updates

okay my life hasnt been that exciting lately, thus no updates. but anywayy since liyana insisted (heh), i shall.

1) all about nazzer (i recommend you skip this part)
firstly, 4yr anniversary after a longg bumpy year = yay! march hols lastlast week so no kids in sch but we only got thurs and fri off, which is just as well cos nazzer's block leave started on thurs anw.
thurs: somewhat officially celebrated anniversary where i actually tried to dress up zomg and he wore well, his usual stuff. dragonball (super wtg), earle swensens + cable car + sentosa. anw cable car was quite fun at first cos we got a no.72 tt looked like 27 from inside yay! lol then it got super anti-climax cos we were super smart and decided to alight at mt faber awhile and there was a Massive queue to sentosa cos of Iranian tourists =/ Then when we finally got into one, they dumped 3 China tourists with us so it was like uh O.o HAHA!
fri: Pathlight sports day yay! nazzer volunteered too but they assigned us to diff groups, which happened to be in diff buses as well.. =/ but anw, VERY FUN! haha adorable kids yesyes. my group was the secondary level boys though but they were very fun to hang ard with as well (:
sat(21st): flockey! then heavy rain halfway so nazzer and i took random bus ride yay! (:
sat(28th): no flockey! kite-flying at marina barrage haha! super hot day but it was windy so okay lah. nazzer is a Good kite-flyer and got the kite up super fast yup. then uh very long tantrum session all the way to vivo. then got tix to DMC. then KFC 2 PIECE CHICKEN! (one craving checkedd). then DMC was very lol but happy-funny yup.. =/ then took bus to je cos nazzer hadta get stuff from the emart thing at Chevrons. he got me new balance running shoes hahaha! then walked to IMM bk for a drink and hersheys pie (: then took bus to bbdc cos he wanted to sign up for bike license but the place was closed zomg! nyeh so we went to the mobil next door to buy drinks and then he sent me home.
k finished

in other news,
2) Research project with Dr G
is going pretty well i should think. got him an interview with khairul and syafiq last thurs cos they did temp teaching at madr aljunied yupp.. haha and he gave me a Borders gift card "for all the help" (:
3) Driving
currently at stage 3 and i ought to book my TP test asap. driving simulator on wed was very funn but i crashed the simulated car approx 3 times and killed a cyclist D:
4) Work
2/4 of us Eden jc aides are ending work by 15 april cos theyre starting sch soon. grah sad! plus zomg i'll be chiong-ing the rest of the DLS project for my group alone = scary. but haha it's okay cos challenges are fun (: but we're also very much behind time so quite stressful hmm. in any case, the kids are wonderful as usual and occasional hiccups are manageable so yup, lubx super adorable kids! =D
5) I HAVENT BEEN GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS IN SO LONG OMG I THINK I HAVE NO FRIENDS ANYMORE AND I MISS THEM CAN SOMEONE PLS HAVE DINNER WITH ME?
D:

olivejuice// haha noob card is cute (:

FOUR!

so met nazzer for dinner today.. bummed around jp alone after work for over an hour then bugger came in sotaksexy newno4 uniform ): banquet was full so i ended up waiting for him at a table with 3 rather amusing makciks =/ we moved when he arrived though haha

anw date was basically cut short cos nazzer needed to poop. dejavu, much? sigh.

kk not in the mood to blog much. i will update over the weekend, yes..

olivejuice// happy 4 years, love..

onward!

hi i guess i ought to say something bout my results cos i've been giving vague answers to the ppl who've asked me how i did. well to sum it up, i'd say Bad. not even OH TRIPLE A versus straight As bad, but bad. HAHA there i go being vague again. okay let's say it's a Bad i want to die cos my future looks really dim right now. (: sigh.

ahwell srsly la what did i expect? i was getting Us for EVERY SINGLE physics paper. i mean if i wanna make myself feel better then i can try to put things in perspective. like i can safely say that i improved quite alot for every subject. lol like that makes any difference.. and it didnt help any that 70% plus of the rj population got At least 3 As or that 90% got A or B for maths/history and many other subjects.

failure in life.

im still gonna try my luck and apply for all the social sciences at the local unis under discretionary admission but haha see how tt goes lah.. otherwise i'll go for special ed at nie hmm.

im very scared

amusement

i find it amusing that the class im helping out with has 'arse' in its name
i also find it amusing that my initials are SHH when im a relatively chatty person

and it is also mildly amusing that A level results are out this friday. as in the chaos and panic that has sprung, well for quite a while now.. i even noticed yst that there's a facebook group called 'i have developed insomnia because of March the 6th' or somethingg. lol! in any case, i myself am scared out of my wits and i have every right to feel this way considering my exciting academic performance throughout my two years in rj haha..

anw workmates and i were going through our other options ie. back up plan, if we end up not being able to make it to uni, and i have one less route open to me that is Occupational Therapy cos my only science subject is at H1 level wtg. ):

anw i had The dream yst. i was walking to the hall to get my results but i woke up before i even reached. na had it too the previous night. i doubt the insomniacs on facebook have had the dream yet hahaha..

owells gonna try not to think about results yes. ooh driving today was good cos instructor was good and he seemed to know his stuff really well so i felt pretty confident on the road too. OH and previous instructor taught me some wrong stuff zomg! D:

ALL THE BEST TO ALL 2008 A LEVELERS! believe it or not, there is still life beyond results. wow.

the beginning of the end

gosh tiring. i've decided to write two entries from now on, one tt covers my whole week and a much much shorter entry with somewhat more interesting content that would actually be viewable hmm. figured noone really wants to read long draggy entries bout my life anw hurrs

anw i've been thinking alot lately. well actually thinking of many things all at once and not anything in particular and then it's like not thinking at all? idk brain's all muddled lately. totally screwed up my driving prac today bother..

btw rented HSM3 cos i was curious. it reeked of cliche and wtf-ness owells. im possibly just jealous cos she's pretty but Hudgens annoys me greatly hrmmph.

nazzer's suggesting i come over to his place to bake or cook. sounds very fun but zomg my Boyfriend is teaching Me how to cook. ouchh. lolol..

oh and i realize that i really really miss watching Gossip Girl and fangirling over Chuck Bass and Blair and their pairing meh meh whyy are they taking so long to air it rawrr! =/

hmm mom's been ignoring me for the past two weeks and treating me worse than a stranger in this hse. i mean, i dont think about it most of the time cos im out mostly but the times when i actually have to interact with her is just awkward and difficult cos she wouldnt look at me. plus i treated family to pizza yst and she totally didnt acknowledge my treat, much less thank me. i mean sure you've sacrificed alot for this family and i appreciate it, but i will have to do that someday too for my own family and it's my time to live my childhood/life in general now so pls cant you let me do it in peace instead of making me feel guilty for godknows what reason? hate this mindfuck rawr.

in other news, short reunion with partas and fellow ncos at rg was very nice.. my babies are so lovely haha.. their mini scavenger hunt thing at the start was really sweet yay.. (: "the place where the end begins" or something like that hurrs. so yeah shoutout to them if they happen to read this, ThankYou partas for being so awesome and silly and srsly enjoy your last yr at rg cos you'd definitely miss it, boos..


ack this entry's pretty long too. meh

summary!

i shall refer to calendar for this (hahaha as if my life's exciting like that hurrs)
wed: collected new specs which looked too simple and boring but not that diff from my previous ones apparently so not bad ah.
thurs: final theory test. hahaha first to leave the exam room again yay! passed in 7mins (: pro heh
fri: (summary bout work)
- spammed video editing after lunch cos we were pretty behind time and we still hadta help out with classroom resources and stuff so ack.
- school itself is fun as always. adorable kids, kicking balls, interesting art lessons, teaching, cheap good food at yuanchingsec ((:
- dinner with nazzer at jp after work
- nazzer sent me to woodlands to meet teammates for prav's play
- prav is an AWESOMEEEa actor =D
- play ended at 11 D:
sat:
- met nazzer at cck mrt platform
- reached marsiling mrt at 8.45, called farin who's late and apparently we're meeting at woodlands
- grabbed bus to woodlands. (nazzer was being a retard)
- met everyone else at woodlands, farin came soon after looking like she just crawled out of bed
- coaching carnival thing at marsiling sec was interesting haha
- i forgot how fun and exciting flockey was (((:
- i fell while playing and whacked another volunteer at the back of his head with my stick and he was almost concussed zomg
- whacked farin's ankle, which is apparently still hurting now D:
- i is aching everywhere nao cos im totally in shape DD:
- new volunteer boy person thought i was nazzer's sister!! hahahaha. cos we act like siblings apparently.. O.o incest
- i think i can continue pursuing whichever sport i like even with tudung cos it doesnt hamper my skillz whatsoever =D
- farin, nazzer and i cabbed to PS to meet na and melz and i treated them to pastamania
- na: "... cold war"
- roamed ps awhile with nazzer then took 190 to mosque at raffles place mrt to catch zuhur then we were 30mins late for movie =/
- called back a number that gave me 2 missed calls, and apparently it was some guy from Fitness First cos zr gave em my name and contact so they were calling up to sign me up for a one week free trial. funny conversation lol.. currently their number is saved under DontPickUp!! (nazzer insisted i add a few exclamation marks)
- New in town is so so so so dumb. somewhat entertaining i guess but still zomg dumbb! but most of the ppl in the theatre laughed at the jokes so loud, and it wasnt even really funny! D:
- took train home with nazzer
- day consisted of alot of bickering with nazzer, which is normal i guess. but as always (or most of the time at least) i felt Very Happy by the end of the day. warm and fuzzy and whatnots hurrs
sunday:
- ngaji with sister at the mosque in the morning. me needs more practice grah.
- sat with sis in car while she practiced her parking incl parallel parking. occassionally lurching forward and forwardreverse on empty stomach gave me badd headache ugh.
- went jp with younger sisters after prayers
- nazzer came over and hung around for ~1hr
- bought sis her early birthday present - new bag for school cos she insisted
- yummeh lunch at bk. nazzer went home to get ready for book in =/
- more window shopping & i bought a really nice Manly leather wallet heh
- got home, ironed clothes, showered
- tutored sis and i is $10 richer (:

in other news, Dr G contacted me recently via email and sms to ask me if im still interesting in helping him out with his research project which had been in hibernation for some time so yay 'intership's backk.. should be interesting

also, coach shaifula asked if i'd like to join his dboat team. mixed team but they're all like 20plus? i've been trying to form my own team but i havent got tt many ppl (some teammates, nazzer..) plus obtaining a boat and all the equipment might be tedious. but yar, i'd rather have my own team hmm..

farin suggested i join an amateur La Parkour club.
Wiki: Parkour (sometimes also abbreviated to PK) or l'art du déplacement^[1] (English: the art of movement) is an activity with the aim of moving from one point to another as efficiently and quickly as possible, using principally the abilities of the human body.^[2] It is meant to help one overcome obstacles, which can be anything in the surrounding environment—from branches and rocks to rails and concrete walls—and can be practiced in both rural and urban areas.
anw it's alot like the first scene in Casino Royale and it's UBER COOL. kinda forgot about it since i first looked it up some time back but yeah.. how to do in tudung seh! ): haha but owells just another obstacle to overcome i guess and i really do hope to give it a shot hmm

exciting life!

results are coming out in 2 weeks, probably on 6th march. wth damn scared

olivejuice// why wont you end off your entries like this anymore? -sad. hurrs owells..

what rhymes with bother?

rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.
i think i've lost almost all of my respect for her bother..

tsk me

love all aroundd

haha vday yst was very nice.. (:

nazzer made lunch reservations for Sakura buffet at jurong west extension, which is perfect cos i love food in large quantities hahaha! then walked back to jurong point cos it wasnt that far yupp.. then we just walked ard jp for abit before watching Slumdog millionaire, which is a really nice show yay~! then it was 6 plus and i needed to get home before maghrib so nazzer sweetheart got us cabbed home (:

perfect vday date. simple, and i got to spend good quality time with the love of my life haha! -inlove. hurrs

hmm so far our vday dates have been nice too..
sec4: first vday together. roses&rocher bouquet. lunch at RamenTen at fareast which was near rg and cikgu happened to have lunch with her husband there as well opp us hahaha
j1: lunch at Madjack along bukit timah road. i think we spent vday a day earlier cos he had some council thing to attend to on vday itself =/ nougat, giant rose thing, funny toy thing.
j2: almost wilted roses. lunch at Swensens at bpp. nazzer planned to take me to watch the sunset from pj rooftop but he discovered that they locked it up again ahahha. then he ended date early cos he needed to poop. =//

wow that's four vdays spent together so far, nice (:

im planning our anniversary yayyy! and omg im paying for everything, so weird but quite nice lol.

anww, screwed up driving prac yst cos i had alot on my mind (not nazzer, but family-related) and i guess the instructor could tell i was kinda pissed when he told me he might not pass me that subject. but owells he passed me anw after i answered his qns and stuff (:

-start rant-
mom's been tantrum-ing since friday night. i pissed her off royally (i swear she's blowing things out of proportion, im not that horrible!) and she coops herself up in her room for most of the day.. meh. it's amazing how my sisters dont seem to hate me or think im a total loser/bitch/unfilial piece of ****/ or anything of the sort. or maybe they do. but anw, im so thankful for sisters esp at times like these. i mean fine i make my mom cry sometimes (im so going to hell zomg) but my mom's sensitive and overreacts, traits which i proudly inherited meh, and godd idk it's a huuuge sin if you make your mom cry but shouldnt there be exceptions?? like how farin mentioned before, will Gandhi go to hell for not being Muslim? MEH. but point is, it's unfair that mom gets to act up all the time and go crazy and vent her frustration on us and assume the worst of us and the people around her and she hardly ever acknowledges my achievements and that i've grown up, emotionally and mentally (thought i may not always act like it), and more so than some others my age! im (almost) mature, why cant she see that? haha but this entry totally doesnt support my claims lol. anw dad's been having onetoone talks with me, which i find most annoying and condescending and totally ineffective cos my words/opinions/feedback doesnt exactly make it past his wall of perceptions & opinions which he tries to impress upon me. ahwell in any case,mom's a good mother and does the necessary domestic chores and whatnots. im just saying that i would very much like my mom to appreciate who i've become and the things i've done/acheived, rather than look at me as if im a total failure. ):

-end rant-

in other news, i have strange friends. =/ lol im prolly treating them to lunch next week, now that i've got my pay.. HUGE contrast from my first pay/allowance from short stint at Natl Archives, which was a meagre 100plus bucks hurrs.. (:

olivejuice// thanks for everything (:

gooey!

it's been a great week yay! (: work's awesome, am doing actual teaching now zomg and one of the boys in my new class is so smart and learns really fast and i feel so happy and am proud of him yayy! ((: yup and he kicks the soccer ball around with me during recess and he's really good and it's very fun and the other boys like to kick balls too so i get to play with alot of kids whee~ hahaha being surrounded by kids all morning everyday makes me very happy~! -BIG GRIN! =D

okeh i hope that was cryptic enough.. =/

anw, in light of the upcoming vday, i've temporarily updated my blog playlist >>>
MEGA MUSH! hahaha. okay some of em are quite dubious but yar.. nice songs (:

ohh i had an epiphany earlier this week regarding my body uh, structure.. hahah too explicit for blog methinks but can ask me if you wanna know lol!

hmm somehow ended up reminiscing with nazzer on phone yst and it made me superr mush zomggg. hahahaha!

okeh i think that should be enough blogging for today

olivejuice//

the significant other

1. i think that it's about time i gave my ego a name. i mean ppl usually name the significant things in their lives ryt? i think my ego's huge enough and it quite definitely has a significant role in my life, which causes me much grief sometimes boos. anw now that my ego has a name, it sounds more concrete and tangible when i blame it for the many embarrassing things i do in this life. i think my ego is male. im thinking i should call it Shawn or Steve or Sam. eh haha i should give it a malay name. O.o ooh i think i shall call it Shah! =D genius

2. i recently noticed that i dig my heels when i walk hmm. i absolutely love the thudthudthud sound my sneakers make against the floor and echoes through the empty Eden corridors after school hours. it reminds me of ncc times and the sound of marching feet and arms moving in unison and the occasional solid bangs. and of course the mandatory yelling of mistakes and the hellish hentak kaki drill. i miss getting tekan-ed. i miss having my arms/legs/body ache till it hurts to even move and i'd spend the night immobile in bed wondering why on earth i put myself through such torture week after week. i miss doing retarded things with pltnmates and singing company songs and laughing at the little juniors and feeling immense love for them and watching them grow. i miss having a group of people to love and work for. grah i should stop nao. haha and i musnt start on canoeing either lol

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i feel really crappy.

olivejuice//

PASTAMANIA ftw~!

YES FINALLY. haha pastamania is officially Halal and i texted like a million ppl to share this joyous piece of news.. okay maybe just 5 but HAHAHA YAY! (:

we were late for ngaji at the mosque and i was being a miser and decided to walk while sis took two buses in an attempt to save time, but i ended up reaching first Hah. i is Super Brisk Walker yes. anw i was horrible and was struggling to stay awake for the tajuid lesson hmphh.

anw took nice long stroll to lot 1 and read a nice book till 12 for nazzer who came straight from tekong so he was in no4 and i was in baju kurung. =/ we must've looked quite a pair haha! anw then then we had.. *drumrolls* PASTAMANIA! hahahahaa. it's about the same price as Madjack since the stated prices are inclusive of gst and there isnt any service charge (eventhough they had very good service), so overall two thumbs up! ((:

haha okay then went home and bummed the rest of the day yay! oh tutored sis just now and i got much-needed money so i should be able to survive the rest of the week till pay-day. phew. and haha little sis made us macaroni soup today which she learnt at school and it actually tastes really nice! though i helped her abit cos she forgot what went into the soup hmm.. yay to domesticated sisters! (my mom would totally disagree hhahaha)

hmm nazzer thinks my blogging bout work/sch's kinda incriminating and i shouldnt get too descriptive or something.. ack i didnt think so but okeh quite true i guess.. i shall go back to being cryptic boos.. ):

Gossip girl time hahaha! loves.

olivejuice// let's dress up for vday whee!

And it feels so good to be alive and on top

moodswingy day but otherwise overall Very enjoyable and super random haha!

1) started off with driving practical, where we drove on the public road again. around and around and around the same area over and over and over again. i improved over time then gradually got worse prolly cos i was getting bored from the monotony.. D: and the instructor kept talking and talking and he gave me a headache zomg. he's nice lah but i think he might've been sleepy so he was talking to stay awake hmm..

2) renu messaged me in the morning to ask if i wanted to join her and lili for movie and lunch, which sounded funn but i was like SUPER BROKE. so sad. then i messaged na to ask where she and farin might be ard 11 and apparently they were having hot cycling date so i thought i might as well crash and i did. buggers paid for my bike, heh love! anw LOVE speeding on the bike (with my tudung flying behind me, i felt like a caped superhero!) "tudung terror" hoho! AND I CAN RIDE MY BIKE WITH NO HANDLEBARRRRS!! ie i controlled the bike's direction by tilting my butt about the seat lol! so exciting (: i think i want a unicycle..

3) farin and i were planning to go for flockey today after sooo long but we were Horrible and decided to bum at na's place instead ): anw got to shower there and had free food (btw there was a whole spread of yummy lauk, yay i love variety!) and we played guitar hero. i is guitar hero virgin, yo. and i officially suck at it boos.. eh omg on the way there, we were singing at the overhead bridge stairs as we walked down and then i realized we were singing too loud and i was being retarded so i turned around to tell the 'non-existent person behind us' to shut up but there was in fact someone there and i had already begun saying something and the guy just stared at me like an idiot D:

4) took 59 from na's place to bishan then changed to 163 to meet teammates at prata house. i was 5mins late but omg they're so tardy la, and bern was late too so she didnt punish them with pushups! ): haha those were the days manz.. anw we sat at the long table and watched as our imaginary friends were slowlyyyy replaced by our ever punctual teammates (in order of appeareance: cheryl, me, priya (in skanky fake short skirt/shorts haha) , deb, ge&bern, selene, soo&meera, michelle) haha basically just talked/gossiped, ate prata and spammed milo dinosaur.. i duno why i dont like milo drink but i like the powder (: then we trotted over to Ritz apple strudel place thing but i didnt eat cos i didnt think it was halal i guess. anw they stuck candles on the pastry thing and selene and ge blew em out and we sang happybirthday very loud and made a hell lot of noise. =/ i really miss the team

OKAY RECOUNT OF EXCITING DAY FINISHED!

lol yst was pretty nice.. school was alright. langley's princess didnt come today so i was free to do other stuff, which included rushing video converting and mrslai's stuff and running down to the office to discover tt my rushing wasnt necessary. then visited the kitchen to discover that the boys were done with their cooking and pat left me chicken nuggets, fried egg and bread haha! rushedd to set up the hall for recess and rolled the metal fencing thing over my foot, (which noo witnessed from the fourth floor and the buggers laughed at me afterwards boos) pain. after recess, i helped jerlyn/noo video the classes yup. mutual swap with noo haha.. anw i was asked if i wanted to volunteer with mendaki with sports-related events or something and after giving it much thought, i think it should be fun haha! yay~

nazzer booked out unexpectedly yst so we managed to meet up for about an hour at jp where he treated me to starbucks javachip, choc cake and prata sausage. YAY free food! lovelove.. (:

anw who's XxX on tagboard hmm? =/

olivejuice// im not a whiner, rawr.

LOL day!

seriously super lol day. well let's start with the LOL-est event today, which somewhat concluded the day on a WTF LOL note. hurrs..

so anw was otw home in the train and i was reading a book and was totally engrossed when suddenly some guy walking past me otw out dropped a small piece of paper on my bag which was on my lap. i was like O.o wtg? and brushed the paper off somewhat hesitantly (littering woops?) and continued reading.. after awhile i noticed that some indian dude sitting next to me on the train was staring intently at the paper on the floor, and after much deliberation (i guess), he picked up the paper and opened it. on it was a name, Jeff or something and his phone number. ASGHFSDGECKDNVJKGWDE??!?1111 the dude looked at me and i gave a "I DONT KNOW THAT'S NOT MINE WTHHH" face and he asked if i wanted it and i said "uh no" and continued reading.. so the dude continued staring at the paper for some reason and when i finally finally reached my stop, he asked again "you sure you dont want?" and i said "really, no" HAHA i bet he wanted to call the guy uppppp ><

i think i must've looked really kental. =/

okay so before that, i had dinner with some of the class dudes! pretty random lah, class consisted of pris chun (pda-ing like crazy), fiona, jean, na and i. hurrs we ate at amirah's grill and they didnt have a buffet today so we ate ala-carte, though 4 of us bought the set meal for $25, which was superrr worth it but now i fear how im gonna make ends meet till pay day.. ack.

anw food was AWESOME and i got DRUNK on coke and happy food and i have pictures to prove it. HAHA. lol so we camwhored abit cos i insisted tt we do and yay now we've captured the moment on cameraa.. (: so yeah good dinner =D

work was fun too. interesting and unexpected yes.. ohh and we finally got to know our final (for now) class posting.. exciting stuff! (:

um nothing else particularly interesting.. cept maybe driving-related stuff.. i passed my final theory evaluation on monday, where i came 25 mins late and got 47/50.. wah scary manz.. then practical yst was pretty cool.. i drove really far, past dover and all and got stuck in a traffic jam.. ): yar so we ended up getting back to bbdc like 5mins late? we swapped seats somewhere in bukit batok, where i accidentally leaned on the steering wheel and honked myself while twisting round to unlock the door. and to think tt i thought the bus driver behind us was being mean.. D: embarrassing rawr.

okay nazri promised to call me tonight but he hasnt. i was hoping that'll be the icing on a pretty yummy cake, but owells. hohum

anw,
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

okay im only doing this cos liyana forced me to! D:

1. I LOVE food. The one thing that can definitely put a grin on my face is food. And my friends all know this and they exploit this weakness of mine to give them added persuasive power

2. I used to love running and the idea of running away from my problems. I also loved how running makes me feel light-headed and then I’d fill my head with all the mindless, inane thoughts that actually make me feel very happy. Like what I’m gonna eat for lunch after my run. But then I got fat and fatter and running grew increasingly tedious and now I hate running. (:

3. I love most sports. (hates Frisbee!) The first sport I fell in love with was basketball. I joined basketball in p4 but I was pretty lousy and I had horrible attendance and I couldn't move on to the senior team in p6. later on I appealed to rg through basketball and I got in but I never joined bball and joined ncc instead =/

4. Sometimes I get disgusted by how stupid I am

5. I used to get into a lot of trouble when I was younger cos I made a lot of silly
decisions on impulse (but I secretly do not regret half the things I’ve done in this life)

6. I like to do things based on the sole principle that I may never get to do it ever again and I will totally regret if I walk away from a possible new experience

7. Sometimes I lie in bed and think of all the things I’ve done and wonder if I’ve lived life the best I could and if there was anything I should’ve done differently. I don’t always feel very good after such sessions

8. Sometimes I like to look in the mirror and pretend that I’m really pretty

9. I remember doing the silliest things in primary school that make me cringe whenever I think about it. Plus I had the most retarded pair of spectacle frames =/

10. I cannot swim and I remember being scared as hell after my first canoe clinic where I capsized and took a million years to swim back to the pontoon while dragging a k2 behind me and I swore I would never go back to Macritchie again.

11. I’m easily affected by criticism and negative feedback and I usually take huge and immediate measures to ensure that changes for the better are made

12. There are many things I want to do in this life, and it scares me cos they seem too huge for me to achieve.

13. I really want to go for NS

14. I really want a bike cos I’d look majorly kick-ass riding a bike in tudung but dad wont let me ):

15. I wish my dad would stop telling me I’m fat and that I should be more feminine

16. Sometimes I wish I had better social graces and that I could go for balls and look stunning and dance the night away. or maybe get with the times, and go clubbing. in tudung hurrs!

17. I get turned on by the sound of a sports car revving its engine and I Really want a red hot Lamborghini

18. I really like acting. My sister thinks I’m a horrible actress but I don’t think it matters cos I just love being on stage and feeling sick to my stomach before a performance ((:

19. I’m really impressionable. I think i pick up on people’s vocabulary and speech patterns and facial expressions and adapt and adopt them as my own. I’m not sure if any part of me is really me and I think that’s quite pathetic and sad.

20. I wish that I could form my own opinions more independently and that I don’t sound stupid in the process, which I usually do.

21. Sometimes I manage to convince myself that I’m really amazing and that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. HAHA

22. I’m proud to be who I am because I’m mostly happy

23. I have the most interesting and entertaining bunch of friends

24. I hugely adore someone whom I find most infuriating but I cannot live without and whose name starts with N and ends with azri. Hurrs..

25. I think that someday I might revisit this 25 whats-it-called thing again and lol at my silly responses and attempt to come up with more intelligent responses and fail D:

k i tag:
1) Liyana (2) Farin (3) Melz (4) Nazri (5-17) teammates (18) Maggi (19-25) i duno.. liy☠na. / hey you've got to hide your love away says:
haha screw tags

yup that's all

cos you're the only one for me

so it's 1am right now and im finishing up another episode of Gossip Girl. i think im somewhatt hooked but tt's not really a bad thing ryt? ): just gotta be able to stay awake at work tmr owells..

anw had lunch with nazzer darling today and it was really nice.. haha anw was just talking to na and i recalled part of my conversation with nazri today. so i was asking him bout vday and whether he'll be spending vday with me or buggers at tekong. so anw vday's on sat (hoorah) and this ensued (not the exact words i think but somewhere along these lines)
me: -pause. so are you planning or should i plan something?
him: how bout you not think bout it
me: and leave it up to you? -incredulous
him: yes
me: are you testing my faith in you?
him: if you put it that way

i have the most adorable boyfriend. ahwell and im adapting really well to the no nazri life, as in no more messages and calls only on alternate days. i thought tt i'd be miserable, me being clingy and all, or eventually realize tt i dont need him or someth. but believe it or not, i can manage to live a mostly nazri-less life quite fine and am pretty happy most of the time. as in i dont think about him 24/7 or pine for him or anything like that, but i do get insanely happy when he calls. hurrs. anw point is, now i know i want him, rather than actually needing him hmm

i guess this is how things are sposed to be. (:

lol i totally should blog bout our previous vday dates, not cos theyre amazing in a totally romantic way, but memorable, yes. ((: but not today, gotta finish up GG and sleep

olivejuice//

honking cabbies

omg they're so annoying la wtgg. fourth driving practical today and i got to drive on the public road again but it was so so so awful this time round cos 1. aftn vs evening (i like the nighttimee) 2. weekend vs cny (everyone's like indoors i guess?) 3. EFFING HONKING CAB DRIVERS 4. my driving skillz is lackingg. well for today at least cos like the stuff im pretty much okay with by now like moving off, was damn terrible today! wtf manual car and controlling clutch accelerator and stalling engine and driving instructor essentially told me tt my driving sucks. ):

went for another final theory prac before tt cos im damn worried for my theory evaluation on monday cos i suck. tt makes 3 days worth of theory prac in a row! kept dozing off during prac on thurs cos it was after work and i was exhaustedd and i failed all four booklets i did and tt scared me shitless so i signed up for another one on fri. dozed off yet again but this time i passed all five booklets i did and got full marks for two of em. today i failed one booklet D: meh.

yst was a rather strange day but i shant dwell hoho

i've been gossip girl-ing and im so in love with chuck bass and im only just starting season two which everyone tells me will make me love him so much more, ohnoes! anw i took a break from gg yst cos im turning into a fangirl and i refuse to be a liyana D:

okay com just finished loadng gossip girl heh.

EH i miss nazri leyh. bugger should be coming home from tekong later today yay..

I WANT MY PAY NAO. damn broke, so sad.

olivejuice//

orange! -shifty eyed

SO. let's start from the end. driving prac today was awesomeee.. cny = empty driving circuit = ghost town-ish = SUPER SAFE for driving and building up confidence yes. then then then i got to drive outside! omg 3rd lesson today and like when i was told to drive out i was like "-squeaks. out out??" HAHA. but super duper exciting grahhhh (:

okay next. Gossip Girl is loveee. DAN HUMPHREY! and chuck oh chuck.. D: and nazri doesnt understand my fascination with gg and i dont either but half the world is fangirling it as well gah i shouldnt but lubxlubxmuchly. -incoherent

in other news, work was okay. back to school = sianeddd but quite fun lah.. im hooked on horrible oily fries tt dont hold much appeal but i buy all the time anw DD:

nazzer news: met bugger this morning for an hour before work, where we took a nice somewhat leisurely stroll at lakeside, which is opp workplace.. 15mins of which my most charming boyfriend left me by my lonesome self, to poop. second time so far, tt i know of at least. first o incident being on our 3rd anniversary last year ack. sexy much..
anw we went to watch Changeling yst with nana haha wtgg.. nice show + strange company + one dollar off KFC 2pc chicken meal = awesome outing hurrs

monday was exciting too haha! family left for msia at like 4.30am? slept most of the way and like drooled all over my tudung cos im so sexy like that.. anw we camwhored like crazy at putra jaya which is a pretty enough place i guess.. but Mega Mall at Mid-Valley is awesomeeee. we're not much of a shopping family, so i only got 3 tops lol (54.50rm all together woo yay) but OMG they had ALL the good foods. kenny rogers, all sorts of fast food, my typical msian must-buy finger foods (ie. kaya balls, cup corn, chestnuts etc), sushi king, famous amos, aunty anne's, coffeebean, starbucks and most importantly, HALAL otherwise non-halal foods in singapore ie Carl's Jr YES! so darn decadent yayy. tastes quite alot like BK but the SIZE goshh.. and the fries are to die for. -happyhappyy. anw from what i rmb i had: Breakfast- mee soto and one chappati. Lunch Part 1- shared Nando's meal with sis but helped the others clear their plates as well heh. random foods incl takoyaki in between. Lunch Part 2- Carl's Jr!!! then starbucks & aunty anne's. Dinner- Lambchop. =D got home at ard 12am heh.

okay i think i've covered just about everythingg.. exciting life yay.

olivejuice// I WONT MISS YOU BUT COME BACK SOON TAU. ):

good life

woohkay havent blogged in a week. sch/work's been good. exciting video- editing, saikang-ing and watching after oh-so-adorable kids.. and cny hoho!

watched Inkheart with nazzer on friday and show's niice.. (:

driving prac yst morning was omgwtfpanicccc. actually not too bad la but foot was cramping on the clutch and i is not used to being behind the wheel.. ): and omg so i went to sign up for my PDL (provisional driving license hurrs) and like i asked the counter lady what i needed and she said i only needed to have my ic. so after 1 hr, my number got called out and like wtgg i needed to pay 25bucks using nets or cashcard and i had neither. so i asked some nice 20-ish girl next to me to help me pay using her nets and i said i'll pay her the money in cash but then i checked my wallet and i only had $22. !!! so yeah i hadta transfer $5 to her posb account last night. -sigh. but yup nice lady.. ((:

anw spent the rest of the morning and part of the aftn with nazzer then we went to noo's place for mcs gathering where i ate 8/9 jap balls. (i can stuff 2 in my mouth at one go hehh) sho wrong. anw i call em takoyaki, the others call em takopachi. na decided to call em: takopaki. O.o HAHA sho cute..

going msia/malacca/kl tmr for shopping & FOOD spree. one day only cos sis has sch stuff on tues and i fearr hotel rooms without prior booking. reminds me of 7 day msia road trip with family where we endured quite a number of lousy hotel rooms ack.. but anw yup one-day trip so gotta make the most of it heh.

aight tt's all. tues is Happy 46th, darlingg.. ><

olivejuice// i love my nazri (and he loves me even if he doesnt show it very well) -nods

ps. this is for the previous blog post which i forgot to attach.
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you love me!

hee i have an amazingly sweet boyfriend yes.
he snuck out some of his rations from field camp cos he prolly knew i'd wanna try it hurrs.. so he saved up his food by swapping the supposedly yummy food for maggi for one dinner and lunch or something. chicken pasta bolognese and another chicken pasta thing.. yay im so touched.

and i think im the only one who finds this sweet, but awwwwwwww -happydance.
hmm i think im not sposed to talk about it =/ woops
anw,
1. First name: Siti
2. Favorite food: grahh cant choose. Swensens' Mega Burger?
3. Hometown: Singapore
4. Favorite colour: Red
5. Celebrity crush: uh jason mraz i guess
6. Favorite drink: coke
7. Dream vacation: outer space
8. Favorite dessert: ice cream
9. What I want to be when I grow up: wise
10. What I love most in the world: love!
11. One word that describes me: happy
12. My LiveJournal name: syimster (no syimster so i used hasyimah instead and guess what i found?)

olivejuice// you mean the world to me (:

Langley love (:

We're somewhat settling into Eden already.. some pretty friendly staff there and i guess it's a nice enough atmosphere.. lol we had rather Meh opinions of it initially, and we vowed to start our second day on a new clean slate, so yup we did and it's been a very fulfilling experience.. the past few days hasnt been easy, trust me, but maintaining a positive attitude & taking joy in the amazingggly cute antics of some of the kids there has made the past week extremely enjoyable overall ((:

anw my class has 3guys +1girl Vs my pathlight class which has 6guys +2girls.. half phwoar and interesting personalities.. >< cute little/big buggers haha.. but hurrs i still have some reservations bout the sch but ahwell we'll see, yes?

ahh and zomg i never knew i had such patience in me asjhdbwhefasfbwqehecd&^!@#$$#
-sigh.

oh there's a cute mat teacher at work heh

ohh i finally went for a run today HAHA. 1. cos im getting too damn fat, 2. cos running around with/after the kids at work/sch made me realize tt i actually miss running, (haha yes i cant believe it myself) Hurrs but i ran alone, which felt a litte lonely but fun anyways.. (:

i like work hmm.

olivejuice// HAPPY 19TH, SWEETHEART DARLING BABY HURRS. come out of the tekong jungle soon kays, i miss you alot ):

song meme whatever thingey

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle
2. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
3. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

1. What is your motto?
All about you- Mcfly
am totally selfless manz

2. What do your friends think about you?
Sing- Travis
"Youve been waiting in the sun too long
But if you sing, sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring wont mean a thing"
so they think im dark. hurrrs..

3. What do you think about very often?
My alien- Simple Plan
HURRS nazzzer

4. What is 2+2 ?
Far away- Nickelback

5. What do you think of the person you like?
Queen of my heart- Westlife
liek totally

6. What is your life story?
Sweetness- Jimmy Eat World
(: (well from looking solely at the song title cos i duno wtg's the song about meh)

7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
The nicest kids in town- James Marsden
haha!

8. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Stockholm syndrome- Blink 182
songmeanings.net says:
The song itself is about paranoia. Being afriad of the outside world, convinced that people can hear your thoughts.
uhm okay

9. What do your parents think of you?
Hands down- Dashboard Confessionals

10. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Shiver- Maroon 5
So come to bed It’s getting late
There’s no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race
sexy.

11. What will they play at your funeral?
When it all falls apart- The Veronicas
so sad right

12. What is your hobby/interest?
Disease- Matchbox Twenty
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13. What is your biggest secret?
Boulevard of broken dreams- Greenday
sho deep worx

14. What do you think about your friends?
We be burnin'- Sean Paul
hoho!

15. What's the worst thing that could happen?
Happy birthday- The Click Five
ZOMG how could anyone forget my birthday seh )):

16. How will you die?
Ikhlas tapi jauh- VE
translation: Sincere but far? O.o

17. What is the one thing you regret?
Cannonball- Damien Rice
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

18. What makes you laugh?
Shut up and drive- Rihanna

19. What makes you cry?
He wasn't- Avril Lavigne
lol look up the lyrics. -shifty eyed
O.o

20. Will you ever get married?
If i let you go- Westlife
na said this is a good thing so okeh

21. What scares you the most?
Tonight- Westlife
I don't wanna act like
I know that you'd be mine forever
Though I hope it's forever
Don't want you to feel like
I take you for granted
Whenever we are together
hmm but i think it's mostly bout sex. unh

22. Does anyone like you?
Accidentally in love- Counting Crows
hee

23. If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Dont stop the music- Rihanna
uh i interpret this as: dont stop and look back but just continue with the flow cos there's nothing to change? =/

24. What hurts right now?
How far we've come- Matchbox Twenty
uh growing up?

25. What would you post this as?
Always- Blink 182

FOUR repeated artists, i need need more songs on phone hmm.
anw songs are apt enough haha!

wtg time so late redi. time to sleep yes.
fyi i updated my songs there>> yupp
k nite