i really really hate chem. gahh. had formative test during 2nd block. i very surely failed. i studied okayy, i just dont get it. duno howta apply the concepts and stuffs. and as lingxi once said, "siti, you need stress management" wow. yeah, halfway through i was panicking cos i cuoldnt do the qsns and kept moving on to the next which i couldnt answer either, until my mind blacnked out and i coulnt rmb any of the formula. yupp. effing screwed.

was studying for mad exams today. its strange why so many people ask me what i was reading. its not any stranger than some other dude reading the bible. ahwell. odd.

was sposed to do compre during english. did mine a long time ago so i just slept.. -.- feeling really stoned. i have no idea what im doing here. as in, in school. and not any school either. well, it doesnt help very much that everyone else is just so freaking smart. breeze through the damning chem test. some dudes are nice. teach me when i ask for help. or some offer their help without me asking (which also shows how obviously screwed i am) but the most aggravating ones are those who look at you as if youre just some incompetent fool. funny tho. many would think rg has lotsa snobs. but the last buncha people are only the minority here. stereotypes and whatnots..

ahwell. free block now. philo. really should be studying. hohum. its annoying how school can cause much despair in students and yet not be of ultimate importance in the end. hahas. to spout one of the most cliched questions- how will it end? aightt. `bangg.