock at sch. den went to fareast to meet pltnmates. den me,sn,yh,zr went to watch monster-in-law. hahs.. oh, he came along. uhhuhs.. then pltnmates had to go home and me n him took 190 from meridien and just went ardd..hahs. slept abit. nice
tuesday: read book
wednesday: went aunts house to help out with the wedding.i didnt help.read book play with cousins. nyeh.. im confused bout my sexual orientation. i must be a guy really..
thursday: cousin nikah-ed! the kadi came an hr+ late.. hoho! my cuz was totally stressed out. laffs.. so funny.. den in the end it was sweet.n i was soooo aaw-ed by the fact that one of the hantaran's which the bride's side gave us were a couple of cans of root beer. my cousin's fav. aaaaaaawwwwww....
friday: naz needed ncc notes.farin needed newsweek. i needed bball. so afta lending them the stuffs, we played bball at farin's courts. then 3 pri sch kids wanted to play 3-3 with us.. ahahahahs. we lost obviously. we couldnt really score much and i suspect the little boys are bball players so they know what theyre doing. and naz bullies the little kid! tsktsk.. how could you dude? heh. and i banged into naz when trying to catch the ball. ouch.. dude, youre hard. O.o.. anww, he ran alot la. me n farin just stood to catch the ball. yayy! refined ladies dont go running ard you see..
then we went to the fitness corner where me n farin used to go alot last time. swung ard on the parallel bars, monkey bars.. was fun la. n farin's a sloth
saturday: ndp rehearsal. stupid really.. cept that the dinner was superb! a hugee slize of pizza, 3 chicken drumsticks and 2 slices of garlic bread, each. uhhuhs.. yummm.. n i almost shrieked when one of the girls from anudder sch threw away 3 perfect drumsticks. i meann..think of the 3rd world countries! think of me! gah..
then went to cousin's marhaban. in no4. wahhahas. i had my badges on and rank looking so goooood. yeaaah. n when i came, the guys were like salute the sgt! n i grinned. ahahahahs..
sunday: wedding. zerui arr. came late.. then pltnmates all came late. so they missed the bus to the bride's side. bummer.. then afta they ate, we all ran off to 1sg nadiah's hse to give her bdae prezze. heh. got cake summore ar! ahaahs.. it was funny la..
couldnt find it at first. got the wrong street. den sn,zr n ge took taxi while me n yh took bus and walked alott. cos none of the taxis wanted to take 5 pple.humphs..
we put the stuffs then were scared children might take away the balloons or prezzes so we wrote a note. with the checklist of the delivery. then we rang the bell. noone answered. so we were like. oh?.. hahas.. then afta that we were like go down stairs while ge went up to pretend she's just a passerby talking on her phone. then she went up the first time, noone. so she went again. then she saw a pair of feet. then she screamed "pltnmates! pltnmates!"then we all ran down the stairs. n apparently i was the one who yelled "run". ah, its instict you see.. thennn, when we thought we were safe at the 1st floor..gasping for breath, 1sg decided to come down. so we rannn. in heels mind you. aching feet.. then 1sg called and told us to stop running. then when she appeared behind us with a simple "part cs", we jumped and hid behind pillars. gahhness..
she liked the surprise eventhough there were complications earlier on when we were on the way there. it was nice la.. den 1sg walked us to chinese garden mrt n while walking i took off my heels. kinda nice to walk barefooted..ahahs..
yea.. so that's my week. wahahs.. so long sia. owell.. i think ill do some studying today. yupp!
oh, n im going hols with my close relatives on fri-sunday. then mon nite will set off to taman negara with rgsncc. uhhuhs.. so funn. n be back by thurs. uhhhuhs.. dont miss me people! yayy
okay. shall go finish up another book before i study. aightt.
*olivejuice lots n lots.
you can do it!hahs..
hmms.. hols are boring. think im gonna go ard spore to all the libs to look for the books to the series im reading. that'll be nice.. sighh.
irritated alot lately.im suffering from sibling-itis..? rmb that pets ws in pri skl?? kae nvm. yea.. my younger sisters have been living at my aunt's hse for awhile now cos of my cuz's wedding n stuffs. den like even when theyre not home, mom n dad mentions the youngest sis every few secs. how smartt she is. how creative she is. how cutee she is. gawd. im smart, creative and cute too.
furthermore, they spoil her like shit. gah..she does something wrong, noone scolds her. she's pervertic,lazy and bullies her older sister, the 3rd kid, i meann.. she's a monster seriously. just a cute monster. fuck it. anddd to think that me n my older sis were kept on a tight leash while the other 2 are turning out like whatt sia. they dont get scolded for whatever shit they do. n i recall vividly when i was 8, i refused to go to one silat session cos i was tired. then i made a tantrum, crying n stuffs n i got locked in my room at night with no lights. at the time, my fav book was goosebumps and i had a veryy active imagination. that was a traumatic experience which caused my current fear of being alone in the dark. uhhuhs. child abuse i tell you..
owell. last week was kinda fun. no studying still..gosh.my dad's gonna kill me.oops..
monday: handed in instruments to thiock at sch. den went to fareast to meet pltnmates. den me,sn,yh,zr went to watch monster-in-law. hahs.. oh, he came along. uhhuhs.. then pltnmates had to go home and me n him took 190 from meridien and just went ardd..hahs. slept abit. nice
tuesday: read book
wednesday: went aunts house to help out with the wedding.i didnt help.read book play with cousins. nyeh.. im confused bout my sexual orientation. i must be a guy really..
thursday: cousin nikah-ed! the kadi came an hr+ late.. hoho! my cuz was totally stressed out. laffs.. so funny.. den in the end it was sweet.n i was soooo aaw-ed by the fact that one of the hantaran's which the bride's side gave us were a couple of cans of root beer. my cousin's fav. aaaaaaawwwwww....
friday: naz needed ncc notes.farin needed newsweek. i needed bball. so afta lending them the stuffs, we played bball at farin's courts. then 3 pri sch kids wanted to play 3-3 with us.. ahahahahs. we lost obviously. we couldnt really score much and i suspect the little boys are bball players so they know what theyre doing. and naz bullies the little kid! tsktsk.. how could you dude? heh. and i banged into naz when trying to catch the ball. ouch.. dude, youre hard. O.o.. anww, he ran alot la. me n farin just stood to catch the ball. yayy! refined ladies dont go running ard you see..
then we went to the fitness corner where me n farin used to go alot last time. swung ard on the parallel bars, monkey bars.. was fun la. n farin's a sloth
saturday: ndp rehearsal. stupid really.. cept that the dinner was superb! a hugee slize of pizza, 3 chicken drumsticks and 2 slices of garlic bread, each. uhhuhs.. yummm.. n i almost shrieked when one of the girls from anudder sch threw away 3 perfect drumsticks. i meann..think of the 3rd world countries! think of me! gah..
then went to cousin's marhaban. in no4. wahhahas. i had my badges on and rank looking so goooood. yeaaah. n when i came, the guys were like salute the sgt! n i grinned. ahahahahs..
sunday: wedding. zerui arr. came late.. then pltnmates all came late. so they missed the bus to the bride's side. bummer.. then afta they ate, we all ran off to 1sg nadiah's hse to give her bdae prezze. heh. got cake summore ar! ahaahs.. it was funny la..
couldnt find it at first. got the wrong street. den sn,zr n ge took taxi while me n yh took bus and walked alott. cos none of the taxis wanted to take 5 pple.humphs..
we put the stuffs then were scared children might take away the balloons or prezzes so we wrote a note. with the checklist of the delivery. then we rang the bell. noone answered. so we were like. oh?.. hahas.. then afta that we were like go down stairs while ge went up to pretend she's just a passerby talking on her phone. then she went up the first time, noone. so she went again. then she saw a pair of feet. then she screamed "pltnmates! pltnmates!"then we all ran down the stairs. n apparently i was the one who yelled "run". ah, its instict you see.. thennn, when we thought we were safe at the 1st floor..gasping for breath, 1sg decided to come down. so we rannn. in heels mind you. aching feet.. then 1sg called and told us to stop running. then when she appeared behind us with a simple "part cs", we jumped and hid behind pillars. gahhness..
she liked the surprise eventhough there were complications earlier on when we were on the way there. it was nice la.. den 1sg walked us to chinese garden mrt n while walking i took off my heels. kinda nice to walk barefooted..ahahs..
yea.. so that's my week. wahahs.. so long sia. owell.. i think ill do some studying today. yupp!
oh, n im going hols with my close relatives on fri-sunday. then mon nite will set off to taman negara with rgsncc. uhhuhs.. so funn. n be back by thurs. uhhhuhs.. dont miss me people! yayy
okay. shall go finish up another book before i study. aightt.
*olivejuice lots n lots.
you can do it!hahs..
Saturday, June 04, 2005
specialist course
its finally over. cant say that im proud of myself
disappointed really..
well, i got to be ic quite a few times.. right mark alot ar.. ran from place to place.. timer.. just listen to my voice dude. i tried so hard.. but all i got was a piece of rank. okay, 2nd sergeant isnt dat bad. but dat wasnt what i worked so hard for la..
ncos told me sir diden like me. but then again, he didnt seem the biased sort.. so perhaps i just wasnt good enough. but still! gosh.. the special pltn, those shortlisted for pltnbests and other awards, four were from thunder four. maisha-cedar, kelvin oh-evergreen(pltnbest), ?-whitley(company best) and kenneth-st gabriel. bloody hell.. the first three totally deserved it la.. dey were good, they put in alot of effort and well it paid off. but was the fucking hell did kenneth do to get chosen sia? 1sg said she asked sir why he chosen that smug faced grinning idiot and u noe wat that dude said?? "i couldnt find anyone else" effing shit man. are u blind?? call me ego or whatever mann.. i deserve that as much as all my pltnmates did. we put in every effort into spec course okay..
anw, congrats ge-pltnbest T1, shuning-pltnbest T3 and zerui-ifc best overall. ahhahs. lucky shitheads. esp zerui, who actually diden even complete her ifc..
gawd. i cried like shit la.. outside camp of course. spec course totally wasted. ah, should be grateful for my rank la.. but well.. rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.
oh. i love Thunder Four mann.. you guys rock okay. thanks for helping me out when i was stresssed and spazzing out. the dudes who didnt let me fail my mutuals by asking questions n stuffs. the dudes who gave me smiles and co-operated wimme when i needed them to do things. the dudes who cheered and showed enthusiasm when necessary. "ic, u never cheer, ic!" ahahs.. you guys really made my time worthwhile. And special mention to benjamin from st gabriels.ahahs. you did good dude.. so proud of you. oh, charlene, dont worry bout not getting any award. its the effort that counts. n u did put in effort, i saw. oh, the guys did improve in the end la. T4 at least got a few good bangs..
oh. n im shortest in T4 cos the only guy shorter den me from gan eng seng diden come for the parade and when we did 'yang tinggi' i was at the end. then the dude beside me was like "ic, u shorter den me" n grinned. bahhh. oh. hahs. n when dey all ask to fall in some time or another, they'd march n stop abt a foot from me and dey look down n say "permission to fall in ic". ahahs. owell.. nice memories..
aightt.. owell 2sg syimmy. think its time to let go of spec course. im gonna be the best specialist i can be. be a good role model and stuffs. lead by example.. rgsncc all the way..
thunder four keluar baris!
up check.check left right left
THUNDER FOUR!
disappointed really..
well, i got to be ic quite a few times.. right mark alot ar.. ran from place to place.. timer.. just listen to my voice dude. i tried so hard.. but all i got was a piece of rank. okay, 2nd sergeant isnt dat bad. but dat wasnt what i worked so hard for la..
ncos told me sir diden like me. but then again, he didnt seem the biased sort.. so perhaps i just wasnt good enough. but still! gosh.. the special pltn, those shortlisted for pltnbests and other awards, four were from thunder four. maisha-cedar, kelvin oh-evergreen(pltnbest), ?-whitley(company best) and kenneth-st gabriel. bloody hell.. the first three totally deserved it la.. dey were good, they put in alot of effort and well it paid off. but was the fucking hell did kenneth do to get chosen sia? 1sg said she asked sir why he chosen that smug faced grinning idiot and u noe wat that dude said?? "i couldnt find anyone else" effing shit man. are u blind?? call me ego or whatever mann.. i deserve that as much as all my pltnmates did. we put in every effort into spec course okay..
anw, congrats ge-pltnbest T1, shuning-pltnbest T3 and zerui-ifc best overall. ahhahs. lucky shitheads. esp zerui, who actually diden even complete her ifc..
gawd. i cried like shit la.. outside camp of course. spec course totally wasted. ah, should be grateful for my rank la.. but well.. rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.
oh. i love Thunder Four mann.. you guys rock okay. thanks for helping me out when i was stresssed and spazzing out. the dudes who didnt let me fail my mutuals by asking questions n stuffs. the dudes who gave me smiles and co-operated wimme when i needed them to do things. the dudes who cheered and showed enthusiasm when necessary. "ic, u never cheer, ic!" ahahs.. you guys really made my time worthwhile. And special mention to benjamin from st gabriels.ahahs. you did good dude.. so proud of you. oh, charlene, dont worry bout not getting any award. its the effort that counts. n u did put in effort, i saw. oh, the guys did improve in the end la. T4 at least got a few good bangs..
oh. n im shortest in T4 cos the only guy shorter den me from gan eng seng diden come for the parade and when we did 'yang tinggi' i was at the end. then the dude beside me was like "ic, u shorter den me" n grinned. bahhh. oh. hahs. n when dey all ask to fall in some time or another, they'd march n stop abt a foot from me and dey look down n say "permission to fall in ic". ahahs. owell.. nice memories..
aightt.. owell 2sg syimmy. think its time to let go of spec course. im gonna be the best specialist i can be. be a good role model and stuffs. lead by example.. rgsncc all the way..
thunder four keluar baris!
up check.check left right left
THUNDER FOUR!
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