wandering

so.. im not too sure what happened to my week actually.. i've kinda been in like a daze.. lesson after lesson.. mug abit here and there(and yet nothing substantial).. bitching a hell lot(i shall blame lakshmi for this lol..) and yeah pretty much pmsing still.

my period is late and its making me teh pissedd. gar

i've been finding lotsa ppl damn annoying lately. i cant tell if they're just suddenly way worse or tt my senses have been heightened from hormone influx or from all the bitching.. =/ ack tsk.

oh i love thursdays btw. i think i like lectures.. oh okay well more of econs(mrneo ftw! ooh and themed ppts are Love!) and ihist.. the rest are either boring or pointless(kingkung indeed).

what's with all the brackets.. (meh)

in any case, i love thursdays esp for pe. haha the girls are an amazing bunch.. eventho i dont
spend much time with them.. well basically they're awesome lah. we played pepsi cola at the track and it was Sho cute. haha! fiona was being damn on with her two-steps. jean&pris were allies. xinge was just haha. longqing was confused. sharyn was changing. lindalakshmina and i were moving round the circumference basically.. lol. floorball was O.o and sharyn got her hand "bitten by a spider". tmr we will see her crawl up the walls. wooh.

anw urgh. damn sianed. what i've learnt over the week. effort =/= results. well not for me at least. it's just Urgh. i think im a pretty motivated person. but when stuffs like this happen. it's just really demoralizing. and damn my writing skills. or lackofit. some ppl are gifted with great literary skills which justsohappens to be super useful in the sorta stuff we do. and yet they cant be satisfied whyy..

i'd like to do real well for promos just to prove that im worthy of my place here. but the thing is, i dont. and i wont.


damn fucked up la.

thirteen

i am sleeeeey. am currently sposed to be at sea hist lecture. uh well i read my philippines notes redi and kung reads off the noes anw so..
"youre clearing your conscience issit?" -liyana.

anw. Thirteen! am currently obsessed with numerology like Ne Win in Burma who demonetised burman money someth someth. silly military men.. okay so anw anw, me and cheryl's relay duathlon no. was 13. my hist essay was 2313 words long. i finished it approx 3.13am yst/today. and guess what? it's 13th august today. and just as i was mentioning it again to na today, the class clock showed 8.13 am. woos haha!

anw. relay duathlon wasn't too bad la.. 16 pairs in total i think. me and cheryl came in either 8th or 9th. the logs was pretty screwy. getting our t2 was kinda meh cos everyone was just grabbing and stuffs and i saw cheryl nearing with py and i was like ahhh. anw, 4k row not too bad la. directioning was maddening but i think we rowed well.. haha so when we got to the pontoon, it was my turn to run 4k. omg crazy. crazy crazy. and it was under the noon sun. but the amazing thing was, I finished my race. i did 4k woohoos! okay not that much but mehh my left leg hurts. as in the chord connecting my calf to my thigh feels taut. =/ okay im not a bio student but yeah. painn.. =( yup and our total timing's - 1:38:18. lol i thought it'd be 3 hours..

anw. haha i feel good. i've been pretty pissy and temperamentalfor sometime now. but after we talked on sat.. im in love again.. haha!

ohyeah and moodswings. damn pms la! urghs.

water trg on wed! i miss macritchie! i miss my t1! ahhh gonna be finally reunited soon. cant wait. =D

olivejuice//

thnks fr th mmrs

ugh.

how'd we come to this?

dammit.

try not to think about it

sch today was awesome. yup went back to rg and crashed natl day parade.. ahhh events like this make me miss rg so damn bad bahh.. the performances were as always in superbly unique rg style.. so retarded i like! =) the girls were embarassing themselves like anyth and didnt give a care in the world! you'd hardly find tt in rj urgh.. [boys suck]

anw. yupp i Love my partas! ahh they're growing up so fastt.. part cs next yr meh mehs! but bah yeah from 20 to 15.. sad but.. -shrugs.. in any case, to me, i'll always have 20 partas to love.. whee!

haha and i Love my pltnmates~! altho the buggering buggers didnt turn up, kay py was sick, and ge was on the way since 8.30 but turned up only at like 3.30? yz's overseas and yh was late. but essentially spent time in rg with jy sn and zr yay! jy's got long hair and her pretty-ness shines! =D

shall upload pictures soon..

HAHA The simpsons = awesomely retarded non-family fun! i saw bart's penis!! (does that count as a spoiler? O.o)

okay anw. im depressed. or it's pms la.. but still good god im so depressed i hate it i hate it. i feel so stupidd and i duno if i'd even promote this yr. im turning too man and im too ugly to even compensate for my lack of femininity. pfft. i feel damn loner sometimes cos i feel forced to talk or make my presence felt.

but none of these depressing truths beat the all time depressing issue. sigh nvm. remedy: just try not to think about it.

sometimes i wonder why i bother

horneh

woo i wanted to tell nana some stuffs cos she was high and was in the kind of mood where you cant really freak her out too much but pw made her high diminish...

liy☠na. facestripped (when's it my turn, wouldn't i love, love to explore that shore up above) says:
even if i were high
liy☠na. facestripped (when's it my turn, wouldn't i love, love to explore that shore up above) says:
i dont wanna know about your horniness -nods

-shrugs.

firstly, i think wolverine-ish hands are damn hot. as in, the hair at the lower part of the back of your fingers. so beastly and man whee! taufiq has em but his arent hot cos he's too pale. =/ ahh no offense brudder im sure some poor deranged woman would think youre hot -nods nods!

secondly, official names! ahhh. okay this was spawned by pw but haha Mr. Nazri Eddy Razali is damn sexy. hahahahaha..

thirdly, um. okay i havent given this much thought yet. hmm. gee what else do i think is hot ah?

okay i'll get back to this soon enough.

in any case, hahaha fungshing and every other guy who's intimidated by my arms are wuss(es?)! chauvinistic males tsk. everyone ought to be ready for the rise of the New Urban Females whee! nuf' said haha! (zomg i think im so smart lawl!) =D

ohmygoodness i get high from pw!! hahaha! my pw group is damn amusing lol.. eventho it's damn messed up, at least we can look at our predicament and laugh. (see haha dont need to wait a few yrs to think back fondly and laugh!) wheee screwed! =)

ohh 7weeks to promos whahahs! die die dieee!

back hurts again boos.
kay i shall sleep. whee!

olivejuice//

random past

lol found an old blog entry of melz which really cracks me up.
setting: orchard mrt underpass area. - we were approached to donate to some cause..

guy 1: _gs? the people from your school have helped us alot today!!
me: nonono, we're from scgs!!!
guy 2: ooh is it the st. andrews...-trails off-
me: yea, that's it =D
guy 1: okay anyway we're not selling you anything...
syimah: yes you are!
guy 1: ...these prostitutes blahblahblah, surely beautiful people like ya'll wouldn't mind helping them?
syimah: somethingsomething... indonesia!!!!
guy 1: -points to liyana- ooh, she's from indonesia?
syimah and i: -look at each other strangely and start nodding slowly- yea, exactly!!
guy 1: -says something in indonesian-
liyana: -thinks for a long long time then replies-
guy 1: woah must think so long one. -takes out chinese article on prostitutes and asks syimah- who can read chinese here, are you chinese???? -then turns to me-
me: -goes blind from the slew of chinese characters- i'm not chinese!!! i'm from -tries frantically to think of a country that has lots of non chinese-speaking but chinese-looking people, but can't remember how to say thailand or vietnam-, err, the philippines!!
guy 1: umm okay. so where is she from? -points at syimah
syimah: thailand!
liyana: no, you're from malaysia, remember?
syimah: ohyea, i'm from malaysia
guy 1: so... jakarta -points to liyana-, malaysia -points to syim-, and... manila? -points to me
me: -blank look-. nooooooo i told you i'm from the philippines, NOT manila!
guy 1: err. manila is in the philippines.
me: oh. right, i knew that. i'm from manila!!!
guy 1: so could you all donate to help these poor girls go home? you look like a rich girl -points to me-. you have "rich" written all over your face. (and he was wearing a diamond stud -.-)
me: -self consciously rubs face-(we end up buying a five buck sticker)
guy 1: should i give it to jakarta, manila, or malaysia?
syim: malaysia!
guy 2: -comes back from somewhere else- you mean they're all from different countries?!?!
us: -nod vigorously-

LAWL! okay maybe it would've been funny if you were there. memories memories haha.. =)

i love you//

burst till the end

wooh. did ihc 1.5k today.. CANOE RAMPAGE! =// lol prav cheryl ge and i ran in the same event.. in any case, ge and i paced most of the way.. cheryl too at first.. i feel bad for not keeping pace with her thruout.. considering tt she rushed over for ihc from maths rem(which i went late for meh).. yar so there were about 15 of us with 3 from each house.. right so hh and bb owned.. shared top four-2 hh 2 bb.. ge and i made sure we kept pace and didnt rush.. so yeah slowly overtook a bunch of ppl.. and then finally sprinted the last 100m.. i duno whether i finished 5,6 or 7.. haha i overtook shuninnyy but she ge and i came in like consecutively.. pltnmates ftw! i like sprinting yupp.. anww, pravv! dont worry kay! we're all like degening but i think you did great anw! you finished the race like a true canoeist.. Love you! =)

ohh and i just saw the dragonboat photos.. and a picture with my arms not exactly flexed but still really scary. daymn when and how'd it get so bigg? im a freak. -sighs.

okay sleepy.

olivejuice//

pathetic

saw mr go bout my grades today.. i wouldnt say that it was a wakeup call, considering that the cts was a flashingg reminder that Hey you better buck up really really soon.. but anws, yeah he said that if i screw up promos, i might get kicked off the team..

it's just that, you know, the whole team's been working their asses off every trg, every drop of our sweat goes into the dream of acheiving team gold.. it seems damn faraway now and super unlikely with nj around but yeah dreaming never hurt anyone so why stop?

but my point is, if i can no longer be part of this team that i love, then well =(

currently i've got DEUUU(gphistphysmathecons)(apparently my econs got pushed to an S somehow but still..) and my goal for promos is CCEDD. it's pathetic, i know. but practical? yes. i know we're sposed to aim high, but ugh i gotta be realistic so yeah.. here goes nothing.

on a lighter note, i finally did 4 pullups again yay! almost 5 actually so woohs!
olivejuice//

bring it on

wooh i ponned sch yst. cos my back hurt damn bad again boos! well actually it wasnt thattt bad. but it hurt when i moved la. so yeah. and like the last time i got it checked out (which was the day before nats. -sad), the doctor gave me two days mc. so by my decree, i gave myself one day's mc. -nods..

ooh right so i just rmbed something that happened on sunday. well actually nothing much, but basically i was going around whacking ppl with their balloons annen priya locked her arm round my neck (i think there should be a name for that ryt? O.o) and yeah i was struggling struggling and kicking her butt and carried her and stuffs and WOOH it was damn fun!

i've always wanted a good tussle/fight/brawl/scuffle? haha! okay i used to do it with my guy cousins (until they decided that i was turning into a woman and they started to ostracize me). guys in general just wont hit you back. i wouldnt want them to hit me either ah cos they're just made stronger(and i spose even taufiq can hurt me). my sisters are too small to give me a good fight. and not many girls wanna fight me either. so basically, HAHA i've found my equal. priyaaa! bring it on woo!
"that's so fightclub..."-liyana.

wokay nana wants food. whee! econs remedial and econs make-up later. bwee.. ugh.

olivejuice// =)

awesome

HAHA today was yes -awesome. my first medal in rj lol.. albeit it being a dragonboating comp, but still.. =) well honestly, i didnt even think tt we could get thru to finals, considering how completely noob we were at this sport.. but HEH. dragonfly got 3rd and dragonball got 4th.. yup but dragonball beat us in their heats by 5secs seh.. in any case, Raffles Row for the win!! haha! yar and nj got first. totally pwned all other boats la.. big surprise woohoo..

well actually the admin was damn screwed up and our race got brought forward by like 2hrs cos it was gonna rain.. -.- well honestly! tsk.. but owells it was a good race and we hit our pb so woots! DRAGONFLY, you guys rock. =D



yupp and and nazzer saw our race yay! haha he sent me to raffles place and went off to plop off and mug awhile before my race.. so he left and i joined the rest. then shortly after, we got called to report (got scolded too -.-) and woah woah mad rush. yupp but wooh really means alot to me tt nazzer got to see my race.. yay!


ohh and just as we were launching for finals, i got my left fingers squeezed between two boats gah! painn and it was like purple. ! yeah i was scared i'd do a deb, ie break/splinter my bone and cant row(sad! but deb came to support us yay yay love!) in any case, i was rowing on the right so i just gripped the pedal and woosh! so yeah now it only hurts when i press the slight swelling on my fingers.. =//

okay now tt's over with, MEH my Both my Younger sisters are gonna sign up for guitar lessons! I want guitar lessons! i've bought a guitar since sec1(after collecting our ncc uniforms i clearly rmb) and it's been useless to me ever since! and Now my younger sisters will totally pwn me in this field that im utterly noob at! my pride ahh my pride.. =(

yar so i picked up my dusty rusty guitar and started strumming strumming.. well.. i guess i just gotta straighten out my priorities first.. guitar later la.. cept tt maybe i could get a few lessons from taufiq.. =/ in any case, I NEED TO GET GOOD GRADES! yeah. sigh..

olivejuice// thanks, love..

just keep rolling till you hit the wall

today was an amazing day.

lol well not really.. gp was the usual(and jsingh seriously seriously picks on me/na/lakshmi like alot i tell you! -pouts and stamps foot!) anw physics spa was interestingg.. haha it went smoothly i spose.. then econs was fine..

then i finally got my swensens birthday treat from the girls! haha thanks much much muchly Jean Pris Zerui Longqing! you guys are so sweet ahhh.. =) anw zr and lq were sick today so i only had jean and pris as lunchtime buddies and it really was very entertaining.. in any case, How can the girls in 5A be so awesomely nice, sweet and smart?? minus me of course but yeah! <3 08S05A! =)

yupp and dragonboating comp's this sunday. woo! we're not exactly in the best shape but haha we're gonna pwnz mann or at least hurt real bad trying! basic trend: saturdays = DragonBall days & wednesdays = DragonFly days.. Conclusion: Sunday = OUR day. haha yay! uh currently, our confirmed positions is quitee screwed.. ugh sad. i love dragonboating still. ADDICTIVE GLIDE! i love the adrenaline.. Let's get the glide DragonFly! lovelove! =D

Owells.
anw, not forgetting- happy 28th, love.. <3 you.

olivejuice//

screwed up assholes

pw sucks. and so do my groupmates. am pissed pissed pissed.

okay better now.

taa's here. -.-

olivejuice//

big shoes to fill

it's been awhile since any of us last rowed.. some of the schools started training again.. boos i wanna row.. and i need to train! im like eating as much, if not more, as what i ate when we trained regularly.. so like yeah im gonna flab up like crazy if i dont do someth bout it soon..

econs remedial in 15mins woops. econs lecture test tmr.. need to study ugh..
might be collecting my madjack treat from farin after dboat video screening..

na's going thru a rough patch now and there's not much i can do bout it.. ugh so horrid..

GAH NEED TO RUN OFF FOR ECONS COS I FORGOT TO COLLECT MY NOTES

-.- bother.

olivejuice//and i'll wait.. =)

ugh i sound super bim. -sad

get the glide

power to the paddle woo! dragonboating is Awesome. t12/14 lawls.. DragonFly is a fun boat! and we're quite syncro la.. and one time during our startbursts, i felt the glide. it's like this high that we kept trying to get again. but we didnt. daymn, as na would said. so lol. I want that glide!! but i cant go for dboat trg tmr cos dad's forcing me to go for ptm! boos.

doing new stuff's fun.. like canoe polo! girls we need to canoepolo againn! i miss it bah. and yar dragonboating.. haha and visiting friends' homes..

crashed cheryl's hse before post-nats dinner.. lawl interesting outing much. i borrowed her skirt and sandals.. skirt only cos we had to.. guys wore shirt and jeans.. what kinda deal is that seh! equality meh? and pfft next year, we eat at somewhere halal kay! the only thing i ate at newyorknewyork was the apple flavoured candyfloss.. =(

in any case, i wanted to write an emo entry actually.. cos everyone's like emo and i felt leftout.. lawl.. so here goes;

i hate maths. im so useless at it. and econs and physics. like wth i feel so stupid stupid stupidd.
and sea hist. it's so annnoyingly boring.
some people are so frustatingly dense! boos..

meh being emo is tough when youre not.. like currently.. yeah..

im 10bucks richer cos i tutored nisah maths early tonight.. haha!

ohyeah i was emo also cos im worried tt i wont be able to row for dboat cos i'll be ponning trg tmr for ptm.. and esp after the back incident--> didnt row for nats.. well let's just say i really wanna dboat..

OMG and yarrr. confession: i ate at lj today. i duno why i did seh.. but yar i did. and guess who came passing by? mr go. like omg. 0f all ppl, the canoe teacher ic sees me eating forbidden food.. -dies.

i feel so bim lately. haha!

kay done.

i dont feel very happy now. why ah? oh..

okay nvm

distraction

well these past few days have been in a word- lousy.

okay for a lack of better words pfft. lousy trainings(ache ache ache!). lousy grades(DEUUU). lousy uh relations.. lousy moods.

it's so horrid being so unmotivated.

and meh i promised to work hard for nats '08 but we did some killer sets for dboat trg yst and i wanted to bleah out. but NO CANNOTTT. -.-

and i chose a bad bad bad distraction.

and my back's hurting again.

and basically today's ultimately lousy cos i allowed everyth tt's been bothering me lately to weigh me down. on an ultra long tuesday of all days meh..

-sad.

dboat trg tmr at SDBA. yup.. oh i forgot to mention. i like dragonboating.. haha! but i really do miss my t1. haven't rowed in ages and im degening as it is. -sad.

god im so unmotivated.

-sad sad sad.

i miss nw

olivejuice//

noone said you cant marry your stalker

lawl priya..

obsessed obsessed obsessed i am.



Bad.

olivejuice//prata sausage

go for the gold

you know.when you do someth just so wrong, but you cant help it?
this is so god-awful. im a terrible terrible person..

nationals. i wouldnt say we got trashed.. but dammit we're so super swuay(sp? haha) and like everyth bad that could happen, happened. amazinggg.. imba t1 rowers yangyang and james for example.. they would've totally pwned all other boats in the finals, im sure. -shrugs.

but for all it's worth, i still admire and respect the j2s much muchly for their 100%++ effort during their races.. even if you didnt win that silly piece of medal, us j1s really really look up to you all.. training hard every training. Never giving up even when the odds were against you in the race. Finishing the race like a true champion..

god how i really wanna win the gold for them next year..

guess im still a tad bit sore thinking bout how i've let myself, the team and jiaolian down for not rowing(damn back it's still hurting pffffffft).. im really extremely uberly proud of GENEVE ONG ERN HUI pltnmate/teammate/t1 buddy/confidante! i love you so so much and i dont see how you could've let anyone down when you rowed awesomely and better than I prolly would've if i actually rowed.. you rock and row haha! and next year, let's work our asses off and keep our promise to our j2 t1 fleet kay?
go for the gold!

some amusing things happened in the past 3 days. not many tt i can recall now.. but like the last bit at macs, when the j1s and j2s lined up and the j1s shook the j2s hands.. bernard confessed tt during our first water trg, he heard someone say "siti come back" or someth and he wondered why on earth anyone brought their maid to macritchie.. -.- well he apologized afterwards so haha! and one of the j2 guys said my arms are huge.. MEH it's not That huge! boos..

in any case, nats are over. our team is finally reunited~! i love love loveee it when the whole team's around yay! watch out everyone- we're aiming for the gold.. =D

olivejuice//

inspire

i can see why muddy's the captain of the girls canoeing team. and why she was the encik of rgsncc.

it's not just because she's got imba strong built. or that she's scary. but it's because of her care and concern for her teammates. and her constant need to inspire and empower others to do the same.

im glad i joined raffles row. not only because it gives me a feeling of great power when i glide over water. or the growing sense of determination to win as i pull that extra stroke despite my aching arms to pass the last buoy.

but most importantly, im glad i joined raffles row because i got to know so many great people. people like muddy who are so imba strong and her emails are full of inspiring stories tt make me feel that i can actually win gold if i gave it my all. and need i mention my t1 inspiration? yangyang. i dont know how she does it. she's Amazing and i really really will work my ass off to be where she is now. she puts in 110% effort or more in every stroke she pulls or very weight she lifts. That's how you win gold. and That's how I will win gold.

and not forgetting the rest of the j2s in the girls team. they're really an amazing bunch. they're really nice people and they put in So much effort during trainings. and i really will miss them very much when they leave. let's hope they do tremendously well for their As and of course nats too.

in any case, yup nationals are in 2 days and i guess im ready. i regret not going for trg yst but i spose i needed the rest. am not in the best condition to row but hell noone's gonna let me win just because im hurt..

my dad's been saying recently tt we should declare our goals out loud so tt there's no turning back. so yeah, i will get to finals. cos i choose to win.

Raffles Row ftw!

olivejuice//

feel the love

060707!

i loveee liyana farin melz nw taufiq fungshing jeanchow zerui pris longqing 08S05A pltnmates & teammates! you guys are LOVE yay yay! yup and thankyou taa for the prezze! =)

despite the horrifically embarrassing incident, thanks to taugay and nana, just before fire drill (which na claims to be very significant.. -.-), my birthday was a blast. i feel so lovedd whee.. and heh yet to claim swensens treat from jeanzrprislongqing and madjack/seoul garden treat from farin.. >< ooh and my partas called me when i was waxing boats at macs and they sang my a birthday song. AAAWWWW! LOVE PARTAS '06! =D

yup! what else ah? OHYARR we finally got our poseur canoe windbreakers which we all displayed proudly around sch.. some more than others woops? and we got our jerseys today too apparently but i hadta leave early.. in any case, nats are in 4 days.. unleash! yup i can do this! back hurts tho. and left bicep hurt last night but i think i massaged myself quite okay.. =D better pray tt my back'll be fine by tues.. -nods..

and Happy 17th Birthday Taufiq brudder! hope i can get you someth soon.. =)

amazing day woosh!

<3 loveee

olivejuice//my aren't we getting old..