1. i think that it's about time i gave my ego a name. i mean ppl usually name the significant things in their lives ryt? i think my ego's huge enough and it quite definitely has a significant role in my life, which causes me much grief sometimes boos. anw now that my ego has a name, it sounds more concrete and tangible when i blame it for the many embarrassing things i do in this life. i think my ego is male. im thinking i should call it Shawn or Steve or Sam. eh haha i should give it a malay name. O.o ooh i think i shall call it Shah! =D genius
2. i recently noticed that i dig my heels when i walk hmm. i absolutely love the thudthudthud sound my sneakers make against the floor and echoes through the empty Eden corridors after school hours. it reminds me of ncc times and the sound of marching feet and arms moving in unison and the occasional solid bangs. and of course the mandatory yelling of mistakes and the hellish hentak kaki drill. i miss getting tekan-ed. i miss having my arms/legs/body ache till it hurts to even move and i'd spend the night immobile in bed wondering why on earth i put myself through such torture week after week. i miss doing retarded things with pltnmates and singing company songs and laughing at the little juniors and feeling immense love for them and watching them grow. i miss having a group of people to love and work for. grah i should stop nao. haha and i musnt start on canoeing either lol
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i feel really crappy.
olivejuice//
Monday, February 09, 2009
Sunday, February 08, 2009
PASTAMANIA ftw~!
YES FINALLY. haha pastamania is officially Halal and i texted like a million ppl to share this joyous piece of news.. okay maybe just 5 but HAHAHA YAY! (:
we were late for ngaji at the mosque and i was being a miser and decided to walk while sis took two buses in an attempt to save time, but i ended up reaching first Hah. i is Super Brisk Walker yes. anw i was horrible and was struggling to stay awake for the tajuid lesson hmphh.
anw took nice long stroll to lot 1 and read a nice book till 12 for nazzer who came straight from tekong so he was in no4 and i was in baju kurung. =/ we must've looked quite a pair haha! anw then then we had.. *drumrolls* PASTAMANIA! hahahahaa. it's about the same price as Madjack since the stated prices are inclusive of gst and there isnt any service charge (eventhough they had very good service), so overall two thumbs up! ((:
haha okay then went home and bummed the rest of the day yay! oh tutored sis just now and i got much-needed money so i should be able to survive the rest of the week till pay-day. phew. and haha little sis made us macaroni soup today which she learnt at school and it actually tastes really nice! though i helped her abit cos she forgot what went into the soup hmm.. yay to domesticated sisters! (my mom would totally disagree hhahaha)
hmm nazzer thinks my blogging bout work/sch's kinda incriminating and i shouldnt get too descriptive or something.. ack i didnt think so but okeh quite true i guess.. i shall go back to being cryptic boos.. ):
Gossip girl time hahaha! loves.
olivejuice// let's dress up for vday whee!
we were late for ngaji at the mosque and i was being a miser and decided to walk while sis took two buses in an attempt to save time, but i ended up reaching first Hah. i is Super Brisk Walker yes. anw i was horrible and was struggling to stay awake for the tajuid lesson hmphh.
anw took nice long stroll to lot 1 and read a nice book till 12 for nazzer who came straight from tekong so he was in no4 and i was in baju kurung. =/ we must've looked quite a pair haha! anw then then we had.. *drumrolls* PASTAMANIA! hahahahaa. it's about the same price as Madjack since the stated prices are inclusive of gst and there isnt any service charge (eventhough they had very good service), so overall two thumbs up! ((:
haha okay then went home and bummed the rest of the day yay! oh tutored sis just now and i got much-needed money so i should be able to survive the rest of the week till pay-day. phew. and haha little sis made us macaroni soup today which she learnt at school and it actually tastes really nice! though i helped her abit cos she forgot what went into the soup hmm.. yay to domesticated sisters! (my mom would totally disagree hhahaha)
hmm nazzer thinks my blogging bout work/sch's kinda incriminating and i shouldnt get too descriptive or something.. ack i didnt think so but okeh quite true i guess.. i shall go back to being cryptic boos.. ):
Gossip girl time hahaha! loves.
olivejuice// let's dress up for vday whee!
Saturday, February 07, 2009
And it feels so good to be alive and on top
moodswingy day but otherwise overall Very enjoyable and super random haha!
1) started off with driving practical, where we drove on the public road again. around and around and around the same area over and over and over again. i improved over time then gradually got worse prolly cos i was getting bored from the monotony.. D: and the instructor kept talking and talking and he gave me a headache zomg. he's nice lah but i think he might've been sleepy so he was talking to stay awake hmm..
2) renu messaged me in the morning to ask if i wanted to join her and lili for movie and lunch, which sounded funn but i was like SUPER BROKE. so sad. then i messaged na to ask where she and farin might be ard 11 and apparently they were having hot cycling date so i thought i might as well crash and i did. buggers paid for my bike, heh love! anw LOVE speeding on the bike (with my tudung flying behind me, i felt like a caped superhero!) "tudung terror" hoho! AND I CAN RIDE MY BIKE WITH NO HANDLEBARRRRS!! ie i controlled the bike's direction by tilting my butt about the seat lol! so exciting (: i think i want a unicycle..
3) farin and i were planning to go for flockey today after sooo long but we were Horrible and decided to bum at na's place instead ): anw got to shower there and had free food (btw there was a whole spread of yummy lauk, yay i love variety!) and we played guitar hero. i is guitar hero virgin, yo. and i officially suck at it boos.. eh omg on the way there, we were singing at the overhead bridge stairs as we walked down and then i realized we were singing too loud and i was being retarded so i turned around to tell the 'non-existent person behind us' to shut up but there was in fact someone there and i had already begun saying something and the guy just stared at me like an idiot D:
4) took 59 from na's place to bishan then changed to 163 to meet teammates at prata house. i was 5mins late but omg they're so tardy la, and bern was late too so she didnt punish them with pushups! ): haha those were the days manz.. anw we sat at the long table and watched as our imaginary friends were slowlyyyy replaced by our ever punctual teammates (in order of appeareance: cheryl, me, priya (in skanky fake short skirt/shorts haha) , deb, ge&bern, selene, soo&meera, michelle) haha basically just talked/gossiped, ate prata and spammed milo dinosaur.. i duno why i dont like milo drink but i like the powder (: then we trotted over to Ritz apple strudel place thing but i didnt eat cos i didnt think it was halal i guess. anw they stuck candles on the pastry thing and selene and ge blew em out and we sang happybirthday very loud and made a hell lot of noise. =/ i really miss the team
OKAY RECOUNT OF EXCITING DAY FINISHED!
lol yst was pretty nice.. school was alright. langley's princess didnt come today so i was free to do other stuff, which included rushing video converting and mrslai's stuff and running down to the office to discover tt my rushing wasnt necessary. then visited the kitchen to discover that the boys were done with their cooking and pat left me chicken nuggets, fried egg and bread haha! rushedd to set up the hall for recess and rolled the metal fencing thing over my foot, (which noo witnessed from the fourth floor and the buggers laughed at me afterwards boos) pain. after recess, i helped jerlyn/noo video the classes yup. mutual swap with noo haha.. anw i was asked if i wanted to volunteer with mendaki with sports-related events or something and after giving it much thought, i think it should be fun haha! yay~
nazzer booked out unexpectedly yst so we managed to meet up for about an hour at jp where he treated me to starbucks javachip, choc cake and prata sausage. YAY free food! lovelove.. (:
anw who's XxX on tagboard hmm? =/
olivejuice// im not a whiner, rawr.
1) started off with driving practical, where we drove on the public road again. around and around and around the same area over and over and over again. i improved over time then gradually got worse prolly cos i was getting bored from the monotony.. D: and the instructor kept talking and talking and he gave me a headache zomg. he's nice lah but i think he might've been sleepy so he was talking to stay awake hmm..
2) renu messaged me in the morning to ask if i wanted to join her and lili for movie and lunch, which sounded funn but i was like SUPER BROKE. so sad. then i messaged na to ask where she and farin might be ard 11 and apparently they were having hot cycling date so i thought i might as well crash and i did. buggers paid for my bike, heh love! anw LOVE speeding on the bike (with my tudung flying behind me, i felt like a caped superhero!) "tudung terror" hoho! AND I CAN RIDE MY BIKE WITH NO HANDLEBARRRRS!! ie i controlled the bike's direction by tilting my butt about the seat lol! so exciting (: i think i want a unicycle..
3) farin and i were planning to go for flockey today after sooo long but we were Horrible and decided to bum at na's place instead ): anw got to shower there and had free food (btw there was a whole spread of yummy lauk, yay i love variety!) and we played guitar hero. i is guitar hero virgin, yo. and i officially suck at it boos.. eh omg on the way there, we were singing at the overhead bridge stairs as we walked down and then i realized we were singing too loud and i was being retarded so i turned around to tell the 'non-existent person behind us' to shut up but there was in fact someone there and i had already begun saying something and the guy just stared at me like an idiot D:
4) took 59 from na's place to bishan then changed to 163 to meet teammates at prata house. i was 5mins late but omg they're so tardy la, and bern was late too so she didnt punish them with pushups! ): haha those were the days manz.. anw we sat at the long table and watched as our imaginary friends were slowlyyyy replaced by our ever punctual teammates (in order of appeareance: cheryl, me, priya (in skanky fake short skirt/shorts haha) , deb, ge&bern, selene, soo&meera, michelle) haha basically just talked/gossiped, ate prata and spammed milo dinosaur.. i duno why i dont like milo drink but i like the powder (: then we trotted over to Ritz apple strudel place thing but i didnt eat cos i didnt think it was halal i guess. anw they stuck candles on the pastry thing and selene and ge blew em out and we sang happybirthday very loud and made a hell lot of noise. =/ i really miss the team
OKAY RECOUNT OF EXCITING DAY FINISHED!
lol yst was pretty nice.. school was alright. langley's princess didnt come today so i was free to do other stuff, which included rushing video converting and mrslai's stuff and running down to the office to discover tt my rushing wasnt necessary. then visited the kitchen to discover that the boys were done with their cooking and pat left me chicken nuggets, fried egg and bread haha! rushedd to set up the hall for recess and rolled the metal fencing thing over my foot, (which noo witnessed from the fourth floor and the buggers laughed at me afterwards boos) pain. after recess, i helped jerlyn/noo video the classes yup. mutual swap with noo haha.. anw i was asked if i wanted to volunteer with mendaki with sports-related events or something and after giving it much thought, i think it should be fun haha! yay~
nazzer booked out unexpectedly yst so we managed to meet up for about an hour at jp where he treated me to starbucks javachip, choc cake and prata sausage. YAY free food! lovelove.. (:
anw who's XxX on tagboard hmm? =/
olivejuice// im not a whiner, rawr.
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
LOL day!
seriously super lol day. well let's start with the LOL-est event today, which somewhat concluded the day on a WTF LOL note. hurrs..
so anw was otw home in the train and i was reading a book and was totally engrossed when suddenly some guy walking past me otw out dropped a small piece of paper on my bag which was on my lap. i was like O.o wtg? and brushed the paper off somewhat hesitantly (littering woops?) and continued reading.. after awhile i noticed that some indian dude sitting next to me on the train was staring intently at the paper on the floor, and after much deliberation (i guess), he picked up the paper and opened it. on it was a name, Jeff or something and his phone number. ASGHFSDGECKDNVJKGWDE??!?1111 the dude looked at me and i gave a "I DONT KNOW THAT'S NOT MINE WTHHH" face and he asked if i wanted it and i said "uh no" and continued reading.. so the dude continued staring at the paper for some reason and when i finally finally reached my stop, he asked again "you sure you dont want?" and i said "really, no" HAHA i bet he wanted to call the guy uppppp ><
i think i must've looked really kental. =/
okay so before that, i had dinner with some of the class dudes! pretty random lah, class consisted of pris chun (pda-ing like crazy), fiona, jean, na and i. hurrs we ate at amirah's grill and they didnt have a buffet today so we ate ala-carte, though 4 of us bought the set meal for $25, which was superrr worth it but now i fear how im gonna make ends meet till pay day.. ack.
anw food was AWESOME and i got DRUNK on coke and happy food and i have pictures to prove it. HAHA. lol so we camwhored abit cos i insisted tt we do and yay now we've captured the moment on cameraa.. (: so yeah good dinner =D
work was fun too. interesting and unexpected yes.. ohh and we finally got to know our final (for now) class posting.. exciting stuff! (:
um nothing else particularly interesting.. cept maybe driving-related stuff.. i passed my final theory evaluation on monday, where i came 25 mins late and got 47/50.. wah scary manz.. then practical yst was pretty cool.. i drove really far, past dover and all and got stuck in a traffic jam.. ): yar so we ended up getting back to bbdc like 5mins late? we swapped seats somewhere in bukit batok, where i accidentally leaned on the steering wheel and honked myself while twisting round to unlock the door. and to think tt i thought the bus driver behind us was being mean.. D: embarrassing rawr.
okay nazri promised to call me tonight but he hasnt. i was hoping that'll be the icing on a pretty yummy cake, but owells. hohum
anw,
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
okay im only doing this cos liyana forced me to! D:
1. I LOVE food. The one thing that can definitely put a grin on my face is food. And my friends all know this and they exploit this weakness of mine to give them added persuasive power
2. I used to love running and the idea of running away from my problems. I also loved how running makes me feel light-headed and then I’d fill my head with all the mindless, inane thoughts that actually make me feel very happy. Like what I’m gonna eat for lunch after my run. But then I got fat and fatter and running grew increasingly tedious and now I hate running. (:
3. I love most sports. (hates Frisbee!) The first sport I fell in love with was basketball. I joined basketball in p4 but I was pretty lousy and I had horrible attendance and I couldn't move on to the senior team in p6. later on I appealed to rg through basketball and I got in but I never joined bball and joined ncc instead =/
4. Sometimes I get disgusted by how stupid I am
5. I used to get into a lot of trouble when I was younger cos I made a lot of silly
decisions on impulse (but I secretly do not regret half the things I’ve done in this life)
6. I like to do things based on the sole principle that I may never get to do it ever again and I will totally regret if I walk away from a possible new experience
7. Sometimes I lie in bed and think of all the things I’ve done and wonder if I’ve lived life the best I could and if there was anything I should’ve done differently. I don’t always feel very good after such sessions
8. Sometimes I like to look in the mirror and pretend that I’m really pretty
9. I remember doing the silliest things in primary school that make me cringe whenever I think about it. Plus I had the most retarded pair of spectacle frames =/
10. I cannot swim and I remember being scared as hell after my first canoe clinic where I capsized and took a million years to swim back to the pontoon while dragging a k2 behind me and I swore I would never go back to Macritchie again.
11. I’m easily affected by criticism and negative feedback and I usually take huge and immediate measures to ensure that changes for the better are made
12. There are many things I want to do in this life, and it scares me cos they seem too huge for me to achieve.
13. I really want to go for NS
14. I really want a bike cos I’d look majorly kick-ass riding a bike in tudung but dad wont let me ):
15. I wish my dad would stop telling me I’m fat and that I should be more feminine
16. Sometimes I wish I had better social graces and that I could go for balls and look stunning and dance the night away. or maybe get with the times, and go clubbing. in tudung hurrs!
17. I get turned on by the sound of a sports car revving its engine and I Really want a red hot Lamborghini
18. I really like acting. My sister thinks I’m a horrible actress but I don’t think it matters cos I just love being on stage and feeling sick to my stomach before a performance ((:
19. I’m really impressionable. I think i pick up on people’s vocabulary and speech patterns and facial expressions and adapt and adopt them as my own. I’m not sure if any part of me is really me and I think that’s quite pathetic and sad.
20. I wish that I could form my own opinions more independently and that I don’t sound stupid in the process, which I usually do.
21. Sometimes I manage to convince myself that I’m really amazing and that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. HAHA
22. I’m proud to be who I am because I’m mostly happy
23. I have the most interesting and entertaining bunch of friends
24. I hugely adore someone whom I find most infuriating but I cannot live without and whose name starts with N and ends with azri. Hurrs..
25. I think that someday I might revisit this 25 whats-it-called thing again and lol at my silly responses and attempt to come up with more intelligent responses and fail D:
k i tag:
1) Liyana (2) Farin (3) Melz (4) Nazri (5-17) teammates (18) Maggi (19-25) i duno.. liy☠na. / hey you've got to hide your love away says:
haha screw tags
yup that's all
so anw was otw home in the train and i was reading a book and was totally engrossed when suddenly some guy walking past me otw out dropped a small piece of paper on my bag which was on my lap. i was like O.o wtg? and brushed the paper off somewhat hesitantly (littering woops?) and continued reading.. after awhile i noticed that some indian dude sitting next to me on the train was staring intently at the paper on the floor, and after much deliberation (i guess), he picked up the paper and opened it. on it was a name, Jeff or something and his phone number. ASGHFSDGECKDNVJKGWDE??!?1111 the dude looked at me and i gave a "I DONT KNOW THAT'S NOT MINE WTHHH" face and he asked if i wanted it and i said "uh no" and continued reading.. so the dude continued staring at the paper for some reason and when i finally finally reached my stop, he asked again "you sure you dont want?" and i said "really, no" HAHA i bet he wanted to call the guy uppppp ><
i think i must've looked really kental. =/
okay so before that, i had dinner with some of the class dudes! pretty random lah, class consisted of pris chun (pda-ing like crazy), fiona, jean, na and i. hurrs we ate at amirah's grill and they didnt have a buffet today so we ate ala-carte, though 4 of us bought the set meal for $25, which was superrr worth it but now i fear how im gonna make ends meet till pay day.. ack.
anw food was AWESOME and i got DRUNK on coke and happy food and i have pictures to prove it. HAHA. lol so we camwhored abit cos i insisted tt we do and yay now we've captured the moment on cameraa.. (: so yeah good dinner =D
work was fun too. interesting and unexpected yes.. ohh and we finally got to know our final (for now) class posting.. exciting stuff! (:
um nothing else particularly interesting.. cept maybe driving-related stuff.. i passed my final theory evaluation on monday, where i came 25 mins late and got 47/50.. wah scary manz.. then practical yst was pretty cool.. i drove really far, past dover and all and got stuck in a traffic jam.. ): yar so we ended up getting back to bbdc like 5mins late? we swapped seats somewhere in bukit batok, where i accidentally leaned on the steering wheel and honked myself while twisting round to unlock the door. and to think tt i thought the bus driver behind us was being mean.. D: embarrassing rawr.
okay nazri promised to call me tonight but he hasnt. i was hoping that'll be the icing on a pretty yummy cake, but owells. hohum
anw,
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
okay im only doing this cos liyana forced me to! D:
1. I LOVE food. The one thing that can definitely put a grin on my face is food. And my friends all know this and they exploit this weakness of mine to give them added persuasive power
2. I used to love running and the idea of running away from my problems. I also loved how running makes me feel light-headed and then I’d fill my head with all the mindless, inane thoughts that actually make me feel very happy. Like what I’m gonna eat for lunch after my run. But then I got fat and fatter and running grew increasingly tedious and now I hate running. (:
3. I love most sports. (hates Frisbee!) The first sport I fell in love with was basketball. I joined basketball in p4 but I was pretty lousy and I had horrible attendance and I couldn't move on to the senior team in p6. later on I appealed to rg through basketball and I got in but I never joined bball and joined ncc instead =/
4. Sometimes I get disgusted by how stupid I am
5. I used to get into a lot of trouble when I was younger cos I made a lot of silly
decisions on impulse (but I secretly do not regret half the things I’ve done in this life)
6. I like to do things based on the sole principle that I may never get to do it ever again and I will totally regret if I walk away from a possible new experience
7. Sometimes I lie in bed and think of all the things I’ve done and wonder if I’ve lived life the best I could and if there was anything I should’ve done differently. I don’t always feel very good after such sessions
8. Sometimes I like to look in the mirror and pretend that I’m really pretty
9. I remember doing the silliest things in primary school that make me cringe whenever I think about it. Plus I had the most retarded pair of spectacle frames =/
10. I cannot swim and I remember being scared as hell after my first canoe clinic where I capsized and took a million years to swim back to the pontoon while dragging a k2 behind me and I swore I would never go back to Macritchie again.
11. I’m easily affected by criticism and negative feedback and I usually take huge and immediate measures to ensure that changes for the better are made
12. There are many things I want to do in this life, and it scares me cos they seem too huge for me to achieve.
13. I really want to go for NS
14. I really want a bike cos I’d look majorly kick-ass riding a bike in tudung but dad wont let me ):
15. I wish my dad would stop telling me I’m fat and that I should be more feminine
16. Sometimes I wish I had better social graces and that I could go for balls and look stunning and dance the night away. or maybe get with the times, and go clubbing. in tudung hurrs!
17. I get turned on by the sound of a sports car revving its engine and I Really want a red hot Lamborghini
18. I really like acting. My sister thinks I’m a horrible actress but I don’t think it matters cos I just love being on stage and feeling sick to my stomach before a performance ((:
19. I’m really impressionable. I think i pick up on people’s vocabulary and speech patterns and facial expressions and adapt and adopt them as my own. I’m not sure if any part of me is really me and I think that’s quite pathetic and sad.
20. I wish that I could form my own opinions more independently and that I don’t sound stupid in the process, which I usually do.
21. Sometimes I manage to convince myself that I’m really amazing and that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. HAHA
22. I’m proud to be who I am because I’m mostly happy
23. I have the most interesting and entertaining bunch of friends
24. I hugely adore someone whom I find most infuriating but I cannot live without and whose name starts with N and ends with azri. Hurrs..
25. I think that someday I might revisit this 25 whats-it-called thing again and lol at my silly responses and attempt to come up with more intelligent responses and fail D:
1) Liyana (2) Farin (3) Melz (4) Nazri (5-17) teammates (18) Maggi (19-25) i duno.. liy☠na. / hey you've got to hide your love away says:
haha screw tags
yup that's all
Monday, February 02, 2009
cos you're the only one for me
so it's 1am right now and im finishing up another episode of Gossip Girl. i think im somewhatt hooked but tt's not really a bad thing ryt? ): just gotta be able to stay awake at work tmr owells..
anw had lunch with nazzer darling today and it was really nice.. haha anw was just talking to na and i recalled part of my conversation with nazri today. so i was asking him bout vday and whether he'll be spending vday with me or buggers at tekong. so anw vday's on sat (hoorah) and this ensued (not the exact words i think but somewhere along these lines)
me: -pause. so are you planning or should i plan something?
him: how bout you not think bout it
me: and leave it up to you? -incredulous
him: yes
me: are you testing my faith in you?
him: if you put it that way
i have the most adorable boyfriend. ahwell and im adapting really well to the no nazri life, as in no more messages and calls only on alternate days. i thought tt i'd be miserable, me being clingy and all, or eventually realize tt i dont need him or someth. but believe it or not, i can manage to live a mostly nazri-less life quite fine and am pretty happy most of the time. as in i dont think about him 24/7 or pine for him or anything like that, but i do get insanely happy when he calls. hurrs. anw point is, now i know i want him, rather than actually needing him hmm
i guess this is how things are sposed to be. (:
lol i totally should blog bout our previous vday dates, not cos theyre amazing in a totally romantic way, but memorable, yes. ((: but not today, gotta finish up GG and sleep
olivejuice//
anw had lunch with nazzer darling today and it was really nice.. haha anw was just talking to na and i recalled part of my conversation with nazri today. so i was asking him bout vday and whether he'll be spending vday with me or buggers at tekong. so anw vday's on sat (hoorah) and this ensued (not the exact words i think but somewhere along these lines)
me: -pause. so are you planning or should i plan something?
him: how bout you not think bout it
me: and leave it up to you? -incredulous
him: yes
me: are you testing my faith in you?
him: if you put it that way
i have the most adorable boyfriend. ahwell and im adapting really well to the no nazri life, as in no more messages and calls only on alternate days. i thought tt i'd be miserable, me being clingy and all, or eventually realize tt i dont need him or someth. but believe it or not, i can manage to live a mostly nazri-less life quite fine and am pretty happy most of the time. as in i dont think about him 24/7 or pine for him or anything like that, but i do get insanely happy when he calls. hurrs. anw point is, now i know i want him, rather than actually needing him hmm
i guess this is how things are sposed to be. (:
lol i totally should blog bout our previous vday dates, not cos theyre amazing in a totally romantic way, but memorable, yes. ((: but not today, gotta finish up GG and sleep
olivejuice//
Saturday, January 31, 2009
honking cabbies
omg they're so annoying la wtgg. fourth driving practical today and i got to drive on the public road again but it was so so so awful this time round cos 1. aftn vs evening (i like the nighttimee) 2. weekend vs cny (everyone's like indoors i guess?) 3. EFFING HONKING CAB DRIVERS 4. my driving skillz is lackingg. well for today at least cos like the stuff im pretty much okay with by now like moving off, was damn terrible today! wtf manual car and controlling clutch accelerator and stalling engine and driving instructor essentially told me tt my driving sucks. ):
went for another final theory prac before tt cos im damn worried for my theory evaluation on monday cos i suck. tt makes 3 days worth of theory prac in a row! kept dozing off during prac on thurs cos it was after work and i was exhaustedd and i failed all four booklets i did and tt scared me shitless so i signed up for another one on fri. dozed off yet again but this time i passed all five booklets i did and got full marks for two of em. today i failed one booklet D: meh.
yst was a rather strange day but i shant dwell hoho
i've been gossip girl-ing and im so in love with chuck bass and im only just starting season two which everyone tells me will make me love him so much more, ohnoes! anw i took a break from gg yst cos im turning into a fangirl and i refuse to be a liyana D:
okay com just finished loadng gossip girl heh.
EH i miss nazri leyh. bugger should be coming home from tekong later today yay..
I WANT MY PAY NAO. damn broke, so sad.
olivejuice//
went for another final theory prac before tt cos im damn worried for my theory evaluation on monday cos i suck. tt makes 3 days worth of theory prac in a row! kept dozing off during prac on thurs cos it was after work and i was exhaustedd and i failed all four booklets i did and tt scared me shitless so i signed up for another one on fri. dozed off yet again but this time i passed all five booklets i did and got full marks for two of em. today i failed one booklet D: meh.
yst was a rather strange day but i shant dwell hoho
i've been gossip girl-ing and im so in love with chuck bass and im only just starting season two which everyone tells me will make me love him so much more, ohnoes! anw i took a break from gg yst cos im turning into a fangirl and i refuse to be a liyana D:
okay com just finished loadng gossip girl heh.
EH i miss nazri leyh. bugger should be coming home from tekong later today yay..
I WANT MY PAY NAO. damn broke, so sad.
olivejuice//
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
orange! -shifty eyed
SO. let's start from the end. driving prac today was awesomeee.. cny = empty driving circuit = ghost town-ish = SUPER SAFE for driving and building up confidence yes. then then then i got to drive outside! omg 3rd lesson today and like when i was told to drive out i was like "-squeaks. out out??" HAHA. but super duper exciting grahhhh (:
okay next. Gossip Girl is loveee. DAN HUMPHREY! and chuck oh chuck.. D: and nazri doesnt understand my fascination with gg and i dont either but half the world is fangirling it as well gah i shouldnt but lubxlubxmuchly. -incoherent
in other news, work was okay. back to school = sianeddd but quite fun lah.. im hooked on horrible oily fries tt dont hold much appeal but i buy all the time anw DD:
nazzer news: met bugger this morning for an hour before work, where we took a nice somewhat leisurely stroll at lakeside, which is opp workplace.. 15mins of which my most charming boyfriend left me by my lonesome self, to poop. second time so far, tt i know of at least. first o incident being on our 3rd anniversary last year ack. sexy much..
anw we went to watch Changeling yst with nana haha wtgg.. nice show + strange company + one dollar off KFC 2pc chicken meal = awesome outing hurrs
monday was exciting too haha! family left for msia at like 4.30am? slept most of the way and like drooled all over my tudung cos im so sexy like that.. anw we camwhored like crazy at putra jaya which is a pretty enough place i guess.. but Mega Mall at Mid-Valley is awesomeeee. we're not much of a shopping family, so i only got 3 tops lol (54.50rm all together woo yay) but OMG they had ALL the good foods. kenny rogers, all sorts of fast food, my typical msian must-buy finger foods (ie. kaya balls, cup corn, chestnuts etc), sushi king, famous amos, aunty anne's, coffeebean, starbucks and most importantly, HALAL otherwise non-halal foods in singapore ie Carl's Jr YES! so darn decadent yayy. tastes quite alot like BK but the SIZE goshh.. and the fries are to die for. -happyhappyy. anw from what i rmb i had: Breakfast- mee soto and one chappati. Lunch Part 1- shared Nando's meal with sis but helped the others clear their plates as well heh. random foods incl takoyaki in between. Lunch Part 2- Carl's Jr!!! then starbucks & aunty anne's. Dinner- Lambchop. =D got home at ard 12am heh.
okay i think i've covered just about everythingg.. exciting life yay.
olivejuice// I WONT MISS YOU BUT COME BACK SOON TAU. ):
okay next. Gossip Girl is loveee. DAN HUMPHREY! and chuck oh chuck.. D: and nazri doesnt understand my fascination with gg and i dont either but half the world is fangirling it as well gah i shouldnt but lubxlubxmuchly. -incoherent
in other news, work was okay. back to school = sianeddd but quite fun lah.. im hooked on horrible oily fries tt dont hold much appeal but i buy all the time anw DD:
nazzer news: met bugger this morning for an hour before work, where we took a nice somewhat leisurely stroll at lakeside, which is opp workplace.. 15mins of which my most charming boyfriend left me by my lonesome self, to poop. second time so far, tt i know of at least. first o incident being on our 3rd anniversary last year ack. sexy much..
anw we went to watch Changeling yst with nana haha wtgg.. nice show + strange company + one dollar off KFC 2pc chicken meal = awesome outing hurrs
monday was exciting too haha! family left for msia at like 4.30am? slept most of the way and like drooled all over my tudung cos im so sexy like that.. anw we camwhored like crazy at putra jaya which is a pretty enough place i guess.. but Mega Mall at Mid-Valley is awesomeeee. we're not much of a shopping family, so i only got 3 tops lol (54.50rm all together woo yay) but OMG they had ALL the good foods. kenny rogers, all sorts of fast food, my typical msian must-buy finger foods (ie. kaya balls, cup corn, chestnuts etc), sushi king, famous amos, aunty anne's, coffeebean, starbucks and most importantly, HALAL otherwise non-halal foods in singapore ie Carl's Jr YES! so darn decadent yayy. tastes quite alot like BK but the SIZE goshh.. and the fries are to die for. -happyhappyy. anw from what i rmb i had: Breakfast- mee soto and one chappati. Lunch Part 1- shared Nando's meal with sis but helped the others clear their plates as well heh. random foods incl takoyaki in between. Lunch Part 2- Carl's Jr!!! then starbucks & aunty anne's. Dinner- Lambchop. =D got home at ard 12am heh.
okay i think i've covered just about everythingg.. exciting life yay.
olivejuice// I WONT MISS YOU BUT COME BACK SOON TAU. ):
Sunday, January 25, 2009
good life
woohkay havent blogged in a week. sch/work's been good. exciting video- editing, saikang-ing and watching after oh-so-adorable kids.. and cny hoho!
watched Inkheart with nazzer on friday and show's niice.. (:
driving prac yst morning was omgwtfpanicccc. actually not too bad la but foot was cramping on the clutch and i is not used to being behind the wheel.. ): and omg so i went to sign up for my PDL (provisional driving license hurrs) and like i asked the counter lady what i needed and she said i only needed to have my ic. so after 1 hr, my number got called out and like wtgg i needed to pay 25bucks using nets or cashcard and i had neither. so i asked some nice 20-ish girl next to me to help me pay using her nets and i said i'll pay her the money in cash but then i checked my wallet and i only had $22. !!! so yeah i hadta transfer $5 to her posb account last night. -sigh. but yup nice lady.. ((:
anw spent the rest of the morning and part of the aftn with nazzer then we went to noo's place for mcs gathering where i ate 8/9 jap balls. (i can stuff 2 in my mouth at one go hehh) sho wrong. anw i call em takoyaki, the others call em takopachi. na decided to call em: takopaki. O.o HAHA sho cute..
going msia/malacca/kl tmr for shopping & FOOD spree. one day only cos sis has sch stuff on tues and i fearr hotel rooms without prior booking. reminds me of 7 day msia road trip with family where we endured quite a number of lousy hotel rooms ack.. but anw yup one-day trip so gotta make the most of it heh.
aight tt's all. tues is Happy 46th, darlingg.. ><
olivejuice// i love my nazri (and he loves me even if he doesnt show it very well) -nods
ps. this is for the previous blog post which i forgot to attach.
The Rules:
1. Answer each of the questions below using the Flickr search engine.
2. Choose a photo from the first three pages.
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4. Then share with the world.
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watched Inkheart with nazzer on friday and show's niice.. (:
driving prac yst morning was omgwtfpanicccc. actually not too bad la but foot was cramping on the clutch and i is not used to being behind the wheel.. ): and omg so i went to sign up for my PDL (provisional driving license hurrs) and like i asked the counter lady what i needed and she said i only needed to have my ic. so after 1 hr, my number got called out and like wtgg i needed to pay 25bucks using nets or cashcard and i had neither. so i asked some nice 20-ish girl next to me to help me pay using her nets and i said i'll pay her the money in cash but then i checked my wallet and i only had $22. !!! so yeah i hadta transfer $5 to her posb account last night. -sigh. but yup nice lady.. ((:
anw spent the rest of the morning and part of the aftn with nazzer then we went to noo's place for mcs gathering where i ate 8/9 jap balls. (i can stuff 2 in my mouth at one go hehh) sho wrong. anw i call em takoyaki, the others call em takopachi. na decided to call em: takopaki. O.o HAHA sho cute..
going msia/malacca/kl tmr for shopping & FOOD spree. one day only cos sis has sch stuff on tues and i fearr hotel rooms without prior booking. reminds me of 7 day msia road trip with family where we endured quite a number of lousy hotel rooms ack.. but anw yup one-day trip so gotta make the most of it heh.
aight tt's all. tues is Happy 46th, darlingg.. ><
olivejuice// i love my nazri (and he loves me even if he doesnt show it very well) -nods
ps. this is for the previous blog post which i forgot to attach.
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1. Answer each of the questions below using the Flickr search engine.
2. Choose a photo from the first three pages.
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
you love me!
hee i have an amazingly sweet boyfriend yes.
he snuck out some of his rations from field camp cos he prolly knew i'd wanna try it hurrs.. so he saved up his food by swapping the supposedly yummy food for maggi for one dinner and lunch or something. chicken pasta bolognese and another chicken pasta thing.. yay im so touched.
and i think im the only one who finds this sweet, but awwwwwwww -happydance.
hmm i think im not sposed to talk about it =/ woops
anw,
1. First name: Siti
2. Favorite food: grahh cant choose. Swensens' Mega Burger?
3. Hometown: Singapore
4. Favorite colour: Red
5. Celebrity crush: uh jason mraz i guess
6. Favorite drink: coke
7. Dream vacation: outer space
8. Favorite dessert: ice cream
9. What I want to be when I grow up: wise
10. What I love most in the world: love!
11. One word that describes me: happy
12. My LiveJournal name: syimster (no syimster so i used hasyimah instead and guess what i found?)
olivejuice// you mean the world to me (:
he snuck out some of his rations from field camp cos he prolly knew i'd wanna try it hurrs.. so he saved up his food by swapping the supposedly yummy food for maggi for one dinner and lunch or something. chicken pasta bolognese and another chicken pasta thing.. yay im so touched.
and i think im the only one who finds this sweet, but awwwwwwww -happydance.
hmm i think im not sposed to talk about it =/ woops
anw,
1. First name: Siti
2. Favorite food: grahh cant choose. Swensens' Mega Burger?
3. Hometown: Singapore
4. Favorite colour: Red
5. Celebrity crush: uh jason mraz i guess
6. Favorite drink: coke
7. Dream vacation: outer space
8. Favorite dessert: ice cream
9. What I want to be when I grow up: wise
10. What I love most in the world: love!
11. One word that describes me: happy
12. My LiveJournal name: syimster (no syimster so i used hasyimah instead and guess what i found?)
olivejuice// you mean the world to me (:
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Langley love (:
We're somewhat settling into Eden already.. some pretty friendly staff there and i guess it's a nice enough atmosphere.. lol we had rather Meh opinions of it initially, and we vowed to start our second day on a new clean slate, so yup we did and it's been a very fulfilling experience.. the past few days hasnt been easy, trust me, but maintaining a positive attitude & taking joy in the amazingggly cute antics of some of the kids there has made the past week extremely enjoyable overall ((:
anw my class has 3guys +1girl Vs my pathlight class which has 6guys +2girls.. half phwoar and interesting personalities.. >< cute little/big buggers haha.. but hurrs i still have some reservations bout the sch but ahwell we'll see, yes?
ahh and zomg i never knew i had such patience in me asjhdbwhefasfbwqehecd&^!@#$$#
-sigh.
oh there's a cute mat teacher at work heh
ohh i finally went for a run today HAHA. 1. cos im getting too damn fat, 2. cos running around with/after the kids at work/sch made me realize tt i actually miss running, (haha yes i cant believe it myself) Hurrs but i ran alone, which felt a litte lonely but fun anyways.. (:
i like work hmm.
olivejuice// HAPPY 19TH, SWEETHEART DARLING BABY HURRS. come out of the tekong jungle soon kays, i miss you alot ):
anw my class has 3guys +1girl Vs my pathlight class which has 6guys +2girls.. half phwoar and interesting personalities.. >< cute little/big buggers haha.. but hurrs i still have some reservations bout the sch but ahwell we'll see, yes?
ahh and zomg i never knew i had such patience in me asjhdbwhefasfbwqehecd&^!@#$$#
-sigh.
oh there's a cute mat teacher at work heh
ohh i finally went for a run today HAHA. 1. cos im getting too damn fat, 2. cos running around with/after the kids at work/sch made me realize tt i actually miss running, (haha yes i cant believe it myself) Hurrs but i ran alone, which felt a litte lonely but fun anyways.. (:
i like work hmm.
olivejuice// HAPPY 19TH, SWEETHEART DARLING BABY HURRS. come out of the tekong jungle soon kays, i miss you alot ):
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
song meme whatever thingey
RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle
2. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
3. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
1. What is your motto?
All about you- Mcfly
am totally selfless manz
2. What do your friends think about you?
Sing- Travis
"Youve been waiting in the sun too long
But if you sing, sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring wont mean a thing"
so they think im dark. hurrrs..
3. What do you think about very often?
My alien- Simple Plan
HURRS nazzzer
4. What is 2+2 ?
Far away- Nickelback
5. What do you think of the person you like?
Queen of my heart- Westlife
liek totally
6. What is your life story?
Sweetness- Jimmy Eat World
(: (well from looking solely at the song title cos i duno wtg's the song about meh)
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
The nicest kids in town- James Marsden
haha!
8. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Stockholm syndrome- Blink 182
songmeanings.net says:
The song itself is about paranoia. Being afriad of the outside world, convinced that people can hear your thoughts.
uhm okay
9. What do your parents think of you?
Hands down- Dashboard Confessionals
10. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Shiver- Maroon 5
So come to bed It’s getting late
There’s no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race
sexy.
11. What will they play at your funeral?
When it all falls apart- The Veronicas
so sad right
12. What is your hobby/interest?
Disease- Matchbox Twenty
=/
13. What is your biggest secret?
Boulevard of broken dreams- Greenday
sho deep worx
14. What do you think about your friends?
We be burnin'- Sean Paul
hoho!
15. What's the worst thing that could happen?
Happy birthday- The Click Five
ZOMG how could anyone forget my birthday seh )):
16. How will you die?
Ikhlas tapi jauh- VE
translation: Sincere but far? O.o
17. What is the one thing you regret?
Cannonball- Damien Rice
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
18. What makes you laugh?
Shut up and drive- Rihanna
19. What makes you cry?
He wasn't- Avril Lavigne
lol look up the lyrics. -shifty eyed
O.o
20. Will you ever get married?
If i let you go- Westlife
na said this is a good thing so okeh
21. What scares you the most?
Tonight- Westlife
I don't wanna act like
I know that you'd be mine forever
Though I hope it's forever
Don't want you to feel like
I take you for granted
Whenever we are together
hmm but i think it's mostly bout sex. unh
22. Does anyone like you?
Accidentally in love- Counting Crows
hee
23. If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Dont stop the music- Rihanna
uh i interpret this as: dont stop and look back but just continue with the flow cos there's nothing to change? =/
24. What hurts right now?
How far we've come- Matchbox Twenty
uh growing up?
25. What would you post this as?
Always- Blink 182
FOUR repeated artists, i need need more songs on phone hmm.
anw songs are apt enough haha!
wtg time so late redi. time to sleep yes.
fyi i updated my songs there>> yupp
k nite
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle
2. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
3. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
1. What is your motto?
All about you- Mcfly
am totally selfless manz
2. What do your friends think about you?
Sing- Travis
"Youve been waiting in the sun too long
But if you sing, sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring wont mean a thing"
so they think im dark. hurrrs..
3. What do you think about very often?
My alien- Simple Plan
HURRS nazzzer
4. What is 2+2 ?
Far away- Nickelback
5. What do you think of the person you like?
Queen of my heart- Westlife
liek totally
6. What is your life story?
Sweetness- Jimmy Eat World
(: (well from looking solely at the song title cos i duno wtg's the song about meh)
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
The nicest kids in town- James Marsden
haha!
8. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Stockholm syndrome- Blink 182
songmeanings.net says:
The song itself is about paranoia. Being afriad of the outside world, convinced that people can hear your thoughts.
uhm okay
9. What do your parents think of you?
Hands down- Dashboard Confessionals
10. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Shiver- Maroon 5
So come to bed It’s getting late
There’s no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race
sexy.
11. What will they play at your funeral?
When it all falls apart- The Veronicas
so sad right
12. What is your hobby/interest?
Disease- Matchbox Twenty
=/
13. What is your biggest secret?
Boulevard of broken dreams- Greenday
sho deep worx
14. What do you think about your friends?
We be burnin'- Sean Paul
hoho!
15. What's the worst thing that could happen?
Happy birthday- The Click Five
ZOMG how could anyone forget my birthday seh )):
16. How will you die?
Ikhlas tapi jauh- VE
translation: Sincere but far? O.o
17. What is the one thing you regret?
Cannonball- Damien Rice
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
18. What makes you laugh?
Shut up and drive- Rihanna
19. What makes you cry?
He wasn't- Avril Lavigne
lol look up the lyrics. -shifty eyed
O.o
20. Will you ever get married?
If i let you go- Westlife
na said this is a good thing so okeh
21. What scares you the most?
Tonight- Westlife
I don't wanna act like
I know that you'd be mine forever
Though I hope it's forever
Don't want you to feel like
I take you for granted
Whenever we are together
hmm but i think it's mostly bout sex. unh
22. Does anyone like you?
Accidentally in love- Counting Crows
hee
23. If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Dont stop the music- Rihanna
uh i interpret this as: dont stop and look back but just continue with the flow cos there's nothing to change? =/
24. What hurts right now?
How far we've come- Matchbox Twenty
uh growing up?
25. What would you post this as?
Always- Blink 182
FOUR repeated artists, i need need more songs on phone hmm.
anw songs are apt enough haha!
wtg time so late redi. time to sleep yes.
fyi i updated my songs there>> yupp
k nite
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
new workplace
Eden is very different.
-shrugs.
Final theory lesson 1.01 today and i was dozing off for the most part. going anywhere after work is definitely a nono. shagged beyond shagged, i shall sleep soon.
i miss nazri already. whai my life so sad huhh?
Anw, here's the bugger's response to my lamenting bout how i had a lousy boyfriend:
"I beg to differ i think im as good a boyfriend any girl can get... Plus im hot... Quote me on this and see how many would agree!"
im expecting a veryy negative response hrmph.
olivejuice// field camp shmield camp Bah.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you~
-shrugs.
Final theory lesson 1.01 today and i was dozing off for the most part. going anywhere after work is definitely a nono. shagged beyond shagged, i shall sleep soon.
i miss nazri already. whai my life so sad huhh?
Anw, here's the bugger's response to my lamenting bout how i had a lousy boyfriend:
"I beg to differ i think im as good a boyfriend any girl can get... Plus im hot... Quote me on this and see how many would agree!"
im expecting a veryy negative response hrmph.
olivejuice// field camp shmield camp Bah.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you~
Monday, January 12, 2009
farewell until we meet again
right so my Pathlight days are mostly over, so it's now Eden ftw~! ugh but there's only like 4 of us now cos the other 2 got reposted to Pathlight, which makes us even more ostracized/exclusive, whichever way you look at it. -sad. and despite my fervent claims that as long as the food at Eden's good, i wouldnt miss the school and them at all, i lied. Cos i definitely will and i already do and i feel torn & heartbroken and Meh. and i'll miss the buggers' suaning and their awesome company grah.
let's hope Eden would be as wonderful a school as it is at Pathlight. -sigh. somewhat excited bout tmr though.. new experiences, new environment, new people.. should be hella fun. or challenging. but those two are kinda synonymous anw. hooha
oh my class (ie P2 Tamarind <3!) seemed to like my gifts heh. i gave them each a plastic bookmark with a hand shape at the end (it's called a Help Me bookmark heh) and they used it to high 5 me most of today hee. andand like one of em who was assigned the on/off lights duty was so cute cos he used the hand part to press the switch and tried to be all inconspicuous about it cos he's so shy. GAH SO ADORABLE. and they were pretty excited bout the class toys (meant for the Choice/Reward/Toy cupboard) and the teacher's gonna add them to the cupboard tmr. i hope they'll like it ((:
hmm met na at Central for Starbucks where she sponsored $5 of my Javachip frappe venti for some unmentionable reason hurrs. anw i came like super late/ early (cos she was unexpectedly let off work earlyy) and she was pissed. heh ><
i think tt's pretty much all the updates i've got hmm. oh and farin put up some horrible photos of us on facebook ack
let's hope Eden would be as wonderful a school as it is at Pathlight. -sigh. somewhat excited bout tmr though.. new experiences, new environment, new people.. should be hella fun. or challenging. but those two are kinda synonymous anw. hooha
oh my class (ie P2 Tamarind <3!) seemed to like my gifts heh. i gave them each a plastic bookmark with a hand shape at the end (it's called a Help Me bookmark heh) and they used it to high 5 me most of today hee. andand like one of em who was assigned the on/off lights duty was so cute cos he used the hand part to press the switch and tried to be all inconspicuous about it cos he's so shy. GAH SO ADORABLE. and they were pretty excited bout the class toys (meant for the Choice/Reward/Toy cupboard) and the teacher's gonna add them to the cupboard tmr. i hope they'll like it ((:
hmm met na at Central for Starbucks where she sponsored $5 of my Javachip frappe venti for some unmentionable reason hurrs. anw i came like super late/ early (cos she was unexpectedly let off work earlyy) and she was pissed. heh ><
i think tt's pretty much all the updates i've got hmm. oh and farin put up some horrible photos of us on facebook ack
Saturday, January 10, 2009
im the boss
is a super fun game yayy! i sucked today though and ended up last.. -.- anw went with nazzer na maggi and hariz. pretty random group hurrs but like i thought it made sense? as in we all pretty much know each other and like it's fun to hang out with new people once in awhile yupp (: hoho maggi and i are gonna drag the commandants there next time yay!
anw weekend offer at mindcafe @ Clarke quay $7.50 excl gst each but freeflow boardgaming 2-7pm plus free drinks. not as good as weekday offer but pretty damn good nonetheless! just rmb to play at least 2hrs to make the offer worth it hurrs.. i wonder how much profit these joints make hmm..
okay super damn shagged i wanna read book and sleep now.
oh i got the toys for the little kids yay! (:
ah haha which reminds me, another video at work/sch which i found extremely fascinating! =D
ps.i think i like nazri alot
OH btw just had this convo with na:
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
i was just thinking
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
tt the many things i do in this life
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
have made me the person i am today
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
so cliched omg but true!
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
like ncc made me disciplined
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
somewhat
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
canoe taught me perseverence
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
ct rep-ing made me sharpen my leadership skillz and learn tolerance
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
nazri taught me to love unconditionally (for the most part)
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
and volunteering taught me compassion
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
...why is your life so meaningful oO
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
haha it's as if i had it all planned out beforehand it's quite scary
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
HAHA
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
but its good lah
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
your life has purpose
(: Alhamdulillah
anw weekend offer at mindcafe @ Clarke quay $7.50 excl gst each but freeflow boardgaming 2-7pm plus free drinks. not as good as weekday offer but pretty damn good nonetheless! just rmb to play at least 2hrs to make the offer worth it hurrs.. i wonder how much profit these joints make hmm..
okay super damn shagged i wanna read book and sleep now.
oh i got the toys for the little kids yay! (:
ah haha which reminds me, another video at work/sch which i found extremely fascinating! =D
ps.i think i like nazri alot
OH btw just had this convo with na:
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
i was just thinking
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
tt the many things i do in this life
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
have made me the person i am today
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
so cliched omg but true!
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
like ncc made me disciplined
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
somewhat
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
canoe taught me perseverence
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
ct rep-ing made me sharpen my leadership skillz and learn tolerance
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
nazri taught me to love unconditionally (for the most part)
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
and volunteering taught me compassion
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
...why is your life so meaningful oO
§yimstar || RafflesRow! <3 says:
haha it's as if i had it all planned out beforehand it's quite scary
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
HAHA
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
but its good lah
liy☠na. / beware, you will never get out of this world alive says:
your life has purpose
(: Alhamdulillah
Friday, January 09, 2009
i is emo
second last day at pathlight and it feels so horrible knowing that you're leaving the adorable little things soon.. it's only been what, a week? i guess that's why na's all incredulous of my claim to be in love with them.. hah sounds silly yes but you have no idea how wonderfully endearing the kids are! lovelove.. gah i wish i could better express myself and how special the kids are but i failz. i cant blog exact details of my experience here, but i assure you it has been most enriching and i think i've learnt plentyy in the past 5 days.. -pleased
ah but i'll miss the school as a whole boos! i mean the environment and everything is so warm and accomodating and you cant help feeling warm&fuzzy inside cos youre surrounded by so many ppl who care and that makes the teachers special as well! ((: and the food here is supersuper yummy (albeit a little ex) and the other easy-to-get-along-and-i-will-miss-dearly jc teacher aides boos.
eden has only 80 students apparently. i hope the atmosphere there would be about the same and i can settle in well, since we're under the same admin and all.. the kids there are very much different from the ones here, which places quite some emphasis on academics. i guess it'll be challenging, but hah it should be interesting nonetheless..
probably getting the kids some gifts for my last day there.. they might not necessarily appreciate it (cos it's not within their field of interest?) and might eventually discard the stuff but it'll be nice to give something back to them for all the amazing memories they've given me (:
cheeseh
bah i cant make it for team outing tmr cos family's celebrating mom's birthday.. i miss them muchly nyeh. OMG and my rafflesrow tshirt's now a horrible shade of yellow cos it got messed up in the wash and wouldnt turn white again despite repeated bleaching.. -SUPERSAD
ahwell i go watch shows nao..
ah but i'll miss the school as a whole boos! i mean the environment and everything is so warm and accomodating and you cant help feeling warm&fuzzy inside cos youre surrounded by so many ppl who care and that makes the teachers special as well! ((: and the food here is supersuper yummy (albeit a little ex) and the other easy-to-get-along-and-i-will-miss-dearly jc teacher aides boos.
eden has only 80 students apparently. i hope the atmosphere there would be about the same and i can settle in well, since we're under the same admin and all.. the kids there are very much different from the ones here, which places quite some emphasis on academics. i guess it'll be challenging, but hah it should be interesting nonetheless..
probably getting the kids some gifts for my last day there.. they might not necessarily appreciate it (cos it's not within their field of interest?) and might eventually discard the stuff but it'll be nice to give something back to them for all the amazing memories they've given me (:
cheeseh
bah i cant make it for team outing tmr cos family's celebrating mom's birthday.. i miss them muchly nyeh. OMG and my rafflesrow tshirt's now a horrible shade of yellow cos it got messed up in the wash and wouldnt turn white again despite repeated bleaching.. -SUPERSAD
ahwell i go watch shows nao..
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
love you so
in this entry, i shall reiterate my point in the previous post.
SHO ADORABLE ZOMGGGGG
hee. anw maggi mentioned something bout maternal instinct and hoho i realized tt im quite pleased with my job cos i got assigned to some small class with small children and they're like my babies awww ((:
i think that should satisfy my womanly needs for now and put my biological clock on snooze for some time longer (:
anw, we were let off early today so i bummed at funan for some time while waiting for na to finish work yupp. stoned at macs and dozed off like 2824151943 times ugh. anw im still really tired so i shall sleep summore now yay!
nazri darling is so wonderful to talk to when im in a good mood =D
lovelove!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMMMY hurrs
oh btw the kids lovee this video, and i do too whee!
"you dont know anything about animals"
sho cute.
SHO ADORABLE ZOMGGGGG
hee. anw maggi mentioned something bout maternal instinct and hoho i realized tt im quite pleased with my job cos i got assigned to some small class with small children and they're like my babies awww ((:
i think that should satisfy my womanly needs for now and put my biological clock on snooze for some time longer (:
anw, we were let off early today so i bummed at funan for some time while waiting for na to finish work yupp. stoned at macs and dozed off like 2824151943 times ugh. anw im still really tired so i shall sleep summore now yay!
nazri darling is so wonderful to talk to when im in a good mood =D
lovelove!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMMMY hurrs
oh btw the kids lovee this video, and i do too whee!
"you dont know anything about animals"
sho cute.
gimme me more
okay relatively short entry:
KIDS AT WORK ARE SO ADORABLE, IM IN LOVE WITH THEM. i hope i wont feel tooo attached to them by the end of the week cos im being deployed to Eden next week onwards. gar and there's only 6 of us there and i'll miss the other 22 here rawr! (as in the jc teacher aides) haha majority rj but the other sch ppl are really super friendly and great to talk to yar..
anw garr there's some kind of privacy policy included in our contract which means tt i cant take any pictures of the kids and i'll only have them in my memories, which is pretty lousy and i'd forget them soon enough. but i dont want to forget boos!
anw yeah work's superrrr tiring and we're on our feet all day but the kids make everything worthwhile, from their super cute smile to their random ramblings and earnest desire to make conversation. so pure so innocent so beautiful wooh!
im mugging for test tmr ack. Sensory issues ftw~!
KIDS AT WORK ARE SO ADORABLE, IM IN LOVE WITH THEM. i hope i wont feel tooo attached to them by the end of the week cos im being deployed to Eden next week onwards. gar and there's only 6 of us there and i'll miss the other 22 here rawr! (as in the jc teacher aides) haha majority rj but the other sch ppl are really super friendly and great to talk to yar..
anw garr there's some kind of privacy policy included in our contract which means tt i cant take any pictures of the kids and i'll only have them in my memories, which is pretty lousy and i'd forget them soon enough. but i dont want to forget boos!
anw yeah work's superrrr tiring and we're on our feet all day but the kids make everything worthwhile, from their super cute smile to their random ramblings and earnest desire to make conversation. so pure so innocent so beautiful wooh!
im mugging for test tmr ack. Sensory issues ftw~!
Monday, January 05, 2009
shagged
ugh feeling quite exhausted from work, and i realize tt $1200 a month isnt tt big a pay considering the amount of hours put in.. anw we're not allowed to blog about work (we even signed a contract woahh) but i think i shouldd be able to blog bout some of the good stuff. like how the kids are so super adorable gahhh! im assigned to a p2 class with only 8 kids and they're sho cute yay! ((:
anw the past few days have been pretty interesting.. actually i didnt do much ah, just spent the whole of saturday out with my family, going random places and shopped quite abit heh..
'last' class outing on sunday was quite fun ah.. played a bit of pool and had dinner at madjack yummeh.. i'll miss the dudes somewhat i guess, oh zomg we can never go play boardgames for 4hrs on weekdays anymore! -sad. oh well shout out to the 5A dudes, (cos i dont think ive properly summed up our 2 yrs, though i think i might do a more proper one next time hmm), it's been great manz. i mean eventhough i've been given the oh-so-glamorous (HAH) role of ct rep and having had to handle all the crap and everything, it's been awesome still. im gonna miss you guys loads. well haha not everyone ah but yeah most of you (((((:
hmm kay nazri's unsurprising surprise birthday party on thursday. ugh failure lah he already knew about it like the week before cos some people cant keep a secret ): and nazzer was being a horrible bitch, acting all pissed and stuff eventho he know i get damn scared when he's pissed D: oh okay backing up abit, nazzer and i went to visit macs in the morning! bugger was 40mins late and i went to wait near the water at the paddle lodge area.. gosh i didnt realize just how badly i missed the water. all the sounds, the sights, the pain etc. i wanna row nao gar..
anw anw party was okay lah, i spent alotttt of money in the end and tt was kinda painful, but nazzer was ultimately pleased with the whole thing so i guess tt's all tt matters.. though it kinda hurt when he asked if he could go play lan with his friends instead of sending me home. me, Miss party planner rawr. -.- ahwell but he thought i could've gone home with farin or maggi but turns out i couldnt really. sis said tt the party was for him to spend time with his friends, somewhat, so i should've let him go with em. hoho owells.. ah plus lotsa excess food = meh.
entry bout 7 day malaysian roadtrip some other time wooh
i'm so tired
anw the past few days have been pretty interesting.. actually i didnt do much ah, just spent the whole of saturday out with my family, going random places and shopped quite abit heh..
'last' class outing on sunday was quite fun ah.. played a bit of pool and had dinner at madjack yummeh.. i'll miss the dudes somewhat i guess, oh zomg we can never go play boardgames for 4hrs on weekdays anymore! -sad. oh well shout out to the 5A dudes, (cos i dont think ive properly summed up our 2 yrs, though i think i might do a more proper one next time hmm), it's been great manz. i mean eventhough i've been given the oh-so-glamorous (HAH) role of ct rep and having had to handle all the crap and everything, it's been awesome still. im gonna miss you guys loads. well haha not everyone ah but yeah most of you (((((:
hmm kay nazri's unsurprising surprise birthday party on thursday. ugh failure lah he already knew about it like the week before cos some people cant keep a secret ): and nazzer was being a horrible bitch, acting all pissed and stuff eventho he know i get damn scared when he's pissed D: oh okay backing up abit, nazzer and i went to visit macs in the morning! bugger was 40mins late and i went to wait near the water at the paddle lodge area.. gosh i didnt realize just how badly i missed the water. all the sounds, the sights, the pain etc. i wanna row nao gar..
anw anw party was okay lah, i spent alotttt of money in the end and tt was kinda painful, but nazzer was ultimately pleased with the whole thing so i guess tt's all tt matters.. though it kinda hurt when he asked if he could go play lan with his friends instead of sending me home. me, Miss party planner rawr. -.- ahwell but he thought i could've gone home with farin or maggi but turns out i couldnt really. sis said tt the party was for him to spend time with his friends, somewhat, so i should've let him go with em. hoho owells.. ah plus lotsa excess food = meh.
entry bout 7 day malaysian roadtrip some other time wooh
i'm so tired
Sunday, January 04, 2009
insecure
i think tt i have quite a huge ego most of the time. i feel confident bout myself and what i can do. but i realize that i have one downfall. im crazy in love with a boy.
i realize that most of the ppl i know are generous and lavish me with compliments often. im fine with that. it makes me quite uneasy sometimes but it still is nice to be appreciated. on the other hand, im in a relationship where i am seldom complimented but very often teased. i wouldnt say insulted cos he claims to do it with the best of intentions. whatever that may be.
i often refrain from blogging bout things that refer to ppl directly, esp if im unhappy with them. i usually turn to my diary diary in such instances. but right now it's not at hand and im too lazy to run over to my room to get it.
anw, revelation of the day: my boyfriend is my drug. im addicted to him and i would go to great lengths to please him, though he may not be the best thing for me. i guess him teasing me often and his rationale for doing so (cos everyone else compliments me too often) makes me cling on to him even more. it's like im craving for his approval of sorts.
(and at this point my insticts kick in and im questioning myself as to whether my claims are justified wtf)
bottom line is: i love you too much. it's dumb to give so much of your heart away to someone else. i'd do anything for you. would you do the same for me?
i want to be appreciated & cherished
i want to feel special
i want to know that i mean something to you
i want to be loved
but love is a word we throw around too easily. and love cannot just be uttered or just felt, (assuming tt the person knows it anyway) it needs to be proven with actions, not only when the person is looking.
im too much of a fucking romantic damnzz..
im thinking it must be pretty freaky to have someone love you too much hmm.
and im hoping this entry will be forgotten. just needed to get that off my chest. mooha
i realize that most of the ppl i know are generous and lavish me with compliments often. im fine with that. it makes me quite uneasy sometimes but it still is nice to be appreciated. on the other hand, im in a relationship where i am seldom complimented but very often teased. i wouldnt say insulted cos he claims to do it with the best of intentions. whatever that may be.
i often refrain from blogging bout things that refer to ppl directly, esp if im unhappy with them. i usually turn to my diary diary in such instances. but right now it's not at hand and im too lazy to run over to my room to get it.
anw, revelation of the day: my boyfriend is my drug. im addicted to him and i would go to great lengths to please him, though he may not be the best thing for me. i guess him teasing me often and his rationale for doing so (cos everyone else compliments me too often) makes me cling on to him even more. it's like im craving for his approval of sorts.
(and at this point my insticts kick in and im questioning myself as to whether my claims are justified wtf)
bottom line is: i love you too much. it's dumb to give so much of your heart away to someone else. i'd do anything for you. would you do the same for me?
i want to be appreciated & cherished
i want to feel special
i want to know that i mean something to you
i want to be loved
but love is a word we throw around too easily. and love cannot just be uttered or just felt, (assuming tt the person knows it anyway) it needs to be proven with actions, not only when the person is looking.
im too much of a fucking romantic damnzz..
im thinking it must be pretty freaky to have someone love you too much hmm.
and im hoping this entry will be forgotten. just needed to get that off my chest. mooha
Friday, January 02, 2009
the story of the angsty man on the train
the story:
so we were let off work early today around 2pm. i left later then most cos i went to the washroom and everyone else cleared out like super fast lest the supervising teachers changed their mind i guess..
SO ANW, i was all alone and plugged in to my phone listening to some very loud music and waited for the train at the head carriage. the train came not long after and i walked towards 3 empty seats, then an old man with appeared in front of me and shoved me aside. taken aback and upon seeing that he was an old man with a cane, i moved back. and then all of a sudden he fell on his back on the train floor. i was like OMG and shut off the music on my phone, picked up his cane and newspaper and stared at him in shock. luckily he had his friend whom he instructed to carry him up, along with a presumably random stranger. at the same time, another guy had pressed the emergency button and informed the mrt personnel that a man had fainted. so i was like phew he's okay.
so i passed the old man his cane and newspaper and then he started yelling at me. he yelled at me, right in my face, in front of a full carriage. okay so anw he accused me of giving him a dirty look when he wanted the seat. he said that i had no compassion for a man with a stroke. he cursed me and hoped that i would get stroke in the future. he cursed my parents as well cos they didnt teach me anything. "i have a stroke okay and my friend has *quotes random disease*" "and you dont even say sorry" at this point i was very stunned and i just blinked at him. of course i got pretty pissed off when he started cursing me and my poor parents so my expression changed into a glare and i walked away and stood by the non-operating door side.
so by now i had went back to listening to my music cos clearly the guy was just real bitter bout his condition and nothing i said would've amounted to anything right? yes so by now 2 mrt personnel had appeared (i assume they entered from the next stop?) and were asking him if he was alright i guess. before that, there was also another man trying to calm him down or whatever, to which he said "dont defend her, dont defend the younger generation.. (and i turned the music up)". so anw when the mrt ppl came, i looked over to see if the guy had shut up but when i did, he pointed at me and said "her! tt's the girl. wears a tudung and prays five times a day but.. (so i turn away)" a bunch of ite girls were saying discussing rather loudly at this point, and in malay, that the man had no right to yell at me (i agree) and that they would've definitely yelled back. one of em looked at me sympathetically and told me not to bother bout the man.
it was the longest train ride i ever had to endure
-end of story-
so here are my takeaways from this very enriching experience.
1. that was extremely traumatising and when i got home (and embarrassingly enough, while walking home as well when i called na&nazri), i couldnt stop crying for a 40 mins or so. it's not everyday you get yelled at by a complete stranger and in front of so many ppl no less. also, it was mostly cos of all the pent up emotions during the train ride itself i guess. i mean at first i was seething inside cos this man just humiliated and insulted me for no reason and i couldnt say anything cos he's an old man (well not really old, early or mid 50s maybe?) and tt would be pretty rude(cos my parents thought me that, thank you very much) but after i got the angry bit, i was feeling quite sorry for myself and the man somewhat, and a thousand and one responses came to mind and i very much wanted to say "look, i know you're feeling bitter but that's no reason for you to lash out at me. if it's pity you want then im sorry for you"
whichh i know is a pretty awful thing to say so i just got off the train without a word. ahwell but no matter what, i cant lie and say that im completely over it cos i can still see his face in front of me when i close my eyes, ugh
2. im very proud of myself and how i handled the situation yayy. not saying anything makes me the bigger person (not cowardly!) and i guess others would expect me to leave the carriage or get off the train but no i didnt cos i did nothing wrong and i shouldnt leave as if i did. i mean im very sure i didnt give him a dirty look, shocked maybe but not dirty (like wtf?). but i guess my shocked look may, to a sensitive person, seem like a dirty look owells.. anw i dont think i apologized in the end cos i have my own dignity and i refuse to apologize for something i did not do. though mom scolded me for not saying sorry but i dont care, i did what i believed was right and i stuck to my principles yes. ah but mom also scolded me for crying and listening to music, which is very random and not very helpful but okay. oh but daddy said he was proud of me cos i was very strong (:
oh and i helped pick up the man's stuff and didnt just walk away so that means im an okay person.
3. the man was really very bitter. while staring at him as he yelled at my face, i tried to psychoanalyze this possible psycho. firstly, from his rather articulate and fluent use of english and i think he was reading an english newspaper, he must be an educated man. he's prolly just real bitter bout his condition (like a fallen man) and expects other ppl to sympathize with him (and the cruel treatment of the young ignorant generation towards him) (which btw is a horrible mentality, i mean, encouraging others' pity and all).. anw sis mentioned that he was prolly just embarrassed that he fell and thus lashed out on me cos i was the most convenient scapegoat. (quotes: i fell cos i very angry okay. that girl ah..) and on a lighter note, sis said i must've been like a rock, for him to fall after shoving me haha..
4. after showering and praying, i felt alot calmer and cleansed in a sense. i prayed to Allah to protect and shield me from such a disease (cos i believe that whatever we say is like a form of prayer and for him to have said it, even in anger or eventhough it's not right, i am still quite vulnerable in a sense) and to protect my parents as well. i forgive him, i truly do and i hope lashing out at me made him feel better somewhat cos god knows i'd feel awful too if i were in his position.. well eventhough i still wouldnt wanna apologize, i wouldnt mind saying thankyou cos i did learn a few things from this experience (after all, i did promise myself that i would live life to the fullest and gaining new experiences is essential to my growth as a person, including awful ones like this) and i hope he got something out of the experience as well, whatever tt may be.. =/
5. i feel mature heh
okay long enough entry, i'll blog about my 7 day malaysia roadtrip, and job and nazri's unsurprising surprise birthday party like tmr or something yupp
oh and Seven pounds is a beautiful beautiful show, everyone must watch okayy! (:
olivejuice// it's insane, this love i have for you. rawr
so we were let off work early today around 2pm. i left later then most cos i went to the washroom and everyone else cleared out like super fast lest the supervising teachers changed their mind i guess..
SO ANW, i was all alone and plugged in to my phone listening to some very loud music and waited for the train at the head carriage. the train came not long after and i walked towards 3 empty seats, then an old man with appeared in front of me and shoved me aside. taken aback and upon seeing that he was an old man with a cane, i moved back. and then all of a sudden he fell on his back on the train floor. i was like OMG and shut off the music on my phone, picked up his cane and newspaper and stared at him in shock. luckily he had his friend whom he instructed to carry him up, along with a presumably random stranger. at the same time, another guy had pressed the emergency button and informed the mrt personnel that a man had fainted. so i was like phew he's okay.
so i passed the old man his cane and newspaper and then he started yelling at me. he yelled at me, right in my face, in front of a full carriage. okay so anw he accused me of giving him a dirty look when he wanted the seat. he said that i had no compassion for a man with a stroke. he cursed me and hoped that i would get stroke in the future. he cursed my parents as well cos they didnt teach me anything. "i have a stroke okay and my friend has *quotes random disease*" "and you dont even say sorry" at this point i was very stunned and i just blinked at him. of course i got pretty pissed off when he started cursing me and my poor parents so my expression changed into a glare and i walked away and stood by the non-operating door side.
so by now i had went back to listening to my music cos clearly the guy was just real bitter bout his condition and nothing i said would've amounted to anything right? yes so by now 2 mrt personnel had appeared (i assume they entered from the next stop?) and were asking him if he was alright i guess. before that, there was also another man trying to calm him down or whatever, to which he said "dont defend her, dont defend the younger generation.. (and i turned the music up)". so anw when the mrt ppl came, i looked over to see if the guy had shut up but when i did, he pointed at me and said "her! tt's the girl. wears a tudung and prays five times a day but.. (so i turn away)" a bunch of ite girls were saying discussing rather loudly at this point, and in malay, that the man had no right to yell at me (i agree) and that they would've definitely yelled back. one of em looked at me sympathetically and told me not to bother bout the man.
it was the longest train ride i ever had to endure
-end of story-
so here are my takeaways from this very enriching experience.
1. that was extremely traumatising and when i got home (and embarrassingly enough, while walking home as well when i called na&nazri), i couldnt stop crying for a 40 mins or so. it's not everyday you get yelled at by a complete stranger and in front of so many ppl no less. also, it was mostly cos of all the pent up emotions during the train ride itself i guess. i mean at first i was seething inside cos this man just humiliated and insulted me for no reason and i couldnt say anything cos he's an old man (well not really old, early or mid 50s maybe?) and tt would be pretty rude(cos my parents thought me that, thank you very much) but after i got the angry bit, i was feeling quite sorry for myself and the man somewhat, and a thousand and one responses came to mind and i very much wanted to say "look, i know you're feeling bitter but that's no reason for you to lash out at me. if it's pity you want then im sorry for you"
whichh i know is a pretty awful thing to say so i just got off the train without a word. ahwell but no matter what, i cant lie and say that im completely over it cos i can still see his face in front of me when i close my eyes, ugh
2. im very proud of myself and how i handled the situation yayy. not saying anything makes me the bigger person (not cowardly!) and i guess others would expect me to leave the carriage or get off the train but no i didnt cos i did nothing wrong and i shouldnt leave as if i did. i mean im very sure i didnt give him a dirty look, shocked maybe but not dirty (like wtf?). but i guess my shocked look may, to a sensitive person, seem like a dirty look owells.. anw i dont think i apologized in the end cos i have my own dignity and i refuse to apologize for something i did not do. though mom scolded me for not saying sorry but i dont care, i did what i believed was right and i stuck to my principles yes. ah but mom also scolded me for crying and listening to music, which is very random and not very helpful but okay. oh but daddy said he was proud of me cos i was very strong (:
oh and i helped pick up the man's stuff and didnt just walk away so that means im an okay person.
3. the man was really very bitter. while staring at him as he yelled at my face, i tried to psychoanalyze this possible psycho. firstly, from his rather articulate and fluent use of english and i think he was reading an english newspaper, he must be an educated man. he's prolly just real bitter bout his condition (like a fallen man) and expects other ppl to sympathize with him (and the cruel treatment of the young ignorant generation towards him) (which btw is a horrible mentality, i mean, encouraging others' pity and all).. anw sis mentioned that he was prolly just embarrassed that he fell and thus lashed out on me cos i was the most convenient scapegoat. (quotes: i fell cos i very angry okay. that girl ah..) and on a lighter note, sis said i must've been like a rock, for him to fall after shoving me haha..
4. after showering and praying, i felt alot calmer and cleansed in a sense. i prayed to Allah to protect and shield me from such a disease (cos i believe that whatever we say is like a form of prayer and for him to have said it, even in anger or eventhough it's not right, i am still quite vulnerable in a sense) and to protect my parents as well. i forgive him, i truly do and i hope lashing out at me made him feel better somewhat cos god knows i'd feel awful too if i were in his position.. well eventhough i still wouldnt wanna apologize, i wouldnt mind saying thankyou cos i did learn a few things from this experience (after all, i did promise myself that i would live life to the fullest and gaining new experiences is essential to my growth as a person, including awful ones like this) and i hope he got something out of the experience as well, whatever tt may be.. =/
5. i feel mature heh
okay long enough entry, i'll blog about my 7 day malaysia roadtrip, and job and nazri's unsurprising surprise birthday party like tmr or something yupp
oh and Seven pounds is a beautiful beautiful show, everyone must watch okayy! (:
olivejuice// it's insane, this love i have for you. rawr
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