just read 1sg jiahui's blog entry bout our disappointing performance at campfeast.. gosh. so long ago.. i rmb feeling so awful and wanted so badly to undo whatshit ive done. god the mistakes i made was so.. garr-ing..
when we were cadets, when ncos scolded and screamed at us, we'd feel scared and sad for disappointing ourselves and ncos. we'd say "yes we must improve for our ncos!" O.o and now as an nco, i see my partas making mistakes, im disappointed only in myself cos i couldnt be a better nco. i didnt teach them the right stuffs. i wasnt forceful enough and that's why our partas started off pretty bad. it really does hurt to scold your part. the only part you'll ever have in your four years. and theyre only partas! theyre my babies. Us parta ncos have taken them in under our care as lost little pratas. 20 individuals brought together to form rgsncclandpartas`06. theyre a pltn now and theyre only at the start of a looong journey.. while pltnmates and i are ending ours in just 2 weeks..
gosh how time flies.
wotay! inter-ug day yst was bahded. i had my eng speech to write after sch and so i joined in later. ug day was basically just games and concert. O.o yeah.. me, ge and sn were in charge of the caterpillar station. and meh.. the people were so disorganized that i had a hugee urge to yell at them to fall in or something. mehs..
anw. concert was okay i spose.. haha gb sec 3s play was so super amusing.. ncc people eat all the time apparently.. hmm.. haha! and and the dbsk dance was so uber cool! yes yes. i wanna dance like them too. -nods! hahaha!
our performance wasnt tooo bad. we only got our roles and script like that morning itself. gosh scary.. i memorized my lines woo~! anw, was quite good overall i spose.. we won 3rd anw. haha! yay for last min work! we seem to be more efficient that way eh pltnmates? lala..
ohh yes. i was so super pissed. -nods! cos i wasted 4 bloody days of my hols making trophies. yes trophies which were, if not nice, then extremely time consuming. i specifically had 4 miscellaneous titles with trophies that i thought represented them quite well. but the judges decided that "ooh! let's create new titles!" or whatnots. most educational? most melodious? bloody screwballs..
and god i was right to assume that they'd dump the stuffs just like that. i currently have 3 abandoned trophies.. haah! one of which i brought home for memories sake. ahwell.. and i thought i was fine already until i picked up another trophy. pltnmates were talking to the company gathered at the amphitheatre. so i just joined in and ge asked what i was holding/doing. =/ so i told her i was picking up trash.. then i got sad again and tried hiding behind ge and cried. haha! it's not so much because they didnt like it. but that they didnt appreciate my effort enough to at least hold on to the trophy sometime before, if they must, throw it somewhere where i wont see it. but nooo.. hurtful people.. haha!
aight aight. sposed to do ss article review outline. needed to vent. done that so yeah.. YAY SS! O.o
-hugs tight. olivejuice..
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