obsession

this is extremely unhealthy.. im currently obsessed with clt course.. im coming up with more reasons to go so very often.. and at the same time, i can come up with many many reasons not to go.. result? inner conflict! bah..

why i should go: i have never worn a no1 uniform. i have never won an award(self-fulfillment?). i wanna go for stuffs at a subsidised rate. i wanna go for stuffs while i still can cos when im older, i'll wear tudung which makes it tedious and i'll only just procrastinate it. rg's probably gonna get an attached clt soon and i spose i'd rather it be me then any other dude from some other sch (i dunno if part cs share the same sentiment tho.. =/). it'll be fun...?

why i shouldnt go: i only have 2 years to prepare for As and i must not screw up. clt's not really recognized in rj (i think). i wanna have a sport cca. i kinda forgot all my ncc stuffs. im very much out of shape. the commitment! none of my pltnmates are going. the march/june course might clash with my mid-yrs. the march/june course is esp meant for ite/poly people. im terribly scared of mats. im worried that i'll screw up.

well see! there're more reasons for me Not to go but wth i WANT to go.. i can come up with more reasons for both sides i guess.. so i spose im not gonna come to a conclusion all too soon.. pltnmates arent helping much! cos they keep saying it's up to me.. gar! this is terrible..

in any case..

YAY I LOVE MY PLTNMATES! we went sentosa today.. haah! piah was at the dentist getting tortured like hell, yh had a job, sn woke up late and ge was just late.. so yz,zr and me headed of to palawan beach first. the weather was so terribly hot. changed out. bought stuffs from 711. ge came. we bought a smiley ball(which we lost in the end cos we kinda forgot where we left it.. =/) then then we went into the water.slack around.ate chips. drank super big gulp.played a little soccer(altho it was more like kicking ard the ball and missing), played at a kiddy pool area. sn came with a swollen right foot. played in the water. walked back to the soccer area. played soccer. 2 sajc girls asked if they could play too. they played better than us. they went off to play handball with the rest of the sajc people they came with. pltnmates ended up sitting on the sand and talking bout all sorts of stuffs. i applied a layer of sand to keep myself from being sunburnt and i looked like a hippo/elephant. sn and zr got sunburnt. played in the water. some guy in charge of this super cool play area thing in the water with super cool floats and stuffs told us that we could play for as long as we want for 5bucks since it's monday and a slow day (we intended to go earlier on but it was 5bucks per hour per person.. crazy..). changed out. went to vivo. had desserts at kopitiam. py came with her filled teeth. went to 711 for zr's batts. went back home by mrt.

summarized version of my day yes! O.o

my brain is still in turmoil. my emotions are screwed. an obsession is depressing. i guess that's why i dont have an interest at all. it's so much easier.. altho i spose having an interesting in somebodyy doesnt count.. =/ owells

COME BACK FROM CLT COURSE SOON, YOU!

olivejuice//