went out with nazzer yst for our last date for some time.. so i decided to please him and wear the crocs 'girly'-ish shoes he got me and i swear it hurts like eff and i have blisters ):
in any case, nazzer made me have lunch with his parents which turned out alright and not really very awkward but somewhat awkward. anws free food and his mommy thinks im really pretty so yay! :D
ahwell bugger's enlisting for ns on wednesday and i is emo. though he thinks im being silly cos nothing's gonna change.. well for one thing, we wont be sms-ing anymore when we'd usually message each other all day. i mean not drastic changes but there'll be changes nonetheless.. "so let it change lah". bah i guess it'll only affect us as much as we expect it to..
go la go. see if i care. ):
olivejuice// happy belated 44th..
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
epiphany
after much thought, i have finally decided to come clean:
i think im mentally ill. D:
nazzer says it's insecurities but na says it's just hormones/pms bah. plus na says that crazy ppl dont think they're crazy. well i guess it could be pms cos i usually do get real bad pms.. as in i dont get cramps or anything of that sort, but i get extremely mood-swingy and do real stupid things nyeh..
okay probably pms then
eh but this things can be taken too lightly manz. i still think i could be prone to depression in the future like post-natal depression and the like.. depressing. ):
anw i've been rather volatile lately. saying and doing the silliest things.. like whatever that comes to mind will immediately be translated to action and that is definitely a dangerous way to do things.. plus i cant control my emotions and i'd cry for no apparent reason and i feel really miserable sometimes bah
it's nothing serious of course, and i really ought to get a grip cos this is getting quite silly and out of hand
what a bunch of ramblings meh. (i still think i could be mentally ill pfft)
olivejuice//
i think im mentally ill. D:
nazzer says it's insecurities but na says it's just hormones/pms bah. plus na says that crazy ppl dont think they're crazy. well i guess it could be pms cos i usually do get real bad pms.. as in i dont get cramps or anything of that sort, but i get extremely mood-swingy and do real stupid things nyeh..
okay probably pms then
eh but this things can be taken too lightly manz. i still think i could be prone to depression in the future like post-natal depression and the like.. depressing. ):
anw i've been rather volatile lately. saying and doing the silliest things.. like whatever that comes to mind will immediately be translated to action and that is definitely a dangerous way to do things.. plus i cant control my emotions and i'd cry for no apparent reason and i feel really miserable sometimes bah
it's nothing serious of course, and i really ought to get a grip cos this is getting quite silly and out of hand
what a bunch of ramblings meh. (i still think i could be mentally ill pfft)
olivejuice//
Monday, November 24, 2008
you drive me crazy
i figured that by farewell or perhaps our final As paper, my responsibility as class ct rep would be over and then poor bored na comes along and seems to think a class gathering is of utmost importance
of course i objected initially cos we all know what comes of such initiatives, yes?
and then nazzer said "what's wrong with a class gathering anw?"
and i thought Okay i'll give it a shot. rooms still available at costa sands pasir ris. bbq i can handle. all i need now is to confirm attendance, get the money from the dudes and get this over and done with. but of course even then i couldnt get off easy..
perhaps my gut instinct was right. leave the class alone. we've never really bonded all that much as a class anw. my responsibilities are really over. of course we could have some sort of reunion in the near-enough future, when we've forgotten why it was in the first place that we couldnt seem to come together as a class and be merry (come to think of it, the reason is still very elusive), then maybe a reunion would be due. and we'd laugh and reminisce and Then go "..Oh so that's why.." and then we should go our separate ways again until we forget
it's so nice to finally understand
HAHA wtg.
of course i objected initially cos we all know what comes of such initiatives, yes?
and then nazzer said "what's wrong with a class gathering anw?"
and i thought Okay i'll give it a shot. rooms still available at costa sands pasir ris. bbq i can handle. all i need now is to confirm attendance, get the money from the dudes and get this over and done with. but of course even then i couldnt get off easy..
perhaps my gut instinct was right. leave the class alone. we've never really bonded all that much as a class anw. my responsibilities are really over. of course we could have some sort of reunion in the near-enough future, when we've forgotten why it was in the first place that we couldnt seem to come together as a class and be merry (come to think of it, the reason is still very elusive), then maybe a reunion would be due. and we'd laugh and reminisce and Then go "..Oh so that's why.." and then we should go our separate ways again until we forget
it's so nice to finally understand
HAHA wtg.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
when the bitches howl
okay so interview with the Goth dudes yst went pretty well.. cept when i had a coughing fit mid-way and had to leave awhile to go outside and cough like a mad cow.. =/
job interview at autism resource centre got postponed to next sat cos of miscommunication.. the good thing though is that since the interviews are scheduled for end nov, i'd be the last few interviewed & so they'd rmb me better i guess? ahwell..
signed up for driving lessons at bukit batok yst yupp
spent my aftn in bed with cough syrup in my system and discussed with nazzer bout our very complicated and somewhat messed up relationship rawr..
super super nosey and fucked up relatives are totally pissing me off.. yes i have a boyfriend, just accept it and move on lah.. >:/ and mom stalking pregnant cousin on facebook is very disappointing.. bah messed up family..
i am starting to get reaaaally bored with life
job interview at autism resource centre got postponed to next sat cos of miscommunication.. the good thing though is that since the interviews are scheduled for end nov, i'd be the last few interviewed & so they'd rmb me better i guess? ahwell..
signed up for driving lessons at bukit batok yst yupp
spent my aftn in bed with cough syrup in my system and discussed with nazzer bout our very complicated and somewhat messed up relationship rawr..
super super nosey and fucked up relatives are totally pissing me off.. yes i have a boyfriend, just accept it and move on lah.. >:/ and mom stalking pregnant cousin on facebook is very disappointing.. bah messed up family..
i am starting to get reaaaally bored with life
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
of the impossible
I HEREBY DECLARE THAT I SHALL BE ON A TWO-WEEK DIET FROM NOW TILL PROM YES. okay but my definition of diet's kinda vague ah.. basically smaller portions, no more second servings, less rice/carbo, no more giving in to cravings (im sorry mega mac!) and lots lots lots of exercise.. bicep curls, tricep thingey, flys, crunches, leg raisers, superman.. okay sounds pretty scary, but i've been doing that for 1.5years every training (and more) so i can do it ryttt? D:
so okay at least 3kg off by 3rd dec. god knows how im gonna do that..
anw tried on dresses at far east today (which made me realize that the ring of blubber round my tummy really has to go) and omg i couldnt fit into one dress cos my shoulder's too wide.. ): in any case, havent bought one yet, though i've narrowed it down to two, which would hopefully still be around when i come by again.. =/
ohyeahh got call from autism resource centre this morning and i've been called in for interview yesyes! haha well it's either cos the response was not that good, or they somehow overlooked the jc1 results bit.. ((: lol aight gotta turn on the charm this thurs, gogo sexy captivating me! O.o.O
yeah and meeting anthropologist dude at his office tmr to discuss his project and where i come in.. lotsa activities lined up nov-dec, reunions, get-togethers, holidays etc. gosh exciting stuff! ahwell im leaving next week free for a certain somebody who's going ns 3rd dec, though he doesnt quite appreciate the gesture and isnt very willing to spend time with me, as always. so yupp shall fill up my next week somehow.. shouldnt be too hard (:
okay im starting to think freedom's not as exciting as i figured it would be. the prospect of the future and having all sorts of new responsibilities is rather daunting.. the air is filled with so many possibilities that it's really quite scary..
oh was suaning sharyn and zijian in the bus after physics bout their lit paper tmr.. >< jiayou ppl only one paper left! lol anw had an interesting talk with the dudes.. those party poopers arent going for prom, along with a bunch of other ppl who dont see a need for it.. ): well after today, i realize though, why prom really is quite useful.
i mean on the one hand, it's freaking overpriced for such little food zomg, and the amount of money wasted, esp for girls, on dresses, shoes, makeup, accessories etc etc, is such a put off. then on the plus side, we have a reason to dress up and feel pretty for one night, we get to see everyone either look really glam or make a fool of themselves, (we get to see guys in suits. yeaaah) but most importantly really is that prom's a kind of closure for two years worth of memories. i mean, this morning i woke up and thought, "this is the last time im waking up at 6am for school" "this is the last time im gonna wear full rj uniform" "this is the last time.." in fact i even requested dad for mee rebus breakfast where we usually eat when he sends me to school, and was late for physics, as na claimed..
gosh it just felt so weird, to leave school for the last time and not actually do anything particularly significant to commemorate it, like kiss the gates or someth (dammit why didnt i think of that earlier!!) i mean wthh it's over, Just Like That. haha so in other words, im really looking forward to prom. and yes i've really enjoyed my two years in rj, and my 6 years as a rafflesian..
filiae/auspicium melioris aevi. (:
so okay at least 3kg off by 3rd dec. god knows how im gonna do that..
anw tried on dresses at far east today (which made me realize that the ring of blubber round my tummy really has to go) and omg i couldnt fit into one dress cos my shoulder's too wide.. ): in any case, havent bought one yet, though i've narrowed it down to two, which would hopefully still be around when i come by again.. =/
ohyeahh got call from autism resource centre this morning and i've been called in for interview yesyes! haha well it's either cos the response was not that good, or they somehow overlooked the jc1 results bit.. ((: lol aight gotta turn on the charm this thurs, gogo sexy captivating me! O.o.O
yeah and meeting anthropologist dude at his office tmr to discuss his project and where i come in.. lotsa activities lined up nov-dec, reunions, get-togethers, holidays etc. gosh exciting stuff! ahwell im leaving next week free for a certain somebody who's going ns 3rd dec, though he doesnt quite appreciate the gesture and isnt very willing to spend time with me, as always. so yupp shall fill up my next week somehow.. shouldnt be too hard (:
okay im starting to think freedom's not as exciting as i figured it would be. the prospect of the future and having all sorts of new responsibilities is rather daunting.. the air is filled with so many possibilities that it's really quite scary..
oh was suaning sharyn and zijian in the bus after physics bout their lit paper tmr.. >< jiayou ppl only one paper left! lol anw had an interesting talk with the dudes.. those party poopers arent going for prom, along with a bunch of other ppl who dont see a need for it.. ): well after today, i realize though, why prom really is quite useful.
i mean on the one hand, it's freaking overpriced for such little food zomg, and the amount of money wasted, esp for girls, on dresses, shoes, makeup, accessories etc etc, is such a put off. then on the plus side, we have a reason to dress up and feel pretty for one night, we get to see everyone either look really glam or make a fool of themselves, (we get to see guys in suits. yeaaah) but most importantly really is that prom's a kind of closure for two years worth of memories. i mean, this morning i woke up and thought, "this is the last time im waking up at 6am for school" "this is the last time im gonna wear full rj uniform" "this is the last time.." in fact i even requested dad for mee rebus breakfast where we usually eat when he sends me to school, and was late for physics, as na claimed..
gosh it just felt so weird, to leave school for the last time and not actually do anything particularly significant to commemorate it, like kiss the gates or someth (dammit why didnt i think of that earlier!!) i mean wthh it's over, Just Like That. haha so in other words, im really looking forward to prom. and yes i've really enjoyed my two years in rj, and my 6 years as a rafflesian..
filiae/auspicium melioris aevi. (:
Saturday, November 15, 2008
of a hopefully much more exciting future
i've been writing my resume for Pathlight school cos they have a job opening for teacher's aid thing. i really really would very much like a job like that yes. applied to moe for relief teaching as well though their application form online sucked and was confusing. plus i dunno whether my grades were of any value cos i dont take O levels poots.
anw Pathlight wants our jc1 results, which is omg so embarrassing. though cca and stuff looks pretty impressive.. ahwells still, limited spaces so goodluck to me manz..
well backup plan (initial plan actually): get a job at a childcare centre. though mom said tt they might need ppl who have proper qualifications and stuff so.. =/
in other news, had brunch with family at delifrance today, which was lovely.. -pats tummy and grins. cck shopping mall with all the revamp's pretty cool woo..
sisters' speech day was lol but food reception was awesome yay! i got a second serving heh. im glad that my parents have decided to embrace my passion for food.. (: anw met nazzer afterwards for Madagascar 2 which is sho cute and random-funny, love! :D
LOL this is super premature celebrating, as if there isnt still physics paper 1 on tues..
i finish up resume nao.
anw Pathlight wants our jc1 results, which is omg so embarrassing. though cca and stuff looks pretty impressive.. ahwells still, limited spaces so goodluck to me manz..
well backup plan (initial plan actually): get a job at a childcare centre. though mom said tt they might need ppl who have proper qualifications and stuff so.. =/
in other news, had brunch with family at delifrance today, which was lovely.. -pats tummy and grins. cck shopping mall with all the revamp's pretty cool woo..
sisters' speech day was lol but food reception was awesome yay! i got a second serving heh. im glad that my parents have decided to embrace my passion for food.. (: anw met nazzer afterwards for Madagascar 2 which is sho cute and random-funny, love! :D
LOL this is super premature celebrating, as if there isnt still physics paper 1 on tues..
i finish up resume nao.
Friday, November 14, 2008
didnt pray with the family in the morning today and was praying in my room with the lights off (cos sis was sleeping) and it reminded me of long-ago saturdays where i'd pray earlier cos i needed to get to macritchie on time for training.. =/ kinda really miss those days
anw only physics paper 1 left on tuesday. and then freedom.
it's been quite a hellish week, which ended with a damn shitty ihist paper yst. ugh should've mugged theme 2 cos apparently the qns are alot easier but instead i hadta screw myself over by doing effing screwed up qns and now i have no hope of getting a c for hist much less a b. fuck
econs was pretty screwed up. physics was just damn =//
i think i have to retake next year. ughhh but i dont want to leyh meh mehh
oh went for some audition thing for a family competition thingey on suria. lol perfect timing eh? anw it was silly and we kinda messed up i guess. doubt we'd get thru owells..
swensens + cs yst was pretty fun lol.. and cos it was a history-ppl dominated outing, with kung as our guest of honour, the usernames they used were like sukarno, aungsan, gorbachev, pol pot, osama, obama and the like. lol! i think im getting the hang of the game yes..
okay dont really have much to say. think im still sleepy.. mugged all night for hist yst and lasted thru the whole of yst on max 1 hr of sleep.. =/
oh yeah going for little sisters' prize presentation ceremony later. zirah got best in maths and nisah got best in malay & higher malay. -.- gosh i miss those days..
oh and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BIM BIM~ love you muacks! (:
oh yes yes let's go for team run at macs like next week or something and run at the boardwalk at the otherr side and run near the waterr!! (: and i have gym dates with priya to get back our exciting sexy figures back before prom. HAHA.
anw only physics paper 1 left on tuesday. and then freedom.
it's been quite a hellish week, which ended with a damn shitty ihist paper yst. ugh should've mugged theme 2 cos apparently the qns are alot easier but instead i hadta screw myself over by doing effing screwed up qns and now i have no hope of getting a c for hist much less a b. fuck
econs was pretty screwed up. physics was just damn =//
i think i have to retake next year. ughhh but i dont want to leyh meh mehh
oh went for some audition thing for a family competition thingey on suria. lol perfect timing eh? anw it was silly and we kinda messed up i guess. doubt we'd get thru owells..
swensens + cs yst was pretty fun lol.. and cos it was a history-ppl dominated outing, with kung as our guest of honour, the usernames they used were like sukarno, aungsan, gorbachev, pol pot, osama, obama and the like. lol! i think im getting the hang of the game yes..
okay dont really have much to say. think im still sleepy.. mugged all night for hist yst and lasted thru the whole of yst on max 1 hr of sleep.. =/
oh yeah going for little sisters' prize presentation ceremony later. zirah got best in maths and nisah got best in malay & higher malay. -.- gosh i miss those days..
oh and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BIM BIM~ love you muacks! (:
oh yes yes let's go for team run at macs like next week or something and run at the boardwalk at the otherr side and run near the waterr!! (: and i have gym dates with priya to get back our exciting sexy figures back before prom. HAHA.
Friday, November 07, 2008
of a fuzzy future
okay so 12hours worth of As down and another 11 to go ie. Physics II, Econs II, Econs I, Ihist and Physics I.
four days in a row and econs and physics are my worst subjects as of prelims.
so screwed
well i can be optimistic and believe that i'll pull through physics and econs with at least a C but omg how likely is that?
okay so eventhough some may claim that getting into a uni isnt the only way to go after As, for now i dont see what else i can do if i dont make it. i mean, i have so much i want to achieve, not academically but like things i wanna do and change etc etc but having a university degree seems like the must-have before i can start living life proper.
like firstly, i need a good job and money to initiate all my projects and stuff
okay so maybe post-As i'll consider the other routes i can take.
but for now, i guess all i can d0 is mug. wooh
four days in a row and econs and physics are my worst subjects as of prelims.
so screwed
well i can be optimistic and believe that i'll pull through physics and econs with at least a C but omg how likely is that?
okay so eventhough some may claim that getting into a uni isnt the only way to go after As, for now i dont see what else i can do if i dont make it. i mean, i have so much i want to achieve, not academically but like things i wanna do and change etc etc but having a university degree seems like the must-have before i can start living life proper.
like firstly, i need a good job and money to initiate all my projects and stuff
okay so maybe post-As i'll consider the other routes i can take.
but for now, i guess all i can d0 is mug. wooh
Monday, November 03, 2008
of the past and present
OVER YAYYYY.
just like another 7 more papers to go? -headdesk
oomg and i was almost late for paper today booos. dad dropped me off somewhere farfar from lockers cos of ****ing construction work thing (thankyoulimlaicheng) so i rann to locker area to leave my bag at the tables, grabbed stuff, rann to parade square area to check venue (i forgot my register no. again and wtf entry proof as well), rann to lockers to get entry proof, rann to check venue, a57 wtg, rann up to 5th floor, my ziplock bag/pencil case tore otw up nyeh. and when i reached, none of the classes had gone in yet. -.-
by then i was sweating like a pig and had developed some major headache that lasted the first 10-20 minutes of gp paper 1. rawr
and i wrote on the importance of dreams cos head couldnt think. how sad
seahist was doable. GP compre was oddly duh but kinda threw me off guard and summary was wtf, didnt have enough time to finish AQ ):
hoping to get B for both. hopefully hopefully can yes. ):
time to spam maths nao
Sunday, October 26, 2008
of a sick way to end a rafflesian career
5 DAYS TO As
ahh fu*k this shit
at the rate my mugging's going, i'd probably have to retake next year, rawr
ahwell we'll just see how things go..
in any case, pretty video from katy perry (doesnt she remind you of sophie ellis baxtor?) =/
and im off to eat nao. yay comfort food..
ahh fu*k this shit
at the rate my mugging's going, i'd probably have to retake next year, rawr
ahwell we'll just see how things go..
in any case, pretty video from katy perry (doesnt she remind you of sophie ellis baxtor?) =/
and im off to eat nao. yay comfort food..
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
of strange meetings
econs mug has been quite enlightening.. in fact, i think its very interesting. and i only discover this now, whaii.. ):
mugged in sch with bim yst and awhile today.. zomg why didnt anyone tell me tt RPA's been providing $1 dinner in sch for the past few weeks rawr! i bought a second serving and teammates laughed at me boos..
treated little sisters to swensens for lunch just now cos one finished her psle recently and the other wanted to tag along.. nazri came over awhile later and it was pretty odd.. sisters rated him 8 and 9 out of 10, so i guess they approve.. =/ strange relationship, strange times.. ahwell.
hey hey guess what! 14 days to As
mugged in sch with bim yst and awhile today.. zomg why didnt anyone tell me tt RPA's been providing $1 dinner in sch for the past few weeks rawr! i bought a second serving and teammates laughed at me boos..
treated little sisters to swensens for lunch just now cos one finished her psle recently and the other wanted to tag along.. nazri came over awhile later and it was pretty odd.. sisters rated him 8 and 9 out of 10, so i guess they approve.. =/ strange relationship, strange times.. ahwell.
anw hari raya open house tmr. good food, good money yay! let's hope i can cram some mug time in between..
oh was in the train home with sharm and she has quite some fascinating stories.. i find the clubbing scene quite intriguing.. wonder if i'd get hit on if i went hmm.. O.o
hey hey guess what! 14 days to As
hahahhaa. screwed
eh cool we got team colours award cos we got overall fourth for nats. -amused, amazed, YAY!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
of fond memories
i realize that there really is a lot about rj that i'll miss.. the college itself, the white and green walls that we initially thought was cold and missed the homey-ness of rg.. i mean yar rj's sprawling huge and there really isnt a sense of ownership for the sch (i miss ncc room rawr) but there are little places to hang out here and there and i think i'll miss also my loner times in the sch.. like sat afternoons after trg, the upper floors are deserted most of the time and it's really nice to just walk through the school yup.. oh yes and i'll miss huge huge library, just because it's huge and pretty dome shape and nicenice view wooh, though it cant beat rg lib with the super duper nice slack corner.. canteen food? okay la.. will miss canteen vendors tho haha! what else what else..
teachers, not really ah.. eh no wait, kaur yes. kung yes. dr fang, yeah. limbay, yeah probably. mssoh, yeah. physics teachers, not reallyy. okay yeah and the random nice remedial teachers lol.
people? hell yeah. esp the rg girls, simply cos they've been a constant, somewhat. pltnmates, teammates (team camwhore pics pwnz lol lol!) (kinda sad that there wasnt a photo-taking culture in ncc- many many kodak moments uncaptured cept in our memories, which will probably erode over time D:)
08s05a. HAHA gosh will i miss them? yea im quite sure i will. maybe even the Special individuals.. the girls, yes i will most definitely miss all of them, really, honestly, not lying. (: well there are some guys in class that i talk to only on an occassional basis, mostly cos of different subject combis (which i insist is the main reason why we arent all that bonded as a class) and hence rojak class and varying personalities.. melting pot vs salad bowl lol. ah but ultimately, im quite fond of almost everyone in class, and it's a shame that we'll be ending our last month as rafflesians (omg i'll miss being an elitist rafflesian bitch), in utter mugging madness. ahhh fishsticks
haha samkwek sent invitation to join 'I am against the Raffles Merger!' on facebook. -amused. on that note, yes i find the merger quite screwed up (ri boys will actually be able to legitimately eat at rj canteen and spam 711 wtg!) oh haha but the tiny mats with their sarongs otw for friday prayers damn cute! hmm.
ahwell shall continue with reminiscing post-As.
back to econs
teachers, not really ah.. eh no wait, kaur yes. kung yes. dr fang, yeah. limbay, yeah probably. mssoh, yeah. physics teachers, not reallyy. okay yeah and the random nice remedial teachers lol.
people? hell yeah. esp the rg girls, simply cos they've been a constant, somewhat. pltnmates, teammates (team camwhore pics pwnz lol lol!) (kinda sad that there wasnt a photo-taking culture in ncc- many many kodak moments uncaptured cept in our memories, which will probably erode over time D:)
08s05a. HAHA gosh will i miss them? yea im quite sure i will. maybe even the Special individuals.. the girls, yes i will most definitely miss all of them, really, honestly, not lying. (: well there are some guys in class that i talk to only on an occassional basis, mostly cos of different subject combis (which i insist is the main reason why we arent all that bonded as a class) and hence rojak class and varying personalities.. melting pot vs salad bowl lol. ah but ultimately, im quite fond of almost everyone in class, and it's a shame that we'll be ending our last month as rafflesians (omg i'll miss being an elitist rafflesian bitch), in utter mugging madness. ahhh fishsticks
haha samkwek sent invitation to join 'I am against the Raffles Merger!' on facebook. -amused. on that note, yes i find the merger quite screwed up (ri boys will actually be able to legitimately eat at rj canteen and spam 711 wtg!) oh haha but the tiny mats with their sarongs otw for friday prayers damn cute! hmm.
ahwell shall continue with reminiscing post-As.
back to econs
Monday, October 13, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
of profound art and camwhoring
haha veryy fun day, which started with me being late for school cos i didnt know there was assembly.. lol not that many ponners, surprisingly, and class lunch was almost half, wow! hahaha
anw we had half an hour before award ceremony thingey started and we camwhored about the class.. didnt bring camera so i took candid pictures with everyone in class, and on top of their shocked expression due to the sudden presence of a phone in their face, their eyes were unfocused cos they were looking for the inconspicuous camera haha! -amused
award ceremony was pretty dull cos only 5 of us ended up together cos the rest of the class was late and they sat at the gallery.. talked with pris bout the future and the possible jobs for classmates and that was pretty entertaining.. oh ms soh was so sweet and emo and her performance with the KI dude was really nice.. (: then joined the rest of em upstairs for batch song, cheers, college anthem and more camwhoring!
then met up with teammates at specs gall for more camwhoring! and that took almost an hour i think hoho.. we did failed jumpshots, pushup poses, dip poses etc, and Mac' NTM love! :D oh gosh and i really really really miss macritchie and the water and the blue blue sky and the whole macritchie family, and bloody mary sigh..
then ge gave us a tour of the art gallery open house! such wonderfully artistic ppl and beautiful artworks, us canoeists felt superbly talentless after that bah..
then was very late for lunch with the class. 13 ppl, what an achievement.. (: i had fries and choc malt sundae wheee!
okay long enough post, basically rather emo day ah but couldnt emo properly also cos of looming As.. 21 days to seahist paper wtg?! D:
better mug now i guess..
but before i leave,
1. The last person to tag you was...?
taufiq & farin
2. Your relationship with him/her...?
food provider & farin <3!
3. Your 5 impression towards him/her ?
- so lame, easygoing, passionate, fickle, generous (more food plskthx!)
- so weird, easygoing, passionate, ms popularr, flockeyyy
4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?
- fooood
- her birthday cards/ raya cards (:
5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you ?
- so when girls have their period, is it free-flowing or like titration?
- so many, howw?
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
- make him buy me more food
- make her go to all the playgrounds in singapore with me!
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
- make him do 100 pull-ups, but he'd phail
- not give her my love anymore ):
8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to
- stop looking at his 100000 eye candies
- stop looking at her 100000 boyz
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
- obvious =/
- i became her enemy first, i win!
10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
- give him a hot bod so that he'd have a chance withe the 100000 eye candies
- you already have my love, what more dyou want!
11. Overall impression towards him/her is..
- lame
- weird
12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?
- whai so high?
13. The character you like of yourself is ?
- my love for sports whee
14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
- my lack of drive in studies
15. The most ideal person you want to be is ?
happy, witty, eloquent, generous, kind, make-a-difference, money making machine heh
16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
smart ppl
17. Who I Tag: (well they've mostly done this so this is just to answer the qns)
1. nana
2. farin
3. melz
4. selene
5. bim
6. linda
7. fungs
8. taufiq
18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?
alot of women
19. Is 3 a male or a female ?
mostly female
20. If number 5 and 7 got together, would that be a good thing ?
eheh should be interesting
21. How about 5 and 8 ?
quite strange, but might be fun
22. What is number 1 studying about ?
quotes farin: things she doesnt quite wanna study
23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ?
talked to everyone today cept for farin! ):
24. Is number 4 single ?
dunno leyh, selene are you single??
25. Say something about number 2.
love you muackx
okay that's done
anw we had half an hour before award ceremony thingey started and we camwhored about the class.. didnt bring camera so i took candid pictures with everyone in class, and on top of their shocked expression due to the sudden presence of a phone in their face, their eyes were unfocused cos they were looking for the inconspicuous camera haha! -amused
award ceremony was pretty dull cos only 5 of us ended up together cos the rest of the class was late and they sat at the gallery.. talked with pris bout the future and the possible jobs for classmates and that was pretty entertaining.. oh ms soh was so sweet and emo and her performance with the KI dude was really nice.. (: then joined the rest of em upstairs for batch song, cheers, college anthem and more camwhoring!
then met up with teammates at specs gall for more camwhoring! and that took almost an hour i think hoho.. we did failed jumpshots, pushup poses, dip poses etc, and Mac' NTM love! :D oh gosh and i really really really miss macritchie and the water and the blue blue sky and the whole macritchie family, and bloody mary sigh..
then ge gave us a tour of the art gallery open house! such wonderfully artistic ppl and beautiful artworks, us canoeists felt superbly talentless after that bah..
then was very late for lunch with the class. 13 ppl, what an achievement.. (: i had fries and choc malt sundae wheee!
okay long enough post, basically rather emo day ah but couldnt emo properly also cos of looming As.. 21 days to seahist paper wtg?! D:
better mug now i guess..
but before i leave,
1. The last person to tag you was...?
taufiq & farin
2. Your relationship with him/her...?
food provider & farin <3!
3. Your 5 impression towards him/her ?
- so lame, easygoing, passionate, fickle, generous (more food plskthx!)
- so weird, easygoing, passionate, ms popularr, flockeyyy
4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?
- fooood
- her birthday cards/ raya cards (:
5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you ?
- so when girls have their period, is it free-flowing or like titration?
- so many, howw?
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
- make him buy me more food
- make her go to all the playgrounds in singapore with me!
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
- make him do 100 pull-ups, but he'd phail
- not give her my love anymore ):
8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to
- stop looking at his 100000 eye candies
- stop looking at her 100000 boyz
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
- obvious =/
- i became her enemy first, i win!
10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
- give him a hot bod so that he'd have a chance withe the 100000 eye candies
- you already have my love, what more dyou want!
11. Overall impression towards him/her is..
- lame
- weird
12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?
- whai so high?
13. The character you like of yourself is ?
- my love for sports whee
14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
- my lack of drive in studies
15. The most ideal person you want to be is ?
happy, witty, eloquent, generous, kind, make-a-difference, money making machine heh
16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
smart ppl
17. Who I Tag: (well they've mostly done this so this is just to answer the qns)
1. nana
2. farin
3. melz
4. selene
5. bim
6. linda
7. fungs
8. taufiq
18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?
alot of women
19. Is 3 a male or a female ?
mostly female
20. If number 5 and 7 got together, would that be a good thing ?
eheh should be interesting
21. How about 5 and 8 ?
quite strange, but might be fun
22. What is number 1 studying about ?
quotes farin: things she doesnt quite wanna study
23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ?
talked to everyone today cept for farin! ):
24. Is number 4 single ?
dunno leyh, selene are you single??
25. Say something about number 2.
love you muackx
okay that's done
Monday, October 06, 2008
ack
embarrassingly emo past few entries, let's pretend that didnt happen
i think i've been eating alot. i is too fat redi ugh
i should stop flirting with the guys around me ohnoes..
and yes, back to mug!
i think i've been eating alot. i is too fat redi ugh
i should stop flirting with the guys around me ohnoes..
and yes, back to mug!
Sunday, October 05, 2008
questions
i still cannot fathom this rather drastic decision he made.. i mean there are some things in life that i'd rather not question, like the existence of god or why we have to learn math, but this is something i really want to know. why anyone would throw away something that was so amazing, so close to perfection is beyond me..
i mean where else can you find two people with the same passion for food? (eventhough there were slight differences in the way we indulge in our passion, like the way he spams wasabe when he eats sushi or how we devour our mega burgers, which clearly shows our individuality, our similarities were enough to attract but not enough to repel, i suppose) or how about two people who derived enjoyment from hiking up bukit timah hill, time and time again?
i thought i got through to you when you started crying before the movie, that i got you to see how perfect we are for each other. but maybe it wasnt the right way to solve things either.. showing you a glimpse of the past when i should've perhaps presented you with a possibility of the future. our future. i cant rmb what i replied you when you asked if it was necessary to go through with this. well the answer is no. we didnt have to, cos we could've solved it some other way. but it's too late now i guess..
half of me still wants to hold on to the possibility of Us and that things would get back to normal, but this situation is so foreign, that i cant even view this possibility with faith. the door to our relationship is still open i guess. on the other hand, the other half of me just wants to close the door cos that's really the only way i can heal, yes? the healing process will take awhile, (plus upcoming As = AWESOME timing) and i pray that i will recover with as little scars as possible..
but you know what, i ought to feel quite pissed. this is really selfish behaviour, not to mention irrational and positively stupid. god what were you thinking..
i think anger's easier to deal with than a broken heart
okay following family to aunt's now eventho god-knows how badly i need to study.. cant bear being alone right now hoho..
oh god this is so pathetic and so drama, i'd laugh if i weren't playing a starring role, in which case it sucks
i mean where else can you find two people with the same passion for food? (eventhough there were slight differences in the way we indulge in our passion, like the way he spams wasabe when he eats sushi or how we devour our mega burgers, which clearly shows our individuality, our similarities were enough to attract but not enough to repel, i suppose) or how about two people who derived enjoyment from hiking up bukit timah hill, time and time again?
i thought i got through to you when you started crying before the movie, that i got you to see how perfect we are for each other. but maybe it wasnt the right way to solve things either.. showing you a glimpse of the past when i should've perhaps presented you with a possibility of the future. our future. i cant rmb what i replied you when you asked if it was necessary to go through with this. well the answer is no. we didnt have to, cos we could've solved it some other way. but it's too late now i guess..
half of me still wants to hold on to the possibility of Us and that things would get back to normal, but this situation is so foreign, that i cant even view this possibility with faith. the door to our relationship is still open i guess. on the other hand, the other half of me just wants to close the door cos that's really the only way i can heal, yes? the healing process will take awhile, (plus upcoming As = AWESOME timing) and i pray that i will recover with as little scars as possible..
but you know what, i ought to feel quite pissed. this is really selfish behaviour, not to mention irrational and positively stupid. god what were you thinking..
i think anger's easier to deal with than a broken heart
okay following family to aunt's now eventho god-knows how badly i need to study.. cant bear being alone right now hoho..
oh god this is so pathetic and so drama, i'd laugh if i weren't playing a starring role, in which case it sucks
Saturday, October 04, 2008
i'll be okay
stranger things have happened..
though i still cant quite believe that it actually happened. i feel sick and am hoping that i'd wake up to find that this is all a bad dream, but who am i kidding eh?
i mean this has happened countless times in the past 3yrs 7months and 7days and we somehow always manage to pass each obstacle ohkay and proceed to create more good memories. i suppose that's not gonna happen this time.. i still think that it could've been salvaged, but ahwell we'll never know la.. kinda dramatic and cliched but time will pass and i'll soon be able to forget this dreadful period and move on..
such is life anw
you know, i always thought tt when today came, (though i prayed hard tt it never would) i'd be strong enough to accept it.. i think im losing my mind. how dyou remove something that's so much a part of you anw? and pls if he did still love me, he wouldnt do this to me ryt? so yeah i guess we just weren't fated for each other, and if god-willing i'd find someone who deserves me and wont hurt me anymore.. ahwell let's hope..
it was an interesting way to end a relationship though. a re-enactment of one of the happiest days in my life.. our last day as a couple spent like our last day as just-friends.. ironic though that today's our last day as friends as well, since i dont exactly stay friends with ex-boyfriends.. but you never know, maybe when it stops hurting, i'll be civil enough to say hello..
ohh something reallyy funny happened in the bus after he got off the bus hoho.. i was being a drama queen and crying and all (sorry for the dramatics lah, i couldnt help it) and this aunty suddenly ploppped right next to me and stared. OMG SO WEIRD! i mean lawl there were many other seats in the bus la pls.. so so strange.. though i think i might've scared her when i started laughing lol..
hmmkay we shall move on now.. it's been fun, thank you.
though i still cant quite believe that it actually happened. i feel sick and am hoping that i'd wake up to find that this is all a bad dream, but who am i kidding eh?
i mean this has happened countless times in the past 3yrs 7months and 7days and we somehow always manage to pass each obstacle ohkay and proceed to create more good memories. i suppose that's not gonna happen this time.. i still think that it could've been salvaged, but ahwell we'll never know la.. kinda dramatic and cliched but time will pass and i'll soon be able to forget this dreadful period and move on..
such is life anw
you know, i always thought tt when today came, (though i prayed hard tt it never would) i'd be strong enough to accept it.. i think im losing my mind. how dyou remove something that's so much a part of you anw? and pls if he did still love me, he wouldnt do this to me ryt? so yeah i guess we just weren't fated for each other, and if god-willing i'd find someone who deserves me and wont hurt me anymore.. ahwell let's hope..
it was an interesting way to end a relationship though. a re-enactment of one of the happiest days in my life.. our last day as a couple spent like our last day as just-friends.. ironic though that today's our last day as friends as well, since i dont exactly stay friends with ex-boyfriends.. but you never know, maybe when it stops hurting, i'll be civil enough to say hello..
ohh something reallyy funny happened in the bus after he got off the bus hoho.. i was being a drama queen and crying and all (sorry for the dramatics lah, i couldnt help it) and this aunty suddenly ploppped right next to me and stared. OMG SO WEIRD! i mean lawl there were many other seats in the bus la pls.. so so strange.. though i think i might've scared her when i started laughing lol..
hmmkay we shall move on now.. it's been fun, thank you.
Friday, October 03, 2008
prospect
dad invited his italian anthropologist client over for hari raya, along with his wife and another couple.. this was mainly cos i expressed interest in the area of social sciences(partly cos it seems like the only possible field i can pursue..) so yeah he explained what anthropology is, what he does and the work he's done.. he focuses on islam and religion etc and it really is fascinating.. and it seems way more interesting than sociology cos it deals with the Why and you get to meet so many people and he's travelled to so many places, so exciting!
he's gonna be attached to NUS for a year and doing research regarding muslims in singapore and societal issues, which was something i've always wanted to delve into in the future haha! bah he beat me to it but still i can just focus on opening my child care centre for the less fortunate and try to inspire these kids to break out of their current social status.. and since dr gabriele's already gonna tackle the issue, i'll know the root of the problem and be able to try and find effective solutions..
and and and the best part is that he asked me if i'd like to intern as his research assistant after As yeaahh! bah but ny only reservation is that he wont be able to pay me so i wont be able to save up for all my travelling plans.. im terrible bleah, but fantastic opportunity howww! hoho anw if anyone's interested, here's his blog lol: http://marranci.wordpress.com/
such exciting plans ahead..
but of course my priority now is to pwn As and hopefully make it to a uni with a good social sciences faculty and then pray hard tt i can get a scholarship to take my masters in anthropology overseas.. (:
lunch with linda at macs and outing with dad and sisters to lot1 was fun.. :D
pms yst, sorry for rant..
olivejuice// confusing times..
he's gonna be attached to NUS for a year and doing research regarding muslims in singapore and societal issues, which was something i've always wanted to delve into in the future haha! bah he beat me to it but still i can just focus on opening my child care centre for the less fortunate and try to inspire these kids to break out of their current social status.. and since dr gabriele's already gonna tackle the issue, i'll know the root of the problem and be able to try and find effective solutions..
and and and the best part is that he asked me if i'd like to intern as his research assistant after As yeaahh! bah but ny only reservation is that he wont be able to pay me so i wont be able to save up for all my travelling plans.. im terrible bleah, but fantastic opportunity howww! hoho anw if anyone's interested, here's his blog lol: http://marranci.wordpress.com/
such exciting plans ahead..
but of course my priority now is to pwn As and hopefully make it to a uni with a good social sciences faculty and then pray hard tt i can get a scholarship to take my masters in anthropology overseas.. (:
lunch with linda at macs and outing with dad and sisters to lot1 was fun.. :D
pms yst, sorry for rant..
olivejuice// confusing times..
Thursday, October 02, 2008
one man disco
you know, every time i end up feeling lousy and subsequently have noone to turn to to discuss why im feeling lousy or someone to simply just talk to and pretend im not feeling lousy but the simple fact that i have noone to turn to makes me question my life and the people in it
all this while, everytime this happens, i'd blame myself and think that hey i havent been the greatest of friends cos i couldnt make time for them, i couldnt hang out with them cos i had some thing or another or i dunno, maybe i just wasnt asked along due to the assumption that i couldntt have made it anw. then i realized, that in all honesty i have tried so hard to be there for the ppl i care for, people who matter to me and i did what i can given the time i had, given the circumstances. yes i have been busy with canoe, or like ncc when i was in rg. i gave these commitments everything i had but even then i really did try to be there for my friends
my point is that my friends dont seem to care what i do, how i am or what i have to say. noone tells me anything, noone cares to ask whether i'd like to come along wherever or whether i need anything from wherever even if they dont want me there or at least tell me where you're going instead of leaving me wondering where the hell you went or whether im needed there at all. friendship of convenience ftw..
im very easily affected by criticisms and usually i'd try to change. people said i talked to much, so i talked less. people said i dont listen, so i try to open my ears a little wider. i try so hard to please but some people are just so difficult to deal with. im sick of having to bear with people's moods. im sick of you treating me any way you please just because
there are lovely people who ask me if im okay when i look bummed or bother to freaking talk to me instead of ignoring me half the time. but these people have friends of their own and i cant expect to turn to them when they're busy with their own lives. i mean i have my own supposed friends who i can rely on to lend me a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear to my woes. i dont have the heart to burden these kind souls who simply asked if i was okay or even if they did ask me what's the matter, i cant expect to just spill all now, can i?
it just gets so painfully lonely somtimes..
i stop here nao cos parents are being fucking annoying
all this while, everytime this happens, i'd blame myself and think that hey i havent been the greatest of friends cos i couldnt make time for them, i couldnt hang out with them cos i had some thing or another or i dunno, maybe i just wasnt asked along due to the assumption that i couldntt have made it anw. then i realized, that in all honesty i have tried so hard to be there for the ppl i care for, people who matter to me and i did what i can given the time i had, given the circumstances. yes i have been busy with canoe, or like ncc when i was in rg. i gave these commitments everything i had but even then i really did try to be there for my friends
my point is that my friends dont seem to care what i do, how i am or what i have to say. noone tells me anything, noone cares to ask whether i'd like to come along wherever or whether i need anything from wherever even if they dont want me there or at least tell me where you're going instead of leaving me wondering where the hell you went or whether im needed there at all. friendship of convenience ftw..
im very easily affected by criticisms and usually i'd try to change. people said i talked to much, so i talked less. people said i dont listen, so i try to open my ears a little wider. i try so hard to please but some people are just so difficult to deal with. im sick of having to bear with people's moods. im sick of you treating me any way you please just because
there are lovely people who ask me if im okay when i look bummed or bother to freaking talk to me instead of ignoring me half the time. but these people have friends of their own and i cant expect to turn to them when they're busy with their own lives. i mean i have my own supposed friends who i can rely on to lend me a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear to my woes. i dont have the heart to burden these kind souls who simply asked if i was okay or even if they did ask me what's the matter, i cant expect to just spill all now, can i?
it just gets so painfully lonely somtimes..
i stop here nao cos parents are being fucking annoying
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