emo post

yupp i've finally decided to blog bout non-race-ish nats and post-nats.

firstly, i have to say that i lovelovelove teammates and sleeping/zen-ing in the tent prior to races is really quite fun.. i rmb getting scolded by deb/ge for talking too much before our k4 races cos we're sposed to focus.

okay woops maybe i should've blogged earlier cos my memory's getting quite fuzzy already.. =/

oh but i do rmb clearly, before my semis, when gaby and i were the last to race on thursday(my race was at 3.20) and so it was just the two of us in the tent. and we'd try to sleep but im pretty sure gaby was rather nervous bout her race too. then we'd sit up near the opening and watch the races, and i told gaby that i didnt know if i can get t1 gold, and she said "dont worry, you can do it". or something like that. and she let me read her notebook of inspirational quotes, which she compiled herself. i liked most of em, but i especially liked this one:

"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It is an option. Impossible is not a declaration. It is a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing."
– Adidas advertisement

yup, and yeah i must must say tt im extremely proud of gaby, eventhough she didnt make it to semis cos her fighting spirit is really imba. and she lent me her notebook that night for my finals, and it really did help me alot. (:

the last day of nats was pretty emo. my race was last and i was quite bummed by the outcome. i went a little nuts, convincing myself that it really was all good, and i had the konyaku jelly drink thing that jiaqi bought for me, which i suspect had been spiked. half of the girls were calculating the possible scores of all the girls' teams outside of the tent, while the rest of us were having some mass orgy in the tent. =/

anw it was a veryy emo tent. everyone was kinda lost in their own worlds, and i cried again bout missing 3rd by abit. sore loser hoho.. then i left the tent cos the atmosphere was too disturbingly emo and convinced jiaqi to visit the toilet with me. we got stalled by jp who told us to cheer for sji. so we did, and it was very odd haha!

award presentation. training right after nationals is crazy. and training when the award ceremony is ongoing is rude. and i think i'd happily settle for 4th if it means being able to celebrate it with teammates.. *random.

rafflesrow is a total camwhore team. nats debrief by the capts of 2007 & 2008 was good.. i should stop laughing at eugene's inspirational moments.. jarius's speech was so sincere and we all think he's very sweet aww..

then we did that 'ceremonial hand-over' thing where the entire j2 team stands in one line and the j1s form a line too and they go down the row to shake hands/hug/convey well-wishes to the j2s. we did it last year too, and i rmb the j2 guys mostly telling me how huge my arms were.. ): this year, alot of the j1 guys and girls were telling me how my race was inspiring.. lol i never thought of myself as inspiring, so it was pretty shocking haha..

zomg then michelle tried to piggyback selene up monkey hill and it was quite failure.. michelle fell flat on her front, (ouchouchouch) and selene rolled over and skinned her knee. so i piggybacked her all the way to the toilet to get it cleaned. (im an ambulance just like mary yay!)

Macritchie's Next Top Model(MacNTM) was LOL! smouldering looks and sexy poses and canoeing do not equate nopenope.. but meera and prav think their poses are da bomb so hahah okeh. =D

then ge and i went to py's hse to shower before team dinner. ge says it's the best way to end nats and i agree.. pltnmates forever! love!

then we were late for dinner at bugis. seoul garden was spammed with crescent canoeists so we ate at Happy Pay Steamboat lol.. it wasnt halal, non-vegetarian plus py was having rashes so she had to stay away from seafood, so py, meera and i had our own food spree! (2 sausages, 1 prata sausage and rootbeer float for me) and guilt-free rootbeer float is loveee! omg and we were so super sleepy and high and we were mad. then we had to fetch jiaqi, who was late cos she was having soup at home, (O.o) and we went for our food adventure. py and i kept making fun of the way meera ran and likened her to a rhino. and they didnt have clam chowder at lj so i bought thai coconut, which meera agrees is heavenly!

we were still mad as we walked back to Happy Pay steamboat and my shirt said "TEAM AFFLES" cos py thoughtfully covered the R and meera was showing off her flathead cos she could balance the bottle on her head. then py was still calling her a rhino so she got depressed and sat by the side of the road and looked like a drunkard with a 1.5l ice lemon tea bottle. and she tried to convince us that it was very comfortable there but we didnt believe her.

we were still mad when we reached the steamboat place as we recounted to the totally happening table,(which got even more happening after we left) our exciting food adventure.. yup then i felt drained and sat limply at the table and kennedy asked if i was okay, which i was somewhat. then daddy fetched me at 10.30.

exciting.

hmm im not too good with words, so i shant bother summing up the entire nats experience.. i think deb captured it pretty well in her lj yupp.. ahwell basically, i think we've trained hard and fought hard.. we rowed with no regrets and we should be proud of ourselves and what we've become, and i love my teammates very much. though im glad to not have to suffer anymore 2k timings or monkey hills etc, i'd still miss macritchie and training together with the 13 other girls. canoeing gave my jc life a purpose, and the experience and priviledge of being in the team is something i would treasure for a long time to come..

RafflesRow ftw

nazzer sweetheart darling got me a red remote-controlled car yay! he was sposed to get me a big bigg box of chocolates for missing All my races but he got me something better instead.. (: REMOTECONTROLLED CARS PWNZ CHOCOLATES wooh! the guys want a boyfriend too cos they want rc cars haha! they think im lucky.. haha~!

oh the car's very durable. it's got only two cracks on the hood so far, after all it's been through.. lol and i've decided to name it Mary! =))

aight enough time-wasting, im off to the library now to do summore maths..

olivejuice//

row with no regrets

watching the video of my races makes me wanna vomit,seriously.. it's like, you can hear all the ppl screaming on shore in the video and you're willing the tiny you in the screen to go faster too. but omg the tiny me was still moving so sloww!

then i feel myself back in mary. back in lane1, rowing that 500m that initially felt too long, but suddenly so very short. suddenly nothing else matters, other than to row to the last buoy, to/for the people who were on shore, screaming and cheering for me. i could hear them, i could feel them. i got a surge of energy somewhere after 200m but i guess it didnt help all that much. fourth still. god i really really wanted t1 gold..

and then there's k4. watching our video, i have to admit that it wasnt one of our better 1000s.. totally out of sync. directioning was kinda whacked. and personally, i was freaking tired from 500m already. and i guess that made every stroke abit less effective. no more hard pulls. slower recovery. argh but whyy! why did our most important (not to mention final) 1000m have to be one of our shittiest? it's so awful to think that all our hard work only amounted to a 3rd placing.

and as always, jiaolian's right. we got overall 4th.

so yeah, i honestly cant say that i rowed with no regrets..

but then again, i cant say just how much more effort i could've put in tho. cos i really did give it my all, at that point of time. which is even more depressing cos my best still isnt good enough garrr! -faints and dies from disappointment. D:

i must say tho, that my row for t1 finals was the row that i was waiting for. i was very lucky to get through from heats, to semis and to finals. my heats was awful cos my first few strokes hardly caught any water, and i got so excited for the first 300m that my pace was totally off and i died for last 200m. came in first, but still.

and semis, HAHAHA. to explain the predicament i was in, i shall quote greg's note to me yst, "haha i heard you were crying while rowing cos of the wind yesterday! that's funny hahaha" yes, i got effing owned by the wind omgg.. and it's super not funny! the wind made my directioning damn screwed up, and having to tilt so much just to stay in my lane was physically draining, and i was barely moving and i got so scared.. but wth, it's not like i've never rowed with wind before seh. &%*@^#(!!!

ah right enough bout the races, it's not like the past can be undone..

i shall instead now thank everyone who supported me yayy! uh i shall dedicate one whole entry to teammates later cos there's really just too much to say.. so for now, i must thank Liyana, Farina, Melz, Fungs, Taufiq and Nigel! haha fine so nigel came for chinks & kennedy and fungs came for brian but yeah. my "legions of supporters", as jiaqi calls em. you guys have nooo idea how much you being there meant to me, seriously.. lovelove! ah but the silly cheap thrill idiots very randomly carried me off the ground, to a height that i was not accustomed to. and afterwards had no idea where they intended to carry me. -.-

ohyeah teammates also decided that carrying me around must be very fun so i got carried again, after finals, from the pontoon to shore. gahh not like im very light like that rightt! =(

omg and daddy dearest! i cant believe he came for both my races, and very excitedly took videos of me and my "legions of supporters" and he sent me a super cute/sweet sms after my race, which was really very awww.. :) lol eventhough i had to row in a shirt and not my jersey cos i didnt want him to see me in one. (he must've been so proud to see his conservative malay daughter row among a bunch of skanks in skimpy jerseys and fbts.. haha!)

and i realized that my dad has turned up for pretty much all of the important events in my life. okay i can only rmb from sec3 onwards, cos i think that's also when all the excitement began, but yeah. sec3 malay drama, though mom said that she didnt see a need to go, dad actually came over to rg on drama night but YAR I DIDNT KNOW HE WANTED TO COME! so he didnt have a ticket, plus he came late so he didnt know where the heck everyone was. (i really really feel damn bad bout this) but ahwell im touched by the simple fact that he came manz.. sec3 OM skit day at acsi, he came! oh wait, dad also came for either sec2 or sec3 passing out parade for ncc annual camp, with the family yup. and they also came for last year's rj malay drama haha! and yst gosh, that really was da bomb. he wore running shoes with his tailored pants cos he figured it'd be muddy hahahaha.. =D yeah but basically, he's really been there for me, and i love him veryvery much.. (awwwww)

hmm okay, remind me to blog bout teammates(LOVE!!) and post-nats parteh-ing next time kays. okay it just started to sink in that there wont be anymore canoeing for us, ever. ah and it's a saturday morning, but im not at macritchie rowing in bloody mary. i'd usually still be asleep at this time on free days but GACK my internal canoe trg clock! SO DEPRESSING! D:

i shall proceed to mope around now. ):

olivejuice//

pressure

tommorow i will row the most important races of my 1.5 years in Raffles Row..

scared, nervous, excited, scared, worried, scared.

god im so jittery inside.

but i've gotten this far. i've worked so hard. i've pushed so much.

just two more races. i have to be brave. i will be brave. i will fight till the end. i will fight for the team. i will fight for Raffles Row.

oh god.

love

okay i cant blog very long cos bern said to sleep nao. so since a picture paints a thousand words, here are a few thousand words that will last the next few days till im free to blog in detail.

ah but firstly, THANKYOU everyone for the presents and wishes and stuff.. LOVEYOOS! =)

double birthday outing!
(melz is gonna kill me for these, but Hey she looks good in em anw!)



amusing photo


liyana doesnt like having her photo taken


i look like big mafia boss :D

Boat cleaning & waxing in the morning!

teammates are lovee~!






i love mary.. (:

aight so tmr the battle begins.
RafflesRow ftw!
godspeed.

olivejuice//

Mary & i

Dear Mary,
eventhough we only got together after nats last year, when i asked joohui if i could have you, and eventhough i initially chose you simply cos you're red, i must say that i have grown very much attached to you.

i still rmb pre-nats 07, when the j3s would complain of how imba your backwash was, and i thought: hell it'd be pretty cool to have a boat that could cause so much destruction..

im sorry i ever tried to rename you, cos now i realize that it's not quite the same calling you Nash, especially with all the history that came along with you. i will always remember the Bloody Mary at your floor, which i'd stare at when i get tired and my vision would get blurry and the words "Oody ary" would keep ringing in my head. (best not question the shagged mind). i will always remember the names of my predecessors scrawled inside you, and all the medals that You have helped them win.

Dear Mary, sitting next to you after trg today truly was wonderful. visualizing my race with you by my side made me feel strong. it made me believe that we do stand a chance in winning that gold for the team. as i stroked the multitude of scratches on your exterior, and the small chips, it was clear that you've contributed so much to the team in your lifetime, and i am so proud to be part of this amazing heritage. and i believe that we can set one more milestone, before they take us out of the game. t1 gold, mary. that's all i want. that's all i need. let's do this together, okay? heck the bloody competition. we'll pwnz them right, mary? I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH YAY!

-end of lovenote to mary-

trg today was pretty good.. macs was super spammed with the usual bunch, plus the visiting schools.. cut pb on mary by 20secs. damn good time to peak yes. k4 today was better too yup.. weighed mary and she's really quite fat.. =/ Mary france bodyline hahaha~!

bern sent out lane draws earlier tonight.. pretty scary competition sigh.. oh btw, my k4 heats is at 12.30 on tues and my t1 heats is at 3.20 on wed! COME COME SUPPPORT! =D

team tried to embarrass me after trg today but i made it out of macs pretty much unscathed phew..

today was our very last training.. -sad.

climbed over busstop gate, showered, prayed then met nazzer at ps. swensens, hancock, long bus ride where i knocked out for 30mins and twitched periodically.. nazzer darling sweetheart gave me a Parker pen engraved with my name aww.. i initially thought it was a pretty random choice for a birthday gift but lol like most of his presents, it grew on me yup.. he was pretty indignant that i failed to see the value of a Parker pen and that was amusing and cute lol.. in any case, thankyou for a wonderful day & i love you haha!

i shall now proceed to spaz over nats for abit then try to zen.. -nods.. ah yes and a quote from nazzer: "oh _______! Yeah she's rather monster... But you are more monster than her, my little spunchkins!"

i cant decide whether i should be flattered or not.. =/

olivejuice//

final week

it's been a very emo week oh dear..

monday: nazzer sent me to sch yay! and i was almost late to sch and had to run to assembly.. ): oh and i got out of Fitness, which i was sposed to go for cos i havent taken my napfa, by telling the teacher that i didnt take napfa cos i was injured but would've otherwise gotten a gold.. and she believed me haha! yup so i got to join the class for inter-class capt ball. where we beat both 30, i think, and 7A.. ah yeah and apparently when a teacher asked "what's the strength of 5A?" bern replied:"Siti" lol! and eugene told me that his class (or was it just the girls?) is afraid of me nao boos..

water trg. jiaolian wasnt ard so we just did mileage.. okay la not bad.. took our indiv vids for the team video tt bern was compiling.. everyone was feeling emo and stuff.. it was pretty late and scf ppl were gone so we went to sit at the edge of the pontoon and talked and admired macritchie and reminisced and watched the sky get darker, until we saw an scf-looking person watching us so we ran-walked and tried to look unsuspicious. then we finally left cos it started to rain pretty heavily..

tuesday: team capt ball. we did dry row at the gym before that, which was pretty lol.. cos we were hard ten-ing excitedly with other members of the rafflesian community looking on so.. =/ yar and the radio was playing some songs and ge kept saying, "dont follow the music!" hoho.. capt ball was VERY exciting. bern lost at scissors-paper-stone and deb said "EH who said the winner must win!" deb is very amusing.. anw we proudly named ourselves the Losers, but we won in the end owells! =D

yup then we went to one of the pe rooms to discuss the upcoming week and pen down some stuffs.. we also got our new jerseys and shirts yay! then we went to the track to camwhore abit.. jiaqi and i did chinese dance woo! haha!

wednesday: water trg. was aching badd. 6k on t1 and 2k on k4. k4 was hell. pain was crazy. and i had a 'moment of weekness' when i got out of the water nyeh.. extended boardwalk run afterwards was boos.. oh i love gatorade powder! =D

thursday: school was lol. i was being very bitchy in the morning.. =/
random entertaining things that happened:
1. slept during break with the boys and laksh and na on the tables, which was surprisingly quite comfortable.. then then na was still sleeping and she was plugged in, (i found out afterwards tt she heard her name being called a few times but thought nothing of it) yar annen pris-the-bored told taufiq to go hide her shoes. so one shoe ended up on top of the projector. the other was moved from on top of the projector-screen thing, to the top of the fan, before finally ending up on top of the front door (which was jeanchow's suggestion). so then jeffrey saw the shoe on top of the projector and was pointing to it in shock and i was telling him to put his finger down when na woke up and silly silly jeffrey had this SUPERshocked expression and promptly scratched his temple. HAHA! then na went vulgar and taufiq ran out to save his ass and na went after him, walking under her shoe (which was on top of the door) and it all looked really funny.. YAY CHEAP THRILL!

yup then the girls decided to make a pact and pon pe together. so we told the pe teacher that we assumed that there wouldnt be anymore aftn pe so we didnt bring our pe stuff, then he said "assume assume. the world is still square.." O.o omg he is so strange.. yar then we were slacking ard and priya and meera sat with us too cos we're excused from aftn pe cos of nats and py was complaining bout having to go for fitness and that they were having an introduction to the gym and was gonna teach them how to do lats pull-down and jump against the wall lol.. nyeh and the 'assume' pe teacher was making fun of canoeists!

water trg: walking out of school to macritchie was quite emotional.. took a picture at the gate lol.. everyone still rmbed this time last year, when the j3s were being emo bout their last after-sch trg.. we took a leisurely stroll to macs, talking and reminiscing again..

was hurting quite abit. back, arms etc. was planning to do lighter sets or not row at all, but im quite glad i did.. rowing despite the pain made me feel quite strong and oddly more confident of rowing next week.. last time rowing under the evening sky made me emo again.. and the atmosphere at macs is getting rather exciting.. =) i wanted to cap so after we finished our sets, i jumped out of Mary, next to the pontoon, but the water was shallow owells..

i gave Mary a kiss and a longg hug at the rj shed. im gonna miss her so much bother..

bern's short speech afterwards called upon some waterworks and it was pretty touching.. then we did some lol-ing visualizations, where all of us won first place cos we're pro like that.. haha!

friday: i finally brought my birthday goody bags to school! yayy! i almost chickened out but lol it was really fun.. gave em to teammates and classmates and farin and melz and yar.. very fun heh..

spent my break helping na sell stuff at the litweek merchandise booth.. i helped sell alot of stuff kay! my hawking totally rocks yes.. special thanks to chinks who bought stickers and gave it to me haha! omgz anw afterwards when na's shift was over, (we beat the guy who was in the shift before us cos we sold more stuff whee!) the j1 girl who took over was being so rude and AP and i got super pissed off.. omg and they reduced the prices by ALOT in just a few hours, which was quite sneaky and ugh.. whatever la at least proceeds go towards a good cause.. =/

the rest of the time before team movie screening was quite a blur.. i had lunch then went up to class myself to sleep for 1.5 hours.. =/ yar then woke up at 3.10 to go pray then head to specs gall to meet the girls.. we watched We are Marshall n one of the pe rooms with the guys' team as well.. pretty good show.. selene and i brought pillows yay! we were all lying around quite comfortably and we realized just how comfy we are with the whole team.. duno la, i guess everything just felt right..

we watched the team video that bern compiled.. made us all quite emo again.. a splotch of water fell on my knee, which was apparently jiaqi's tear lol.. yup then we went to the top of the specs gall, which had lots of memories for us.. first team talk, cranberries, commando pushups etc.. so bern gave another emo speech.. then she gave each one of us super cool personalized badges.. omgz love! more more more tears.. deb kept asking whether there were ants running about her face.. =/

then the girls went for dinner and i had to go home..

okay i've summed up the weekday week. the next few days might be quite exciting.. celebrating 060708 with nazzer tmr. with family on sunday (youth day ftw!) and monday with the FariNa and melz.. and then finally nats '08 begins on tuesday..

Be strong, be brave. Have faith. i will fight to the last buoy no matter what, i promise.

olivejuice//

can you hear me?

IM SLEEPY!

but im waiting for mom to be done frying chicken so that i can have a bite before i sleep.. i dont eat that much really.. =/

4k on t1 and 6k on k4. back's better but upper arms hurt. whatever la some pain's gonna be present at any time somewhere.. -shrugs and rubs arms. hoho team camwhore session was the longest ever- more than one hour zomg! so retarded and fun and extremely exhausting..

uh decided to take creatine till nats cos i felt left out.. >.> nah not really that, but i guess i just figured that i dont wanna have any regrets when all this is done..

gonna miss the girls hell alot. i miss some of em already.. ): ah yeah and our solo shots for the tv thingey in sch was embarrassing lol.. spending every aftn/day for the next two weeks with the girls and i expect it should be pretty fun lol..

cheryl on k1.
prav on t1.
bim & priya on k2.
if you dont get what im driving at, good.
it's a mean thought but yeah sometimes you cant help wishing things were abit different..

-sigh.

loner-ed at woodlands lib for 2.5 hrs gosh.. i like the children's section cos the shelves are shorter than me.. haha! and i fell asleep cos i was so shagged and woke up to find a little boy smiling at me hoho! and he came back a few times later on.. :) had lunch with mom and sis afterwards and bought candy (i love the candy mix thingey from minitoons, which are super super overpriced at 711, and mom thinks im childish!) and bought a new top and super comfy pants for $7.50 and $10 respectively wow! yay sale!! =)

im such a girl. -happy!

olivejuice//woops happy belated 39th! i love you.. (:

food

i need food. we're waiting for the h2 physics ppl to end to see if anyone else wants to join na and i for lunch. teammates are going out for lunch too but i should go with na, yes. =/

ct2 just ended. LOL.

found out that there's training later and i dont have trg attire. plus back still hurts damn bad. it's been horribly painful and terribly distracting when i mug. GAR!

nats in 2weeks. back better get better by then. till then, i gotta control my training. watch my back. HAHA. have faith in the effort i've put in so far and dont overkill for the next two weeks? yar kay sounds like a plan.. ):

prelims in 10weeks. i'd have only 8weeks left after nats. haha scary.

okay still doesnt feel like post-exams yet. i wonder why.. D:

coughBIRTHDAYcough6JULYcough.

olivejuice//

hide-and-seek!

today, i swear the squirrels were playing hide-and-seek at the sheds! seriously!!

4k on t1 and 4k on k4. quite shitty la, left arm/shoulder's getting worse. hope the ct break (hahaha) will help lessen the pain for abit and then bring on nats before my arms fall off yes.

okay little sisters are being excited over the Hannah montana 3-d concert thing on disney. very very lol. AND OMG HAHA DAD JUST DETOURED TO CHEERS TO GET OLDER SIS AND I 3D GOGGLES AS WELL! -AMUSED!!!

disney's taking advantage of little kids! terrible.

teammates think my face looks like a squirrel. i disagree humph.

okay la hannah montana concert looks pretty interesting. =/

mugged with nw yst and okay la quite productive. Dont mess with the Zohan is quite disgusting. dont really like bah. i wanna watch Incredible hulk.

i mug nao.

olivejuice// munchkin smunchkin

unwell

i think jiaolian's finally cutting down on trg intensity. 6k on t1 and 2.8k on k4.. i missed my pb by 3secs and jl gave this disappointed look when he told me my timing. argh im already pushing myself as hard as i can pls! bah but failure la, i turned around after 500m buoy going out for my 3rd k for the 4k row thing. biceps/deltoids/shoulder area hurts pretty bad when i row now.. suck suckk. i was crying-ish during 2k timing boos. oh i realise why nash i good substitute name for bloody mary cos it's much easier to say when im yelling at her to help me move faster.. =/ well talking to my boat helps yes.

nationals is drawing near. hmm and at the rate gaby's improving, im quite sure she can make it to finals. she's wayy better than i was at this time last year. imba manz.. ah right and the number of injuries in the team has increased.. scary. hmm and i miss having the rest of the girls around.. loves all of yoos!

holiday to mersing was fun. very awful timing but lol i guess being with the family can be quite fun.. my family is lame lame and we laugh at the silliest things gosh. omg yar and we didnt book a hotel before that and we saw this hotel tt looked quite nice tt was perched on a hill. then when we drove up and parents went to the lobby, we waited in the car and scanned the hotel exterior and the best description for it is definitely dilapidated. like half the hotel was missing la pls. and windows were bare and the walls were rotting. but i guess it must've seen better days..

then parents came back to the car and we were like lol kay phew let's find another hotel. and they were doing tt "oh-noes-no room" thing and we were telling our parents bout the sad state of the hotel when dad suddenly turned the engine off and told us that he indeed got us a room and there was sudden silence in the car.

eh but mom mentioned earlier that she wanted a hotel tt had buffet breakfast but this hotel didnt. after we checked out the next day, mom told us that she felt hypnotized and got us checked in, despite them not having breakfast and not having checked the state of the rooms or anything like that. in fact, we were the only guests in the whole hotel wtg!

lol but we actually stayed in this other building that was a little further away from the main hotel and was 3 storeys high and our room had a GORGEOUS view of the sea, which made up for the relatively shabby state of the hotel and freaky vibe.. =/

spent most of our timing eating i think. dad thinks i eat alot boos! cos yst when we were driving home, instead of asking everyone whether we'd like to eat summore, he asked me whether i needed anymore food cos he says im the chief. nyeh. oh but i did eat alot ah. and it was very very very nice.. =D though meera and nw reminded me not to eat so much just because it's malaysia. but lol it would've been a waste if i hadnt. malaysia's food paradise yay!

bah i've been getting headaches alot lately. and i feel my body heating up nao gar!

im definitely definitely gonna screw econs and seahist for ct2. gotta try salvage the rest now. kay off to mug!

olivejuice//

the time is now

stupid title hahaha! pretty good row today.. 11.6k on t1 and 2.4k on k4. when i went up for break during halftime, jiaolian said "today t1 very good! -pats back" O.o boat's gliding now apparently, no more jerky movements. just in time woo..

anw not every one of us had to do time trials cos some of us were confirmed rowing.. watching them row was kinda heartbreaking.. as in our teammates are in the lanes, fighting among themselves to row for nats, which is The competition we've worked so hard for, yet not everyone will get to compete in the end. i know tt nazzer says that competitive sports are all like that but still, it wasn't sposed to be this way.. ):

if prav manages to beat gaby on monday, there's a chance that she'll be competing.. 3 other j2 girls might not be competing as it is. and to think that im rowing two races. i feel awful, bother..

no 2k timing today but i pushed myself quite some yup.. i guess i basically tried to keep pace with meera and kept in my mind what i wanted to achieve for nats. gold for t1. i spose i've always had this goal from the start, but sometimes i'd think "how on earth am i sposed to beat certain unmentionable schools eh?" god and worse still i dont even know how the other t1s are faring at this point in time. the whole team is expecting no less than gold from me. yes there's relatively less competition for t1 cos there arent any nat team rowers but meh? no pressure whatsoever manz..

fyi every boat that gets thru to finals will contribute points to the school and if i manage to get gold, that's 6 points to rj. and that is why i simply must get gold. WAH stress. D:

didnt go for trg on thurs tho cos of fever (i bet it's cos we ran in the rain on wed!) and basically mugged at home.. met nazzer on fri to mug.. yar and we popped by the pc show awhile and i've decided tt i feel quite claustraphobic in huge crowds. dont like gar.. i love nazri yay! (random fact hoho)

fathers' day tmr. mom's going out with dad for wedding so then sisters and i are gonna prepare fried chicken, garlic bread and mashed potato. and ordering pizza YES! -happy!

oh haha more pictures from women's open!

Short-term k4! <3! (ge's back in our boat now uhuh)


Single Boat Babes! =D


us being dao minus michelle! jr's dao face is cmi lol


our j3s look so white! and pretty and feminine~! =)


me and a sinking k1. and deb trying to save me.. bah.

okeh i try to mug nao.

olivejuice// overwhelmed with love for yoo whee~

rain ohnoes!

it started raining pretty heavily otw to macs today and we couldnt run gorilla hill route.. ): -secretly relieved. but rain got lighter and we ran terrible trio route anws.. lol but after 12 rounds of monkey hill last week, terrible trio doesnt feel too terrible anymore yay!

good row today. 6k on t1 and 5.2k on k4. t1 2k timing improved by 15-17secs yayy! k4 was quite good too but we were rather unstable at times.. i lost my paddle a few times during tilts and whacked my arm against the combing and now i have a bruise near my elbow boos..

omg and i chipped my right paddle blade wtg! was in k4 and we were moving past the pontoon and my paddle got stuck underneath and i yelled at them to stop and tried to pull the boat back but it was too late and there was a Crack sound and now there's like a big-enough chip gar. it shouldnt affect my row much but meh i felt so sad! and like the paddle's been my trusty companion for so long (even longer than bloody mary!) and i didnt even give her a name! and i felt so awful. so thanks to the girls' contribution, my paddle has a name: *drumrolls.. FLASH! cos my frequency will be so fast and it'll be like a flash. or someth. =/

Flash and Nash speeding down the lane~
WHEE!

oh sports doc appt this aftn finally. back's okay-ish now but my deltoids'(sp?) been hurting lately.. so yar apparently i strained my shoulder rotator muscle thingies.. lol! just gotta try to relax abit or someth ah..

t1 and k1 showdown on sat & mon. time trials.. may the best man win ehs? everyone's improved tremendously, it ought to be a close fight.. I STILL THINK EVERYONE'S DAMN PRO NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS KAY! (dont think all of em would read this but,) jiayou all the way!

LESS THAN A MONTH LEFT TO NATIONALS 2008!

rafflesrow ftw.

olivejuice// silly bugger love you muacks.

nwkc '08 photos

these made me laugh haha~!

JUMPSHOTS!
1. getting ready

2. failures lol

3. no. 178264

4. success! finally! (look at jiaqi hahaha)

5. tired.


showing deb some love~


okeh i duno where the other photos are but lol more soon!

anws, mugged with nazzer at jp lib today. hate mugging! but rather productive ah.. nw needs more colour in his life cos he uses only black/blue/red for notes! syimah to the rescue!! =D i ate alotttttttt today. and older sis is a good sport. loves!

i hear that tmr's run is gonna be shit. i fear.

olivejuice// love of my life worxx! -ack.

finally

yst morning, otw to macs, i was praying for goodluck and basically to keep calm.. then i looked at the sky and there was a bunch of pretty clouds and the sun was peeking out from behind it, and i thought, "today's gonna be a good day" =)

and indeed it was. 3rd for u19 k4 1000m, yo. improved from our pb by 9secs! i was quite disappointed right after the race though cos we lost 2nd to nj by a split second and michelle said tt i wasn't catching water towards the end.. i guess there's no point dwelling on what-ifs but haha it really was a good race la. cos 1. there's improvement! and 2. we really really fought till the last buoy and the feeling is great..

lol and omg finally getting something for my efforts is so sweet! before my race, i was thinking of the previous times when i was So close to getting a medal and i realized tt i desperately wanted to win this race cos i didnt know how much longer i could stay strong and deal with such disappointments.. but haha yay. =D..

nazzer sweetheart darling came for my race yst whee~! it started raining after the 7th or 8th race tho so my race was pushed back about 3.5hrs.. spent that time with nw yup.. there was a hold up during the race before ours and we waited at the start line for about 30mins. it was still drizzling and we were freezing so i allowed myself to be angry so tt my blood would be warmer hoho! nw had to leave at 12 but he actually stayed till my race ended, which was ard 2.30 or so.. ahh lovelove! lol.

kinda overslept today and missed meemee's race.. 3 caps occurred today and it was really very awful.. ugh well they'll definitely be back with a vengeance for nats manz.. go go! oh and our j1s are zomg pro!

um yeah and i did someth very embarrassing today.. deb wanted to go row a k1 at the pond and i was like Yay okay i wanna row k1 too! and bern made me pinkypromise that i wont do anything stupid. cos everyone assumes i'd do someth stupid. humph!

so yeah the first time i pushed away from the pontoon, i capped. =/ then i tried again. this time i managed to row out to somewhere in the pond. and i realized that the bunch of em who were at our rj area were watching me row cos i rowed funny apparently. i think the boat was trembling like crazy and i braced like 10 times just to stabilize myself. eh at least i manage to recover from practically vertical tilts okay! (t1 ftw!) so anw yeah after 2 near caps, i finally capped. and i spose i turned my boat over a little too late cos it started filling up with water super fast and was sinking and it finally ended up vertical in the water! omg and i was panicking like crazy and deb was giving me her wtf expression.

then in the distance, i saw the most wonderful most amazing chiobu row towards me in a k1 with a no plate. i told her tt it's okay cos she has a race to row but she insisted on helping me and omg she's so amazing! but it didnt really work ah, then some guy came in a red k1 and saved me wooh! he said he's done this a million times, "okay no, maybe a few hundred times" and i told him this is my first. then he asked me the funniest qn ever. "are you competing later?" lol! me:"thankfully no." so anw when he finally got my boat back in the right position, his friends on the pontoon cheered damn loud. -faints and dies. so right i guess next time i wanna embarrass myself, i should do it when the whole of macritchie isn't watching. jr said that the scf ppl actually stopped midway through an announcement on the mic to see what the commotion was about.

and of course the team showed great camaraderie by laughing at me.. their first instinct after seeing me cap was to take pictures.. -.- yar and bern figured tt next time she ought to be more specific when she tells me "dont do stupid things"

oh dear but afterwards, the pretty girl who saved me, capped during her race. selene says she's a super pro natl k1 rower so capping shouldnt be something she's used to, yes? she was crying when she reached the pontoon in the speedboat. ugh im not gonna touch a k1 again anytime soon.. D:

hmm so women's open this year was alright i guess. could've been better but owells we'll just show em during nats eh? i had an msn convo with na on friday night bout the inspirational blog posts by the team and she said,

lol so eventhough we didnt own all the other boats, i think we did show em what raffles canoeing is all about. eugene said this on the guys' blog: "we will fight till the end together". it's not the end yet and yes we will fight.
RAFFLES ROW FTW!

pictures soon. =)

olivejuice//

stupid monkeys

monkey hill before row is ggxxyyzz. WAH pain.. D: plus i didnt have dinner nor breakfast so i puked out basically just stomach acids (priya says it's bile but it has a sharp and sour taste, which is the defn for acid, cos i cant find stomach acid on dictionary.com. hoho!).. yar so i puked a few times in between and after run. gross.. 12 rounds on monkeyhill. -dieded.

then pretty soon after, we took out boats and had water trg. all of us were aching everywhere. run before row is definitely teh shit. 8k on k4 and 3k on t1. some j1 guy took nash for c1 and i stood at the pontoon in the rain till he came, and by then the single boaters finished 1 500 redi.. ): owells and selene and jiaqi are owning my ass for 200m sets redi.. but lol i beat them for last one cos jiaqi told me to stop slacking.. ><

the girls scammed deb after trg. first they were trying to scam me by saying that it was my fault tt we're having more land sets cos i said i wanted more. or something. then i became public enemy no1. then deb came along and after they told her tt we're running another 12rounds on monkey hill, she went crazy. her reaction was extreme, to say the least. im quite sure she was gonna kill me there and then.

but of course, thank god and merciful bern, no more pt.

lil sis came back from beijing yst. and yar i guess i missed her.. we had swensens and YES MEGA BURGER!!! and parents think im very smart cos i knew how to make full use of the students' offer thingy. O.o we got 6 meals and 2 sundaes for $90 or something.. =/ ohyar and sis bought lotsa little gifts and she made us choose what we want.. lol cute..

sunday, mon and tues were filled with uh mugging and nothing else much basically..

sad life!

i hate caring too much about you.
olivejuice// i miss you

entertainment from tanjianrong

These are our rules! Please note. these are all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports - It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.Let it be.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one
1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both.If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or motor sports
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape! (haha nazri)
1. Thank you for reading this.Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

im quite sure i've read it somewhere before but it's amusing nonetheless

woah

haha Fever pitch is still lovely. jimmy falon is yay! and i watched Speed before that (Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock yay yay!), which reminded me of The Lakehouse, which is woohyay! -pleased.

ohyeh i cant believe i forgot to mention this in my previous entry, but haha my lovely prata babies, ie. Part As who are now Part Cs and just recently completed their Specialists' course and one of em called me on thursday night and out of 11 of em who went for the course (not all 20(or is it 18/17 now?) could go cos of the 70% thing. die hq.), 6 of em got awards out of the 12 available. course best. 1 company best. 2 pltn best. ifc best (ohshit or was it someth else?). and gsk best. AMAZING phwoar! alrights gosh it's been so long since i've heard from the company or anything ncc related, save for pltnmates. but yeah, manz i miss my babies so so much.. D:

hoho ncc totally initated me to the world of physical torture and mental strength.

which reminds me, trg today was Painful. i had breakfast too late so yeah was feeling god-awful. swallowed what tasted like vomit a few times cos i was rowing. and k4 is just Awful cos you cant stop. even when you feel like crap. 8k on t1 and 7.6k on k4. exciting stuff

ohyeah i was browsing through my phone dictionary today on a whim and discovered something rather interesting.
kay so firstly i always thought that doppelganger (a ghostly double or counterpart of a living person) had some supernatural attachment to it cos sis once told me that apparently there have been occurences where people have seen their doppelganger in a situation that somewhat foretold the way in which they would die. but well i guess the dictionary reference doesnt imply that.

butBut on the other hand,
Fetch(according to my phone dictionary): the apparition or double of a living person. formerly believed to be a warning of that person's impending death. AHAH! fascinating, yes? actually no i think it's just another word for doppelganger. nyeh.

oh hmm i think stability's all the mind. with reference to canoeing, of course. cos like i rmb early last year, i was terrified of the water and i would wobble about in a t1 (yes, it is a fat and practically uncapsizeable boat) and manage to even cap a few times. simply because i believed that i was unstable and all that. ohwells random.

most of the single boaters have been improving quite exponentially. then there's Me, who hasnt hit her old pb in a thousand million years and deproving like crap. sometimes i guess giving up is such a tempting option. pushing myself in and out of the water (and i believe that every other canoeist is familiar with this as well) is just damn tiring and painful and having to bring ourselves to get back in our boat the next trg and the next and the next.. and it's so much worse when you just dont seem to be getting any better. im scared. im Freaking terrified. but ugh i guess i just gotta stay strong, for the girls and for my own sanity. yeah.. so i just gotta keep pushing.

we're almost there.

3 years is a long time.. im the most patient girlfriend in the whole world yeah!

confused~!

nyeh just watched 'I am legend' on vcd and the ending scene is different ZOMG!
okeh since you cant possibly watch it in the cinemas anymore, the ending goes like this,
1. will smith and the woman, Anna, and her son, Ethan, go down to his lab in the basement, followed close by the infected people/vampire creatures .
2. so the three of them go into the room with thick glass walls, where a vampire girl lay, having been injected with the possible vaccine earlier on in the show.
3. Anna saw that the vampire girl was getting better and realizes that wow the vaccine actually worked!
3. the vampire chief dude is still slamming relentlessly against the glass and the rest of the vampire dudes are howling and stuff
4. then will smith has a revelation!
5. he rmb-ed his daughter saying during their last moments together, "daddy look it's a butterfly~!"
6. then he looks at the cracks on the glass and realizes that it forms the shape of a butterfly.
7. then he looks back at Anna and notices a butterfly tattoo at the nape of her neck.
8. then he withdraws a sample of the vampire girl's blood and passes this to Anna and tells her to hide in this cubby hole thing at the back of the room and to stay there till dawn, when the vampires will retreat/melt, then leave for the 'survivors' colony' to pass them 'the cure'.
9. Anna tells him to stay with them but he says, No cos they wont go away.
10. then he closes the door, grabs a hand grenade from one of the drawers and charges towards the bloody vampire bastards.
11. at dawn, Anna drives off for the colony (and makes it there safely), with her voice in the background saying how Will Smith sacrificed his life in finding the cure something something.

if you wanna know the alternate ending in the vcd (they explain this strange phenomenon as well), WATCH THIS!
http://www.firstshowing.net/2008/03/05/must-watch-i-am-legends-original-ending-this-is-amazing/

and i shall quote the dude on the site, "It's rare that I'm this moved by something like an alternate ending, but this was truly breathtaking!" hah liyana! am not strange.

freaking weird..

im gonna do physics now.. INEFFICIENT MUGGING GAR!

trg tmr ftw! im back in the other k4 apparently. for NWKC next week at least.. strange strange..

olivejuice//

dirty sexy money

i find the way the dude who says Dirty Sexy Money on the channel 5 trailer for the show(what dyou call him ah?).. well in any case, he says it funny. but the show's pretty interesting, go watch! and watch Fever Pitch on saturday at channel 5 10pm! i watched it at cameron highlands while on holiday and i think it's a mush but pretty show yay.. ><

i think i've been watching too much tv.. and wayy too much psp-ing too!

ohyeh! on the North-South mrt line, ard Kranji/Yew tee or Admiralty/Woodlands, the 'voice woman' (ack honestly, what dyou call em??) will say "somethingsomething going to Johor Bahru, you can take bus no. ** from Marsiling mrt station. thankyou" anw point is, the way she says Johor Bahru is funny cos it sounds slutty and skank. dont ask me why.. =/ seriously go listen out for it haha!

kay another random thought. just read prav's blog and she was saying how she'd make her son join canoeing/water polo and her daughter will join canoing/track/canoeing. lol so i gave it some thought, and i think that i want all my kids to be able to swim (cos i cant and it's sad) and they must have some musical/artistic ability! learn guitar/violin/piano, be able to dance and it'll be nice if they can draw somewhat but it's okay if they cant do any of those cos i cant either owells (grade 1 piano ftw~!).. sports-wise, i spose i'd like them to be somewhat inclined to a sport but i dont mind if they're not, just not book-ish and frail.. EH! i want my kids to be everything im not! what is this.. =/

saw youngest sis off at the terminal3 earlyearly yst morning with parents.. she's in beijing now for some cultural festival thing doing malay dance.. -.- -jealous! ahwell hope she comes home safe.. knocked out when i got home, then went with parents and younger sis to jb.. i ate alot heh.. (:

ohyeah talked to parents bout trg frequency this month.. i can only go for 3 per week instead of 4, and parents arent too happy with that even so owells just gotta make do i guess.. to top it off, i've been having chest pains.. i'd take deep breaths to alleviate the pain but then i'd get intense sharp pain in my back within the same area. happened at least four times yst bother..

okeh. really gotta clear 3 topics for physics by today, or DIE! =/

olivejuice//

a kind of caustic charm

that line's been running through my head throughout trg today and i dont even know what it means. and i cant find the definition of 'caustic charm' either. gp faiill.. =(

trg today was verily gg. we rowed 11.6k only today but i felt awfully shagged, dunno why. and after my 2k timing, as i was carrying nash up, jiaolian said, "ey what happened? today 2k not good" "yeah.." "yaryaryar" so yeah jl's not very happy with me lately ohnoes.. oh but he's been sending me off to die and choke on meera's backwash cos he wants us to push each other. t1 and Ak1 are completely different boats so whaii! D=

monkeyhill is still hatred. my left shin was giving me problems again. i couldnt decide if it was sweat or tears tt blinded me during the last sprint up. soo and i decided tt our legs cant carry our body weight anymore. SMS club ftw lol..

showered in sch with the girls. then some teacher gave us leftover lunch from some camp thing and i ate two packets.. >< then prayed and knocked out at an air-conned raffles room for 30-40mins, where i woke up to find ppl in the class. O.o melho was one of em so haha not so embarrassing ah..

met nw for takoyaki again.. honestly, the only reason i visit jp so faithfully is for their heavenly takoyaki nyeh.. im a pig..

oh py, meera hongcheng and i left trg early yst for seahist makeup lecture cum tutorial.. i only barely managed to finished 2k timing, tho i wasnt sposed to cos of lightning threat. ohwells..

had lunch with 7 other class dudes at toa payoh. i couldnt decide between laksa and yongtaufoo but amazingly, they sold yongtaufoo with laksa gravy! ahh damn nicee! but very spicy owells.

ahyes. mayday on sunday was rather exciting.. some of the designs were pretty and haha na's designs so deserved to be the opening ah, some of the costumes hardly had any effort put into em.. anw haha am inspired after watching the dudes on the runway (though some didnt walk too prettily), i shall be a model HAHA! ooh does anyone want to watch my exciting interpretive dance?? ><

HAHA. kay i shall mug nao, soon.

back kinda hurts owells

olivejuice// happy 38th, love.. =)

MEMORABLE

HAHA i forgot to add! the most LOL-ing thing bout today haha.. after our k4 capped during first 2k timing, we tried to self-rescue. i went in first, did a dip thing and sticking one foot in before nose-diving into my seat. jr on the other hand took forever to get in haha (cos she says her legs were too long) but yar finally got in but facing me instead of the front hahaha! then meera tried to get in but failed lol. finally a pj k2 came to help and yar so we got saved. >< they said im like a monkey cos i got into the boat strange(after our 2nd cap) and like a c rower woo..

eh yar and the girls said tt i can do jumping jacks fast only cos im short and have short limbs! AM NOT SHORT! not really.. D:

kay that's all. haha amused.

push

today's trg was teh ouch. 7k on t1 incl 500m time trials. not bad ah got improvement but muddy beat me by abit cos i maxed out before 250m i think.. =/ 2k timing was timing-wise better than usual i spose, but jiaolian said "today, not good." ): ah hell, but i got the t1s to all try the k2 2k timing plan(or at least from what i observed ah) and i think it works pretty well so i'll cont. working on it uhuh..

right after 2k timing(and i was still panting away like a buffalo), the k4 girls were out at the pontoon redi so i hadta rush up, keep nash, grab a drink and my cap then plopped right into the k4 and 2k timing straight away. i was like shitttt. but we capped ard 750m and it was super sudden. after rowing back in our new t4. the water level was near the combing and water rushed in everytime we tilt and i'd shriek.. nyeh. so anw the problem was apparently tt my strokes were very diff from the rest. so i tried to correct it, then it was better but second 2k timing wasnt too good either.. and jiaolian made me 4th man as well and it's so weird gar. i hope he moves me back to 3rd man.. =( owells so 9k on k4..

jumping jacks is fun.. =D reminds me of ncc. we did 365 complicated jumping jacks for one of the years for achievement day. hella shiok.. love it. oh bern gave us Royce chocs yummy!

recap of the week!
wed: sch was okay. na and lakshmi ponned! lessons weren't too useful but my pen completely dried up during ihist, which was really lucky cos i only had one pen tt day so i managed to buy a new for gp ct. which was quite crap ah. see how it goes.. team talk after tt.

thurs: civics was awful cos the teacher was rather awful and the stories i heard bout him was tsktsk. the video was interesting tho.. ohyeh we got our yearbooks. i look fat. =/ maths tut was draining and my brain wasnt working too good. then na and i went for our 'break' with the guys at ri. food was good but they were playing with my food(which btw just looks better organized. im not anal!) and making the fish, chicken and wantan do drills. bullshit la haha.. and NIGEL did someth very stupid but the canteen was rather empty by then save for a table full of mats who stared and laughed. =) yar and i bought some of the girls bookmarks..

ohyar and i ran after sch with taufiq cos pe was cancelled. where btw i was told to go for Fitness cos i didnt take napfa yet. -.- yeah we ran some funny sets on the track, around pe block and also in the mph later on. i ran approx 10-11 rounds. taufiq-the-lazy kept stopping every once in awhile eventho he forced me to run summore.. showered and met nazri at jp for lunch afterwards.. takoyaki ftw!! & frozen yogurt is lovee..

friday: sch was ohkay. hed pizza hut with lq and linda (who treated us to chicken. lovelove!) and fungs who just pimped(which is a word tt we've decided isnt really deragatory cos the meaning of various words change over time due to its usage. which really is rather strange, cos it's usage should depend on its meaning to begin with.. ohnoes confused! ah yar depends on context too. ohwells) cos he was going to gym afterwards..

got home and watched ICJ court presentation thing for Pedra Branca results. rtm, which btw is a malaysian channel, was having a live telecast whereas no spore channel bothered to show it lol.. anw dude was reading from this thick book thing(no wonder ah results took so long to come out, they had to produce the book first haha) and so we flipped channels quite alot before the final result came out much much later. and in some foreign language, how silly. so we only found out the results when the msian reporter said in malay, (the whole report was read in english to begin with, i duno why they had live telecast. =/) something along the lines of "tt was very sad news for msia.." so yeah hurrah spore? na was surprised by my nationalistic sentiments but i guess taking history kinda screwed me up quite abit. inter-state tensions for seahist was very enlightening.. =) shant say more..

ohyeah and i went for maulidur rasul at the mosque where parents usually go for religion lessons. i kinda like having my throat hurt singing religious stuff, which i spose you can call hymns. strange..

watched sweeney todd at night, which thanks to nazri and mommy dearest, was spoiled for me and it was awful. i like surprises and the show would've been awesome if i hadnt known the ending bother..

okeh tired. should do some maths now or something. eh super long entry seh!

olivejuice//

passion

this is rather belated but i spose it's just to wrap up my thoughts prior to our hardcore june trgs before the final Nationals.

so yup approx 6 weeks left and i guess everyone's pretty much concluded that we're not ready to give the other schools a run for their money. we have politics now of all times too, so yeah i guess things are a bit screwed up..

on my part, i spose i ought to clarify what i said on wed. it's still true that i, unlike most of the other girls, dont exactly look forward to trainings all the time, or even do extra sets/gym/run on my own. i guess it does imply tt im not as passionate or hardcore as them. i suppose it's partly cos 1. im lazy and i hate running. 2. i've honestly never had to work very hard to get results(not in my studies tho haha. D:). i've always been rather physically fit. plus getting into the snr team last year, and getting all those extra water time, i still didnt appreciate what i had. 3. i figured that on my non-trg days, i might as well not tire myself out cos i already do tt on trg days= too shagged to study. and god knows how much i need to.

so when the girls mentioned about putting in the extra effort and all that, it made me qn my passion for canoeing. and how dedicated i am to the team and this sport. having mentioned this to bim, she said tt she does see me put in effort during trgs(at least) and i spose that's true. im not giving excuses for myself, but yes as an afterthought, i do test my limits and push myself every trg, even if it's not for my 'love' for canoeing, than at least for the single-boaters, whom i row with every trg and die together after every set. im most fortunate to be able to row rather fast and am honoured to have the other singles pace me. and im thankful for them pushing me forward(cos i dont want them to beat me). and it's this very special relationship that i have with them that keeps me going in canoeing.

every 500m row, i'd allign with the girls and then we'd do maintainance in a line, and everyone yelling encouragement to each other once in awhile. and then as we approach the last 4buoys, i'd yell, "3-2-1-burst" and haha i love the adrenanaline building up to that point and the flurry of paddles and splashing of water as we burst.. honestly, i have seen the girls improve so much from when we started rowing together at the start of the year.

so here's to the single babes, whose plight really cannot be understood by other ppl. we've grown really close this year, having spent most of our trg time together, that it pains me tt we have to compete against one another for limited spaces. and esp the fact that not every one of us will row. so sigh, no matter what happens, i just want you guys to know that i have utmost respect for every single one of you. and the amount of sweat and tears you've put into this sport have not gone unnnoticed. you dont need medals to be a winner.

k1
Cheryl: please dont cry or be disheartened bout trgs cos you've improved So much eventhough you're so new. so yes, really just continue fighting okay?
Jiaqi: you're improving bloody fast. im so proud of you really really. work on your bursts and you'd be bloody imba, seriously.
Bimqi: k1 babe ah? i wont talk bout your rowing (cos you're really good already. i still rmb tt one time you rowed after being away for so long and you beat me for 2k timing. ack imba.) but yeah, injuries are a pain. (literally) but yeah i've had back injuries, and all sorts of stupid injuries as well, and i know how it hurts to have to pon trgs and let your teammates down. and esp when everytime you hafta tell them about it, it sounds less real everytime. and you feel like you're just faking it even. But yeah you know what's best for yourself. and i really admire your passion for canoeing, so just keep it burning kays..
Selene: longest lasting k1 babe eh? you've improved quite some since last year so jiayou and improve summore, for the team, for jiaolian and for yourself. hmm i know it's been difficult for you this past month/few weeks with your injury, esp since you've hardly missed any trgs since last year, best attendance eh lol.. so yeah now that you're back, i bet you're way stronger than before so wooh all the way aight?
Meera: what's there to say manz, you're the bluetack and pro-rower. so do your thing and pwnz aights?

t1 bitches
which reminds me, another reason as to why i dont look forward to trgs is that it's really difficult to when you're rowing a t1. you're always moving so slowly and all the other boats just sail past. and it's so painful and demoralizing. we have this theory tt jiaolian picked us for t1 partly cos we're optimistic ppl to begin with, and this is oh-so-impt to keep us going. thus t1 humour etc. ohyeah and partly cos of our built, Bah.
Prav: you are fast. and improving really fast too. to be honest, im really scared of you and everytime i see you and your white boat from the corner of my eye during our 2k timings, i'd just do my hard 10s just to keep a distance from you. so Yes you're my motivator and pacer and i love you to bits. your dertermination to row inspires me as well and i look forward to rowing with you at nats. =) (oh and im sorry for missing trgs lately. i know how disgustingly painful it is to row t1 alone. bah.)
Priya: okay it took me awhile to come up with what to say and i guess i have nothing. noone can understand exactly how you're feeling right now so yeah i cant say much. you've always been so strong, physically and mentally, and i hate to see you so sad nowadays. rowing-wise, i have seen the power in you and i know you can row really fast if you put your mind to it. i guess the injuries dont help very much, but i just hope you'd stay strong and know that the t1 bitches are here for you always. so yeah just keep the passion burning no matter what happens kay? i look forward to doing dragon-boating and k2-ing with you next year.. ><

so 6 weeks to row my ass off and i guess there really isnt much to lose in putting in the extra effort(other than my grades of course) but yeah i aim to get t1 500 gold. now that i've said it, i will do what it takes to get it. it wont be easy, i know. so when i do get it, it will be all the sweeter. im rowing for the single boaters and yeah i love all of them very much. so yeah to hell bout what jiaolian says or how we row in the end. let's just end off our season with no regrets.

RAFFLES ROW FTW! (hell yeah)

olivejuice//

messy

pissy pissy day. okay not really but ihist source based got me super frustrated (wth it's not as easy as it looks!) and then a bunch of other stuff got me annoyed as well. and the weather is god-awful! and i bought bubble tea to cool down but the family took Forever to open the door and i plopped my stuff and quite intelligently dropped my bubble tea as well and it broke and spilled in front of the door. stupid sweet talk, this is the 3rd time i've broken the cup.. >:/

looking on the bright side, i got my first B for gp prac essay and compre. and fiona drew on my finger a 2-carrot ring. and i got the fire award for the term. HAHA. okay so i shall do a bigshot speech nao. thanks everyone who nominated me. Lol.. love you all muacks!

meh well im sorry my trophies, medals and awards aren't as amazing as little sister and her most well-dressed award. wth bullshit poohs..

fine i shall get on with ihist now..

olivejuice//

boreddd

okay so apparently na's gonna watch ironman now and treating farin and viv. im at home and about to mug gp like the loser i am. meh i gotta work so hard just for a freakin C. wtg..

in other news, (that phrase is infectious oh dear) sisters and i followed dad to expo, where he had a booth thing, and we ate alott. noodles, takoyaki, charkuey, corn etc. good stuff. ugh yeah and i did something super embarrassing! there was some magic show thing and the magician mat was rather uh, not good-looking. so i mentioned this to sis, but apparently his family was seated next to us and his mom overheard! ohmanz and i only found out afterwards. -smacks forehead.

speaking of embarrassing events, i just rmbed that on friday, FariNa, melz and i had pizza hut for lunch. and there were two guys at the table next to us and they left without finishing their pizza and the hut platter thing. and i was like O.o! and so uh when we were leaving, i asked the waitress whether i should grab a fry and she laughed and said sure. so i did and rushed out after the dudes. melz shared the criss-cross fry thing with me lol.. liyana thinks im a vulture and am teh embarrassing.

then when we got to sch and walking to the admin block, they were playing flo rida's low for the MR party and i was dancing to it as we walked but didnt realize tt there was a j1 boy right behind me and he looked O.o

okay i think i should try to be less embarrassing..

anw just watched Ayat-ayat cinta which is an adaptation from a novel. really nice stuff and they touched on polygamy as well.. i dont think i'd ever be alright with sharing my husband with another woman..

hmm twice yst i dreamt that nazzer came back already..:(

olivejuice//

fever

fever again wtg. so i missed both trg and flockey today ugh. farin says it's prolly cos i miss nw lol..

hmm yeah i missed team talk yst cos i didnt know bout it.. =/ but anw they talked bout the upcoming women's open i think. they took out the t1 races this time. it's damn screwed up la honestly, cos if they wanna phase out t1s, they should do it like completely. cos now us t1s hardly get to compete, and i really have no idea what's the standard that im sposed to be at. gar. hope the other t1s are feeling better now tho. we'll just pwns nats aights? =) am rowing k4 for women's open though hoho..

i hope all injured teammates will get better soon.. eh yeah they're all single boaters ie. bim, priya and selene.. =/ gosh no wonder trgs havent been as exciting.. save for prav and i and our messed up t1 humour i guess. woo..

settled june hols mug timetable yst. very little time sigh.. gonna mug physics soon yup..

olivejuice// 2~3 days? bah miss you.

heart grows fonder

right so nazri left for kl approx 2hrs ago. and he'll be back by monday night probably. D=

didnt go to sch today cos i wasnt feeling too good. parents went to jb with older sis and i mugged my morning away woo! then had lunch with nazzer ard 2.. productive enough day so far i guess.. finished poisson distribution(most of it, i couldnt do 2 qns boos) and attempted maths assignment and ought to do econs essay now cept that im bored. nyeh.

trg yst was pretty good.. left bicep kinda hurts, so did prav's and jinning's so maybe it's alright.. =/ prav's improving really fast and so are the j1s. i havent gotten my old pb in damn long and my timings have been pretty stagnant for some time now.. well i know very well what's wrong with me but im not doing what i should to rectify the problem. i need to run. like asap and for long long distances.. i hate running. we ran yst again, it felt good. but still. :(

oh i asked jiaolian how i was doing, he said "you? yeh, good!" but then he commented on my weird strokes and cos we cant communicate too well, he mimicked my rowing and it was teh embarrassing.. oh yst jiaqi said that prav and i dont know how lucky we are to row t1s. i spose every boat has its pros and cons. t1s for one, are very relaxing. we can lean back, and enjoy the view and keep our bottles in our boats. -ve: it's a freaking bathtub and it takes about double the power to keep up with the k1s, not to mention aks. ugh.

alright 9weeks less to nats. wtg i need to work harder. oh jl shifted me to the other k4. no idea why but owells see how..

i wish nazzer would come home soon. ohnoes clingy girlfriend~! the horror.. oh 'date' on tues was rather nice.. frozen yogurt and takoyaki is lovee.. nazzer's such a bitch but i love him anws hoho..

oh hmm na's been rather cranky lately so here's a message to her: HELLO NA HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER! =)

ohyeahh. the new-ish phillipino kids upstairs came down to play today and it all started from their ball having rolled down the stairs and came to rest in front of our door.

they're twins wooh! and they spoke a mixture of filipino/tagalog =// so i couldnt really understand half of what they said. but still, sho cute! though they kept coming down and their mom would then send their older brother/sister to fetch them that my mom soon told me to keep the door closed. =(

i want twins.

mugger mug mug.

I VANT NEW PHONE NAO.

olivejuice// kental's my word lah. come back safe and sound pls

balls

soccer face-off with 3K yst was awesome. most exciting soccer game i've ever played lol. and it only yst that i learned of the various positions in soccer. =/ hahaha damn fun manz. i was striker and i scored one goal and managed to do a header(though it kinda bounced nowhere useful but hah a header no less!) and intercept a pass via a cool move. fine it was a fluke but still! =D 5a girls are love.. ooh muddy said that when we were strategizing around our table, we looked like a real soccer team yeah! let's go kick some balls woo..

gp was okay, maths was pretty fun.

trg. had warm up run around the school with jianrong while waiting for the rest. gym was shiok as usual. we did strengthening, i think, small reps and heavy weights..? yar. fun stuff.. then team run, after so so long. we did somewhat like circuits,which reminded me of ncc trgs.. we ran to block A and ran up the stairs to the second level, ran around the level, took the stairs up one floor then repeat. all the way to the 7th floor. then all the way back down to the stadium and one round at the track. yay eventhough i hate running, team runs are super fun! =)

right okay i shall go join the rest of the class now and mug complex nos..

shall leave sch at 3 to meet nw yupp.. takoyaki ftw~!

olivejuice//

way to my heart

is through my stomach. anyone who's known me long enough would know how true that is lol.

nazri knows just how to make me smile sometimes hoho..

rj malay drama Dalang yst was pretty good. great effects, esp for the puppets scene, acting was reallyy good and i guess when you think about it, the whole plot's interesting and links up well. script could've been better (and some characters could've been given more original names) but overall very well done yup. hanging out with the melayoos is pretty fun.. climbing ladders can be pretty scary if you look down.. =/

anw drama reminded me of last yr's drama.

i look emo in the corner. owells i think i miss acting..

aight going to jb with family later to celebrate mothers' day yup..

olivejuice//

humility

rj soccer and rugby guys both lost today. considering tt they both emerged as champions last r, today's defeat was pretty ouch.. ohwells it's okay i think yijing was damn pro on the field anws. cheer up kay, brudder! anw yeah class match support and only 13 of us went, incl the 2 councillors and yijing lol.. throat hurts now. anw being yelled at in fronta other schools was rather -.- go raffles indeed..

did front-of-house stuff for drama after sch.. interesting lol.. drama tmr. hoho all the best, cast and everyone else..

swensens roxors. =)

anw new study plan. get my physics concepts right and know my maths stuff. so come june, i'll set aside time each day for physics and maths prac alternating and spam econs and hist throughout uhuh. hope it works..

i feel so super shit today. life sucks. and i guess i keep things to myself alot more nowadays is cos sometimes telling other ppl doesnt help. i mean other than letting it out, they cant exactly do much also. or sometimes they dont know what to say. or sometimes they say the wrong things, and though they may be well-intentioned, it's still not what you wanna hear. so instead of burdening others, or getting pissed at others for saying the wrong thing (and making you feel worse at the same time), it really is best to shut up.

i guess i just feel like you're taking me for granted. i cant be here just when you need me, esp when you're not there when i need you. i dont know why im holding on and just screwing myself in the end. every single day im hoping for things to get better but im just kidding myself i guess. im a fool to desperately hold on to what we used to be. wishing that things never changed. they said that it's best to move on, but of course it's not that simple. i know i still love you. i really do. but god.

suckass.

olivejuice//

the best damn thing

thankyou liyana for making listening to a very silly but rather catchy song. hoho avril..

kay ponned maths lecture to photocopy a bunch of physics stuff.. been ignoring econs and hist for a long while now and focusing instead on maths and physics but ugh cant afford to neglect for much longer..


trg yst was hell shiok. nash and i were rather slow yst and we could only do 2 2k timings cos of the lightning threat and they sounded the siren. prav and i found a new source of amusement: commentating ppl's thoughts. really, try it. it's so superbly bitchy and amazing woo! k4 Finally. soo's our new front man. our 2k timing was good, says and quotes (and translated) "silver confirmed so now must fight with nj for gold" hahahhaah.

wanted to mug at night but was too shagged. ended up mugging binomial distribution at 1-4 instead but i felt really awake..

feeling lousy again.

Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright, now let me hear you say hey hey ho

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the door
Even though I told him yesterday and the day before
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab
And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad

Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see

That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same

(chorus)
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen

Alright Alright yeah

I hate it when a guy doesn't understand
Why a certain time of month
I don't want to hold his hand
I hate it when they go out and we stay in
And they come home smelling like their ex-girlfriend

But I found my hopes I found my dreams
My Cinderella story scene
Now everybody's gonna see

That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same

(chorus)

Give me an A, always give me what I want
Give me a V, be very very good to me
R, are you gonna treat me right
I, I can put up a fight
Give me an L, let me hear you scream loud

One two three four

Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see

That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same

(chorus)

Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright, now let me hear you say hey hey ho

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen

ego ftw!

olivejuice//

swingwing

moodswings. and yeah i have teh most original title ever.. hoho.

right so achievement of the day: i wrote my 1530 word seahist essay on causes of inter-state tensions in SEA in approx 4.5hours during breaks today yay! =D

my 'hot date' was alright.. Ironman is exciting yay! but i thought his body looked kinda strange.. =/ i love takoyaki woo..

3 reasons why my boyfriend is teh awesome:
1. he cooks
2. he tolerates my moodswings and tantrums
3. he loves me

good enough reasons uhuh.. and i suppose the 1-2hr per week thing is good. cos i dont have any more time to spend on him either, or more specifically i Shouldnt spend any more time that can be more efficiently used to do more productive things like mugging.

i heard on the radio today that people who like the no.7 are repressed.. haha i always thought that i was a very loud and open person..

the elite-boys in class have been complimenting me relentlessly lately, and eventhough it's all for my koko krunch, it's starting to get pretty disturbing.. =/

oh god i just feel so awful and for so long now i think i'll go mad. who am i kidding? this is screwed up.. sigh.

olivejuice//

bouncer

i am teh bouncer for rj melayoo drama. with anwaar. HAHAHAHA

anw i've got a new name for bloody mary redi. and it's.. *drumrolls..
NASH! hahahah. really it was just a random name before i realized tt it sounded kinda like a mix&match of two names hoho..

right got this from nazri's blog cos im bored

Game rules:
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
He better not. -cracks knuckles.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
uh live happily ever after with nw..

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
i agree with nw, no loud music. but not no music at all cos it'll really be very dull. um somewhere pretty i spose and lots and lots of yummy food and people. =)

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
isn't everyone? =/

5. What's your ideal lover like?
big. gorilla-ish. name starts with N, ends with I.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
loving someone i guess. everyone loves me anw, and it gets boring.. haha! (love you all too uhuh uhuh)

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
uh. i'd wait i suppose.. until i grow to hate him then move on. hoho

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
uh. i dont secretly like anyone..

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
some things i guess

10. What are some of the weirdest habits you have?
uh. i eat alot for a girl..? =/

11. Is being tagged fun?
okay la

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
ZOMG BITCH!

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
nazri

14. What kind of person do you think you are?
optimistic

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
married and not-so poor?

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
help them rmb/recognize me

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
i try

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
the one who loves me back

19. What type of people do you hang around with?
people who go to remedials and ssp with me. god we suck. D=

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
Lol?

These are the list of people I tag!
Liyana. Farin. Bimqi. and whoever else that reads this. yar.. =/

_____________________

shit late for gym.

olivejuice//

ache

aching all over, im tiredd.. gotta do 3 chapters worth of physics mcq for tuition tmr. ****ing tutor pisses me off, i should tell him tt i have a life and unlike him, i cannot finish an entire tys in one day.. -sad.

trg was really.. okay. not bad but not exactly good either.. i shall use today's 2k timing as my pb i guess.. back kinda hurt afterwards but the team massage thing was greatt. =)

oh i realize that i've grown very attached to my t1.. like teammates were mentioning bout the time when eugene wanted to borrow my boat to row up to start line and though he promised to return it before my race, i refused cos i said that "mary needs to rest". =/ hmm and though im proud to have inherited the Bloody Mary from the earlier generations of raffles canoeists, i've decided that it's time i gave it a more personal name.. Nominations are open if you wanna contribute haha!

lunch alone is rather lonely

flockey was awesome as usual.. they were totally pushing the imba boys and we were playing a game of 6 v 12 and it's really amazing how they work together so well and strategize and everything. and like eventhough they're still boyishly playful, they're really more mature than me nyeh! ramadhan esp and he's one yr younger.. =( and i think it's cool how if you saw them on the street, you'd have no idea tt they're intellectually-disabled.. =//

seahist essay due on monday. super mugger ftw!

New American Classic
"We've got to get better," I said, "it's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

random shitz. t1 optimism ftw!

olivejuice//

content

been doing probability so i've decided to take a short break..

trg yst was alright.. jiaolian kinda messed up our 2k timings i think.. bim beat me by like 2secs in her ak and he told her tt she got 12.36 and i got 12.13.. =/ but owells it felt better than sat so i shall assume that i pb-ed with the new 2k distance (ie old 2k distance plus 4 buoys ie old 2k distance plus approx 40sec) eh wait in tt case i didnt pb then.. =//

sch was okay.. was in mush mood yst but nw's a total spoiler bah..

oh yay mom just bought mcflurry.. days have been pretty hot and rowing yst felt like rowing in mud.. =(

kay back to maths!

olivejuice//