do you remember?

it was the 26th of March, 2005. the girl woke up early that morning for a group meeting at Vivien's house. she got lost, as was customary whenever she finds herself in the residential area of Bukit timah, but finally made it there soon enough. for the next few hours, they practised OM spontaneous questions. it wasnt all that productive but fun nonetheless. they then had lunch where viv's mommy bought the girl mee soto cos the food at home wasnt halal. O.o

it was raining when she left and she made her way to Buona vista mrt. He was late, which she soon learned was customary too. he had been working for his dad all morning and sneaked her a little something. she chose the No drugs ink pen over the bunch of highlighters..

they took the train to Somerset and walked the short distance to Cineleisure to check movie timings. upon discovering that there were no shows with suitable timings, they crossed over to Heeren, trudging through the crowd of girls swooning over a bunch of males performing on stage for a Cleo competition, to where her friend was queueing for a free makeover.

the girl then dragged the boy, half-willingly up the escalator to take neoprints. it was his first and it was theirs too. she then waved goodbye to her friend who was being caked on with makeup and they made their way out into the streets. they stopped by Old chang kee where they bought squidheads..

as they walked along Orchard road, they got free helium balloons. they walked some more and soon came across an adult shop. a bunch of lecherous-looking men were sitting across the shop, leering at people as they walked past. the mischevious two still held the satay sticks from their earlier consumption and thought that it would be fun to pop the balloons with their sticks and give the men a scare. and indeed it was. they walked on..

passing by Tangs, the two accepted a free cup of mineral water each from a random woman. after walking through the crowd for abit further, the boy suddenly claimed that the girl had blocked his way when he was about to get another cup of water from another woman.. -.-

they finally made it to Lido where they proceeded to stand in a long queue for tickets to The Eye 10. they listened to songs on his mp3 player while they waited, both not saying much cos there wasn't much to be said. it was strangely nice..

he offered her his jacket in the theater, which is huge and comfy and smelled of him. during one of the scenes, the girl got freaked when something scary appeared on the movie screen and promptly hid under the jacket. at the same time, he too ducked. (he was scared though he claims that it was only so that she wouldnt be embarrassed) they both stared at each other in the dark for a brief moment.

when the show ended, they walked over to the busstop to head on home. they found out that they were waiting for the same bus. the bus that came was quite full but soon after, two seats were available. she sat and asked him if he'd like to sit too. he sat, but as far away from her as he could, with his legs hanging off the seat into the aisle, and took out his geog homework to do. amused, she simply let him be. at Phoenix, he got off to catch another bus and they parted ways.
it was a sunday morning and she usually slept in. it was after her morning prayers when they started sms-ing back and forth. it was then that he popped the question. she was in shock. she deliberated her answer for abit and waited for her best friend to reply her urgent message. exhausted from all the excitement, she fell back into a deep slumber.

approximately 2hours later, where in that time, the boy had been tortured quite enough, she awoke and her answer to his question was yes.. hillary duff no longer rocked his world.. =)

Happy belated 34th, nw! 2 more months, yes? haha!

on a side note, training today was horrible. yet another deproved 2k timing.. how demoralizing..

aight i think i've wasted enough time, time to call it a night yup!

i love you//

circumstances

trg today was good.. hit another pb and jiaolian was happy.. im still blacklisted cos of my terrible attendance, but still, he has faith in me so im good.. not too sure what's gonna happen to the rest of teammates and it's really ugh.. we gotta do this together manz. we row as one.

right so econs test was.. do-able. i wonder why hmmm

oh yes napfa trials on monday. sbj was good but ipulls was horrid! super unfair la wth.. and 2.4 was pretty bad.. 13.02.. it's been awhile since i ran slower than 12 plus so.. =/ sucks.

other than tt, sch's been pretty fun.. quite mugger ah this week.. goodgood..

okay that's all i guess.

olivejuice//

time of your life

you know, when time seems to pass way too fast for you to think about your actions or anything else. when your very actions seem to have been decided by someone else. my life is spinning out of my control and im too bloody tired to take charge. dammit as if i even had the power to do anything about it. okay more like willpower ah but nvm.

i train my ass off. i know what i want, i want the gold. but it's consuming my life so much, i dont seem to have time to do anything else. i hardly have time for my friends. or they dont have the time for me, come to that.

my studies? god my grades are just dying and i know im the one to be bloody blamed but wth am i doing now? blogging! -shakes head.

studies aside, what really bothers me is my messed up non-academic life. (not that my academics arent messed up la but ohwells)

sometimes you just think tt you've really messed up with the ppl around you. you've missed out on so much. then you think, it's okay you dont need them anyway. so you turn to that one person but you know you cant truly depend on just one person cos Man just isnt made like that. and after all, isnt it always 'bros before hos'?, to quote tt dude from Transformers, though perhaps it's not quite as suitable in this context. right anw, point is, friends are important, but what if you're just not important to them anymore? what if you feel left behind cos You've chosen to be left behind. and now perhaps it's just too late.

and as always, awesome timing to think about my emotional baggage what with looming As and all. time of my life? totally manz.

have i mentioned that i hate my writing skills? quite obviously i have reason to, no? haha wth. bloody school makes me feel so stupid. and everyone else in it too.

idealist

when your expectations of yourself and others reach the point of impracticality, you just have to learn not to care.

works well enough.

happy

yst was a very very nice day.. training in the morning was awesome. was kinda dreading trg since i hadnt gone for 3 trgs this week and was pretty much off form. but hoho i finally hit another pb since dec and it really was a superduper great feeling esp considering tt i capped before i could finish 2k timing last week. so YAY!

yup then walked back to sch with jr and bern, since the back gate is no longer climb-able due to the new shelter and fence.. -.- so yeah then i crashed Mcs orientation for a short while cos they had leftover food, then went for shower. then walked to faraway busstop to take bus to adam rd to meet nw. quality time ftw! =)

going out with mom no woo.. so much for mugging manz.

olivejuice//

placebo effect

i think my throat is getting better.. =/

very screwed up week thanks to my swollen throat.. fever on sunday and subsequent random attacks of headaches tt i may have taken advantage of and have since then done little studying. didnt go for the past three trgs this week too. took a blue slip yst and parents fetched me after civics on their way to the market. class comm reelections yst.. quite some changes but some of us stayed on.. fungs and i are still co-ct reps ooh.. so exciting. i should be doing ihist now..

browsed thru the startutor site tt lakshmi suggested and i might be getting an econs and/or physics tutor.. see how ah, gotta ask dad first..

water trg tmr, i should be able to go. i feel awfully guilty manz but im sick. yar.. =/

right ihist ftw.

wise words

i just read bim's blog and i just had to quote something that muddy said sometime back,

"In school we show them what a canoeist means. At macritchie we show them what a rafflesian means." =)

love you guys!

m18 ftw!

still aching from thursday's trg wtg.. so anw trg yst was quite fun.. concentrated more on my strokes cos it's allegedly the cause of my backaches. i think it's true ah so mehs. anws, yangyang came back to help out and watch our strokes and all tt.. very very helpful yay! oh and 2k timing was just horrible! i thought was making pretty good time despite the bloody wind and just as i passed the 500m mark back, and was tilting to fix my direction, Splosh! i was in the water. wth i capped! wtg! damn damn damn damn annoying! and i got saved by a cj k1 and rowed back with more than half my boat in the water. boos. but 200m bursts was good.. =)

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ROS FARINA BTE R. FAUZI! sorry i couldnt join you guys for dinner but whee surprise present tmr, yes? =D

okay done updating my player. no longer hafta forward songs hoho! meh i need a new player.. =/

aights back to maths!

dieded

gym trg today was gg. well gym was alright actually but the sets before gym was hell. my quads are so freaking dead gar.

sch was okay. productive enough i guess.. lessons are kicking into full gear and gosh gotta gotta gotta mug. one of my resolutions for 2008 was to mug at least 2hrs a day on top of damn tiring trg but it hasnt really worked out yet.. like yst, i mugged for about 10mins before i knocked out. -.- wtg! must must mug!

i got round to using the money jar system and i've finally managed to get enough change for every pouch. yay to financial planning!

so anw, the holiday to malaysia was fun enough.. 2 days in Malacca and 2 days in Cameron highlands.. i didnt know tt we were gonna stay in malacca until we got there.. =/ yay to surprises! and also, we intended only to stay in cameron highlands for a day but dad realized tt a day there after a 1.5 hrs drive wasnt worth it so yeah tt's why i got back in spore only at 9.30pm the night before sch started.. mehs.

anws, Happy 2008 everyone! cameron highlands super tak happening sia. no countdown no nothing.. ended up watching xmen marathon to sleep.. =/

new year resolutions!
1. lose weight/eat less (we took height&weight for pe today. i shrunk 1cm and my weight is.. yar)
2. mug at least 2hrs a day (as mentioned)
3. dont sleep in tutorials/lectures (i almost fell asleep while rowing yst tho. strange!)
4. put in my all for every training plus dont kill my back
5. do 6 pullups by feb! (btw muddy says tt if i can do a pullup, i should be able to do lat pull-downs of double my weight.. nyeh)
6. do not be distracted by um, outside commitments..

i cant rmb the rest! i wrote somewhere in my diary i think.. owells.

time to mug~!

you know what..

heart-stopping action ftw.. haha!

so i had brunch with nw at anatolia today, his treat. and i realized tt random occassional treats actually make you enjoy them more.. plus i'd hafta admit tt it was a wise move tt i pay for my own stuffs, esp considering my daily food intake and all.. lols.

yup then met sis at 3plus to catch National treasure at ps at 4.05.. exciting show yay! so basically today was a very nice day uhuh..

i'll be away from tmr and will be back by the 31st.. vacation to malaysia, cameron highlands etc.. hope dad decides to stop by kl so'd i can take advantage of the year-end sale there yup..

kay guess tt's all..

who'd have guessed we'd make it till now? happy 33rd, love.. =)

confuzzled

wonderful. i wrote a 2paragraph long entry bout my outing wth the dudes, ie FariNa and melz, but blogger, despite it's auto saving shitz, still lost it all. wth really.

so now i will write a short bit bout the outing so may the dudes/liyana forgive me.

rights so we went out on sat where i finally claimed my swensens treat from na. na was, for the first time, the earliest, but apparently farin came even earlier but went to pray at al-falah first.. O.o anws, i already had mom-made spaghetti at home so i only had a choco malt ice cream and shared fries with melz. happy food yay! yar then we wanted to watch Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium (which really is a lovely show) and since i watched it already, they offered to split the cost of my ticket. awww.. but the queue was long so we decided to.. *drumrolls* pool instead! at le meridien.. shady wahahs! melz was dressed rather skankily so she borrowed my windbreaker to make up for the lack of cloth.. signboard jacket ftw lol! pooled for an hour then na had to leave and we walked to ps where we spent a short while finding melz' dad a xmas prezze but spent a long long long time at a bimb accessories shop where melz spent a fortune.. yar.. =/

the past few days havent been tt eventful tho.. on sunday morning, i went to the park with dad and sisters and i ran approx 4k with dad. then we went to a wedding till late aftn. yst i didnt follow mom out, save for brunch with younger sis, and spent time at home ironing clothes, packing my bag for hols and played Sims castaway on sis' psp. -.- today, i did some weights training cos i realized tt i was flabbing up ultra fast. then i psp-ed. then did weights again. and watched tv.

for most of the eoy hols, i had trainings. caught up with friends. did a whole lot of random rubbish and basically was out most of the time. and yet when im at home, i still dont do any mugging. honestly, i dont know what's to become of me. damn As..

dancing xmas tree

christmas is all around me, and so the feeling grows~

lol at least tt's what i think the song's like.. =/ xmas party at bern's today was alright.. i left early at 6.30 before the party actually really started so poots la.. the gifts under the tree were really very pretty! i didnt do gift exchange but i gave my buddy, ie jr the gift tt i bought haha! she gave me a nike bottle yay! the girls exco gave us stockings stuffed full with sweets and chocs whee! and jerome actually bought xmas hats and personalized it with our names wahh so damn nice! =D

i only ate chocs there so i stuffed myself when i got home haha! we watched Love actually there yay! such a sweet sweet sweet show..

anws, was looking thru the big box of ncc prezzes and cards tt i collected over the four years.. they were dusty and made my eyes teary and i kept sneezing like some diseased cow.. in any case, gah the memories! i miss the company! and my babies ahh i miss my little partas.. boos. we might be crashing one trg next yr.. hope we manage to do tt.. mon and wed are both canoeing trgs so.. urgh hope we can free up at least one day.. i miss ncc so much ack.

ob outing on wed was cancelled.. was gonna go to meera's house for the baking thing but i got lazy cos her hse is all the way in kembangan.. =/ met up with nw instead for 1.5 hrs.. hari raya haji yst was basically spent at aunts place where we ate alot. yup and sisters and cousins and i went to gv at yishun to watch Alvin and the chipmunks lol! very very typical storyline but the animation's really really cute la owells.. theodore awww..

okay tt's all for today, im getting sleepy boos. going out with FariNa and melz tmr.. finally haha! =)

olivejuice//

eightasone always

pltn outing at priya's house was awesomee! hahaha i came first at ard 1.50pm and pltnmates slowly came one by one afterwards.. full pltn finally! jy just came back from uk only this morning poor thing.. we watched Hitched and the Simpsons, pigged out and ordered canadian pizza for dinner.. i had 5 slices yay! =D

then we crashed py's room for xmas exchange.. yz gave me a fluffy blue towel haha! i gave sn a Digipet lawl.. yupyup then we took pictures on the webcam on py's laptop haha! it was almost exactly like squeezing into a neoprint booth back in our cadet years cept tt it was a tad bit less frantic hoho! yup we took videos too! i took up half of the screen each time, which wasn't much of a surprise to pltnmates lol.. anw anw we did a music video of our pltn song.. "where the fields are green, i'll see you once again, my loveee", and we also sang the first ever pltn song parta ncos thought us, which was "Nothing's gonna stop us" and we also sang "Right here waiting" yup! but py just told me tt someone closed the programme without saving so meh we lost everything.. =/ owells another reason for us to get together again yay! haha!

LOVELOVE PLTNMATES! =)

anw, appointment at Alexandra hospital was Meh. i asked for a referral to a sports doc but i couldnt make it for the initial slot which was during canoe overseas trip, so i got postponed to today, but he wasnt a sports doctor and i duno it was just the same as the polyclinic cept tt it costed a whole lot more.. took an xray tho which was quite funny.. hospital gowns are so ugh and unglam and they make you take off your bra.. =// ack.

anw i hafta go back there in feb to make sure nothing's wrong.. cos it's apparently only muscle ache which should be normal for sports ppl.. like it's so trivial like tt.. kinda pissed me off i guess cos it really hurts like shit sometimes and i freaking know what normal muscle ache is la.. but whatever la.. i insisted to go to a sports clinic for feb.. either way, even if it's nothing, the doctor might actually tell me what i did wrong or like how i can make sure i can avoid having it happen to me again.. whatever la wasted time and money there only..

Hady's Asian idol.. =/ so strange. i thought jaclyn victor was most deserving cos her vocals really is awesome.. sis youtubed one of the performances tt channel 5 didnt show.. Abhijeet and Hady sang Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and it was super super adorable ahh.. ><

OKAY tired. ob outing to ecp park to cycle on wed.. so exciting! prolly gonna be only 4 of us again.. and i'd be the only girl around lol..

olivejuice//

poser ge~!

the weather after the rain's really pretty..


lols.. i love macritchie! =D

lol reunion

haha yeah met up with some of the ob dudes today.. today sposedly only 4 of could make it. jeriel maggi nichola and me. then nichola had stuff on and could only join us later. then maggi decided to bail out on us again. then it was just jeriel and me. then nichola decided to bail out on us too. then somehow sara and weiliang could make it. so there were 4 of us in the end. and we pooled. it was very fun.

haha! might have another outing on tues/wed but sara cant make it boos..

went out for brunch with family and aunt today. the guy at the drinks stall was hitting on me and it was scary. went boonlay awhile where mom bought me jeans and a dress thing. haha!

the weather today is anxious with a tinge of melancholy

lol

olivejuice//

how now brown cow?

row today was great.. arms are aching like mad, but i must say tt i feel good anws. meera and i really pushed ourselves for our 18k and eventho we were the only two t1s suffering in the stupid bathtubs, we did fairly well. meera is damn good to pace manz. the sky was magnificient. huge fluffy cumulonimbus(sp? haha!) clouds were just awesomely pretty..

back hurts. ohyeah and meera and i were getting quite hysterical during our last 4k,laughing and grunting in turn, cos we were really damn shagged. partly the reason on my part i guess..

i wish i'd just grow up. stop all this moodswinging. think before i talk.

i wish i'd just make up my mind about how i feel. sometimes i feel that i am right but i actually voice out my opinions, i realize that "oh dear" maybe my views really are flawed. funny how varying viewpoints tend to be oh so clear only when it's too late. and i figured tt i've been so consumed by my own needs/wants tt i dont see the sacrifices tt have been made for me. and of course, realizing this now, i'll soon forget and be all self-centred again. ugh. might be too late to realize this huh. you're so stupid, syimah.

i love you

blow

just saw some of the snrs' vids on youtube.. i hadnt realized just how much im gonna miss them.. esp the t1 j2 girls, ie yangyang joohui and jolene.. having been in the snr team has been a great honour, being able to row with very inspiring snrs who've taught me to give my all and row with heart.

missing them already manz. i hardly know how much more i need to give for every row..

gym today was relatively gg i guess.. but getting quite used to it cos im not really aching now.. back kinda hurts tho and my right tricep completely died on me during one of the sets for some strange reason or another..

lately trgs have been fuelled by thoughts of blowing the other boats out of the water.. reaching the last buoy with heart pumping and knowing tt i've left the other boats behind. but i have to admit tt sometimes the future scares me. as in here we are, during trgs, feeling gg after not-so-hellish sets, and we'll be competing against schools like nj who train like mad. how are we sposed to compete with that? very very scary.. but i guess fearing my competitors is alright just as long as this fear is able to empower me to train harder, row faster.

someday i might just taste victory.. =)

limits

you know sometimes, when you love someone, you just want to spend every moment with them. but sometimes perhaps, we should know when to stay away. sometimes i wonder if i'd drive nw away, being so clingy like that.

but then, looking back, i wonder if i didnt have him, i would've spent more time with my friends. i wouldnt have missed out on the many things tt i have. feeling quite disconnected sometimes. unwanted.

then it just sucks when you think of all the stuffs you've sacrificed. whether it's even worth it.

and also, every girl in a relationship would probably wonder if they can do better. get someone who'd appreciate them more. or is this really The one. till death do us part. cant help but wonder huh?

i know the problem is essentially me. all my idealistic thoughts about what a perfect relationship should be. Of course he has his own life to live. Of course he cant devote all his time to me. neither will any other guy really. so the sooner im able to live with that fact, the better.

grow up, syimah.

i should be sleeping now

bad day

firstly, i capped in my t1 near the pontoon soon after i set off for my first k. i duno wth happened but it was embarrassing and i felt woozy after tt.. py's getting faster and i got her to make sure she was never more than a buoy away. the only problem was tt i was damn stressed having to make sure i kept up my frequency.. oh wait. tt's actually a good thing, yes? owells..

2k timing. deproved by 13secs. jkahdbf87t3v qjksanjkgfq[ietkwel. =( something disgustingly UGH happened tho during 2k timing and it was veryvery distracting. but of course, no excuses. wed, sub 12? row row row!

it's almost becoming an obsession. awesome.. but bad days like today make me feel so awful and weak and loser-ish. bother..

and back's hurting again..

sometimes i wish i could use the same drive tt i have when canoeing, in my studies.. i cant afford to screw up next year manz..

something strange/amusing/disturbing happened today.. cheryl and i were in the toilet then suddenly some old man came out of the cubicle and he'd been smoking.. im not too sure if he knew tt he was in the wrong toilet.. =/

ohwells. tired..

some things to look forward to:
ob sabah kondiu reunion!: this friday
pltnmates gathering at py's!: monday
sports doc appt: monday

=/


olivejuice//

baby steps

trg yst.. improved 2k timing yes! 12.22

ria remix poots

anw J2 farewell yst was funn.. there wasnt much food tho but okay la i think just about everyone got fed.. at first it was like some gambling den cos the guys were playing card games.. the j2 guys came and played also.. the j1 girls not writing the notes were made to mingle so we played Snap and Heartattack. i finally wasnt the slowest! liangjie and ge tied for most blur hoho! then the rest of the girls went up to write the notes, then we ate, then we blowed bubbles with the bubble gum tt ge got from hongkong, then we played tug-o-war.. over the pool yayy!

the rope was quite painful.. =/ i was in group 4 and i was the only girl nyeh! noone really fell in during the game but afterwards everyone just kept dunking each other.. 6 j1 girls stayed dry including me haha! tho i should've jumped in cos it looked fun but i didnt bring extra clothes bah..

then we did the candle on floating boats thing.. it was really pretty.. haha then the names on the boats started catching fire and the chingx water buffalo waded ard.. very anti-climatic but still very entertaining la.. haha! then they gave out prezzes and i hadta go poots..

got home at 10.30 and i knocked out at 11 with a horrid headache..

went to the park this morning with dad and sisters to play basketball.. i've lost my touch.. =(

did some physics so i guess my day isnt totally wasted..

kay water trg tmr so i better rest up.. gotta cut down summore on my 2k timing.. every improvement counts and i'll finally reach my ultimate goal.. baby steps yup..

olivejuice//