and the cogs turn

exhausted. got home at 8+ just now. school passed pretty fast.ohh. and pe. gosh. i shrunk another 1/2cm and my weight is like omigawdd. haha! i think i should be overweight.. O.o gosh..

anw after school went hq with pltnmates -ge&jy. and our keen sec 1s. 7 of them.
i duno.i really shouldve taken partbs i guess. i mean.. my expectations and stuffs. pltnmates kinda agree too. as in.. i was kinda annoyed. yeh. and i was like asking pltnmates whether we should tell them of rgsncc traditions and stuff. abc rules. honesty, often than not, is the best policy. well yeah. i didnt quite agree..

yeah anw. the ncc open house was ookay. saw familiar dudes. like the canberra ncc dudette from obs. yeah.. then it rained. so we departed earlier at 4+. pltnmates all moved off from hq. only me and the sec1s went back on the bus with sir.

oh. and sir said that the commandant is coming to our school next thurs. ignorant me was like "that's interesting.." then sir said that the principal would be attending the address too. and that woman-who-banned-coke-in-rgs. yeah. then i knew what was coming la. was very.. sad.

so i was listening to my mp3 in the bus and stoning. thinking about rgsncc. then one of the sec1s popped beside me and asked The qsn. "what's so special about rgsncc land?" well. i told her the truth. my honest-est opinion. well she was abit shocked when i admitted that it was rather tough at first. but i told her about the bond. everything. what made rgsncc 'Not just another company'.

reached sch at 5. went to ncc room. took out homework to do. was too preoccupied to study. ended up staring around the room. taking in the reality that "hey, im sec4 now. this is where all the past generations of sec4s have spent their idle time doing rgsncc stuffs.."

then i got to thinking about the company. then i realized that no matter how bummed i was about not being a staff, i cant push away the fact that rgsncc is a huge part of me. it wasnt about ranks and lanyards. it was about keeping the rgsncc legacy burning. to let it shine as bright as before. the glory days.

the school and everyone else are stripping us of our traditions, our rules, our identity. until they finally can pull us down to the standard they deem suitable. or better still. close us down. who needs rgsncc LAND? theyre just a bunch of growling girls who torture their jnrs. sure.

they say we're crazy
what do they know?
put your hands in my hands, baby
dont ever let go.
let the world around us
just fall apart
baby we can make it if we're
heart to heart.

and the company song lyrics were scrawled on the ncc room door. so very appropriate. sang along to it. and the other company songs. and in a fit of emo-ness. i imagined ex sec4s in the room. them with their pltnmates. enjoying their priviledge. a priviledge we willingly granted. they deserved it. i wonder if rgsncc part ds `06 deserve this priviledge too. can we bring the company to greater heights?

so anw. was exhausted. took in my surrounding again. ex sec 4s have all left their mark somewhere in the room. the pinned photos. happy smiling company.. and the ever creepy lion dance heads at the corner. then i fell asleep. felt very much happier..

woke up at 5.50 for special o meeting at 6pm. yup..

yay for Gardenia & Newater!

aight. that's all.

olivejuice muchly, darling. miss you verily much..