so happy together

wooh canoe gopeng, perak trip was awesome. most awesome 4 days this year yeah! from amazingly priced yummy malaysian food, to lol-ing games, to scandalous scandals, to angel-mortaling, to painful barefooted caving, to bumpy white water rafting, to (amazingly acurate) fortune telling, to cool rock climbing, to hot instructors, to crazy high elements, to fangirling, to emo-ing, to birthdays, to forging a common bond thru "sharing of experiences", to uberly sweet notes all around, to anti-climatic tummy pains for most.

having summarised the whole trip to a simple enough paragraph, i hope i've captured the essence of the entire trip, which truly was wonderful.

pictures here! (uh soon..)

i really got to know alot of ppl alott better and i must say tt i now have alot more reason to miss rjc next year. what an awesome bunch of ppl to have as teammates.. both guys' and girls' teams.

RAFFLES ROW FTW!

olivejuice// lol fortune telling..

awesome

today while rowing with py in our t1s, py was telling me of all the diff pains she's had recently on diff parts of her body, and i said "well at least you hurt at diff exciting places and it's like temporary", referring of course to the for-as-long-as-i-can-rmb pain in my upper back. with my awesome luck, i got an exciting new injured-area now.

i was rushing off for econs cos i was late. got the keys from jiaolian, only to find tt the bag shed wasnt locked. then i grabbed my bag off the shelf thing, not realizing tt a bunch of weights were underneath it, and so Plop! went two 1.25kg weights onto my right foot's middle toe. damn pain la. now it's like purplish black. woo sexy..

ohwells so trg was alright. my body most definitely has something against t1s cos the ache in my back came back. nyeh. after rowing 8k and taken our break, py and i asked jiaolian to let us row k2 and he said okay! albeit reluctantly.. haha! k2 is imba nice compared to t1! i took 50-60 strokes for 500m on k2 whilst i once took 125 strokes for 500m in t1. NYEH BATHTUB!

econs was okay. ended at 12nn and then cheryl and i waited for the canoe trip breifing at 1pm, joined by the rest of the girls ard 12.30 yup..

then i followed taufiq to chinatown to see the cip woman. taa went too. i shouldnt have gone seh. my toe turned purple only afterwards.. =(

okay i shall do something productive now..

yeah.

olivejuice// how's it there?

im missing you already

Cancer
Be with the people who make you happiest today. Even if that requires traveling.

rightt. -takes train to negeri sembilan.

ohwells. day was quite alright.. finally went for trg again.. i rowed k2 with jiaqi and it was pretty good.. rowed 10k before i hadta leave at 9.45 but we capped only once whee! and tt's only because the annoying strange motor boat thing was making hugee waves.. nyeh.

oh and i have a theory about jiaolian. py and i are confirmed t1s. but i get chucked into a k2 if they have an odd no. and py's expected to just train and train in her t1. yupp. gotta trust jiaolian la.. eventho he can be damn mean sometimes tsk.. he's nice enough to me so i shant complain. yar..

i went pasar malam again. bought kebab ayam and ayam percik. im growing fat fat fat. but i like food seh. damn nice. hoho..

and im doing a whole lot of random stuffs just to get my mind off you.

but no, i dont miss you. uhuhh..

olivejuice// i'll try not to wreck your blog

farin the fart consultant

aights cos she can tell you what kind of flooring fart is most audible against. haha!

so flockey cum basketball carnival with SpoS today was fun.. the kids are really really really very cute laaa. cept tt im not too sure just how old they are.. cos like there was this little boy who was sho cute and he's like 13. =/

so anww, farin and i were like the opponents at the defense station and farin the lazy bum refused to run and kept feeding them free pucks. -.- lol and seeing the old big ppl was interesting, like pong and ms haryani (rmbs 2005 and the crap the rg volunteers got). hrmph but ohwells.

so basically the flockey stations ended in about an hour at 10. and prize presentation was scheduled at 11.45.. lol so basketball stations were still ongoing but alott of ppl were just milling around looking quite bored.. oh i forgot to mention tt towner gardens was infested with rj ppl doing cip.. like ALOT. kinda strange but fun enough la. ame's special friend was assigned to be scorekeeper for our defense station yup..

so anw. we were all bored. we had our packet lunch(which was insufficient) and i went to bug the kids around.. hung around a few kids who wanted to play soccer and then somehow a soccer ball appeared and then the rj guys took over.. =/ so i wandered to the pullup bars with jeanting and then the monkey bars where a brown/black lizard appeared and jt screamed.. haha!

yup then i duno just wandered around and stuffs and ended up back at the pullup bars with farin where i encouraged a group of boys and girls to do pullups.. =D

then wandered to the basketball courts where we played with the kids summore.. oh there were also sports sch ppl and i recognized one of the girls as my pri sch jnr!! hahahaha she was like my best bud's buddy.. hoho! ohkay then blabla took another packet of food blabla then finally walked thru the rain to kembangan mrt.. farin and i are rain stoppers/starters. anti-gravity ftw! oh and i wanna be a mommy!

poots.

when i got to cck, i followed farin to buy waffles. then she went off then i went to buy waffles too. haha then i emo-ed at the lib for 2 whole hours. read, slept and read summore. i finished Haunted. went to look for chuck palahniuk's books and found.. Haunted. aper seh! i want more books bah.. right then i went down to buy oreo coffee! and finally nw was free at 5pm. so we went to the pasar malam and i bought alot of food.. and nw bought me water chestnuts cos he loves me yes! everyone should buy me food yupyup!

hmm. im not lovesick. i cant have been lovesick for like 2yrs and 8 months of my life seh. there's a difference between being lovesick and being in love. im in love. not lovesick. im not sick of love. i like love. it makes me.. uh happy. and sad. but mostly happy. and cos the person i love makes me happy. and sad. but mostly happy. but i guess tt's what love is about ryt? i guess. ohwells..

shall watch harry potter now woohoo!

olivejuice// and i'll miss you.. boos.

be merry

aights. too very idealistic = bad. i need to learn to be content with what i get. especially when ppl have put in so much effort to please me.

nw and i shared a Large meat something cheese lava crust pizza. huge appetites ftw! and 'jamming' was really quite entertaining. hot photo heh heh.

ohwells. i got the mcs raya vid thing. 878 photos. zomg camwhores.. haha! the compiled video thingey is awesomely retarded and funny. my sisters find taa amusingly lol. haha!

very moodswingy this week. cant seem to get myself to do anything productive. cept for short bouts of hist-ing and maths-ing and remedial-ing. and especially since i haven't been training, due to my back, this week is really damn wasted. ugh sucks.

moodswings. got abit paranoid bout the ppl around me. feeling underappreciated and redundant etc etc. ack well. am trying to be more independent and less sensitive and poots everyone else can screw off. hoho!

right and i've been especially clingy this week. i think im just sentimental and mushed. not really the time for tt i guess. when is it ever time for tt? hoho oh wells..

nw's going of for ctry9 next week.
gotta go for a silly course thingey tt dad signed us up for on fri-sun.
canoeing gopeng trip mon-thurs.

bring it on.

manz this sucks ass

olivejuice//

changes

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's Your Personality Type?

I've always been ENFP.. so strange..

in any case, i reallyyy need to see a proper doctor who will do something about my back. my back is killinggg me and am currently only on painkillers which is so totally not curing whatever crap tt's happening to my back! GAR! so yar visiting the polyclinic either tmr or wed and then getting a referral for the sports clinic at alexandra hospital yupyup..

i kinda hope it's nothing so'd i can get back to training.. but somehow im also hoping it's something just to show tt i haven't been paranoid all this while and tt i really did hurt my back. cos yeah it really does hurt like crazy..

today i went to look at the canoe board.. lol silly picture of me looking like a buffalo in my t1.. but anw, i got reminded of my personal goals..
t1 2k timing: sub 11:40 mins
and t1 gold

god how am i sposed to achieve tt if i cant even train properly? also, i cant represent the college unless i get a C average.. it's all so frustrating and feel awfully stupid and weak. stupid back. rj makes me feel quite stupid gar

aights let's like mug or something

olivejuice//

recuperate

just came back from the polyclinic with a 10day mc from heavyduty activities ie canoeing.
nyeh im sure as hell gonna flab up like crazy.. doc wrote tt i have muscle strain on my back.. but he said some stuffs bout muscle tearing and developing into more/stronger muscles.. =/ i duno he wasnt all tt clear.. but he said canoeing is hardcore and i have very hard muscles hahaha!

anws the past few days have been a whirlwind of activities and im teh shagged.

Batch jln raya 3-4/11/07
was really amazing. haha it really is the best jln raya we've had in years.. the guys really are a fun bunch and they seem way more bonded than us girls who have for the previous years, stuck to our own cliques.. well there are the girls who keep sidling up to the guys and there were the random bunch who just hung out together and i think i managed pretty well without nana the first day cos she couldnt come..

some memorable moments:
1. family shots. haha basically we took group shots of those who wore same coloured clothes. mine was pretty traumatising i must admit but hoho all in the name of fun i guess..
2. makcik canteen! and her amazing baked chicken omg yummy. and khairul leading the doa thing which happened to be the stuff he baca-ed "lepas sholat" =/
3. bus uncle who played along with us in the driving off escapade and his mischievious grin lol..
4. the scarily smart-mouthed little boys at adly's hse.
5. the kitten that got stuck at the gate of the house next to hab's. and taufiq stepped on cat poo.
6. LOL-ing jokes in the bus and the guys' retarded reactions.
7. camwhoring like mad
8. the dudes thumped down the stairs at mairah's house. madness woo!
9. karaoke at taa's. khairul and ain have awesome voices! =)
10. the guys jamming at ari's house. they were really honestly very good. and they were somewhat stripped waist up and hence the girls couldnt enter ari's smelly room, plus it was really smelly in there. in any case, it made me realize tt i wanted to be a boy! so i asked farish whether he'd like to switch bodies, and his reply was, "what's the difference?" ACK.

oh but then taufiq taught me how to drum the first bit of Starlight and it was really difficult but fun! adly and ari claimed tt taufiq took forever to learn anw so i shall take comfort in that haha!

aight forgive me if i forgot anything particularly interesting.

Class chalet! 5/11/07
was unbelievably fun.. i cant believe we actually pulled it off! with it being last minute and all.. THANK YOU longqing for booking the chalet! haha and i was really worried that the food wouldnt come since i only ordered the food on sunday.. got the confirmation call on monday morning itself during trg lol..

ohyes and i planned the chalet without realizing that i had trg monday morning too lol.. so anw after trg, i took a straight bus from bishan to pasir ris int tt took less than 1hr woo! so yar we had lunch at whitesands, only 9 of us then haha.. then we got bubble tea and proceeded to walk to downtown east, stopping for some time at the playground otw.. the huge puddle under the swings! the mad seesaw! the hot slide and the main attraction! *drumrolls.. THE STRANGE SPINNING THINGEY! which left nigel and fungs giddy and pukey haha! i must get yq to send me the vid lol.. yup then we walked to costa sands pasir ris..

checked in, loaned out the bbq pit thing and waited awhile for the cleaning ppl to wrap up before we could put our stuff in the chalet.. then zijian arrived so now we had a ball to play with! so we went to the park outside and the grass was real muddy so we took off our shoes and played soccer at capt ball in the mud hoho! it was really gross at first but we kinda got used to it tho we ended up with only 6 ppl in the end haha..

yupyup got back to the chalet, washed feet and the food then arrived.. then while the dudes attempted to start the fire, i went to shower since i hadnt showered after trg and was getting really stinky.. =/

yup then the bbq was awesomely exciting and we discovered hidden cooking talents in ppl like linda and fiona haha! and fiona has firebreath! and i have great talent in slashing chicken yeahh!=D the food was too much tho oops.. haha after eating, we just sat ard outside singing so many random songs, cheered raffles cheers while choking on the bbq smoke and eventually lost our voices haha! we were like madmen and extremely noisy compared to the bunch of ajc ppl in the chalet next to us haha! yar and royce/nick brought their ps2 and it was funn! me and zr suck at the car racing game haha! okay fine i was worse but tt's cos i wasnt familiar with the controls pfft!

took a nice long walk with na afterwards and then sent off fungs and nigel and jean who returned after showering at home.. =/ dad fetched me at 11 and dropped xinge off at khatib yup..
i love 08S05A.

CIP @ Pertapis children's home 6/11/07
was an eye-opener. it was actually na's cip thing where she's sposed to tutor the bunch of kids there.. smu sucks btw, for initiating the project but leaving it in the lurch by expecting the rj ppl to "expand" the project. tsk.. yup so the turnout for the kids were little and there were too many volunteers, so the station games were abandoned and so the guys played soccer with the boys and the half of the girls played dog-and-bone while the other half were playing polar bear amongst themselves.. after our turn, na and i approached the older girls there, who were training up for a street netball competition next sunday, and we played a friendly match.. the girls were realllyy good and they're pretty cool too.. -nods.. oh but at one time, i jumped and landed on my right foot strange and now i have a damn pain ankle poots..

yup then i took a break so we ventured to the soccer field to watch little iskandar play a penatly shootout with one of the rj guys.. sho cute.

then we moved on to the playground where two small girls were playing.. we played at the monkey bars awhile and then Crocodile when more kids started arriving.. catching.. spun some of the few kids around and around.. etc. those kids are really hyper manz and they were hardly tired whilst na and i on the other hand were dead shagged hoho..

hmm the experience was really fun.. i was scared of the kids at first cos they were all so noisy and rowdy.. they really are quite naughty and i spose the other volunteers weren't as disturbed as i was cos they didnt understand the multitude of malay vulgarities tt the little kids spewed.. i didnt quite understand some of the terms either cos it was mat lingo.. =/

and violent omg they can get so violentt! scolded some of em a few times for their language and actions..

in any case, i think i've done okay enough time with the Special olympics, and they have enough publicity to do well for themselves, so now, im gonna try to do something for the less priveledged kids in the malay society. i know i once said tt i wanted to be an MP, truth be told, i wanted it so tt i can help others And myself at the same time.. but i realize tt im politically-illiterate anw so i'd be quite useless.

ultimately, in the future, i wanna open a daycare or activity centre tt targets the kids of the primary school range, who are left at home while their parents work. i know quite a number of kids get sent off to the various daycares in spore, but these places are usually ex. the kids tt im targetting are those whose parents aren't very well off. left to their own devices, they often mix around with the wrong crowd, learn all the wrong things tt lead to their downfall and get sucked in further into the world which they've grown up i. the kind of life tt i seek to help them break free from. it's so painful to see all these children tt have the potential to live fuller lives, but are unable to see beyond the walls tt they are confined to.

i wish i had more time. more time to help others and do something more worthwhile. something else to worry about other than myself and my grades. but i also have to be aware that if i want to truly do something for these people, i must first get myself somewhere. be someone who has the power to do something more than just simple volunteerism. until then..

okay i shall now rest my back, which is starting to ache bad boos.

olivejuice//

OP no more!

YES YES YES IT'S OVER! :D

well 3 more groups are having their Op now hoho..
wasnt too bad la i guess.. my script's cut into 3 and i was reallyy nervous during the first part but okay la.. pris's grp thinks i sound like im flirting with the audience when i present.. well na says that she heard somewhere that you're sposed to 'make love' with your audience, or something..

ack my Q&A was nyeh-ish.. in any case, i honestly forgot what the qn is.. OH something about biggest challenge of pw or whatnots.. =/ some ppl kinda bombed pw tho.. ohwells..

was sposed to meet nw today but he's not feeling well. yar so i watched Twister with fiona and am now sposed to do I&R.. =/

quite alot of stuff coming up and i better draw up my study plan soon or else i wont be able to fit any study time and soon the hols will be over.. gack.

Class chalet & barbeque: 5-6 nov
pltnmates!: 6 nov + 15/17 dec..?
workshop thingey tt dad signed me up for: 24-25 nov
rafflesrow: 26-29 nov perak trip. + trainings 4 times/week
flockey carnival: 17 nov
ob dudes: no plan as of yet but a reunion is in order uhuh!
mcs: jln raya i guess..? =/
academia: revision classes and MUG MUG MUG!

not tt much stuffs planned but exciting nonetheless..

hmm well i heard tt quite a number of canoeists from other schools got retained.. luckily no rj canoeist got retained.. i think it's cos the school's kind.. duno what they intend to do with the huge drop in standard tho.. nyeh..

C average for CTs. or i wont be able to row for nats or women's open etc.. can? alright let's do this woooo..

okay back to I&R.. bah.

olivejuice//

oh screw it

am exhausted. and i really really am on a short fuse.

open house today was just URGH. i dont get why mom refuses to use disposable cups and plates and utensils. we kept having to wash and wash and wash. and the kitchen sink just chose the most convenient to choke and die. GAR. which meant tt we were washing the dishes in the toilet. so unglam. mom wants to use proper glassware cos she says it feels more like home but whatthehell NOONE does tt anymore cos it's so freaking tiring and pointless and it's not like anyone gives a damn if they use disposable plates or not!! dammit.

and dad was being his usual chauvinistic self, refusing to help out in the kitchen and was being anal when i asked him to get an ice bucket, since he was in charge of getting the ice after all.. -.- oh but i guess credit goes to dad for trying to fix the sink.. keyword being trying of course.

the only friends who came over were 3 teammates. fuck who cares..

some ppl cant even reply my messages. awesome

ohyes and i am so pissed off with relatives who freeload. yes very very very very annoyed with them. i mean honestly, just because my parents are generous and they dont expect anything in return, it doesnt mean tt you should just expect us to give and give. damn friggin thickskinned sia. and the dumb anniversary project tt my parents are planning. everyone replied so super fast, yes yes we will go and drag along our whole extended freeloading family cos YAY it's free. AND I CANT EVEN GET MY BACK CHECKED OUT, EVENTHO THE PAIN REFUSES TO GO AWAY PERMANENTLY, COS IM WORRIED I MIGHT NEED PHYSIO=MONEYMONEY AND YET THEY'RE WILLING TO SPEND 5K plus ON OUR RELATIVES. im so sure.

some ppl still owe my parents the money they borrowed and they pretend it's perfectly alright not to return asap cos Oh you're very rich redi what. im so sure.

and i hate the expectations of my sisters and i. it's like they're waiting for us to screw up or something. babies out of wedlock, transverstites, gays, jailbirds, druggies, divorces, cohabitation etc. why cant i have a normal family?

screwed up day la

and yeah happy 31st woo

why

am feeling awful. funny how everything was so perfect, despite my terrible promos grades.. my parents were really understanding. they didnt scold me but they discussed with me quite thoroughly what i plan to do given my options so.. nice la.. but then i just had to screw up an otherwise great last week so yar.. awesome..

sorry i screwed up.

yst's row was nice! did 10k as usual and it didnt hurt as much.. was gliding quite abit so it felt good.. i started earlier so finished my set earlier too and py convinced me to row another 2k.. =/ rescued quite some boats yst in my t1 tt apparently looks like an ambulance.. almost capped in my t1 cos i tilted too much cos the wind was strong.. tilted back by hugging the bottom of my t1 lol..

hmm. op's scheduled for thurs.. havent touched my script since op dry run.. screwed up la.. we did video-ing for our group presentation and it's quite good haha..

right. time to work on my script. pw ftw..

olivejuice// truly madly deeply.

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haha previous post has been deleted due to safety reasons..

nothing particularly interesting so far.. cept for maybe promos results yst. we got our papers at like 8, went for a break ard 10 and then lessons started at 1135.. =/

i've been on a short fuse lately.. getting damn pissed at the random-est things and people.. strange things and i've been expressing my discontent quite obviously too nyeh..

oh craps i knocked out awhile. kay la gotta print gpp then update more next time..

olivejuice// you know i love you alot no matter what..

shagged

yst left me quite very emotionally drained. reminiscing is extremely tiring and left me quite frankly bothered at times.. =/

trg was ookay. left early for jln raya-ing so i missed land sets. it was raining in the morning too so we hadta wait in the scf shed till it got lighter but it didnt completely stop so we rowed in the rain, which was really really nice.. =) did 10k amidst the capfests. so many ppl have Such faith in the rescuing ability of us t1-ers tsk..

anw, pltn-canoemates and i now form the rj t1 fleet. oh there're no longer t1s in the guys team mehh.. in any case, yar we were reminiscing ncc days and lol-ing over significant events. like the ssc crisis and the nco combi crisis etc. and apparently i had quitee a temper.. funny how i dont recall tt bit of info.. =/ so yar trg yst was pretty fun.. sad tho tt jiaolian wants to move ge to the k fleet. owells py and i will pwns the t1 scene woo!

quick lunch with nw whee..

so then jln raya-ed with the cckpians.. our party was so small. they came to my hse first, jann & leman. lol really. mom cooked alot tho i told her only so few were coming. they ended up flirting outside while i showered.. O.o hoho!

reminisced quite abit. as usual. and i got updated with the lives of most batchmates. disappointed by most and surprised by some. a to-be father with a 14yr old? the whole day left me quite disturbed. meh.. was quite glad to be home. i really do live a very sheltered life..

i guess tt's all tt happened yst.. right i shall entertain myself with.. whatever stuff now..

stoned boos.

oh yay going out for movie with nw now. yay! =D

olivejuice//

lol memories

melz's blog is a great source of amusement..
dated 9/11/05

1. [the rest of us walked all the way to far east to take neoprints (syim's boyfriend-whose-name-i-don't-know was the only one who refused to join in), which turned out quite lame 'cos the machine was so fast that half the time we were just caught in between poses.]

2. [so, we bought tickets to the cello because sky high is a lamo movie and it didn't have any early enough screenings anyway, and all the good fun holiday movies aren't out yet. before the movie we went down to yamaha to look at all the instruments. the cool electric guitars and basses and drums. syim's boyfriend-whose-name-i-don't-know (i think i'll just call him... tom for now) was practically drooling over the bass guitars larh. i want to learn! but then i can't even handle piano and classical guitar right now so i shouldn't overestimate my ability. sigh. and siti's jinxed. she knocked over a drum or something (we ran away from her), and then when she arrived where we were some guy dropped something too (i forgot what it was, but it was expensive too i think). whoops, heh.]

3.[went down to some sports shop because hasyim wanted to look for a new waterbottle (my feet were positively killing me by that time). we took the service lift up. syim and tom acted soooo malu-ed about it larh. kept going no larh, let's not do this until i told them they looked even more suspicious standing around at the doorway of the service lobby. but the inside of the lift and the passageway out is quite scary, because it's so dark and rundown and stuff. and when the door opens it suddenly seems so possible that something would be standing there like in some cliched horror movie.]

4.[syimah dropped her drink outside the cinema. and a little boy slipped on it, poor thing.]

5.[ehh syimah and tom went to take neoprints by themselves after the movie and farin and me went to see see look look around ps. i wanted to sit down but she didn't so i insisted on going into all the cutesy cartoony stores (woah they have alot there). some of the stuff was quite nice though. they had lots of creative household items, like a salt and pepper shaker that just looked like big plastic peanuts, and that bright pink bottle plug thing that's designed to fit any bottle, but which costed like thirty bucks (sorry, i'd rather just use the original cork).

haha, in the end we went back to look for syimah and tom. syimah was throwing popcorn in the air and tom was catching it in his mouth. then they finally went in and were making all sorts of suspicious slapping noises and grunts and stuff. heh. we sat down in the booth beside theirs to wait and farina tried the catching popcorn in mouth thing, but it didn't work too well. ]

i am entirely self-absorbed. quite obviously from the cuts. but ohwells i'll work on it.. ><

okay shall watch some new vid mom bought..

shoulder hurts.

i should quit canoeing and join recre badminton. O.o HAHA!

olivejuice//go go go!!

ouch

first regen trg. was awfully painful.. well not painful now.. but it was la. just now.. =/

i carried a k1 by myself for the first time. ooh exciting. lol no i wasnt showing off but i thought it was a good bargain, considering tt i asked bim and selene to carry my t1. kinda stupid anws la. i think i got even shorter from the weight. lopsided shoulder ftw!

10k row plus saved a few cappers. did only one 500m sprint thing with meera. okay not much of a burst la considering tt we were basically inching slowly forward. awful ugh.. nj fleet was camped out at 1k mark. scared? yes. motivated? totally manz. let's pwn them all!

land sets afterwards was quite painful. quite obviously degenned bother..

hmm i've been doing some physical activities lately i guess.. more so than the past month at least. tennis, badmnton.. i realize tt i dont suck all That much at badminton so it's a fun enough game.. then netball for pe. i think i was an okay GA..

oh yes and im getting/have always been very bimbo. this is awful..

and i flirt. all the time. subconsciously! i think. duno la. dont think im a flirt seh.. =/

getting tired and cranky but i shall finish entry yupp

BLAIRWITCH PROJECT scared me shitless. it's not so much whether it's real or not. but the idea of it is just teh freaky.. was extremely shaken poots..

i've been binging tonight. am fat

ugh okay whatever i cant think anymore. need sleep

olivejuice//LOVE you. =)

power

it's just not right for anyone to have this much control over how i feel

having the ability to make me so happy and the world just so perfect
and yet also able to ruin my day with just a simple statement

someone with the power to do the former, who practices also the latter,
is a big bad bully

and me allowing that someone to do so
makes me stupid

i dont know why i continue being so

brainfart

i think it's funny how it's deemed impossible for teens to find a compatible life partner at their age. simply because we're too young to know what's right for us. it's not like all adults make the right choices on who they marry or whatnots. rising number of failed marriages blahblah.

but what if you've already found the person you'd wanna spend the rest of your life with, right now at this young age? i firmly believe that love is when you can accept someone despite being aware of their flaws, not being blinded by what you want to see in them or what you initially saw. haha just the way i dont think nw's perfect but i love him anw. and he very well knows my many imperfections(and i like to think tt he loves me too) =/

but of course everyone would doubt the possibility of us ever ending up together in the faraway future. despite them saying, "invite us to your wedding, okay?"

nyeh.

sometimes we might convince ourselves tt it's fate tt we met. or tt even if we went our separate ways, if we're fated to be together, we'll meet again. poots. i wouldn't dare risk tt chance. knowing my luck, i might never again find someone half as wonderful or annoying or .. =/

but what if Allah brought him to me(or me to him), and which i am extremely thankful for, and yet.. okay i shant pursue this point.

but still. it's probably not about the maturity of teens or our ability to make the right choices. more like circumstance i guess. god-knows jc isnt the best time to be having a love interest. what with hectic schedules and the looming As.. ugh.

well there's also the possibily tt parents would be sceptical bout us ending up with tt boy-of-choice tt they may be critical of the relationship, leading to awkward awful painful experiences.. hmm..

so teenage love is blind, silly and risky.

and despite all rational thought, i really cant fathom what makes me so determined that i really do love him and willing to spend the rest of my life with him..

life is just so strange

and im just extremely incoherent. bother

olivejuice//

row

i just realized, tt i havent rowed in more than a month. teammates have started trg but i havent. i think im getting lazy. sucks. i look at my arms and they're flabby like shit. regenning's gonna be damn painful. post-raya, i will run everyday before school. yes i will. 8 rounds min. yesyes. syimah you need to buck up. and since teammates have started rowing again and jiaolian seems to have great plans for everyone, im afraid he'd forget about me. esp since i got on his bad side for not rowing for nats. sucks.

and yet my back still seems to have some sort of problem. sucks.

i still want my gold for t1. 500, 1000. i dont care, i'd row for the gold anw. there're some pretty good j1 t1-ers. i wanna be as good as them. i wanna be better. i want them to eat my wash. i want to win gold.

i will win the gold.

almost there

wooh just 4 more days to raya! foodfoodfoodmoneymoney and yes of course meeting relatives etc. but MEH i cant drink carbonated drinks= i will have nothing to drink. well not exactly but meh mehhh. gosh i really havent drank anything gassy since tt time when the j2s told us tt we cant drink it anymore cos it kills our stamina. ouch.

in any case, raya's gonna be awesome. yesyes. ooh i like making ketupats! and i havent been helping mom with making kueh.. =/ owells today i shall.

OHYES op dry run yst. i woke up with some mother bad headache ah. knocked back out annen woke up reaally late. and found out tt i had to go for op dryn run anw. so dad sent me to sch. our group got high ME.. yar sucked. 5mins is freaking long i started getting nervous halfway nyeh!
haichoo said that i was -unprepared, need to articulate my words better, my Q&A sucked cos i didnt elaborate well. but -i have a nice voice(haha!), i have a warm and engaging manner, i was confident eventho i was unprepared =/ and i have potential to get high marks. hmm.. op ftw!

okay i think i shall play sims now. i've been postponing it for so long.. =//

olivejuice//

tmr

OP dry run tmr. i am soooo sure. and when'd we find out? wednesday. and it's not like we had nothing at all to do and had all the time in the world to do op. we had open house nyeh. well okay maybe i didnt do much except befriend ppl but still. what about all the other poor hardworking open house ppl? if not me, then poor them!

im rambling.

in any case, open house was embarassing. okay no, open house was pretty good. everything turned out alright, including the turn out yes. yup if i forgot the fact that the only person who agreed to my sch tour was a donovan from "dunman sec" and tt farin dumped me during the tour to go somewhere and so i took him on a full freaking tour under the hot sun(said some embarrassing things like asking him to try out canoeing etc). okay eventho tt's exactly what i was sposed to do, i didnt exactly want to waste my time on a j1 rockclimber from vj. i mean honestlyy! and also because i said some other embarrassing things like mentioning how i had a classmate who takes french as a h2 subject. the same guy who was apparently vj-boi's french classmate and was told the day before tt he was gonna crash. and tt fungshing and friends knew too tt i was being scammed, even before/during the sch tour. so loser. gar..

oh and also having embarassed myself yet another time doing someth so utterly stupid. i shant elaborate.

oh but i guess i did enjoy open house overall. befrienders dance with farin was just seriously lol cos we sucked and there werent tt many befrienders dancing so wth haha! taa thought me how to play the kompang! haha eventho i kinda sucked but he made me play the 'And's in 1And2And3And4. which was really quite hard so =//

oh i went bugis for buka on wed and shopped at geylang afterwards yay! and buka-ed with nazri
on friday after openhouse and i bought a handbag. O.o

ohyes and pw meeting yst was quite frankly a waste of time. but wooh finally a proper group meeting. go team! oh cept sharyn was sick so.. okay la go team anw! O.o oh but some ppl are really so GAR. okay i dont like to bitch(esp since it's the holy month and all) but i mean honestly even if the teachers didnt constantly refer to our wr during the op assessment itself, im sure someone would've noticed tt YOU LIFTED AN ENTIRE 12 PARAGRAPHS OR MORE FROM THE WR FOR YOUR SCRIPT! AND YOU COMPLAIN THAT WE DONT APPRECIATE YOU AS A GROUP LEADER?? puh-lease.

okay buka time.

olivejuice//

tagged again

The person who tagged you is:
nana

Your relationship with her is:
bestie

Your 5 impressions of her:
socks. strange. amusing. fun. starbucks

The most memorable thing she had done for you:
she made cupcakes for my 15th birthday (or was it 16th?)

The most memorable words she had said to you:
"cant you think/talk about anyth else other than food?"

If she becomes your lover, you will:
have to figure out what to do with nazri

If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be:
get new shoes tt dont have holes in em. haha!

If she becomes your enemy, you will:
flush the doctor down the toilet

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
she didnt share her food!

The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
make her not want the things tt are bad for her. hmmmm!

Your overall impression of her is:
smart

How do you think people around you will feel about you?:
i already did this in previous entry!
um.. self-centred?

The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is /are:
my stomach capacity

On the contrary, the characteristic(s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
being short and thus stocky

The most ideal person you want to be is:
brains + looks + EQ + long legs. =))

For people that care for and like you, say something to them:
TAG you're it!

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
refer to previous entry. but yeah do if you want la

okie done.

oh and

July:
Fun to be with.(YESYES!) Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.(i forget but never forgive..? =/) Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations.(not tt they're always accurate nyeh..) Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends(sometimes?). Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. =) Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

okie doneee!
-snores