syimstar

kay dad emailed me something that was pretty impt but ppl dont really open forwarded emails nowadays, do they? =/ anw here it is:

anw it's not really halal, just no pork no lard, and the halal certification was actually for the central kitchen of the hotel, not the cafe. (something like that, i cant rmb woops) and yar muis is taking action, so in the mean time, here's my part woo!

dont wanna talk about prelims till it's over.
but yup the worst is pretty much over,
time to screw physics hoorah..

olivejuice//

live like you were dying

from dr fang-
ps: no one should ask about my retreat at the beach. I am still very sore about having to cancel my much anticipated holidays - thanks to the rebels in Thailand! People, draw your ADAS to discuss the impact of political unrest on Thailand's economy.

she is officially teh maddest econs teacher <3! i will miss her verily eventhough i am and perhaps forever will be, a country club member. (:

in other news, the fasting month officially started yst. second day of fasting and i cannot fast already >:/

mug has been painful but productive. i hate this life boos..

if i were to die tmr,
i'd be very sad.

olivejuice// ijustrealizedthat3yrs5mthsisprettylongforkidslikeushaha!

pms

a few things i learnt about myself this week:
1. i really cant stand ppl with no tact, or see no need in being tactful. and hurts others in the process, even if it's not intended to. i dont mean that people should avoid saying some things just so that they would not hurt the person. im all for honesty, but yeah just know how to say things right la. idiots. (this is a general observation)

2. i simply cannot have proper conversations. partly cos of my bad grasp of well, words, and my lack of having anything interesting, entertaining or in any way important to talk about. i get the feel that people around me, would rather move on to the next person. maybe next time my conversations should go like this, "oh Hi. it's okay, you can go talk to him/her now"

3. i realize that i really hate ppl thinking that im stupid. i really really do. and i can fucking tell if you think im dense la, gar. what i lack in iq is prolly made up for in eq. okay that was a rather pompous comment hoho.

4. i am too bloody sensitive. i read too much into actions, words, expressions and get all worked up and this affects my productivity alott. i feel too much in general, i think. seriously, i should've been a boy. boys feels alot less, dont they? =/

5. i wish i was a boy.

6. if you asked me which year in my 18yrs of living, i'd be happy to be stuck in, i'd say 2005, when i was in sec3 and 15. that year was awesome cos of:
a. ob spore
b. perbayu drama
c. nazri and the whole falling in love thing
d. ob sabah
e. om
f. sis said my figure was nicest that year
though there are of course a few things i could do without, like:
i. specs course and embarrassing myself so bad
ii. feeling like a total failure when i found out i wasnt selected for snr specs
iii. the trials and tribulations of an unapproved relationship

7. im looking at people differently nowadays and becoming less accepting of their flaws.

plus i cant wait to get out of stifling relationships and get to know new people. i wanna reach out and connect, but i want to do so on a brand new slate. it sucks when you start to have to think around people you'd usually be fine around. or when you cant shake the feeling that they'd rather not be around you and that you're just a stopgap before someone more entertaining comes along

life sucks.
on a brighter note,
i've managed to satisfy most of my cravings/food loves just before the fasting month starts on monday. so far i've had: swensens' mega burger, bubble tea, fries & apple pie from macs, kfc chicken meal, lambchop, anatolia beef doner, yami yogurt tropicana peach, Royals' oreo cheesecake, rambutan, stall 11 food haha and hopefully tmr i can get my takoyaki from jp banquet and Javachip venti from starbucks. (:

i think the reason why i love food so much is because it's always there for me.. hmm.

went out for na's birthday outing today with the usual dudes. anatolia and just talking was fun.. then pretending to be taufiq on the phone was entertaining too. then we went to lan for an hour and played counterstrike, which i maintain is still a horriblehorrible game. no wonder kids nowadays are becoming more violent. but still, the short bouts of cheap thrill was, well, thrilling. oh and wtf ew taufiq wore my pants. D:

gp prelims was okay. essay was pretty good i thought. but i think i screwed compre. sigh

we made shirts for the teachers for teachers' day. a bunch of us designed it and linda printed it and passed it to me yst morning to iron on. they look pretty darn good, im proud of us. (:

27/08/08- Happy 41st, love. here's to more months/years together ahead.. =)

i need to finish maths by tonight kbye

olivejuice// i love you more than anything

break the ice

haha went ice skating with nazzer and his little sister on sat cos he hadta babysit her lol.. it was really fun and i took alot of videos yay!
i liked this one best haha:

haha the end bit is Lol and oh-so-adorable.. (:

anw i received this, 'speech to the graduating class of 2008 at NTU convocation ceremony last week by Adrian Tan, a litigation lawyer and the author of The Teenage Textbook' in my email and i quite liked this bit

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It
may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen
naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is
anti-love. We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their
flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone,
than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason.
Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work– the only kind of work
that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration,
learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word,
we call happiness. In loving
someone, we become inspired to better
ourselves in every way. We learn the truth
worthlessness of material things. We celebrate
being human. Loving is good for the soul

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also
important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love
doesn't happen by chance,
at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows
slowly, sinking roots first before branching and
blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the
face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important
than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love
is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is
to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it
comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in
your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology.
It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

eh so long. =//

went to gym with priya just now and omg im so degenned, we only did light-weights and i wanted to cry cos i was so tired meh! and stupid threadmill, i hate running. D:

achingg like mad.

kay mug time nao..

LIYANA IS A PONNER! (pfffft)

olivejuice// get well soon kay? ):

fangirl

was watching the women's gymnastics olympics events and they're really super awesome..

i always wanted to be a gymnast boos! doubt parents would've let me join anw cos of the attire.. ): i rmb in sec1 when my french classes were in the second aftn slot and all the rg girls had the first slot, and there was a period of time when i went to watch alot of gym competitions(cant be nats ryt? cos it was pretty early on in the year.. =/), which were held at bishan stadium.. so yup then i'd run off for french and manage to fill up my match support card too yay!

i really really really really really wanna try the uneven bars.. ):

so anw, Nadia Comaneci is damn awesome! and how she got together with her husband is sho cute. haha! plus- "Because Romania's government regarded her as a valuable Communist model of domination in sports and because it feared that she might defect to the United States, they no longer allowed her to travel to Western countries." she reigned during the time of the cold war, fancy that! she ran away to america in late 1989 lol.. anw, must watch This:


ohwait this girl's bloody awesome too haha!


owells sch was kinda bleah. some things were bothering me so yup left sch asap after seahist lecture and tried not to think too much.. (:

oh but since i rushed home, i didnt get to vote for the prom nominees myself and got nigel to do it for me.. michelle chia for prom queen! haha! =D

seeing nazzer tmr yay.. =)

olivejuice//

bring it on

na's made me realize that there's no point agonizing about this odd oddd situation, so yes i've decided to embrace my super duper hot body yes! O.o random acquaintances have come up to me and LOL-ed but it's okay.. in fact i've secured quite some votes from old friends.. and of course from the dudes i've threatened as well.. connecting with my fans indeed lol. haha!

alright so for those who have not noticed the television sets around sch, this is the picture i sent in:

though i thought this picture fit ms/mr 'hot bod' best,
(i look damn fierce lol lol!!)

and this one was

lol.

HUMBLE BEGINNINGS:

farin's favourite (confused) water buffalo, yo.

Random picture of the day:

baby's so super cute! and i look almost motherly hahhh!

right hoho. new phone! w760i. (:

olivejuice// catch me if you can.

fat

need to go on a diet. eating less would definitely be very difficult for me but owells shall try eating healthier stuff. and it's about time i hit the gym, flabs everywhere's starting to gross me out ack.

kitchen and toilet at home have been bombed. went to check out the damage last night and got damn shocked. looked like a scene from a horror show. raw untiled walls and floor and mounds of sand. teh freaky!!

right okay Sat, dad had work so sisters and i went to watch the ndp fireworks ourselves cos littlest sister looked so disappointed, poor thing. anw yeah damn good view of the water shows and fireworks right in front, plus starbucks right behind yay good life..

Sunday- mugged at home but very sloww. Summation took up a hell lot of time gar..

Monday. went out with nazzer in the morning, where he took very long and alott of persuading to finally agree to fetch me home after his jamming session. but then me being the totally understanding girlfriend (hahaha) decided to mug at natl library instead, where i'll be nearer to his jamming studio. walked the long botanic gardens route, which isnt all that fun anymore somehow. =/ nazzer fed me spaghetti that he half cooked. =//

finally finally made it to natl lib but i knocked out for 30mins before i got down to productive UN mugging. (:

then nazzer fetched me home.
im damn emo and i think too much bout the silliest things how? D:

oh 8/14 of the 5a girls were having relationship discussion/consultation during break just now.. one word: LOL.

ah right another LOL-ing thing. I is Ms Hot Bod nominee. D: argh what a joke, i hope teammates will at least vote for me since they're putting me through this in the first place.. Deborahtan is Hotbod nominee too, but she's pretty at least so she'll get quite some votes. know what, it's sad and kind-of embarrassing to be considered "hot" because of our manly attributes. ah wth..

ahwell whoever's reading this entry better vote too. -glares and cracks knuckles. sigh..

olivejuice// cheers to a very special relationship..

look where we are

we've come so far,
and there's still a longggggg long way to go~!

i think i still like that natl day song best lol..

yst was a super long, draining and maddd day.. started with gp in the morning, where ms soh decided that i was incapable of successfully attempting a certain essay qn. was rather insulted owells.. then lessons continued, break-less till 3pm including gp and ihist rem. then right after tt i hadta send class pictures to whoever for the farewell video montage thing. then chiong gp essay..

finally finally had free buffet dinner at 4.30! took two plates of noodles, 5chicken drumlets and lots of fishball! :D and na helped me buy starbucks whee! then jean and i rushed our essays till 6 plus hoho..

only approx half the class sat together for the natl day concert boos! ohh and it rained so they hadta use the hall instead of the $10,000 stage at the stadium.. O.o ahwell.. concert wasnt too bad.. promethean ceremony was ohkay cept that i screamed for canoeing when the ppl ard a relatively quiet area, which was pretty embarrassing.. emcees were rather -.- but vadi was lovee "i need to take care of my goat. bekk", performances were not bad i guess, but the gym collaboration thing was awesomeeee! but of course, highlight of the day was community singing, as usual.. funny how there wasnt really a need for the lyrics on the screen when practically everyone remembers the words to pretty much all the natl day songs.. effective nationalistic propaganda, yo. the dudes were fun to sing with haha! and yes, am gonna go clubbing with zijian, the closet patriot, and request for natl day songs only cos we know which parts of the song to jump to lol! i wasnt drunk, really.

bummed awhile in the canteen with FariNa and melz.. dad fetched farin and i afterwards yupp..
and heh using the many lightsticks that somehow ended up going home with me, i made this:

lol.

we had thursday timetable on wed so sch was pretty slack.. wanted to donate blood with sharyn after sch and even tried to get the rest of the class to go as well.. so anw after waiting for approx 30mins, and only a the 2nd station ie medical checkup, i got bloody rejected zomg! cos i ticked yes for "have you had something something, chestpains etc before?" and the doctor insisted i go for a checkup before i can ever donate again. eventho i insisted it wasnt serious, and that i was a canoeist. ): sharyn got rejected too, at the final blood-sucking station cos they couldnt find her vein.. -.- ahwell we have a date next year to go donate blood, hopefully, lol! so yeah didnt get coolios bandage but somehow managed to get my oreos cos i told the organizers tt i needed comfort food to soothe my disappoinment. lol it worked at least.. then mugged at lib with FariNa till ninee..

only did maths today, so sloww..

haha i thought wenchun was kidding when he said he put the video up on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6lQLcmtZmqk
not embarrassing la, only na has the real weapons of mass destruction..
and having mentioned that, i am worried. =/

gonna see the fireworks with family tmr.. O.o

ah and renovations for the kitchen and toilet starts on sat. must stay away from home in the afternoons if i wish to mug in peace.. ):

kaymugnao
olivejuice//

T3W7

my my how fast time flies..

maths has been productive but hist has been slowww.. D:

diephysicsandecons. oh drfang didnt hide her shock when i answered her qn correctly in class today.. well laksh whispered the answer, but tt's not the point. im dumb and im sure everyone agrees too.. -depressed.

and horrible haircut, i look like a mushroom. -depressed summore.

on the upside, canoe dinner on friday was awesome. (: we had the whole upper floor of amirah's grill, where we made a hell lot of noise, it was crazy. food was GREAT! i was the first to get food heh. ohh but 17bucks buffet when they hardly refilled (approx 60 ppl leyh!) was kinda ripoff pfft.. oh but na was right, turkish food is very filling.. i only had one plate of ricebeeffishchicken, 2 bowls of mushroom soup, two plates of coleslaw, one small plate of hummus+bread building(haha i can be an architect!), fruits and alot of fruit punch. i usually eat alot more at buffets.. ):

so anw the girls sat at the coolios nefertitti and cleopatra areas where guys werent allowed to enter, so t we could sit cross-legged on the floor in our little dresses. omgz im such a skank, i wore a tiny dress, which somehow py convinced me to not wear with pants, and just so happens to be melho's top. im so short! D: oh and my name was sarah that night cos im a bad muslim in my shortshort dress. py says i need to pray 60times.. O.o haha!

lol but most of us were sleepy i think, but we did try to excite our lives by playing silly games.. shootshagmarry,where i decided to shag mary and marry nazri.. O.o and dare&dare where jiaqi got to choose to sit on either winnie or bryan (she chose winnie aww), prav got dared to sit next to aaron and ruffle his hair(major AWWW) and deb tapdanced in the middle of the room HAHAHA. alot of gossiping, as usual. small gift-exchange with the j1s and yupp that's pretty much it.. arab street's pretty freaky at night.. =/

pictures soon.

hmmm hasnt been a very eventful week..
oh mom had to babysit little niece last thurs so i ponned econs rem to go home and watch her.. (:

liyana and i ran into our h1 physics teacher on friday a few minutes before the class started and so we couldnt pon the lesson.. (na is jinxed boos)

having 3hr break now and na went home about an hour ago cos she had a crazy nose-bleed.. O.o scary..

okay nothing much else happened.

meeting nazri at 2. finally after so longg..
happyhappy. (:
sleepy need sleep nao..

olivejuice//

when im missing you

day before nats.


imba stability woahh!
(wordplay HAH)


meera's hand looks a tad bit too close to my boobs


god i miss doing water sets with them


posing in the pond yay!

i miss canoeing very much.. it's been only two weeks and im going mad from school school and more school..

watched dark knight with nazzer today.. amazing lah, what else can i say? (:

pms+angst+headaches+whatever else = eventful date..

olivejuice// happy 40th, love..

the art of conversation

is something i am yet to master i think.

i feel inadequate and stupid and pointless. -sad.

so napfa today was pretty interesting.. napfa with priya's very entertaining.. (: kay got all As cept for sit-and-reach, which i got B for, which is an improvement from last year's C la i guess.. 46 ipulls, 40 situps(i stopped at 40 cos i got bored haha! plus i couldnt stand the sensation of having my tummy fats squishing), 10.5 shuttlerun, 203 sbj.. degen-ed muchly for some of em, no more 50ish ipulls and HAHA 2.4 was da bomb. i couldnt get out of the run despite complaining bout my back, which REALLY was hurting after 5 items but the woman wouldnt excuse me! ): py didnt the run with me cos her rashes were acting up again..

oh i made a folder in my mp3 player called 'NAPFA 13minutes' and added the following songs:
1) About you now
2) Can you hear me?
3) How far we've come
4) Lemon tree (techno remix) HAHA!
fast songs yeah, and the last song is definitely the bestest song to listen to when you're sprinting.. TECHNO FTW! lol..

ohyeah 13.10 for 2.4, which was roughly the timing i did in sec1, ie degen! running to music is pretty fun.. (=

went for nazri's council handover thingey yst after convincing taufiq to go.. though he claims that i used my feminine wiles on him.. but i didnt. =/

so anw, we were late for the ceremony, and entered the lt when the goh was giving his speech.. nazzer darling looks super super cute in the blazer, but his camwhore pictures in the video montage thing were cringe-worthy yup.. the reception was awesomeee! then we were couldnt go for the college tour cos we were still eating, so nazzer took us on a personal tour, which was rather entertaining.. i was feeling very sociable so i pretended to be the socialite girlfriend and engaged in friendly banter.. (: what was most amusing was when a girl in nazzer's committee came over to say hello.
she said: "Hi, im Nazri's head", to which i replied, "Oh so nazri has two heads?" taufiq thought it was hilarious. ahwell but her reaction was priceless though, too bad nazzer didnt catch that.. oh and she gave me a hug. O.o haha!

omggz and nazri's such a man-slut. there were like a million girls going up to him, when i was just next to him. luckily i refrained myself from beating them up.. jealous gar gar! -cracks knuckles..

we did chinese calligraphy for assembly yst tho as part of racial harmony week.. the china woman was pretty nervous and we tried to be encouraging.. however, after drawing the mandatory word a few times, everyone started painting random words in various languages (racial harmony ftw!) and i specialized in jawi/arabic text.. i wrote "siti hasyimah sayang nazri" in arabic on one sheet but i didnt get to show it to him yst.. ): then the class lovebirds were being mush-freaks (haha what's new..) so they gave me a chinese word for 'love' to draw.. exciting!

lol otherwise uneventful week la.. unless you count the two slices of yummy oishi pizza i had for lunch today, which i bought for 1buck each from their booth for racial harmony week.. yup exciting..

omg wait i almost forgot. my youngest sister fell down the stairs in school on tuesday.. that skinny bugger somehow got a huge baluku at her ankle and got her foot bandaged and is walking about with crutches zomg! JEALOUS! i always wanted crutches of my own.. D:

hmm post-nats team dinner was sposed to be tmr, but got postponed to next friday.. in order to force deb to wear a dress, all the girls have to wear dresses too.. -.- i thought compulsory skirt-wearing last year was bad enough.. =/ anyone my size with a dress to lend?

origins of cold war full essay to finish by tues, gp essay to finish by monday.. i hate writing..

gonna do maths now. (ohh yes, LIMBAY THINKS IM DISCIPLINED HAHA!)

olivejuice//

comfortable

i've been a very emo-angsty child lately..
terrible!

new specs look the same as my previous one apparently cos noone seems to notice it.. =/

i've decided to settle for sony ericsson w760i despite having been adamant bout getting a motorolla razr 2v9. function over looks, yes. ): ahwell hopefully the offer's still on..

i dont think i mug very well with ppl.. but i can only meet nazzer once a week, and our time should be best spent mugging. then howww? D:

3yrs plus together and i think we've grown very comfortable with each other..
that's not a bad thing ryt?

lol i still do love you very much though.. MUST TAKE MORE PICTURES KAY!

i fear dying, and the death of loved ones and the ppl around me.

i think i'd be devastated even if certain unmentionable 'quirky' people committed suicide.. wouldnt everyone be?? O.o

i've been eating much too much ack

olivejuice// yesh you.

peekchers

NATS

College flag on a paddle.
my reason to row: Raffles Row, yo!


k4 last burst. my stroke's completely off ugh


mary's heart-thumping gut-wrenching last burst,
that wasnt enough.


but finishing a race still felt good.. (unglam hoho)


but this felt better.. (:

(there's a picture of me cyring at the pontoon, but that's a tad bit embarrassing to put up, no? ack..)


our second bronze

POST-NATS parteh-ing


all 14 of us.. =D


JR buddy!


bim being retarded (=


MacNTM! (i look spaz, but check out prav manz! scary lol!)


i look teh retarded gar.. michelle's perfected her dao look but
meera was still smiling!


sluts~! (meera's practically straddling the tree!)
prav is da bomb wooh..



team '08!


cant find any pictures of the j1-j2 handover procession thing!

and of course,
Pretty pretty Macs





cant believe it's over.

i can feel myself growin fat fat fat!

olivejuice//

emo post

yupp i've finally decided to blog bout non-race-ish nats and post-nats.

firstly, i have to say that i lovelovelove teammates and sleeping/zen-ing in the tent prior to races is really quite fun.. i rmb getting scolded by deb/ge for talking too much before our k4 races cos we're sposed to focus.

okay woops maybe i should've blogged earlier cos my memory's getting quite fuzzy already.. =/

oh but i do rmb clearly, before my semis, when gaby and i were the last to race on thursday(my race was at 3.20) and so it was just the two of us in the tent. and we'd try to sleep but im pretty sure gaby was rather nervous bout her race too. then we'd sit up near the opening and watch the races, and i told gaby that i didnt know if i can get t1 gold, and she said "dont worry, you can do it". or something like that. and she let me read her notebook of inspirational quotes, which she compiled herself. i liked most of em, but i especially liked this one:

"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It is an option. Impossible is not a declaration. It is a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing."
– Adidas advertisement

yup, and yeah i must must say tt im extremely proud of gaby, eventhough she didnt make it to semis cos her fighting spirit is really imba. and she lent me her notebook that night for my finals, and it really did help me alot. (:

the last day of nats was pretty emo. my race was last and i was quite bummed by the outcome. i went a little nuts, convincing myself that it really was all good, and i had the konyaku jelly drink thing that jiaqi bought for me, which i suspect had been spiked. half of the girls were calculating the possible scores of all the girls' teams outside of the tent, while the rest of us were having some mass orgy in the tent. =/

anw it was a veryy emo tent. everyone was kinda lost in their own worlds, and i cried again bout missing 3rd by abit. sore loser hoho.. then i left the tent cos the atmosphere was too disturbingly emo and convinced jiaqi to visit the toilet with me. we got stalled by jp who told us to cheer for sji. so we did, and it was very odd haha!

award presentation. training right after nationals is crazy. and training when the award ceremony is ongoing is rude. and i think i'd happily settle for 4th if it means being able to celebrate it with teammates.. *random.

rafflesrow is a total camwhore team. nats debrief by the capts of 2007 & 2008 was good.. i should stop laughing at eugene's inspirational moments.. jarius's speech was so sincere and we all think he's very sweet aww..

then we did that 'ceremonial hand-over' thing where the entire j2 team stands in one line and the j1s form a line too and they go down the row to shake hands/hug/convey well-wishes to the j2s. we did it last year too, and i rmb the j2 guys mostly telling me how huge my arms were.. ): this year, alot of the j1 guys and girls were telling me how my race was inspiring.. lol i never thought of myself as inspiring, so it was pretty shocking haha..

zomg then michelle tried to piggyback selene up monkey hill and it was quite failure.. michelle fell flat on her front, (ouchouchouch) and selene rolled over and skinned her knee. so i piggybacked her all the way to the toilet to get it cleaned. (im an ambulance just like mary yay!)

Macritchie's Next Top Model(MacNTM) was LOL! smouldering looks and sexy poses and canoeing do not equate nopenope.. but meera and prav think their poses are da bomb so hahah okeh. =D

then ge and i went to py's hse to shower before team dinner. ge says it's the best way to end nats and i agree.. pltnmates forever! love!

then we were late for dinner at bugis. seoul garden was spammed with crescent canoeists so we ate at Happy Pay Steamboat lol.. it wasnt halal, non-vegetarian plus py was having rashes so she had to stay away from seafood, so py, meera and i had our own food spree! (2 sausages, 1 prata sausage and rootbeer float for me) and guilt-free rootbeer float is loveee! omg and we were so super sleepy and high and we were mad. then we had to fetch jiaqi, who was late cos she was having soup at home, (O.o) and we went for our food adventure. py and i kept making fun of the way meera ran and likened her to a rhino. and they didnt have clam chowder at lj so i bought thai coconut, which meera agrees is heavenly!

we were still mad as we walked back to Happy Pay steamboat and my shirt said "TEAM AFFLES" cos py thoughtfully covered the R and meera was showing off her flathead cos she could balance the bottle on her head. then py was still calling her a rhino so she got depressed and sat by the side of the road and looked like a drunkard with a 1.5l ice lemon tea bottle. and she tried to convince us that it was very comfortable there but we didnt believe her.

we were still mad when we reached the steamboat place as we recounted to the totally happening table,(which got even more happening after we left) our exciting food adventure.. yup then i felt drained and sat limply at the table and kennedy asked if i was okay, which i was somewhat. then daddy fetched me at 10.30.

exciting.

hmm im not too good with words, so i shant bother summing up the entire nats experience.. i think deb captured it pretty well in her lj yupp.. ahwell basically, i think we've trained hard and fought hard.. we rowed with no regrets and we should be proud of ourselves and what we've become, and i love my teammates very much. though im glad to not have to suffer anymore 2k timings or monkey hills etc, i'd still miss macritchie and training together with the 13 other girls. canoeing gave my jc life a purpose, and the experience and priviledge of being in the team is something i would treasure for a long time to come..

RafflesRow ftw

nazzer sweetheart darling got me a red remote-controlled car yay! he was sposed to get me a big bigg box of chocolates for missing All my races but he got me something better instead.. (: REMOTECONTROLLED CARS PWNZ CHOCOLATES wooh! the guys want a boyfriend too cos they want rc cars haha! they think im lucky.. haha~!

oh the car's very durable. it's got only two cracks on the hood so far, after all it's been through.. lol and i've decided to name it Mary! =))

aight enough time-wasting, im off to the library now to do summore maths..

olivejuice//

row with no regrets

watching the video of my races makes me wanna vomit,seriously.. it's like, you can hear all the ppl screaming on shore in the video and you're willing the tiny you in the screen to go faster too. but omg the tiny me was still moving so sloww!

then i feel myself back in mary. back in lane1, rowing that 500m that initially felt too long, but suddenly so very short. suddenly nothing else matters, other than to row to the last buoy, to/for the people who were on shore, screaming and cheering for me. i could hear them, i could feel them. i got a surge of energy somewhere after 200m but i guess it didnt help all that much. fourth still. god i really really wanted t1 gold..

and then there's k4. watching our video, i have to admit that it wasnt one of our better 1000s.. totally out of sync. directioning was kinda whacked. and personally, i was freaking tired from 500m already. and i guess that made every stroke abit less effective. no more hard pulls. slower recovery. argh but whyy! why did our most important (not to mention final) 1000m have to be one of our shittiest? it's so awful to think that all our hard work only amounted to a 3rd placing.

and as always, jiaolian's right. we got overall 4th.

so yeah, i honestly cant say that i rowed with no regrets..

but then again, i cant say just how much more effort i could've put in tho. cos i really did give it my all, at that point of time. which is even more depressing cos my best still isnt good enough garrr! -faints and dies from disappointment. D:

i must say tho, that my row for t1 finals was the row that i was waiting for. i was very lucky to get through from heats, to semis and to finals. my heats was awful cos my first few strokes hardly caught any water, and i got so excited for the first 300m that my pace was totally off and i died for last 200m. came in first, but still.

and semis, HAHAHA. to explain the predicament i was in, i shall quote greg's note to me yst, "haha i heard you were crying while rowing cos of the wind yesterday! that's funny hahaha" yes, i got effing owned by the wind omgg.. and it's super not funny! the wind made my directioning damn screwed up, and having to tilt so much just to stay in my lane was physically draining, and i was barely moving and i got so scared.. but wth, it's not like i've never rowed with wind before seh. &%*@^#(!!!

ah right enough bout the races, it's not like the past can be undone..

i shall instead now thank everyone who supported me yayy! uh i shall dedicate one whole entry to teammates later cos there's really just too much to say.. so for now, i must thank Liyana, Farina, Melz, Fungs, Taufiq and Nigel! haha fine so nigel came for chinks & kennedy and fungs came for brian but yeah. my "legions of supporters", as jiaqi calls em. you guys have nooo idea how much you being there meant to me, seriously.. lovelove! ah but the silly cheap thrill idiots very randomly carried me off the ground, to a height that i was not accustomed to. and afterwards had no idea where they intended to carry me. -.-

ohyeah teammates also decided that carrying me around must be very fun so i got carried again, after finals, from the pontoon to shore. gahh not like im very light like that rightt! =(

omg and daddy dearest! i cant believe he came for both my races, and very excitedly took videos of me and my "legions of supporters" and he sent me a super cute/sweet sms after my race, which was really very awww.. :) lol eventhough i had to row in a shirt and not my jersey cos i didnt want him to see me in one. (he must've been so proud to see his conservative malay daughter row among a bunch of skanks in skimpy jerseys and fbts.. haha!)

and i realized that my dad has turned up for pretty much all of the important events in my life. okay i can only rmb from sec3 onwards, cos i think that's also when all the excitement began, but yeah. sec3 malay drama, though mom said that she didnt see a need to go, dad actually came over to rg on drama night but YAR I DIDNT KNOW HE WANTED TO COME! so he didnt have a ticket, plus he came late so he didnt know where the heck everyone was. (i really really feel damn bad bout this) but ahwell im touched by the simple fact that he came manz.. sec3 OM skit day at acsi, he came! oh wait, dad also came for either sec2 or sec3 passing out parade for ncc annual camp, with the family yup. and they also came for last year's rj malay drama haha! and yst gosh, that really was da bomb. he wore running shoes with his tailored pants cos he figured it'd be muddy hahahaha.. =D yeah but basically, he's really been there for me, and i love him veryvery much.. (awwwww)

hmm okay, remind me to blog bout teammates(LOVE!!) and post-nats parteh-ing next time kays. okay it just started to sink in that there wont be anymore canoeing for us, ever. ah and it's a saturday morning, but im not at macritchie rowing in bloody mary. i'd usually still be asleep at this time on free days but GACK my internal canoe trg clock! SO DEPRESSING! D:

i shall proceed to mope around now. ):

olivejuice//

pressure

tommorow i will row the most important races of my 1.5 years in Raffles Row..

scared, nervous, excited, scared, worried, scared.

god im so jittery inside.

but i've gotten this far. i've worked so hard. i've pushed so much.

just two more races. i have to be brave. i will be brave. i will fight till the end. i will fight for the team. i will fight for Raffles Row.

oh god.

love

okay i cant blog very long cos bern said to sleep nao. so since a picture paints a thousand words, here are a few thousand words that will last the next few days till im free to blog in detail.

ah but firstly, THANKYOU everyone for the presents and wishes and stuff.. LOVEYOOS! =)

double birthday outing!
(melz is gonna kill me for these, but Hey she looks good in em anw!)



amusing photo


liyana doesnt like having her photo taken


i look like big mafia boss :D

Boat cleaning & waxing in the morning!

teammates are lovee~!






i love mary.. (:

aight so tmr the battle begins.
RafflesRow ftw!
godspeed.

olivejuice//

Mary & i

Dear Mary,
eventhough we only got together after nats last year, when i asked joohui if i could have you, and eventhough i initially chose you simply cos you're red, i must say that i have grown very much attached to you.

i still rmb pre-nats 07, when the j3s would complain of how imba your backwash was, and i thought: hell it'd be pretty cool to have a boat that could cause so much destruction..

im sorry i ever tried to rename you, cos now i realize that it's not quite the same calling you Nash, especially with all the history that came along with you. i will always remember the Bloody Mary at your floor, which i'd stare at when i get tired and my vision would get blurry and the words "Oody ary" would keep ringing in my head. (best not question the shagged mind). i will always remember the names of my predecessors scrawled inside you, and all the medals that You have helped them win.

Dear Mary, sitting next to you after trg today truly was wonderful. visualizing my race with you by my side made me feel strong. it made me believe that we do stand a chance in winning that gold for the team. as i stroked the multitude of scratches on your exterior, and the small chips, it was clear that you've contributed so much to the team in your lifetime, and i am so proud to be part of this amazing heritage. and i believe that we can set one more milestone, before they take us out of the game. t1 gold, mary. that's all i want. that's all i need. let's do this together, okay? heck the bloody competition. we'll pwnz them right, mary? I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH YAY!

-end of lovenote to mary-

trg today was pretty good.. macs was super spammed with the usual bunch, plus the visiting schools.. cut pb on mary by 20secs. damn good time to peak yes. k4 today was better too yup.. weighed mary and she's really quite fat.. =/ Mary france bodyline hahaha~!

bern sent out lane draws earlier tonight.. pretty scary competition sigh.. oh btw, my k4 heats is at 12.30 on tues and my t1 heats is at 3.20 on wed! COME COME SUPPPORT! =D

team tried to embarrass me after trg today but i made it out of macs pretty much unscathed phew..

today was our very last training.. -sad.

climbed over busstop gate, showered, prayed then met nazzer at ps. swensens, hancock, long bus ride where i knocked out for 30mins and twitched periodically.. nazzer darling sweetheart gave me a Parker pen engraved with my name aww.. i initially thought it was a pretty random choice for a birthday gift but lol like most of his presents, it grew on me yup.. he was pretty indignant that i failed to see the value of a Parker pen and that was amusing and cute lol.. in any case, thankyou for a wonderful day & i love you haha!

i shall now proceed to spaz over nats for abit then try to zen.. -nods.. ah yes and a quote from nazzer: "oh _______! Yeah she's rather monster... But you are more monster than her, my little spunchkins!"

i cant decide whether i should be flattered or not.. =/

olivejuice//

final week

it's been a very emo week oh dear..

monday: nazzer sent me to sch yay! and i was almost late to sch and had to run to assembly.. ): oh and i got out of Fitness, which i was sposed to go for cos i havent taken my napfa, by telling the teacher that i didnt take napfa cos i was injured but would've otherwise gotten a gold.. and she believed me haha! yup so i got to join the class for inter-class capt ball. where we beat both 30, i think, and 7A.. ah yeah and apparently when a teacher asked "what's the strength of 5A?" bern replied:"Siti" lol! and eugene told me that his class (or was it just the girls?) is afraid of me nao boos..

water trg. jiaolian wasnt ard so we just did mileage.. okay la not bad.. took our indiv vids for the team video tt bern was compiling.. everyone was feeling emo and stuff.. it was pretty late and scf ppl were gone so we went to sit at the edge of the pontoon and talked and admired macritchie and reminisced and watched the sky get darker, until we saw an scf-looking person watching us so we ran-walked and tried to look unsuspicious. then we finally left cos it started to rain pretty heavily..

tuesday: team capt ball. we did dry row at the gym before that, which was pretty lol.. cos we were hard ten-ing excitedly with other members of the rafflesian community looking on so.. =/ yar and the radio was playing some songs and ge kept saying, "dont follow the music!" hoho.. capt ball was VERY exciting. bern lost at scissors-paper-stone and deb said "EH who said the winner must win!" deb is very amusing.. anw we proudly named ourselves the Losers, but we won in the end owells! =D

yup then we went to one of the pe rooms to discuss the upcoming week and pen down some stuffs.. we also got our new jerseys and shirts yay! then we went to the track to camwhore abit.. jiaqi and i did chinese dance woo! haha!

wednesday: water trg. was aching badd. 6k on t1 and 2k on k4. k4 was hell. pain was crazy. and i had a 'moment of weekness' when i got out of the water nyeh.. extended boardwalk run afterwards was boos.. oh i love gatorade powder! =D

thursday: school was lol. i was being very bitchy in the morning.. =/
random entertaining things that happened:
1. slept during break with the boys and laksh and na on the tables, which was surprisingly quite comfortable.. then then na was still sleeping and she was plugged in, (i found out afterwards tt she heard her name being called a few times but thought nothing of it) yar annen pris-the-bored told taufiq to go hide her shoes. so one shoe ended up on top of the projector. the other was moved from on top of the projector-screen thing, to the top of the fan, before finally ending up on top of the front door (which was jeanchow's suggestion). so then jeffrey saw the shoe on top of the projector and was pointing to it in shock and i was telling him to put his finger down when na woke up and silly silly jeffrey had this SUPERshocked expression and promptly scratched his temple. HAHA! then na went vulgar and taufiq ran out to save his ass and na went after him, walking under her shoe (which was on top of the door) and it all looked really funny.. YAY CHEAP THRILL!

yup then the girls decided to make a pact and pon pe together. so we told the pe teacher that we assumed that there wouldnt be anymore aftn pe so we didnt bring our pe stuff, then he said "assume assume. the world is still square.." O.o omg he is so strange.. yar then we were slacking ard and priya and meera sat with us too cos we're excused from aftn pe cos of nats and py was complaining bout having to go for fitness and that they were having an introduction to the gym and was gonna teach them how to do lats pull-down and jump against the wall lol.. nyeh and the 'assume' pe teacher was making fun of canoeists!

water trg: walking out of school to macritchie was quite emotional.. took a picture at the gate lol.. everyone still rmbed this time last year, when the j3s were being emo bout their last after-sch trg.. we took a leisurely stroll to macs, talking and reminiscing again..

was hurting quite abit. back, arms etc. was planning to do lighter sets or not row at all, but im quite glad i did.. rowing despite the pain made me feel quite strong and oddly more confident of rowing next week.. last time rowing under the evening sky made me emo again.. and the atmosphere at macs is getting rather exciting.. =) i wanted to cap so after we finished our sets, i jumped out of Mary, next to the pontoon, but the water was shallow owells..

i gave Mary a kiss and a longg hug at the rj shed. im gonna miss her so much bother..

bern's short speech afterwards called upon some waterworks and it was pretty touching.. then we did some lol-ing visualizations, where all of us won first place cos we're pro like that.. haha!

friday: i finally brought my birthday goody bags to school! yayy! i almost chickened out but lol it was really fun.. gave em to teammates and classmates and farin and melz and yar.. very fun heh..

spent my break helping na sell stuff at the litweek merchandise booth.. i helped sell alot of stuff kay! my hawking totally rocks yes.. special thanks to chinks who bought stickers and gave it to me haha! omgz anw afterwards when na's shift was over, (we beat the guy who was in the shift before us cos we sold more stuff whee!) the j1 girl who took over was being so rude and AP and i got super pissed off.. omg and they reduced the prices by ALOT in just a few hours, which was quite sneaky and ugh.. whatever la at least proceeds go towards a good cause.. =/

the rest of the time before team movie screening was quite a blur.. i had lunch then went up to class myself to sleep for 1.5 hours.. =/ yar then woke up at 3.10 to go pray then head to specs gall to meet the girls.. we watched We are Marshall n one of the pe rooms with the guys' team as well.. pretty good show.. selene and i brought pillows yay! we were all lying around quite comfortably and we realized just how comfy we are with the whole team.. duno la, i guess everything just felt right..

we watched the team video that bern compiled.. made us all quite emo again.. a splotch of water fell on my knee, which was apparently jiaqi's tear lol.. yup then we went to the top of the specs gall, which had lots of memories for us.. first team talk, cranberries, commando pushups etc.. so bern gave another emo speech.. then she gave each one of us super cool personalized badges.. omgz love! more more more tears.. deb kept asking whether there were ants running about her face.. =/

then the girls went for dinner and i had to go home..

okay i've summed up the weekday week. the next few days might be quite exciting.. celebrating 060708 with nazzer tmr. with family on sunday (youth day ftw!) and monday with the FariNa and melz.. and then finally nats '08 begins on tuesday..

Be strong, be brave. Have faith. i will fight to the last buoy no matter what, i promise.

olivejuice//

can you hear me?

IM SLEEPY!

but im waiting for mom to be done frying chicken so that i can have a bite before i sleep.. i dont eat that much really.. =/

4k on t1 and 6k on k4. back's better but upper arms hurt. whatever la some pain's gonna be present at any time somewhere.. -shrugs and rubs arms. hoho team camwhore session was the longest ever- more than one hour zomg! so retarded and fun and extremely exhausting..

uh decided to take creatine till nats cos i felt left out.. >.> nah not really that, but i guess i just figured that i dont wanna have any regrets when all this is done..

gonna miss the girls hell alot. i miss some of em already.. ): ah yeah and our solo shots for the tv thingey in sch was embarrassing lol.. spending every aftn/day for the next two weeks with the girls and i expect it should be pretty fun lol..

cheryl on k1.
prav on t1.
bim & priya on k2.
if you dont get what im driving at, good.
it's a mean thought but yeah sometimes you cant help wishing things were abit different..

-sigh.

loner-ed at woodlands lib for 2.5 hrs gosh.. i like the children's section cos the shelves are shorter than me.. haha! and i fell asleep cos i was so shagged and woke up to find a little boy smiling at me hoho! and he came back a few times later on.. :) had lunch with mom and sis afterwards and bought candy (i love the candy mix thingey from minitoons, which are super super overpriced at 711, and mom thinks im childish!) and bought a new top and super comfy pants for $7.50 and $10 respectively wow! yay sale!! =)

im such a girl. -happy!

olivejuice//woops happy belated 39th! i love you.. (: