ack

embarrassingly emo past few entries, let's pretend that didnt happen

i think i've been eating alot. i is too fat redi ugh

i should stop flirting with the guys around me ohnoes..

and yes, back to mug!

questions

i still cannot fathom this rather drastic decision he made.. i mean there are some things in life that i'd rather not question, like the existence of god or why we have to learn math, but this is something i really want to know. why anyone would throw away something that was so amazing, so close to perfection is beyond me..

i mean where else can you find two people with the same passion for food? (eventhough there were slight differences in the way we indulge in our passion, like the way he spams wasabe when he eats sushi or how we devour our mega burgers, which clearly shows our individuality, our similarities were enough to attract but not enough to repel, i suppose) or how about two people who derived enjoyment from hiking up bukit timah hill, time and time again?

i thought i got through to you when you started crying before the movie, that i got you to see how perfect we are for each other. but maybe it wasnt the right way to solve things either.. showing you a glimpse of the past when i should've perhaps presented you with a possibility of the future. our future. i cant rmb what i replied you when you asked if it was necessary to go through with this. well the answer is no. we didnt have to, cos we could've solved it some other way. but it's too late now i guess..

half of me still wants to hold on to the possibility of Us and that things would get back to normal, but this situation is so foreign, that i cant even view this possibility with faith. the door to our relationship is still open i guess. on the other hand, the other half of me just wants to close the door cos that's really the only way i can heal, yes? the healing process will take awhile, (plus upcoming As = AWESOME timing) and i pray that i will recover with as little scars as possible..

but you know what, i ought to feel quite pissed. this is really selfish behaviour, not to mention irrational and positively stupid. god what were you thinking..

i think anger's easier to deal with than a broken heart

okay following family to aunt's now eventho god-knows how badly i need to study.. cant bear being alone right now hoho..

oh god this is so pathetic and so drama, i'd laugh if i weren't playing a starring role, in which case it sucks

i'll be okay

stranger things have happened..

though i still cant quite believe that it actually happened. i feel sick and am hoping that i'd wake up to find that this is all a bad dream, but who am i kidding eh?

i mean this has happened countless times in the past 3yrs 7months and 7days and we somehow always manage to pass each obstacle ohkay and proceed to create more good memories. i suppose that's not gonna happen this time.. i still think that it could've been salvaged, but ahwell we'll never know la.. kinda dramatic and cliched but time will pass and i'll soon be able to forget this dreadful period and move on..

such is life anw

you know, i always thought tt when today came, (though i prayed hard tt it never would) i'd be strong enough to accept it.. i think im losing my mind. how dyou remove something that's so much a part of you anw? and pls if he did still love me, he wouldnt do this to me ryt? so yeah i guess we just weren't fated for each other, and if god-willing i'd find someone who deserves me and wont hurt me anymore.. ahwell let's hope..

it was an interesting way to end a relationship though. a re-enactment of one of the happiest days in my life.. our last day as a couple spent like our last day as just-friends.. ironic though that today's our last day as friends as well, since i dont exactly stay friends with ex-boyfriends.. but you never know, maybe when it stops hurting, i'll be civil enough to say hello..

ohh something reallyy funny happened in the bus after he got off the bus hoho.. i was being a drama queen and crying and all (sorry for the dramatics lah, i couldnt help it) and this aunty suddenly ploppped right next to me and stared. OMG SO WEIRD! i mean lawl there were many other seats in the bus la pls.. so so strange.. though i think i might've scared her when i started laughing lol..

hmmkay we shall move on now.. it's been fun, thank you.

prospect

dad invited his italian anthropologist client over for hari raya, along with his wife and another couple.. this was mainly cos i expressed interest in the area of social sciences(partly cos it seems like the only possible field i can pursue..) so yeah he explained what anthropology is, what he does and the work he's done.. he focuses on islam and religion etc and it really is fascinating.. and it seems way more interesting than sociology cos it deals with the Why and you get to meet so many people and he's travelled to so many places, so exciting!

he's gonna be attached to NUS for a year and doing research regarding muslims in singapore and societal issues, which was something i've always wanted to delve into in the future haha! bah he beat me to it but still i can just focus on opening my child care centre for the less fortunate and try to inspire these kids to break out of their current social status.. and since dr gabriele's already gonna tackle the issue, i'll know the root of the problem and be able to try and find effective solutions..

and and and the best part is that he asked me if i'd like to intern as his research assistant after As yeaahh! bah but ny only reservation is that he wont be able to pay me so i wont be able to save up for all my travelling plans.. im terrible bleah, but fantastic opportunity howww! hoho anw if anyone's interested, here's his blog lol: http://marranci.wordpress.com/

such exciting plans ahead..

but of course my priority now is to pwn As and hopefully make it to a uni with a good social sciences faculty and then pray hard tt i can get a scholarship to take my masters in anthropology overseas.. (:

lunch with linda at macs and outing with dad and sisters to lot1 was fun.. :D

pms yst, sorry for rant..

olivejuice// confusing times..

one man disco

you know, every time i end up feeling lousy and subsequently have noone to turn to to discuss why im feeling lousy or someone to simply just talk to and pretend im not feeling lousy but the simple fact that i have noone to turn to makes me question my life and the people in it

all this while, everytime this happens, i'd blame myself and think that hey i havent been the greatest of friends cos i couldnt make time for them, i couldnt hang out with them cos i had some thing or another or i dunno, maybe i just wasnt asked along due to the assumption that i couldntt have made it anw. then i realized, that in all honesty i have tried so hard to be there for the ppl i care for, people who matter to me and i did what i can given the time i had, given the circumstances. yes i have been busy with canoe, or like ncc when i was in rg. i gave these commitments everything i had but even then i really did try to be there for my friends

my point is that my friends dont seem to care what i do, how i am or what i have to say. noone tells me anything, noone cares to ask whether i'd like to come along wherever or whether i need anything from wherever even if they dont want me there or at least tell me where you're going instead of leaving me wondering where the hell you went or whether im needed there at all. friendship of convenience ftw..

im very easily affected by criticisms and usually i'd try to change. people said i talked to much, so i talked less. people said i dont listen, so i try to open my ears a little wider. i try so hard to please but some people are just so difficult to deal with. im sick of having to bear with people's moods. im sick of you treating me any way you please just because

there are lovely people who ask me if im okay when i look bummed or bother to freaking talk to me instead of ignoring me half the time. but these people have friends of their own and i cant expect to turn to them when they're busy with their own lives. i mean i have my own supposed friends who i can rely on to lend me a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear to my woes. i dont have the heart to burden these kind souls who simply asked if i was okay or even if they did ask me what's the matter, i cant expect to just spill all now, can i?

it just gets so painfully lonely somtimes..

i stop here nao cos parents are being fucking annoying

pretend

game after game after game as if As doesnt start in 34 days..

hari raya in 4 days! lol eventhough na thinks there's no point celebrating, what with As looming, the hari raya spirit is still very infectious, especially in a house where preparations are really quite imba. mom sews, makes kuehs, and omg heavenly cooking the day before raya. new curtains, new furniture, new clothes! and dad just bought the ketupat leaves so i'll probably start making em soon. and the radio that plays hari raya songs.. ahwell even if we cant enjoy it as much this year, i can still enjoy the wonderful foods and people will come over and give me money either way. so heh happy.. (:

i should mug nao.
and i will

olivejuice// happy 45th, love.. :)

stuffed

haha this morning during sahur, i somehow thought of the malay legend, "batu belah batu bertangkup":

In the story, a widow catches a tembakul fish after a hard day’s work of toiling in the fields. In the manner of those who know that delay and anticipation will sweeten the enjoyment of a trophy, she cooks the fish roe and sets aside three rations: two for each of her children, and one for herself. She goes out of the house to collect some fresh shoots.

When she comes home, she finds out that her son had demanded and eaten her share of the roe. Something in her snaps. At night, she tosses and turns in her bed, and hears the call of the phantasmal rock, Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup, swallower of suicides. It tells her: ‘You never managed to eat your roe because as much as you desired it, it never desired to be eaten by you. This is the way of the world: what we desire to touch have no desire to be touched by us. But I am your death and I have longed for you since you were born. And now all I ask for is that you have the same longing for me.’

True enough, she runs off to answer the rock’s beckoning, with her children in desperate pursuit, but their pleading voices are drowned by the voice of the rock. She stops only once to leave behind a ration of breast milk for her son, in a funnel fashioned from a big leaf, and flees deep into the rock’s bosom "

sounds pretty silly lol! and omg the son's a brat lah and you commit suicide, leaving children to grow up as orphans? lol plus the story was made into film, so im wondering how they acted out that last bit, where she gave her son 'fresh milk'.. hmm plus another site said that she was pregnant at the time, which explains why she had milk i spose, so yeah i think she was probably just suffering from an early onset of postnatal depression hmm..

in other news, dinner with nazri yst was very nice.. (:

we went to pray at the mosque first cos i made reservations for 7.30 yup.. anw sakura at orchard's pretty nice.. the location's strategic i guess, eventhough the view's not that awesome.. but most importantly, the food was good yay! nazzer claims that i ate more than him meh!

1) mussels, chicken.. etc Vs. pizza slice, lots of sushi
2) fried stuffs and otah Vs. fried stuffs and otah with rice
3) mushroom soup Vs. laksa
4) lamb chop Vs. lamb chop
5) sushi Vs. jap noodle thing
6) fruit & crab salad, pasta
7) fake shark fin soup
8) 2 squares of oreo cheesecake Vs. 1 square of oreo cheesecake
and i drank 4 cups of drinks, which he kopped most of.. okay fine so maybe i ate more, but he had lotsa sushi and rice, which was why he was too full to eat more. yes..

oh btw sis was having dinner with her friends there too, which was pretty lol.. she wanted me to wait for her to go home together.. walked ard cine with nazzer for half an hour but sis wasnt done still so we went home yup.

haha so exciting ryt?? =/

better spam econs now..

oh dad asked who i went out with last night.
i pray for the day where i wont have to lie bah..

olivejuice//

nightly activities

trip to malaysia yst was superbly awesome.. the shopping was ohkayy.. only bout a pair of sexy red heels lol.. the best part was of course post-buka yay! the food escapade went as planned, cept that we didnt go to the ice cream place cos everyone was too full.. little sisters and i got mudpie mcflurry tho so it's okay.. (:

ohyes and 9 more fasting days yay! so far i've managed to do terawih every night cept for those days that i cant.. and tahajud in the morning, hopefully until the last day of puasa.. and im beginning to realize why my granma and all the other old ladies around me during hari raya prayers always cry on such a joyous occasion hmm..

anw got this forwarded email from dad.. we discussed the scenario in rg for philo but i dont rmb what the verdict was.. =/

a group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of thekids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place? Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends whochose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest ofthe majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not toplay with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover,that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers onboard at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the rightone.

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

interesting. kay neopets then econs! =D

olivejuice//

girls

the problem with having only girls in the house and no brother is that when a lizard or any other horrendous creature makes its way into the house, you get a hell lot of screaming.

but the lizard was so fat and disgusting wtg! and it appeared on the wall next to the com i was using.. ): and im always the one who's expected to get rid of these things, since im the one closest to being a guy bah. and even then, when i do pick up the courage to approach the vile creature, it'd mostly end up like this:
-poke.
screams all around.

what a bunch of sissies girls are

OFF TO FOOD PARADISE NOW

olivejuice//

much to do

didnt really mug as much as planned.. did some econs and tutored sis yup..

oh went to the mosque around the bukit timah/balmoral/dalvey(??) area, which really is a pretty little mosque.. kampung-like and isnt spammed with that many ppl cos it's pretty secluded.. the imam today is a descendent of nabi muhammad.. O.o but he reads the surahs super super fast, so lol! ishak started at 8.45 and we completed 20 rakaat & 3 withir by 9.45.. O.o!! amusing haha..

going msia for shopping and buka tmr.. initially wanted to go for hotel buffet, but decided to go for the more exciting option, which was something we did during mothers' day.. we're gonna eat at this nice little restaurant, prolly something simple, then head over to pelangi shopping centre to pray.. and and and that place has this exciting ice cream parlour that sells swensens' ice cream yay! i'd prolly get oreo cheesecake too heh.. yup then we'll buy auntie anne's pretzel and sushi!

MALAYSIA IS FOOD PARADISE! =D

kay some neopets before sleep whee

olivejuice// ):

party now mug tmr

so prelims is finally FINALLY over. god that felt like forever manz.. worse still, As is gonna cover up to 3 weeks, somewhat.. so painful bah..

uh anw dont think i did too well lah.. prolly better than ct2 but still pretty awful i think.. haha and As countdown: (including today, which is pretty much gone hoho) 42 days. give me a 'S' 'C' 'R' 'E' 'W' 'E' 'D', what dyou get? SCREWED. yup thaaaaat's ME! (: -sigh.

oh been trying to amuse myself by putting a piece of bluetack, (which i found on my table during my first paper) under my ic, in hope that the teacher would pick it up but none of them did.. ):

post-prelims partying was fun.. h1 physics end 15mins earlier so i dragged na to comlab to play.. *drumrolls* NEOPETS! hahaha omg im addicted again, so terrible! and co-camp ic dude's addicted nao too apparently, so we're like soulmates omgg.. haha and sharan commented on my facebook, "omg i thought i was the only idiot out there!" but know what, there's nothing wrong with neopets, it's like a totally hip & happening scene! not like msbimbo or kingdomofloathing.. -shifty eyed.. HAHA!

so anw, played bball with the class dudes, guys mostly & sharynmelamepris.. OMG i want to complain! it's so horrible that the guys treat me differently from the Other girls, ie. melamepris, cos like they NEVER attack/mark those girls and like totally give them chance lah! and sharyn and i are treated like like MEN. i mean, i think it's fine and very awesome actually that the guys have no reservations bout playing a fair and exciting game, esp with the way they treat the other girls (echoing their squeals O.o, and maintaining a safety radii around them, (how to play bball like that??) but of course this didnt apply for prischun.. -.-) ahwell but i spose the female in me would think that being acknowledged as a girl once in awhile, would be a nice change..

hmm we played with a bunch of random boys as well.. oh yes and some boys just refuse to pass the ball, it's so frustrating! then half the time, they cant even dribble properly and lose the ball before even reaching the other half of the court! my theory is that boys are possesive with their balls, cos of their male ego, and also cos it's like a symbol of their manhood, ie. in control of their balls. i mentioned this to one of the guys, but i forgot who, and he figured that it's possible.. im so smart! =D

jeffrey had a little accident with royce's rockhard head (which is filled with all the smarts, no wonder so hard) and hadta be rushed for medical assistance.. =// hope he's alright now..

dinner with FariNa and melz was fun.. met them at bk @ ps, where i didnt actually spend on food, only a big gulp and finished na's burger.. we then trooped over to arab street where we intended to get morrocan food but decided that we were actually quite full.. lol then took a longgg walk to suntec/marina square then na & i went home..

exciting account of my exciting day yup.

KAY NEOPETS NAO :)))

olivejuice//

syimstar

kay dad emailed me something that was pretty impt but ppl dont really open forwarded emails nowadays, do they? =/ anw here it is:

anw it's not really halal, just no pork no lard, and the halal certification was actually for the central kitchen of the hotel, not the cafe. (something like that, i cant rmb woops) and yar muis is taking action, so in the mean time, here's my part woo!

dont wanna talk about prelims till it's over.
but yup the worst is pretty much over,
time to screw physics hoorah..

olivejuice//

live like you were dying

from dr fang-
ps: no one should ask about my retreat at the beach. I am still very sore about having to cancel my much anticipated holidays - thanks to the rebels in Thailand! People, draw your ADAS to discuss the impact of political unrest on Thailand's economy.

she is officially teh maddest econs teacher <3! i will miss her verily eventhough i am and perhaps forever will be, a country club member. (:

in other news, the fasting month officially started yst. second day of fasting and i cannot fast already >:/

mug has been painful but productive. i hate this life boos..

if i were to die tmr,
i'd be very sad.

olivejuice// ijustrealizedthat3yrs5mthsisprettylongforkidslikeushaha!

pms

a few things i learnt about myself this week:
1. i really cant stand ppl with no tact, or see no need in being tactful. and hurts others in the process, even if it's not intended to. i dont mean that people should avoid saying some things just so that they would not hurt the person. im all for honesty, but yeah just know how to say things right la. idiots. (this is a general observation)

2. i simply cannot have proper conversations. partly cos of my bad grasp of well, words, and my lack of having anything interesting, entertaining or in any way important to talk about. i get the feel that people around me, would rather move on to the next person. maybe next time my conversations should go like this, "oh Hi. it's okay, you can go talk to him/her now"

3. i realize that i really hate ppl thinking that im stupid. i really really do. and i can fucking tell if you think im dense la, gar. what i lack in iq is prolly made up for in eq. okay that was a rather pompous comment hoho.

4. i am too bloody sensitive. i read too much into actions, words, expressions and get all worked up and this affects my productivity alott. i feel too much in general, i think. seriously, i should've been a boy. boys feels alot less, dont they? =/

5. i wish i was a boy.

6. if you asked me which year in my 18yrs of living, i'd be happy to be stuck in, i'd say 2005, when i was in sec3 and 15. that year was awesome cos of:
a. ob spore
b. perbayu drama
c. nazri and the whole falling in love thing
d. ob sabah
e. om
f. sis said my figure was nicest that year
though there are of course a few things i could do without, like:
i. specs course and embarrassing myself so bad
ii. feeling like a total failure when i found out i wasnt selected for snr specs
iii. the trials and tribulations of an unapproved relationship

7. im looking at people differently nowadays and becoming less accepting of their flaws.

plus i cant wait to get out of stifling relationships and get to know new people. i wanna reach out and connect, but i want to do so on a brand new slate. it sucks when you start to have to think around people you'd usually be fine around. or when you cant shake the feeling that they'd rather not be around you and that you're just a stopgap before someone more entertaining comes along

life sucks.
on a brighter note,
i've managed to satisfy most of my cravings/food loves just before the fasting month starts on monday. so far i've had: swensens' mega burger, bubble tea, fries & apple pie from macs, kfc chicken meal, lambchop, anatolia beef doner, yami yogurt tropicana peach, Royals' oreo cheesecake, rambutan, stall 11 food haha and hopefully tmr i can get my takoyaki from jp banquet and Javachip venti from starbucks. (:

i think the reason why i love food so much is because it's always there for me.. hmm.

went out for na's birthday outing today with the usual dudes. anatolia and just talking was fun.. then pretending to be taufiq on the phone was entertaining too. then we went to lan for an hour and played counterstrike, which i maintain is still a horriblehorrible game. no wonder kids nowadays are becoming more violent. but still, the short bouts of cheap thrill was, well, thrilling. oh and wtf ew taufiq wore my pants. D:

gp prelims was okay. essay was pretty good i thought. but i think i screwed compre. sigh

we made shirts for the teachers for teachers' day. a bunch of us designed it and linda printed it and passed it to me yst morning to iron on. they look pretty darn good, im proud of us. (:

27/08/08- Happy 41st, love. here's to more months/years together ahead.. =)

i need to finish maths by tonight kbye

olivejuice// i love you more than anything

break the ice

haha went ice skating with nazzer and his little sister on sat cos he hadta babysit her lol.. it was really fun and i took alot of videos yay!
i liked this one best haha:

haha the end bit is Lol and oh-so-adorable.. (:

anw i received this, 'speech to the graduating class of 2008 at NTU convocation ceremony last week by Adrian Tan, a litigation lawyer and the author of The Teenage Textbook' in my email and i quite liked this bit

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It
may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen
naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is
anti-love. We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their
flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone,
than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason.
Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work– the only kind of work
that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration,
learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word,
we call happiness. In loving
someone, we become inspired to better
ourselves in every way. We learn the truth
worthlessness of material things. We celebrate
being human. Loving is good for the soul

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also
important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love
doesn't happen by chance,
at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows
slowly, sinking roots first before branching and
blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the
face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important
than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love
is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is
to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it
comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in
your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology.
It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

eh so long. =//

went to gym with priya just now and omg im so degenned, we only did light-weights and i wanted to cry cos i was so tired meh! and stupid threadmill, i hate running. D:

achingg like mad.

kay mug time nao..

LIYANA IS A PONNER! (pfffft)

olivejuice// get well soon kay? ):

fangirl

was watching the women's gymnastics olympics events and they're really super awesome..

i always wanted to be a gymnast boos! doubt parents would've let me join anw cos of the attire.. ): i rmb in sec1 when my french classes were in the second aftn slot and all the rg girls had the first slot, and there was a period of time when i went to watch alot of gym competitions(cant be nats ryt? cos it was pretty early on in the year.. =/), which were held at bishan stadium.. so yup then i'd run off for french and manage to fill up my match support card too yay!

i really really really really really wanna try the uneven bars.. ):

so anw, Nadia Comaneci is damn awesome! and how she got together with her husband is sho cute. haha! plus- "Because Romania's government regarded her as a valuable Communist model of domination in sports and because it feared that she might defect to the United States, they no longer allowed her to travel to Western countries." she reigned during the time of the cold war, fancy that! she ran away to america in late 1989 lol.. anw, must watch This:


ohwait this girl's bloody awesome too haha!


owells sch was kinda bleah. some things were bothering me so yup left sch asap after seahist lecture and tried not to think too much.. (:

oh but since i rushed home, i didnt get to vote for the prom nominees myself and got nigel to do it for me.. michelle chia for prom queen! haha! =D

seeing nazzer tmr yay.. =)

olivejuice//

bring it on

na's made me realize that there's no point agonizing about this odd oddd situation, so yes i've decided to embrace my super duper hot body yes! O.o random acquaintances have come up to me and LOL-ed but it's okay.. in fact i've secured quite some votes from old friends.. and of course from the dudes i've threatened as well.. connecting with my fans indeed lol. haha!

alright so for those who have not noticed the television sets around sch, this is the picture i sent in:

though i thought this picture fit ms/mr 'hot bod' best,
(i look damn fierce lol lol!!)

and this one was

lol.

HUMBLE BEGINNINGS:

farin's favourite (confused) water buffalo, yo.

Random picture of the day:

baby's so super cute! and i look almost motherly hahhh!

right hoho. new phone! w760i. (:

olivejuice// catch me if you can.

fat

need to go on a diet. eating less would definitely be very difficult for me but owells shall try eating healthier stuff. and it's about time i hit the gym, flabs everywhere's starting to gross me out ack.

kitchen and toilet at home have been bombed. went to check out the damage last night and got damn shocked. looked like a scene from a horror show. raw untiled walls and floor and mounds of sand. teh freaky!!

right okay Sat, dad had work so sisters and i went to watch the ndp fireworks ourselves cos littlest sister looked so disappointed, poor thing. anw yeah damn good view of the water shows and fireworks right in front, plus starbucks right behind yay good life..

Sunday- mugged at home but very sloww. Summation took up a hell lot of time gar..

Monday. went out with nazzer in the morning, where he took very long and alott of persuading to finally agree to fetch me home after his jamming session. but then me being the totally understanding girlfriend (hahaha) decided to mug at natl library instead, where i'll be nearer to his jamming studio. walked the long botanic gardens route, which isnt all that fun anymore somehow. =/ nazzer fed me spaghetti that he half cooked. =//

finally finally made it to natl lib but i knocked out for 30mins before i got down to productive UN mugging. (:

then nazzer fetched me home.
im damn emo and i think too much bout the silliest things how? D:

oh 8/14 of the 5a girls were having relationship discussion/consultation during break just now.. one word: LOL.

ah right another LOL-ing thing. I is Ms Hot Bod nominee. D: argh what a joke, i hope teammates will at least vote for me since they're putting me through this in the first place.. Deborahtan is Hotbod nominee too, but she's pretty at least so she'll get quite some votes. know what, it's sad and kind-of embarrassing to be considered "hot" because of our manly attributes. ah wth..

ahwell whoever's reading this entry better vote too. -glares and cracks knuckles. sigh..

olivejuice// cheers to a very special relationship..

look where we are

we've come so far,
and there's still a longggggg long way to go~!

i think i still like that natl day song best lol..

yst was a super long, draining and maddd day.. started with gp in the morning, where ms soh decided that i was incapable of successfully attempting a certain essay qn. was rather insulted owells.. then lessons continued, break-less till 3pm including gp and ihist rem. then right after tt i hadta send class pictures to whoever for the farewell video montage thing. then chiong gp essay..

finally finally had free buffet dinner at 4.30! took two plates of noodles, 5chicken drumlets and lots of fishball! :D and na helped me buy starbucks whee! then jean and i rushed our essays till 6 plus hoho..

only approx half the class sat together for the natl day concert boos! ohh and it rained so they hadta use the hall instead of the $10,000 stage at the stadium.. O.o ahwell.. concert wasnt too bad.. promethean ceremony was ohkay cept that i screamed for canoeing when the ppl ard a relatively quiet area, which was pretty embarrassing.. emcees were rather -.- but vadi was lovee "i need to take care of my goat. bekk", performances were not bad i guess, but the gym collaboration thing was awesomeeee! but of course, highlight of the day was community singing, as usual.. funny how there wasnt really a need for the lyrics on the screen when practically everyone remembers the words to pretty much all the natl day songs.. effective nationalistic propaganda, yo. the dudes were fun to sing with haha! and yes, am gonna go clubbing with zijian, the closet patriot, and request for natl day songs only cos we know which parts of the song to jump to lol! i wasnt drunk, really.

bummed awhile in the canteen with FariNa and melz.. dad fetched farin and i afterwards yupp..
and heh using the many lightsticks that somehow ended up going home with me, i made this:

lol.

we had thursday timetable on wed so sch was pretty slack.. wanted to donate blood with sharyn after sch and even tried to get the rest of the class to go as well.. so anw after waiting for approx 30mins, and only a the 2nd station ie medical checkup, i got bloody rejected zomg! cos i ticked yes for "have you had something something, chestpains etc before?" and the doctor insisted i go for a checkup before i can ever donate again. eventho i insisted it wasnt serious, and that i was a canoeist. ): sharyn got rejected too, at the final blood-sucking station cos they couldnt find her vein.. -.- ahwell we have a date next year to go donate blood, hopefully, lol! so yeah didnt get coolios bandage but somehow managed to get my oreos cos i told the organizers tt i needed comfort food to soothe my disappoinment. lol it worked at least.. then mugged at lib with FariNa till ninee..

only did maths today, so sloww..

haha i thought wenchun was kidding when he said he put the video up on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6lQLcmtZmqk
not embarrassing la, only na has the real weapons of mass destruction..
and having mentioned that, i am worried. =/

gonna see the fireworks with family tmr.. O.o

ah and renovations for the kitchen and toilet starts on sat. must stay away from home in the afternoons if i wish to mug in peace.. ):

kaymugnao
olivejuice//

T3W7

my my how fast time flies..

maths has been productive but hist has been slowww.. D:

diephysicsandecons. oh drfang didnt hide her shock when i answered her qn correctly in class today.. well laksh whispered the answer, but tt's not the point. im dumb and im sure everyone agrees too.. -depressed.

and horrible haircut, i look like a mushroom. -depressed summore.

on the upside, canoe dinner on friday was awesome. (: we had the whole upper floor of amirah's grill, where we made a hell lot of noise, it was crazy. food was GREAT! i was the first to get food heh. ohh but 17bucks buffet when they hardly refilled (approx 60 ppl leyh!) was kinda ripoff pfft.. oh but na was right, turkish food is very filling.. i only had one plate of ricebeeffishchicken, 2 bowls of mushroom soup, two plates of coleslaw, one small plate of hummus+bread building(haha i can be an architect!), fruits and alot of fruit punch. i usually eat alot more at buffets.. ):

so anw the girls sat at the coolios nefertitti and cleopatra areas where guys werent allowed to enter, so t we could sit cross-legged on the floor in our little dresses. omgz im such a skank, i wore a tiny dress, which somehow py convinced me to not wear with pants, and just so happens to be melho's top. im so short! D: oh and my name was sarah that night cos im a bad muslim in my shortshort dress. py says i need to pray 60times.. O.o haha!

lol but most of us were sleepy i think, but we did try to excite our lives by playing silly games.. shootshagmarry,where i decided to shag mary and marry nazri.. O.o and dare&dare where jiaqi got to choose to sit on either winnie or bryan (she chose winnie aww), prav got dared to sit next to aaron and ruffle his hair(major AWWW) and deb tapdanced in the middle of the room HAHAHA. alot of gossiping, as usual. small gift-exchange with the j1s and yupp that's pretty much it.. arab street's pretty freaky at night.. =/

pictures soon.

hmmm hasnt been a very eventful week..
oh mom had to babysit little niece last thurs so i ponned econs rem to go home and watch her.. (:

liyana and i ran into our h1 physics teacher on friday a few minutes before the class started and so we couldnt pon the lesson.. (na is jinxed boos)

having 3hr break now and na went home about an hour ago cos she had a crazy nose-bleed.. O.o scary..

okay nothing much else happened.

meeting nazri at 2. finally after so longg..
happyhappy. (:
sleepy need sleep nao..

olivejuice//